Depression, anxiety & anger _{Page 5 of 6}

One thing good about the ambra g - I just realized in the past 4 days, I have been more assertive in situations I would ordinarily have said nothing - and I didn't explode, I just stated how I felt assertively.
And in the past week or so have noticed alot of hot flashes and I usually get this a few days b4 my period and its not that time - don't know if the 2 are related or not...

I was going to tell u today - that I think I should wait, because I am feeling better - not so depressed now & the assertiveness piece is pretty profound for me - I hope that stays.

Have been doing much better as far as depression goes. However, that feeling of hurry up hurry - hurry to take care of the dog, hurry to do this - has returned as well as my intense reactions to situations at home and work. My face is breaking out again - this started as soon as I took ambra g. I wanted to wait to see if this improved because I had also started new skin care regimen. It has not gotten better. I still have the sensation of lump in my throat ever since I was ill with strep throat. My sugar cravings also remain. Maybe thats why my face is so bad because I have been eating so much chocolate. I have been having weird dreams lately about conflicts with family members and dream that a big storm is coming. This could be related to my father-in-law recently being diagnosed with terminal cancer and all the emotions that go with that. I get very tired at 3:00 in the afternoon. If I make myself keep going until after dinner, then when its time to relax I do not feel tired when a few hours b4 I was exhausted. I think I am having a mid-life crisis so to speak. Worried about how I look, how I dress, worried about health when I never used to be. I think that is all.

I do still have quite a bit of sadness you might say about my home. I take alot of pride in my home and I want to have it completed and decorated and I don't think I ever will due to my husband the great procrastinator and the fact that evenings and weekends are spent running kids around to sports etc. This really saddens me. Feel like I live in a dump - holes in the wall that haven't been repaired, etc. We remodeled our kitchen 3 years ago and some things from that project are still not complete. It would be fair to say I have a fair amount of anger about that situation as well. OK, now I think that's all.

I seem to be feeling cold alot more and have had difficulty getting myself to do domestic things like laundry, cleaning, etc. because I just don't care anymore.

OMG - are you trying to kill me? I wouldn't make it one day without coffee. I am really trying to cut out the sugar/chocolate.

Sameer, do you have more information on the remedies? I do trust your suggestions, was just curious as the magnesium as described on this website doesn't seem like it fits me - I trust that you have alot more knowledge about the remedies than I do.

Well, I do not have any friends to lose - I am the loser. And as far as quarrels go - I certainly don't avoid them - that would be my husband. I am just so tired of being angry all the time. I am unhappy in my marriage & I think my husband is also, but we stay because we are all we have - I also have a huge responsibility to the 2 children we have brought into this world. Four years ago we were separated & it did not go well with the kids or with me. I am 44 years old and have been married for 24 years. When you take 'the wife' out of the sentance I had a very big identity crisis. Needless to say, here I am - still unhappy. Thats why I said perhaps I am having my midlife crisis. You get to a point where family members start to die, I realize now there is no such thing as the perfect Christmas and there never will be, children grow up way to fast & you don't get a second chance & I am getting old now - too old to start over again & afraid to be all alone. I feel hopeless & caught.

I do or did have alot of issues with my mother growing up - she never was a 'loving mother' and have only spoken with her a handful of times over the last 20 years. I spent alot of years in therapy, reading self help books & being on medication. I just want it all to go away - I thought I did all the soul searching & group therapy etc that I needed to do but all this anger & depression remains.

I have one more question, is there a certain rule about going to a new remedy vs going back to one that worked in the past? Is it because new things have come up? Just curious.

Sameer, I took the new remedy last week, so I will post observations later in the week. However, I have another question. There was a time period when I was losing alot of my hair. The hair loss itself has slowed, but my hair is so thin. Is there anything I can do to help with regrowth or am I kidding myself? Thanks.

Took the magnesium mur 200c on March 10. It didn't seem to change my disposition at all. In looking back at my notes I still have alot of days that I am still so angry & crabby. I am angry at work all the time & frustrated because of all the lazy people! I am angry with my husband because I feel like I do it all! I am so tired of being angry all the time. I take it out on myself by smoking & overeating. I find time to take care of everyone else including the dog which leaves no time for myself. Then I ultimately end up hating myself because I am so crabby & angry all the time. I have cut way back on my coffee - haven't been able to completely give it up though. I don't seem to be as sad as I used to - so that is good isn't it? I hate to admit it, but I am judgemental of others. I am a hard worker & when others are not like my husband & my lazy coworkers I do not understand & become incredibly frustrated & very angry. Then I get even more upset because I end up doing their work! I feel like the anger is literally killing me! If you have any insight or suggestions where to go from here I would appreciate it. Thanks

I forgot to add the physical symptoms I have been experiencing. Still have the lump in my throat, have had much more trouble with constipation, cravings for fresh fruit, still having some low back pain, and been dreaming alot & not sleeping well. At the end of March I had a bladder infection. I haven't had one for over 20 years!

And late in the afternoon/evening have felt very thirsty.

And the anxiety, & of course the anger/crabbiness all gets very intense about 7-10 days B4 my period.

I usually do not like high neck clothing. I will sometimes wear a scarf around my neck. And I absolutely do not like tight clothing. I really do not even like jewelry on me or it starts to bug me. Yes I am suspicious - not as much as I used to be. I do on occasion change subjects rapidly. I am cruel to others with my tongue - I am critical/judgemental of others. I get jealous of other peoples homes/backyard pools. Yes, I would consider myself an intense & passionate person. WOW! That's kind of amazing... those descriptions fit me to a T.

OK just to clarify - 2 pellets dissolved in spring water & 1 teaspoon 3 times. How much time between doses? Thank you!