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Really, pretty few effects from natrum mur are still holding, I do think I still have a bit higher energy levels than before any of the natrum mur dose, the congestion sensation in the liver is a bit less severe, but dugestive issues overall are mostly back to what they were before the natrum doses. Many of the good effects of natrum mur didn't even hold through the last natrum mur doses, then the calcarea dose put an end to a good deal of the rest of them.
Quercus last decade
Hmm.. okay then time for Arsenicum Album, 3 doses of 6c potency and report in 3 days.
sameervermani last decade
I took the remedy doses on Saturday so it's been three days. By and large there's been a good deal of improvement, better each day. My whole body has been feeling 'lighter', the hurried feeling I've described is mostly gone, there is some improvement in the heart and respiratory symptoms. Stresses of all types seem to be causing fewer physical symptoms. The digestion has been more mixed, the first two days or so there were periods of worse mixed with periods of better, it's been pretty good the last day or so. The only other negatives have been some minor headaches and tiredness, the tiredness however is more of at truly relaxed feeling that goes with it rather than the restless feeling that I often have had. So overall the effect has been good so far, I know the action of it is not finished.
Quercus last decade
Oh my my , such animosity, just because your prescription of a nosode in high potency before knowing the case was undermined :)
There are many cases where I have hit the similimum in first attempt as well... Mr Rishimba, you are banging your head at the wrong place :) Keep trying.. good luck :) There are numerous cases on this website which can expose your knowledge, and I know losing importance is not a nice feeling :)
It might have taken 9 months, but patient here is better off from where we started, and that would not have been the case, had you steamed ahead with one of your treatment plans which would read something like :
'Please take Psorinum 10M , single dose.. and then after one month take Sulphur 10M and if that does not work , please take remedy X in 10M ....If something gives benefit, you can repeat the 10M once a month.. and if something stops giving benefit, you can give 50M'
There are many cases where I have hit the similimum in first attempt as well... Mr Rishimba, you are banging your head at the wrong place :) Keep trying.. good luck :) There are numerous cases on this website which can expose your knowledge, and I know losing importance is not a nice feeling :)
It might have taken 9 months, but patient here is better off from where we started, and that would not have been the case, had you steamed ahead with one of your treatment plans which would read something like :
'Please take Psorinum 10M , single dose.. and then after one month take Sulphur 10M and if that does not work , please take remedy X in 10M ....If something gives benefit, you can repeat the 10M once a month.. and if something stops giving benefit, you can give 50M'
sameervermani last decade
sameervermani last decade
Dr. Richimba, it it's taken a long time it's my fault for reading too much about remedies but not fully being able to understand my own personality. Thank you Dr. Sameer for staying with me for this long, I do realize now that I have many of the characteristics of Arsenicum personality but have tried to suppress them for so long I've even convinced myself I'm not like that, such as complaining about my symptoms alot, I used to be such a complainer as a child but after enough people telling me that nobody wants to be around anyone like that I just hid my obsessiveness from everyone else, and I have had such a conflict between my inner nature and the values that I've come to believe in that I gave misleading mental symptoms at many points.
P.S. I've had further improvements in pretty much every physical symptom with the exception of the minor headaches and tiredness that's still happening, although the tiredness is starting to improve too, and some of the digestive symptoms, something major';s definately changing now as my stools are suddenly much darker in color, while I'm still having digestive pains they're not having the same impact on the rest of me, before I would always feel much worse all over my whole body (and mind) when I had the digestive issues but now I've been having digestive pains at certain times but at the same time feeling good as far as other symptoms go.
Should I have 30c on hand or a different potency for when it's needed?
P.S. I've had further improvements in pretty much every physical symptom with the exception of the minor headaches and tiredness that's still happening, although the tiredness is starting to improve too, and some of the digestive symptoms, something major';s definately changing now as my stools are suddenly much darker in color, while I'm still having digestive pains they're not having the same impact on the rest of me, before I would always feel much worse all over my whole body (and mind) when I had the digestive issues but now I've been having digestive pains at certain times but at the same time feeling good as far as other symptoms go.
Should I have 30c on hand or a different potency for when it's needed?
