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Hi, I am hoping someone can help me figure this out!! I have had fatigue for about three years now, with other symptoms. My ND has had me taking Lycopodium for about 7 mos. now. At first it really helped, I saw a difference literally overnight. Now, I seem to be going back and forth. Having good and bad days again. So she recently had me diluting it in water (two to three pills of 6C strength). That seemed to really ehlp. i felt stronger and more able to handle things like various foods, etc. I did this for about a week. Then I tried a machine called the Asyra with another doctor and it suggested kali phosphoricum which i also have symptoms for. I tried that for a few days (it also had things in it to drain me of toxins I was exposed to) and I felt horrible and disoriented. After three days I quit and went back to doing just the Lycopodium. But I'm still not feeling well. I also just read that you should avoid mint with homeopathy. She never told me this so I've been using peppermint toothpaste all along which may be the reason for the spotty results? Any advice is greatly appreciated. Thank you![message edited by candra on Tue, 23 Dec 2014 19:38:04 GMT]
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candra on 2014-12-23
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Hi- having a machine diagnose you is not going to
give you correct results.
Someone has to take your case based on mental, physical,
emotional, what makes things better and worse and
prescribe on your totality of symptoms.
Bc when the remedy is a good match for your totality,
your body won't allow it bc the body will not allow
2 similar states.
The body reacts by boosting your life force to clear
imbalance and usually follow a direction homeopaths
look for to see if this is the right remedy, doses, potency.
You can google Herings Law of Cure.
It is probably not likely that the mint toothpaste did anything, but I would switch to another kind.
Were you taking Lycopodium every day for 7 months? How long were you taking the
6c for?
There is not enough info to give you a second opinion on here. But you could post a new
thread, and ask someone to go over your case. You could give some basic answers to
a form- http://www.abchomeopathy.com/forum2.php/188925 and you will be
asked more questions depending on who is looking at your case.
Regards,
Simone
give you correct results.
Someone has to take your case based on mental, physical,
emotional, what makes things better and worse and
prescribe on your totality of symptoms.
Bc when the remedy is a good match for your totality,
your body won't allow it bc the body will not allow
2 similar states.
The body reacts by boosting your life force to clear
imbalance and usually follow a direction homeopaths
look for to see if this is the right remedy, doses, potency.
You can google Herings Law of Cure.
It is probably not likely that the mint toothpaste did anything, but I would switch to another kind.
Were you taking Lycopodium every day for 7 months? How long were you taking the
6c for?
There is not enough info to give you a second opinion on here. But you could post a new
thread, and ask someone to go over your case. You could give some basic answers to
a form- http://www.abchomeopathy.com/forum2.php/188925 and you will be
asked more questions depending on who is looking at your case.
Regards,
Simone
♡ simone717 9 years ago
I can post my questionnaire if you would like my advice as to a remedy that might be better suited.
I completely agree with Simone - those machines are a sham, and nobody is ever cured using them. There are a few shams involving the use of our medicines unfortunately.
It is quite likely that Lycopodium is not your appropriate remedy at this time. The remedy a patient needs will change over time, often in response to the previous remedy given. The practitioner has to be able to change prescriptions on the basis of what the patient presents with (our most basic law, the law of similars - symptoms lead to the cure).
I completely agree with Simone - those machines are a sham, and nobody is ever cured using them. There are a few shams involving the use of our medicines unfortunately.
It is quite likely that Lycopodium is not your appropriate remedy at this time. The remedy a patient needs will change over time, often in response to the previous remedy given. The practitioner has to be able to change prescriptions on the basis of what the patient presents with (our most basic law, the law of similars - symptoms lead to the cure).
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Thank you both for the answers. I have been taking the Lycopodium 6c twice a day for 6-7 months. i believed the machine because it accurately told the exact toxins (pesticides and aspergillus mold) I was exposed to. It also was accurate on my food sensitivities. I did go to a student clinic at a homeopathy school here in Phoenix, AZ. It's supposed to be one of the best schools. They gave me phosphorous M. I got really out of sorts and couldn't think clearly. When I called the student with my concerns she kept saying she was too busy to talk. Then I read that phosphorous should often be given at weaker strengths because most people who need it are super sensitive (that's me). So I didn't trust them anymore. I would love to answer the questionnaires. Thank you so much for the offer.
candra 9 years ago
CASE PRESENTATION FOR CLASSICAL HOMOEOPATHIC PRESCRIBING
General Guidelines:
1. Try to be as descriptive as possible. When describing pains or sensations use descriptions along the lines of feels as if someone is squeezing it with their hand or it is like an insect crawling around inside or it is as if someone is standing over me threatening to kill me. Long descriptions are always better than short ones. One word answers are difficult to use successfully.
2. Another important part of symptom description for homoeopathy are the modalities. These are situations, events, activities or conditions which modify the symptom in some way. We usually refer to this as what makes them better or worse (amelioration/aggravation). The situation may actually provoke the symptom into appearing, make it vanish altogether, or just increase or decrease it in some way. Modalities are vital information for prescribing.