Quercus last decade
Hi quercus,
Have 12c on hand preferably. If that is not available, have 30c on hand.
You might also remember I had told you about Arsenicum long time back as well, but you had said, that it does not match you at all :)
Good that I again backed my gut feeling and went on to prescribe it.
Sameer
Have 12c on hand preferably. If that is not available, have 30c on hand.
You might also remember I had told you about Arsenicum long time back as well, but you had said, that it does not match you at all :)
Good that I again backed my gut feeling and went on to prescribe it.
Sameer
sameervermani last decade
Now I have a better idea of what the Arsenicum actually has done. I definately am feeling better overall than before the dose, the headaches I described last update have gone away too, the improvements I described before have mostly lasted, although they do seem to be wearing off a bit the last two days or so, however there are certain symptoms that are unchanged or even a bit worse, that the arsenicum doesn't seem to help.
The digestive symptoms overall haven't been affected that much with two exceptions, as I mentioned before the one about some of the non-digestive symptoms that usually occur at the same time are a lot less, and it takes longer after eating for abdominal issues to come on, but when they do they are pretty similar as before, sometimes actually worse but that's because I've overeaten more just because they haven't come on until later, which brings me to my next point, with some periods of exception I've always had a tendency to overeat, if I ever say this to anyone they laugh and say as skinny as I am I should eat as much as I can, but the thing is that when I overeat it greatly exascerbates the digestive problems becuase my system can't handle it. This has been even more of an issue since the Arsenicum dose, I've had some desire to eat most of the time unless I've stuffed myself to the point of being overfull, but especially since the digestive trouble is more delayed and eating calms me down and makes me feel good during the act, it's hard to restrain keeping eating more. I actually get more hungry once starting to eat than before I start, and if I didn't restrain myself could eat two whole plates of food at many meals, then of course I'd feel awful afterward.
Other things that have been troubling me more are sweating and heat with minor exertion (even though respiratory and heart issues haven't been as bad), heat in general, I've been unusually chilly on a few occasions but most of the time I've been hot with a desire for cool fresh air, and the sun aggravation even worse.
My extremities have been falling asleep frequently when lying down on them in certain positions.
My ears are still clogged up from before with my hearing not as good, it's pretty annoying. The arsenicum hasn't helped or aggravated this at all.
I will have the 12c shortly. Keep in mind that the improvements have been better than the drawbacks, but I do wonder, if it is in fact the similimum should it not have at least some effect on all the major symptoms, at least the physical ones at a low potency? And things like being ususually hot much of the time seem weird too. The first natrum mur dose had even more improvement than this but then the later ones didn't and it didn't hold, although it was a much higher potency.
The digestive symptoms overall haven't been affected that much with two exceptions, as I mentioned before the one about some of the non-digestive symptoms that usually occur at the same time are a lot less, and it takes longer after eating for abdominal issues to come on, but when they do they are pretty similar as before, sometimes actually worse but that's because I've overeaten more just because they haven't come on until later, which brings me to my next point, with some periods of exception I've always had a tendency to overeat, if I ever say this to anyone they laugh and say as skinny as I am I should eat as much as I can, but the thing is that when I overeat it greatly exascerbates the digestive problems becuase my system can't handle it. This has been even more of an issue since the Arsenicum dose, I've had some desire to eat most of the time unless I've stuffed myself to the point of being overfull, but especially since the digestive trouble is more delayed and eating calms me down and makes me feel good during the act, it's hard to restrain keeping eating more. I actually get more hungry once starting to eat than before I start, and if I didn't restrain myself could eat two whole plates of food at many meals, then of course I'd feel awful afterward.
Other things that have been troubling me more are sweating and heat with minor exertion (even though respiratory and heart issues haven't been as bad), heat in general, I've been unusually chilly on a few occasions but most of the time I've been hot with a desire for cool fresh air, and the sun aggravation even worse.
My extremities have been falling asleep frequently when lying down on them in certain positions.
My ears are still clogged up from before with my hearing not as good, it's pretty annoying. The arsenicum hasn't helped or aggravated this at all.
I will have the 12c shortly. Keep in mind that the improvements have been better than the drawbacks, but I do wonder, if it is in fact the similimum should it not have at least some effect on all the major symptoms, at least the physical ones at a low potency? And things like being ususually hot much of the time seem weird too. The first natrum mur dose had even more improvement than this but then the later ones didn't and it didn't hold, although it was a much higher potency.
Quercus last decade
I think you will get further benefits as we raise potency.
The difference between similar remedies (which we ofcourse hit) and similimum is the following.
You can stay on similar remedies for 2-3 potencies, but sooner or later, they fail to give further benefit. The chronic simillimum, you can stay on for longer periods like an year or so, and you keep on getting further benefit with each new potency.
I think it is time for the 12c dose.
The difference between similar remedies (which we ofcourse hit) and similimum is the following.
You can stay on similar remedies for 2-3 potencies, but sooner or later, they fail to give further benefit. The chronic simillimum, you can stay on for longer periods like an year or so, and you keep on getting further benefit with each new potency.
I think it is time for the 12c dose.
sameervermani last decade
Quercus last decade
Well it's been four days since taking the 12c dose, and I guess it's still not certain what the ultimate effect will be but I feel worse than before taking it, I had felt better overall this same amount of rime after the last dose. Some improvements are still there from the first dose, but other things have gotten worse, I feel less physically restless but more mentally restless, this started after the first dose but has aggravated now. I've been consistently having more trouble falling asleep because of racing thoughts, waking up less after that but more anxious dreams.
I've also been increasingly sensitive to heat, chilly occasionally too but most other symptoms are better when chilly. My appetite contiues to be excessive with a few exceptions, and my stools have turned very light and loose, the opposite of what happened at first with the first dose. This change actually started to happen a day or two before the second dose but I rhought it just a fluke until it intensified.
My tongue has gotten significantly brighter red on the tip and edges, while still whitish in the middle.
My skin has felt unusually sensitive to touch.
I wonder if, assuming an arsenicum is right, I'm actually Arsenicum Iodatum, becuause I do have many strong Iodine symptoms, heat sensitivity, lots of appetite but unable to gain weight, skin tans quite easy, hurriedness, gums bleed easily, ear troubles, thyroid issues, etc.
I've also been increasingly sensitive to heat, chilly occasionally too but most other symptoms are better when chilly. My appetite contiues to be excessive with a few exceptions, and my stools have turned very light and loose, the opposite of what happened at first with the first dose. This change actually started to happen a day or two before the second dose but I rhought it just a fluke until it intensified.
My tongue has gotten significantly brighter red on the tip and edges, while still whitish in the middle.
My skin has felt unusually sensitive to touch.
I wonder if, assuming an arsenicum is right, I'm actually Arsenicum Iodatum, becuause I do have many strong Iodine symptoms, heat sensitivity, lots of appetite but unable to gain weight, skin tans quite easy, hurriedness, gums bleed easily, ear troubles, thyroid issues, etc.
Quercus last decade
Well it's been four days since the last update, and it's a pretty similar aituation except a bit less extreme, the effect does seem to be wearing off slightly. I'm still feeling worse than before the dose, despite the improvement of certain symptoms, the ones I mentioned before, because others have taken a turn for the worse. This started after the first dose, then got worse a while after but wasn't until after the second dose that they outweighed the positives. I have made a list of current issues to help you in your determination,
-Very large appetite, although still as skinny as ever.
-Mental restlessness, the physical restlessness is a bit less but mental restless definately more, restless dreams, insomnia especially relating to having trouble falling asleep, feels like mind is running on overdrive over nothing big in particular. Little desire to be social, actually I've had less social anxiety when I have been in those situations but I've just had a desire to stick mostly to myself.
-Hands and feet fall asleep easily if in the wrong position.
-Sensitivity to heat, exhaustion easily if it's hot, chilly at times but I feel better otherwise when I'm chilly, and any exertion quickly puts me back in hot mode
-Weakness and pain in muscles and some joints, the heavy feeling is still less but now it's mostly weakness and pain having to do with the weakness, knees, wrists, and lower back are some focal points but also all the muscles in arms and legs to a lesser extent.
-Difficulty concentrating, mind tending to wander, takes a lot of effort to keep focused.