Modalities are typically related to (but not exclusively) the following situations:
A. Temperature, weather
B. Time (day, night, specific times, frequency, periodicity, season)
C. Position, activity
D. Emotions, thoughts
E. Food and drink
F. Drugs, medication
3. How the symptom is perceived is important too odour, appearance, sound, touch. What colour is it, what is its texture? For gestures, describe what it looks like the patient is doing, or what you feel you are doing while making the movement eg. they look like they are swatting flies or I feel like something is pushing my hand upwards or it is like I stick a fork in an electrical outlet which throws my body backwards. Description it is key to accurate prescriptions.
4. When did the symptom or set of symptoms start? The apparent cause can be useful in determining the remedy, although it is not of the same importance as the previous factors. It may have been a specific event, a disease, an accident or even an emotional experience.
5. Use your own words. Do not copy phrases or descriptions found in our various remedy pictures. Try not to use other peoples ideas or thoughts or words. If you are reporting on behalf of someone else, report their exact words, however you can also report your own observations of them (not opinions).
6. Does the symptom occur alongside another specific symptom? Do particular symptoms only occur together? Does a particular symptom occur with a particular thought or emotion? For example, a headache that always comes with visual disturbances, or stomach pain that appears alongside anger, or anxiety that makes you feel like running down the street screaming.
7. Each complaint should be described fully before going on to describe another complaint. Try not to mix different symptoms or complaints together. Each modifying feature must be clearly attached to a particular symptom/set of symptoms. Any mistake you make here is a mistake the homoeopath will also then make.
BEFORE MOVING ON TO THE NEXT SET OF QUESTIONS, DO THIS NOW FOR EACH PHYSICAL PROBLEM YOU HAVE. LOOK AT ANY POSSIBLE SYMPTOM YOU HAVE, NOT JUST THE ONE YOU ARE ASKING FOR HELP IN RESOLVING.
General Guidelines:
1. Try to be as descriptive as possible. When describing pains or sensations use descriptions along the lines of feels as if someone is squeezing it with their hand or it is like an insect crawling around inside or it is as if someone is standing over me threatening to kill me. Long descriptions are always better than short ones. One word answers are difficult to use successfully.
2. Another important part of symptom description for homoeopathy are the modalities. These are situations, events, activities or conditions which modify the symptom in some way. We usually refer to this as what makes them better or worse (amelioration/aggravation). The situation may actually provoke the symptom into appearing, make it vanish altogether, or just increase or decrease it in some way. Modalities are vital information for prescribing.
Modalities are typically related to (but not exclusively) the following situations:
A. Temperature, weather
B. Time (day, night, specific times, frequency, periodicity, season)
C. Position, activity
D. Emotions, thoughts
E. Food and drink
F. Drugs, medication
3. How the symptom is perceived is important too odour, appearance, sound, touch. What colour is it, what is its texture? For gestures, describe what it looks like the patient is doing, or what you feel you are doing while making the movement eg. they look like they are swatting flies or I feel like something is pushing my hand upwards or it is like I stick a fork in an electrical outlet which throws my body backwards. Description it is key to accurate prescriptions.
4. When did the symptom or set of symptoms start? The apparent cause can be useful in determining the remedy, although it is not of the same importance as the previous factors. It may have been a specific event, a disease, an accident or even an emotional experience.
5. Use your own words. Do not copy phrases or descriptions found in our various remedy pictures. Try not to use other peoples ideas or thoughts or words. If you are reporting on behalf of someone else, report their exact words, however you can also report your own observations of them (not opinions).
6. Does the symptom occur alongside another specific symptom? Do particular symptoms only occur together? Does a particular symptom occur with a particular thought or emotion? For example, a headache that always comes with visual disturbances, or stomach pain that appears alongside anger, or anxiety that makes you feel like running down the street screaming.
7. Each complaint should be described fully before going on to describe another complaint. Try not to mix different symptoms or complaints together. Each modifying feature must be clearly attached to a particular symptom/set of symptoms. Any mistake you make here is a mistake the homoeopath will also then make.
BEFORE MOVING ON TO THE NEXT SET OF QUESTIONS, DO THIS NOW FOR EACH PHYSICAL PROBLEM YOU HAVE. LOOK AT ANY POSSIBLE SYMPTOM YOU HAVE, NOT JUST THE ONE YOU ARE ASKING FOR HELP IN RESOLVING.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
GENERAL SYMPTOMS
(Symptoms that dont fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)
1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in?
- what position can you not sleep in?
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep?
- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up?
2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly?
- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)?
- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms?
- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way?
- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you?
3. Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly?
- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)?
- When are you most thirsty?
- When are you least thirsty?
4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool?
- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool?
5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine?
- What is the color, odor of the urine?
- Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine?
6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have?