-Forgetful, both actal forgetting and a feeling of something must be forgotten even when it isn;t and re-checking myself.
-Weirg impulses, can keep them under control but still disturbing, has been more since the Arsenicum
-Light colored, loose stools, sometimes with sudden urging, either in the morning on waking or after a meal
-Digestive symptoms better overall, but still the pressing in the liver area, bloating and gas, often recently the symptoms have been the same horse from eating as right after it, there used to be a much greater peak right after eating.
-Red on the tip, sides, and underside of the tongue, more white in the middle
-Skin unusually dark, tans easily
-Skin sensitive to touch, easily irritated also.
-Sweating and heat after minor exertion
-Recurring sensation of throbbing and/or tingling in adam's apple area of throat, often occuring with mental restlessness and keeping me awake
-Clogging of ears, some difficulty hearing
-recurrent itchiness in genital area
-time seems to be moviing very slowly
-A recurring dull pain in jaw and cheekbones
-Eyes sometimes irritated when trying to focus, especially on a computer screen
Aggravated by
-Heat and the sun
-Sweets, apples, mushrooms (many food sensitivities are actually less, but not these)
-Thinking about symptoms
-being hungry
-Indoor air, especially if it's stuffy
-Overeating(physical symptoms)
Ameliorated by
-cool, cloudy, and/or rainy weather
-Morning on waking(restlessness and big appetite)
-Mental symptoms form eating (if not eating too much which causes aggravation even though I'm hungry for it)
-After stool
-Mental occupation (If I can keep concentrating which has been hard)
-Open air (but not in the sun)
-Very large appetite, although still as skinny as ever.
-Mental restlessness, the physical restlessness is a bit less but mental restless definately more, restless dreams, insomnia especially relating to having trouble falling asleep, feels like mind is running on overdrive over nothing big in particular. Little desire to be social, actually I've had less social anxiety when I have been in those situations but I've just had a desire to stick mostly to myself.
-Hands and feet fall asleep easily if in the wrong position.
-Sensitivity to heat, exhaustion easily if it's hot, chilly at times but I feel better otherwise when I'm chilly, and any exertion quickly puts me back in hot mode
-Weakness and pain in muscles and some joints, the heavy feeling is still less but now it's mostly weakness and pain having to do with the weakness, knees, wrists, and lower back are some focal points but also all the muscles in arms and legs to a lesser extent.
-Difficulty concentrating, mind tending to wander, takes a lot of effort to keep focused.
-Forgetful, both actal forgetting and a feeling of something must be forgotten even when it isn;t and re-checking myself.
-Weirg impulses, can keep them under control but still disturbing, has been more since the Arsenicum
-Light colored, loose stools, sometimes with sudden urging, either in the morning on waking or after a meal
-Digestive symptoms better overall, but still the pressing in the liver area, bloating and gas, often recently the symptoms have been the same horse from eating as right after it, there used to be a much greater peak right after eating.
-Red on the tip, sides, and underside of the tongue, more white in the middle
-Skin unusually dark, tans easily
-Skin sensitive to touch, easily irritated also.
-Sweating and heat after minor exertion
-Recurring sensation of throbbing and/or tingling in adam's apple area of throat, often occuring with mental restlessness and keeping me awake
-Clogging of ears, some difficulty hearing
-recurrent itchiness in genital area
-time seems to be moviing very slowly
-A recurring dull pain in jaw and cheekbones
-Eyes sometimes irritated when trying to focus, especially on a computer screen
Aggravated by
-Heat and the sun
-Sweets, apples, mushrooms (many food sensitivities are actually less, but not these)
-Thinking about symptoms
-being hungry
-Indoor air, especially if it's stuffy
-Overeating(physical symptoms)
Ameliorated by
-cool, cloudy, and/or rainy weather
-Morning on waking(restlessness and big appetite)
-Mental symptoms form eating (if not eating too much which causes aggravation even though I'm hungry for it)
-After stool
-Mental occupation (If I can keep concentrating which has been hard)
-Open air (but not in the sun)
Quercus last decade
1)Craving for salt, certain meats (ground beef dishes, sometimes chicken), chocolate, peanut butter, spicy food, sometimes fats
2)-Craving for cold drinks, unless I'm chilly already, cold drinks temporarily ameliorate digestive symptoms.
3)-Averse to most sweets with certain exceptions such as chocolate, anything bitter or the least bit burnt, fish, green vegetables in quantity
4) I do have a strong reaction to thunderstorms, this year it's been even more, although I don't have the outright fear of them, my anxiety level is
significantly worse then, especially right before and at the beginning of the storm.
5)My most common and annoying one is a sensation at the front of my throat around the adam's apple area, it only comes sometimes, but it's like a feeling like something's caught or inflamed in there, with exertion it sometimes can intensify to a feeling of heart beating in that spot.
6)I'm tall (6'4'') average 150 lbs (quite skinny, especially in the arms
7) Foreboding and hearing diffiulties-
I didn;t mention before as a sense of foreboding about the future, which is something I relatively constantly have, and also many of the physicals, including things I didn't mention before such as eye symptoms, floaters in the eyes, I do sometimes get warts on my feet, ear wax accumulation (I never like to put my ears underwater because it will clog them up and I'll have hearing difficulties, I sometimes get them other times too especially in the morning
Dear Sameerji ,
There may be a Phosphorus layer blocking the way .
Regards
Vikas Grover
2)-Craving for cold drinks, unless I'm chilly already, cold drinks temporarily ameliorate digestive symptoms.
3)-Averse to most sweets with certain exceptions such as chocolate, anything bitter or the least bit burnt, fish, green vegetables in quantity
4) I do have a strong reaction to thunderstorms, this year it's been even more, although I don't have the outright fear of them, my anxiety level is
significantly worse then, especially right before and at the beginning of the storm.
5)My most common and annoying one is a sensation at the front of my throat around the adam's apple area, it only comes sometimes, but it's like a feeling like something's caught or inflamed in there, with exertion it sometimes can intensify to a feeling of heart beating in that spot.
6)I'm tall (6'4'') average 150 lbs (quite skinny, especially in the arms
7) Foreboding and hearing diffiulties-
I didn;t mention before as a sense of foreboding about the future, which is something I relatively constantly have, and also many of the physicals, including things I didn't mention before such as eye symptoms, floaters in the eyes, I do sometimes get warts on my feet, ear wax accumulation (I never like to put my ears underwater because it will clog them up and I'll have hearing difficulties, I sometimes get them other times too especially in the morning
Dear Sameerji ,
There may be a Phosphorus layer blocking the way .
Regards
Vikas Grover
vikas_grower last decade
Sammerji ,
One thing i forgot is the excessive hunger, again among other remedies is also a phosphorus .
One thing i forgot is the excessive hunger, again among other remedies is also a phosphorus .
vikas_grower last decade
Most of these symptoms vikas_grower brought up that I listed earlier do still apply, but I just wanted to note that recently I have not had any anxiety reaction to thunderstorms, in fact they as well as rainy weather in general have made me feel better recently.
Also, I didn't mention the heart or respiratory symptoms in my last post, they are better than before the arsenicum doses, specifically in regards to not being aggravated by eating very much anymore, but I do still have weakness of both symptoms.
Also, I didn't mention the heart or respiratory symptoms in my last post, they are better than before the arsenicum doses, specifically in regards to not being aggravated by eating very much anymore, but I do still have weakness of both symptoms.
Quercus last decade
Hi Vikas,
Thanks for the suggestion.
Although the physical symptoms show a Phosphorus bent, I do not quite think the mental state resonates well with the remedy.
Quercus,
Please speak any negative feelings like envy or suspicion if they are present.
What do you mean by 'Skin sensitive to touch, easily irritated also.' , do you get mentally aggravated when someone touches you ? Are you aggravated by slight touch or firm touch ?
This 'pulsating' in throat has been a constant symptom since a long time ?
In general, how irritable are you ?
Sameer
Thanks for the suggestion.
Although the physical symptoms show a Phosphorus bent, I do not quite think the mental state resonates well with the remedy.
Quercus,
Please speak any negative feelings like envy or suspicion if they are present.