- Where do you have the most sweat?
- What is the odor?
- What color does it stain clothing?
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally?
7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire?
- Any problems with your sexual ability or function?
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases?
8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle?
- How many days does the flow go for?
- What is the appearance of the flow?
- What is the odor of the flow?
- What kind of stain does the flow leave?
- Any discharge before, during or after?
- Any pain before, during or after the flow?
- What symptoms come before the flow?
- What symptoms come after the flow?
9. Environment How does the weather affect you?
- How does the temperature affect you?
- How does the season affect you?
- What physical activities affect you?
- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to?
10. Anything else you feel is important that hasnt been covered by previous questions?
(Symptoms that dont fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)
1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in?
- what position can you not sleep in?
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep?
- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up?
2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly?
- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)?
- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms?
- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way?
- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you?
3. Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly?
- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)?
- When are you most thirsty?
- When are you least thirsty?
4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool?
- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool?
5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine?
- What is the color, odor of the urine?
- Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine?
6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have?
- Where do you have the most sweat?
- What is the odor?
- What color does it stain clothing?
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally?
7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire?
- Any problems with your sexual ability or function?
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases?
8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle?
- How many days does the flow go for?
- What is the appearance of the flow?
- What is the odor of the flow?
- What kind of stain does the flow leave?
- Any discharge before, during or after?
- Any pain before, during or after the flow?
- What symptoms come before the flow?
- What symptoms come after the flow?
9. Environment How does the weather affect you?
- How does the temperature affect you?
- How does the season affect you?
- What physical activities affect you?
- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to?
10. Anything else you feel is important that hasnt been covered by previous questions?
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
(Please spend the most time on this section and give DETAILED answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)
1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?
4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.
5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?
6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?
7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?
8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body?
9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?
10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern? THIS IS AN IMPORTANT QUESTION PLEASE CONSIDER CAREFULLY AND GIVE DETAILS.
11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.
12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming. Dreams are very important in unlocking the deepest truth of a patients case, but it is not enough to simply describe them in a sentence. Give as much information as you feel comfortable doing.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?
17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?
1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?
4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.
5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?
6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?
7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?
8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body?
9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?
10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern? THIS IS AN IMPORTANT QUESTION PLEASE CONSIDER CAREFULLY AND GIVE DETAILS.
11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.
12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming. Dreams are very important in unlocking the deepest truth of a patients case, but it is not enough to simply describe them in a sentence. Give as much information as you feel comfortable doing.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?
17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Hi Evocationer, thank you for your reply. I downloaded the questionnaire and am working on it. I took the Lycopodium 6c for about 8 mos or more, actually, twice a day. Lately in water. I quit because I was getting better with it and now I'm getting worse. I read that if you take it too long it can make you worse again. I was going to a naturopathic school's clinic and one of the students prescribed it. I don't know how much they know about homeopathy, really. Thank you again. I should be done with the questionnaire by Mon.
candra 9 years ago
A 6c is pretty easy to just palliate with. Naturopaths do a lot of palliation, and eventually suppression, of disease symptoms with homoeopathy which can cause worse problems to arise.
When symptoms get better then get worse, this is usually the wrong direction, and it means the disease is being driven inwards, and then attempts to push back out with more force (so worsens).
When symptoms get better then get worse, this is usually the wrong direction, and it means the disease is being driven inwards, and then attempts to push back out with more force (so worsens).
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Oh great. I was worried about that. I drank some coffee and ate peppermint for a few days. I don't know if that helped. I feel, maybe, a little better. I'm almost done with the questionnaire. I'm in the midst of moving, so I'm a bit behind. Thanx again!
candra 9 years ago
GENERAL SYMPTOMS
(Symptoms that dont fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)
1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in?
I usally sleep on my back but I prefer and sleep best in the fetal position on the right side..
- what position can you not sleep in? On my stomach
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep? I wake up worrying about things and I clench my jaw. I also have sleep apnea
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- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up? Problems with all three.
2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly? Salty and crunchy or sweet and creamy. Like nachos followed by slightly melted ice cream or a cream puff would be great, but I couldnt tolerate it right now. I crave anything with lots of melted cheese on it.
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- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)? Slimy. Real heavy like steak and potato. Anything processed or overly sweet, fake tasting, etc.
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- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms? A huge list. Like, dairy, garlic, pepper, legumes, cocnut oil, sugar, nuts, seeds, most spices, most herbs, citrus, sweets (which I usually love), anything processed or heavy, an excess of anything. MSG or any flavorings are the worse.
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- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way? Salads, tofu, veggies, salt, rice cakes.
- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you? I have hypoglycemia so I get moody, shaky and tired. Also cold and light headed sometimes
- Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly? Tea (but I cant drink them because even herbs affect me now. So sometimes I heat up water Hot drinks.
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- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)? Anything cold except coconut water which I take sips of now and then.