What do you mean by 'Skin sensitive to touch, easily irritated also.' , do you get mentally aggravated when someone touches you ? Are you aggravated by slight touch or firm touch ?
This 'pulsating' in throat has been a constant symptom since a long time ?
In general, how irritable are you ?
Sameer
sameervermani last decade
The pulsating in the throat first started in certain situations back when I was like 16 years old, before most of these other symptoms became bad at all. Itonly came occasionally for years, then started being more frequent and intense several years ago, it's gotten better and worse since then, most recently worse after the Arsenicum dose, but to conclude yes, it's been a quite long-term symptom.
It is slight touch that aggravates me, not firm touch. Certain parts of my body are much more sensitive this way, my extremities aren't as sensitive with the exception of my wrists. Certain things can actually irritate my skin from a slight touch, with others it's just a nerve sensation. Despite my skinniness I need to wear loose fit clothes, I've never been able to stand anything touching the front my my neck, that's the worst place for clothes. The back of the neck is no problem. Mental aggravation, yes too.
I am very irritable 'inside', most of the time I don't show it, only if I'm very comfortable in a situation, but it's definately there.
Envy and suspicion, I guess I do have some share of it, like the irritability I don't much express it, I've even referred to by some people as mild-mannered, which is totally opposite from the way I feel but I can understand why they think that based on how I present myself to them. I'd say it's anger more than envy though that's my issue. As for suspicion, I am a bit paranoid in some situations.
It is slight touch that aggravates me, not firm touch. Certain parts of my body are much more sensitive this way, my extremities aren't as sensitive with the exception of my wrists. Certain things can actually irritate my skin from a slight touch, with others it's just a nerve sensation. Despite my skinniness I need to wear loose fit clothes, I've never been able to stand anything touching the front my my neck, that's the worst place for clothes. The back of the neck is no problem. Mental aggravation, yes too.
I am very irritable 'inside', most of the time I don't show it, only if I'm very comfortable in a situation, but it's definately there.
Envy and suspicion, I guess I do have some share of it, like the irritability I don't much express it, I've even referred to by some people as mild-mannered, which is totally opposite from the way I feel but I can understand why they think that based on how I present myself to them. I'd say it's anger more than envy though that's my issue. As for suspicion, I am a bit paranoid in some situations.
Quercus last decade
I just realized I misrepresented things a little about touch in the last post when I said it was only slight touch, not firm touch that aggravated, that's mostly true bit as I described with clothes, any touch on the front of my neck, light or firm will aggravate. On most other areas it's only slight touch.
Quercus last decade
Okay then, I have picked the remedy.
Please take 3 doses of LACHESIS 30c, where each dose is 1 teaspoon from a bottle of spring water, where 1 pellet of Lach 30 has been dissolved.
Report in 1 week.
Please take 3 doses of LACHESIS 30c, where each dose is 1 teaspoon from a bottle of spring water, where 1 pellet of Lach 30 has been dissolved.
Report in 1 week.
sameervermani last decade
Well, it's been a week since I took the Lachesis doses, and it's been mixed both on the physical and mental fronts. Most of the symptoms that were aggravated by the arsenicum have improved, such as heat aggravation and the mental restlessness have calmed down. My tongue looks more normal again too.
However my social anxiety is worse again, so are many of the digestive symptoms. My lower back and legs have been worse again, soreness, weakness especially of knees, coldness of knees and feet, and tingling in feet. My shoulders have also been very stiff. The throat feelings are better at some times but worse particularly after eating, the same is true of the heart and respiratory, better than before when I haven't eaten in a while, worse than before after eating. Despite all the aggravations after eating I still have a large appetite. I've also been having frequent urination, which has been a pretty much lifelong symptom although the natrum mur relieved it for a while.
I'm not sure if the remedy's action is quite finished yet, if you think it's time for another one I will draw up another list if you's like, although it would be pretty similar to the last one with the changes I just mentioned above. I do want to mention a few mental aspects however.
I don't have mush of a fear of snakes, I do live in copperhead and rattlesnake country so have some but I know plenty of people with much worse than me, and other fears such as heights are definately worse for me.