- When are you most thirsty? Late evening and early morning
- When are you least thirsty? The rest of the day. Which is odd because I used to love drinking lots of water.
4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool?
- I tend to be constipated.
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- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool?
Usually soft, unformed and med. Brown and smelly. Sometimes it smells like when they tar streets lately.
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5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine? Retaining at night. I wake up frequently to pee.
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- What is the color, odor of the urine? Light yellow. Light odor, often, but sometimes it has a chemical smell to it..
- - Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine? No.
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6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have? I dont sweat much, never have. Though sometimes I sweat at night lately. Then its all over my torso.
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- Where do you have the most sweat? Back and chest
- What is the odor? If under my arms, its a heavy/sweet
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- What color does it stain clothing? Doesnt
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally? I dont know whats causing the night sweats.
7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire? Dont have much.
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- Any problems with your sexual ability or function? Ive been celibate for over 15 years.
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases? I got herpes at 18 from a guy who raped me. Hasnt been a problem (no outbreaks except in the beginning) except for the last two years when Ive been having back to back outbreaks. I think this is causing a lot of my health issues. Ill have 2-4 outbreaks at a time
8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle? Usu. 30 but its started getting irregular now that I started doing DHEA cream.
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- How many days does the flow go for?
3
- - What is the appearance of the flow?
Rusty
- - What is the odor of the flow? Heavy and a little sweet
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- What kind of stain does the flow leave? Dark but sometimes a lighter red.
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- Any discharge before, during or after? Sometimes after
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- Any pain before, during or after the flow? Yes, before.
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- What symptoms come before the flow? Extreme moodiness, fatigue (more than usual), cramps, tender breasts, backache.
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- What symptoms come after the flow? Tiredness
9. Environment How does the weather affect you? Im very affected by weather changes. Love the beginning of rain and during it. It feels refreshing to me. but feel worse afterward, probably due to mold.
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- How does the temperature affect you? I do not like extreme temps. They fatigue and irritate me, especially heat.
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- How does the season affect you? I feel best in spring and fall.
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- What physical activities affect you? Light activity is good, it refreshes me but anything more exhausts me which I hate because I used to be like an amazon.
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- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to?
Almost everything. I have MCS (chemical sensitivity) and am also sensitive to too much sun, pollution/gas, molds, (was exposed to toxic mold); dust, etc. Also cant handle too much external stimuli (noises, a lot of people talking loudly, horns honking, bright lights, smells etc.) Also EMFs. I cant be on the internet for long, have cable TV, etc. This , too, is just in the last few years. Though even as a child my senses were very keen. I enjoyed natural smells, eating (the sensations and flavors), as well as music, etc. more than most. I HAVE to wear soft pants and a top to bed at night because if theres anything (like even a grain of sand) on the sheets, I can feel it, and I cant sleep. If the pants slip up around my ankles that irritates me and I wake up and have to adjust them. When I grew up I could handle malls, parties, bars, etc. but only for a while then Id start panicking from all the stimuli.
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10. Anything else you feel is important that hasnt been covered by previous questions? Ive always been sensitive to my surroundings but was still strong and vibrant and could handle most things. I could stay in hotels and watch TV, go shopping, etc. to an extent. These things make me sick now. Ever since being exposed to toxic mold, losing my two dogs after caring for them for three years "c" and losing all my belongings in the mold house Ive been unbearably sensitive to everything. Also, I have candida, mild adrenal fatigue, very low blood pressure and heart rate, and hypoglycemia. Im hypo, in other words. Always have been but I used to eat lots of sugar, salt and exercise for hours every day all of which helped hyper me some. I cant do the sugar and exercising now. Again, I used to be like an amazon, very fit, and I could eat anything I wanted so all this sensitivity and fatigue, etc. is new and very depressing. Oh yea, I have been diagnosed as having PTSD and depression and being stuck in flight or fight mode. My sympathetic/parasympathetic nervous system is messed up. Im cold and get chills on and off (more in the morning). Also, the slightest bit of stress or upset makes me feel completely exhausted, nauseous and off center.
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Re: very confused re. remedies From Evocationer
on 2015-01-16
(Please spend the most time on this section and give DETAILED answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)
1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
Anger and regret at where my life has ended up. I am stuck with an overbearing and jealous man who likes me being sick and dependent on him. He can be kind, but I never know how hell be. I need more energy so I can get independent. Ive come to realize that he has manipulated me for decades now into giving up my life (I was quite naïve I guess).
He and members of my family often treat me with disrespect and disregard. Ive stopped seeing my mother because of i.
Before I met him I was very motivated and happy with my life. I had good friends who and an active social life. I enjoyed my friends, my work and my hobbies very much. He has slowly alienated me from everyone. Also I love being creative. I used to dance and worked as an actress/model. I dont even have the desire or motivation to create anything and even if I start something I dont finish it I think whats the use? when I start getting better (physically and emotionally) or I get excited about something, hell lose money or his job or fight with the landlord and we have to move and I get stressed and upset and angry again. Then I get sick and just give up. Weve moved TWELVE times in three years. Always to places I hate. He has fought with every landlord.
The main thing that bothers me is that , my whole life I felt incredible joy and optimism. Often even when life got very challenging. I had faith that everything was for the best and therefore would work out for the best. I enjoyed life immensely. Even the small things. I dont have any of that anymore. No Joy, no optimism, no faith and I do not enjoy anything at all anymore.
Also, I do very well with rituals, and security. All this moving around and being insecure is tremendously hard on me. I like having my set space, my set schedule, etc.
2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
Anger, regret, apathy, giving up on life, feeling victimized. I have wonderful dogs who I love but my heart is locked. Ive never had a locked heart before. I always believed in magic and if I took a positive and joyful approach to everything believing it would all work out. I dont believe in any of it anymore which makes me very sad. I always used my intuition to help me decide what to do, but I dont anymore. Every time I feel disrespected, which is often, it gets worse. Thinking about all my regrets and my talents not being used makes it worse. Any stressful event. Were now fighting with these landlords and have to move AGAIN. They sent someone out to serve us and I had to deal with him. I was sick for two days afterward. I was so tired I could hardly move, I get light headed, cant think clearly and get very snappy and agitated. I also feel extreme regret and guilt about how this is affecting my dogs.. Im very angry with myself for ending up this way. I feel like Ive wasted my life. Sometimes I see something I like or think a happy thought and get happy again or feel positive. Then I immediately think you dont deserve to be happy or thats not who you are anymore, you cant be that now, or Ill do something to sabotage myself like eat food Im allergic to, etc.
3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life? When I was about 18 I was studying to be a dancer/choreographer and wanted to go to NY. A Dr. told me I had scoliosis so bad that I had to quit dancing and would be partially crippled by middle-age. Then I hated my body, became anorexic and a cocaine addict. I found out later he was lying. But it was too late by then. My mother kicked me out frequently since I was sixteen. So, I was on my own a lot which terrified me and made me feel very vulnerable and envious of people who had security. Also, since I had no protection I was raped three times. One of the times I was drugged and taken to a cabin in the woods for a weekend. Luckily I dont remember much. I cleaned up, dated a man who was my best friend for six years and moved out of town. That was a happy time, but rather traumatic when we broke up. Seven years ago, in a two month period, I was electrocuted (could have died), bitten by a very poisonous scorpion (can be deadly) and then poisoned by a pesticide. I got really loud tinnitus, and couldnt tolerate food or hold water. I became extremely bony and I almost died. It drove me insane. I was living at my mothers and realized she doesnt love me based on her lack of empathy and concern. I was deathly ill for over a year. When M (the man Im with) and I moved back to California I remarkably healed immediately as if nothing happened. I also decided to never see my mother again. Recently (starting in 2011) my little Chihuahua got very sick. The vets hurt her more than helped which made me feel guilty. Then M made me go work with him on a farm in a horrible house in the middle of nowhere. It had mold and scorpions in it and who knows what else. Bad well water. She got much worse there and started having seizures. I went insane there. Maybe from the mold and stress? I just wasnt me anymore (and havent been since). Then we moved out and she crossed over. I saw a therapist who diagnosed me with severe PTSD. I still cannot be around things that remind me of Tootsie, or of the horrible town the farm was in. I went hysterical the night she crossed over and became suicidal. When she was alive she went everywhere with me and we slept with her lying across my chest. I love her more than I ever loved anyone except my other little dog, Mimi. I tried to make the best of things but then Mimi started getting sick. She too had c. I blame myself. At this same time we moved into a house I hated. I got so sick I ended up in emergency. It turned out the house had toxic black mold. Its also where my family is, so Ive been in touch with my mother again, with mainly bad results, again. I lost my health and all of my belongings including mementos and baby pictures, etc. because everything was tainted. Anyway, I nursed Mimi for two years and extended her life with herbs, etc. Then she crossed over just this winter. I was devastated and exhausted. Ive tried recovering, but with all the fighting and moving its hard. I also know I split I no longer feel like the old, vibrant me, and dont allow myself to. Its like I became a weak sickly person and am subconsciously keeping myself that way (Ive recently realized this). One thing on a happy note. When I was in my early twenties, I went to the Academy of Dramatic Arts. I did nothing but acting, singing and dancing all day!!! I was in a state of never ending ecstasy the entire time. I felt like Id found the family and life I was always looking for.