One thing I've noticed more of since the remedy is dwelling on past events, mostly social situations I've screwed up or when people have gotten upset with me. Having those things is one of the reasons I was so sure of natrum mur before, and it did relieve those things just not completely. I guess as I've described before I'm irritable and have anger inside but many people percieve me to be the opposite because I can't stand up for myself against someone who I perceive as threatening in any way even just they have a bit of a temper. I do sometimes get annoyed and even a bit rude to certain people if I know I'm in a safe position and they're not going to get too upset. However I have gotten comments such as 'you're one of the nicest people I know', meant as a compliment but to me just makes me frustrated as in I think I'm living a lie, and even so I can't get beyond a superficial level of friendship. I like my freedom, but often as soon as people, especially ones with a dominating attitude ask me to do anything I quickly say yes, then later when I'm by myself get real mad at myself for not standing up for myself, go over the situation and what I should have said many times, but when a similar situation comes up again I still don't stand up for myself because if anybody's upset at me, particularly if I know I'm going to have to keep dealing with that person, I get shaky inside and have aggravation of all symptoms, and have toms of anxiety about dealing with that person for a while. The last time I had someone get super mad at me, I mean screaming and everything, it was over a year ago considering I avoid getting into these situations, I did try to stand up for myself a little once it was really blown up already, but really couldn't thikn of much to say, later that day when I was by myself I was so distraught I actually threw pillows at the wall to try to relieve tension, I slept horribly for several nights too. So I guess much of the social anxiety I get comes from the severe aggravations that come if someone's upset with me. I feel like it's really my mot being able to stand up for myself that causes it, if I could then I think it wouldn't have the physical and mental repercussions.
However my social anxiety is worse again, so are many of the digestive symptoms. My lower back and legs have been worse again, soreness, weakness especially of knees, coldness of knees and feet, and tingling in feet. My shoulders have also been very stiff. The throat feelings are better at some times but worse particularly after eating, the same is true of the heart and respiratory, better than before when I haven't eaten in a while, worse than before after eating. Despite all the aggravations after eating I still have a large appetite. I've also been having frequent urination, which has been a pretty much lifelong symptom although the natrum mur relieved it for a while.
I'm not sure if the remedy's action is quite finished yet, if you think it's time for another one I will draw up another list if you's like, although it would be pretty similar to the last one with the changes I just mentioned above. I do want to mention a few mental aspects however.
I don't have mush of a fear of snakes, I do live in copperhead and rattlesnake country so have some but I know plenty of people with much worse than me, and other fears such as heights are definately worse for me.
One thing I've noticed more of since the remedy is dwelling on past events, mostly social situations I've screwed up or when people have gotten upset with me. Having those things is one of the reasons I was so sure of natrum mur before, and it did relieve those things just not completely. I guess as I've described before I'm irritable and have anger inside but many people percieve me to be the opposite because I can't stand up for myself against someone who I perceive as threatening in any way even just they have a bit of a temper. I do sometimes get annoyed and even a bit rude to certain people if I know I'm in a safe position and they're not going to get too upset. However I have gotten comments such as 'you're one of the nicest people I know', meant as a compliment but to me just makes me frustrated as in I think I'm living a lie, and even so I can't get beyond a superficial level of friendship. I like my freedom, but often as soon as people, especially ones with a dominating attitude ask me to do anything I quickly say yes, then later when I'm by myself get real mad at myself for not standing up for myself, go over the situation and what I should have said many times, but when a similar situation comes up again I still don't stand up for myself because if anybody's upset at me, particularly if I know I'm going to have to keep dealing with that person, I get shaky inside and have aggravation of all symptoms, and have toms of anxiety about dealing with that person for a while. The last time I had someone get super mad at me, I mean screaming and everything, it was over a year ago considering I avoid getting into these situations, I did try to stand up for myself a little once it was really blown up already, but really couldn't thikn of much to say, later that day when I was by myself I was so distraught I actually threw pillows at the wall to try to relieve tension, I slept horribly for several nights too. So I guess much of the social anxiety I get comes from the severe aggravations that come if someone's upset with me. I feel like it's really my mot being able to stand up for myself that causes it, if I could then I think it wouldn't have the physical and mental repercussions.
Quercus last decade
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