4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately. Im afaid of anything happening to my other dogs. Im afraid of wasting my life. Im afraid of sleeping, especially in the dark. Im afraid of people with overbearing or evil or dirty energy because Im very empathic. I will go out of my way to avoid them and try not to look at them Im afraid of evil spirits and things like shamanism or witchcraft. Im afraid of being watched by someone. Im afraid of making a mistake that will hurt someone else. Or, of being unfair to other people, so I am often unfair to myself and get screwed. I am afraid of making mistakes and being less than perfect. I feel very guilty because Im also terrified of anyone whos sick. I was there nursing my two dogs but being around their illnesses and watching their bodies deteriorate terrified me. I avoid ill people as much as possible due to a fear Ill get sick, too. I used to work as a psychic but Im afraid to now because Im so porous Im afraid of picking up other peoples energies. Im afraid of EMFs. I am terrified that I will never get well and am going to feel like this for the rest of my life, that essentially my life is over and now Im just going to barely exist like this until my body finally gives out. Im afraid of things like anesthesia, and of anything that makes me feel high, like alcohol. Im afraid of my brain not working right. Im afraid of having a curse put on me. Im afraid of being punished by other people, God (tho I dont beiieve in a punishing God), etc. Im afraid of being poor and homeless and unable to take care of myself. I was always terrified of anything invading me like parasites, etc. even to the point of a fear of pregnancy.
5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities? I used to have a lot of hobbies but dont anymore. Im studying Yoga Nidra but doing it slowly because some days I like it and some days I dont like anything at all. I still like eating but I cant eat anything I really like anymore. I think Id be much happier if I could eat more.. I like Yoga Nidra because it seems to relax me and even out my energy field so I feel more balanced. I used to love doing anything creative. I used to love walking my dogs and hiking in nature, bicycle riding, writing, acting, dancing. I like doing Qi Gong. I like to feel and visualize the chi . I do at least a little every day. I used to LOVE cooking yummy food.
6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they? I think that I cant get out of this life. Im stuck and theres no use. I keep feeling that its unfair that Im not getting any help from anyone. I literally have nobody in my life to offer me a helping hand. I keep thinking about being weak and sickly. After I do something or smell pollution, etc. I think now youll be sick again, now youll feel weak and horrible or you better not do much or youll get more weak and sick again. Its to the point that I was watching a movie and associated with the main character and when hed do a lot Id think oh, hes doing too much, hell wear himself out and get sick. This is all just in the last couple of years.
7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body? Sometimes I get like an electrical impulse in my arms or, now and then, in my legs and then they twitch or jump a little. Now and then I get a feeling in my head like when youre in a roller coaster and it starts going down. This only happens at night when I first lay down to sleep.
8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body? Sometimes when I feel guilty or you dont deserve happiness, thats not you anymore I feel like a gate shutting and then I feel dead. When I feel the fears, anxieties, regrets, etc., I feel itchy inside, and as if I want to just run but theres nowhere to run to. Then I panic and feel out of control itchiness inside my core. Or, like youd feel if youre face to face with a lion or a man with a gun, just that physical panic.
9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like? Initially, I felt great when I was dating my best friend (who I met when I cleaned up) and we supported and loved each other and vowed to make every moment really count for each other. I also felt my best when I was in California dancing, acting, modeling, doing theater. I even felt great when I later worked as a psychic and masseuse and was helping people. During this time I dated a few different men who adored me and pampered me and we had amazingly happy times together. They were very amazing and exciting. I felt motivated and alive and happy with my accomplishments. I lived in an apartment, but I adored my little space because it was all mine. I felt very secure and safe. I felt as if everything will always work out one way or another. My life now is how I would (and do) feel that is the opposite.
10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern? THIS IS AN IMPORTANT QUESTION PLEASE CONSIDER CAREFULLY AND GIVE DETAILS.
Yes. I am getting more aware of it. For some reason I feel this man Im with has some power over me and I know he wants me to be weak. So I may be keeping myself sick from that and from the guilt I have about my dogs and now wasting my life. I am sabotaging myself on and off by doing or eating things I know will make me worse. I do have some physical issues, but Im also certain Im keeping myself in a weak, sickly victimized pattern. More and more Im avoiding other people and everything in life in general. Ive become a hermit even tho I dont want to be one.. I am stuck in a pattern of not wanting to, and being afraid of, facing my life. This is new for me, when I would get stuck before, Id decide on a plan, put my head down and charge ahead, trusting everything would work out. I am stuck in a pattern of ZERO trust in my intuition, the Universe/God, etc. so I behave in a paranoid, overly cautious way about everything. I get angry if M doesnt answer his phone or call me back soon, I am controlling with my dogs and with myself. Ive always been slightly OCD but its gotten worse. Im stuck in a pattern of starting things then losing interest or finding excuses to not complete them.
11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately. Ive already discussed the man Im with, though not the fact that sometimes I feel guilty being angry about him because sometimes hes nice. I have always had ONE friend or boyfriend I was close to and then numerous acquaintances I had fun with also. My family always used me to solve their problems but would not be there to help me (except my grandmother).I adored and worshipped my grandmother. She lived a life of beauty and grace. I loved the beauty she surrounded herself with and her pampering rituals. She loved me very much.
My mother enjoyed denying herself and us anything and everything. My father was a great man when I was very young, he loved me. But by the time I was about five he was an alcoholic, then also a drug addict. He became abusive and overbearing. My mother became angry and very punishing. Shes a narcissist, everything must be about her. I would vacillate between rebelling against them and then feeling guilty. I talk to them on occasion but do not see them. I tried last summer and felt sick for days afterward. This is also new. I used to just see their positive aspects and deal with that, but M keeps pointing out their negative aspects so I see it more now. Also, I often have a problem standing up for myself or setting boundaries, because I always see the other persons perspective and feel what they want or need. I tend to get in co-dependent relationships and then feel stifled. Ive not had much working relationships because I cant hold a 9-5 job. I feel claustrophobic. I cannot do the same thing in the same place for more than four hours or so. But when I acted, etc., I had great fun with my partners and anyone I worked with.
12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
My empathy is good and yet bad for the reasons stated above. I am highly creative which I love but I also tend to get overly imaginative in my head. Im very honest which can upset people at times or get me in trouble. Im very fair, I believe in win-win situations. Im very loyal, which is bad because it gets me stuck when I should go.
13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
Im a perfectionist. I guess that can be positive because I get things done right, if I actually finish them. Im overly sensitive to things. I procrastinate. Im insecure and dont trust my abilities so I put more faith in people who have less capabilities. I tend to get stuck in patterns, which is great if its an enjoyable pattern (tho bad once it ends).
14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming. Dreams are very important in unlocking the deepest truth of a patients case, but it is not enough to simply describe them in a sentence. Give as much information as you feel comfortable doing. I dream about evil people chasing me and Im terrified and dont know where to run. Often, lately, I fight back, but they keep coming (usually men). I feel terrified, confused and sometimes exhausted just running, hiding and fighting but I know I must fight back or Ill be completely defeated. I have dreams with multiple women (probably different mes) who all want different things, so some end up being disappointed. I have dreams about my mother chasing me or following me and wanting things from me and she feels like a huge weight. Tho the last one I kept running away from her. Sometimes I have dreams about a very wonderful, kind man who gives me strange but lovely gifts, Hes usually odd, too, like the last one, he was a centaur. But he was so kind and felt so good to be around I didnt care. Ive also been having dream (more nightmarish) about being in horrible hospitals or research labs where they Dr.s are incompetent or strange.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them. As a very young child (up to about age 7 or so) I had reoccurring dreams that my mothers hair was on fire and I couldnt put it out no matter how hard I tried. I felt guilty and hated myself for failing. Or, Id dream that I was walking home from school and my house was no longer there. Id walk back and forth certain I was in the right neighborhood but my house was completely missing. Id also have dreams about witches and evil spirits coming after me (this one continued through to adulthood). Later I had a dream for many years that left me so terrified and with dread that I could barely function the next few days. I would dream I was in a house and I was happy playing with a ball or jacks or something. Then someone (usually a woman) would come to take me by the hand and lead me to a door, or my ball would roll into another room and Id see the door. And I knew that horrible tortures and death were behind that door. Id scream and scream because I didnt want to go through that door down into the basement. But I knew I had to.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems? I was highly intelligent and psychic. I knew what everyone was feeling and why they did what they did and I often knew what they did even if I wasnt around. I was very strange and unnerved some people (esp. my mother) because of my differences. I loved playing but I also needed to hide in my room for periods of time. My mother wasnt around much when I was very young so I learned to amuse myself which was easy for me. I loved reading fairytales as a young girl because I believed thats how life really should be (fairies and magic, etc.) I loved being in nature and with other animals. I would even hang out with ants for long periods of time and just observe them. I loved going to my grandmothers house and cleaning her beautiful things, and having her teach me the proper way to eat, set a table, etc. Even as a very young child I enjoyed being with adults and having adult conversations and even debates with them about politics, etc. I enjoyed learning, not at school, but through conversations and reading. By nine or ten I was reading my parents and grandparents books on history, art, theology, etc. I would spend a lot of time in the school library until my mother volunteered there. On one hand I was strong and determined and stood up for what was right even if it meant Id get a beating from another kid or my father. On the other hand I was often afraid of the other kids in school and the teachers. I was very nervous in school. I could not stay in school for a full day, Id sneak home. I loved sports and was a real tomboy. I wanted to be a boy, not a girl, though I envied the girls whose mothers did their hair, etc.. I was very outspoken and would point things out to people. I didnt understand how or why people did what they did and would point that out, too, or question them. People didnt like that. I would even talk back to my father, knowing it would result in a beating.
17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school? I think I covered most of it. My first school the kids were mainly nice. But in fourth grade we moved and the kids and people there were nuts. They were all highly abusive. They thought it was fun to hurt each other. Even the teachers would tell us torture stories or have us watch horrible abusive movies in fifth and sixth grade. I hated it there. A sad story in the newspaper would haunt me for weeks. My family would hide the newspaper (except the comics) from me. I felt horrible for many of the animals in our neighborhood because they were not treated well. I loved going camping with my family Though my mother preferred spending time with other ladies in the neighborhood during the day, she did make us lunch and read us bedtime stories, which was nice. I lived for holidays and birthdays which were always huge and celebratory for many days. During these times everyone got along and we had great food! BTW, Im tall and thin. Lucky me for my fast metabolism, tho now it doesnt matter. Id just like to say in summation, if theres a remedy to help me get my energy, strength back and stop being so ultra sensitive, stop my outbreaks and help me emotionally. I used to be very carefree and happy go lucky with lots of joy. I had sooo much energy. Enough for ten people.. Ive become very depressed, angry and punishing. I no longer enjoy life. Thats just not me. I hope this wasnt too long. Thank you!!
(Symptoms that dont fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)
1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in?
I usally sleep on my back but I prefer and sleep best in the fetal position on the right side..
- what position can you not sleep in? On my stomach
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep? I wake up worrying about things and I clench my jaw. I also have sleep apnea
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- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up? Problems with all three.
2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly? Salty and crunchy or sweet and creamy. Like nachos followed by slightly melted ice cream or a cream puff would be great, but I couldnt tolerate it right now. I crave anything with lots of melted cheese on it.
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- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)? Slimy. Real heavy like steak and potato. Anything processed or overly sweet, fake tasting, etc.
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- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms? A huge list. Like, dairy, garlic, pepper, legumes, cocnut oil, sugar, nuts, seeds, most spices, most herbs, citrus, sweets (which I usually love), anything processed or heavy, an excess of anything. MSG or any flavorings are the worse.
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- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way? Salads, tofu, veggies, salt, rice cakes.
- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you? I have hypoglycemia so I get moody, shaky and tired. Also cold and light headed sometimes
- Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly? Tea (but I cant drink them because even herbs affect me now. So sometimes I heat up water Hot drinks.
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- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)? Anything cold except coconut water which I take sips of now and then.
- When are you most thirsty? Late evening and early morning
- When are you least thirsty? The rest of the day. Which is odd because I used to love drinking lots of water.
4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool?
- I tend to be constipated.
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- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool?
Usually soft, unformed and med. Brown and smelly. Sometimes it smells like when they tar streets lately.
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5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine? Retaining at night. I wake up frequently to pee.
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- What is the color, odor of the urine? Light yellow. Light odor, often, but sometimes it has a chemical smell to it..
- - Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine? No.
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6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have? I dont sweat much, never have. Though sometimes I sweat at night lately. Then its all over my torso.
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- Where do you have the most sweat? Back and chest
- What is the odor? If under my arms, its a heavy/sweet
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- What color does it stain clothing? Doesnt
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally? I dont know whats causing the night sweats.
7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire? Dont have much.
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- Any problems with your sexual ability or function? Ive been celibate for over 15 years.
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases? I got herpes at 18 from a guy who raped me. Hasnt been a problem (no outbreaks except in the beginning) except for the last two years when Ive been having back to back outbreaks. I think this is causing a lot of my health issues. Ill have 2-4 outbreaks at a time
8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle? Usu. 30 but its started getting irregular now that I started doing DHEA cream.
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- How many days does the flow go for?
3
- - What is the appearance of the flow?
Rusty
- - What is the odor of the flow? Heavy and a little sweet
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- What kind of stain does the flow leave? Dark but sometimes a lighter red.
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- Any discharge before, during or after? Sometimes after
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- Any pain before, during or after the flow? Yes, before.
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- What symptoms come before the flow? Extreme moodiness, fatigue (more than usual), cramps, tender breasts, backache.
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- What symptoms come after the flow? Tiredness
9. Environment How does the weather affect you? Im very affected by weather changes. Love the beginning of rain and during it. It feels refreshing to me. but feel worse afterward, probably due to mold.
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- How does the temperature affect you? I do not like extreme temps. They fatigue and irritate me, especially heat.
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- How does the season affect you? I feel best in spring and fall.
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- What physical activities affect you? Light activity is good, it refreshes me but anything more exhausts me which I hate because I used to be like an amazon.
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- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to?
Almost everything. I have MCS (chemical sensitivity) and am also sensitive to too much sun, pollution/gas, molds, (was exposed to toxic mold); dust, etc. Also cant handle too much external stimuli (noises, a lot of people talking loudly, horns honking, bright lights, smells etc.) Also EMFs. I cant be on the internet for long, have cable TV, etc. This , too, is just in the last few years. Though even as a child my senses were very keen. I enjoyed natural smells, eating (the sensations and flavors), as well as music, etc. more than most. I HAVE to wear soft pants and a top to bed at night because if theres anything (like even a grain of sand) on the sheets, I can feel it, and I cant sleep. If the pants slip up around my ankles that irritates me and I wake up and have to adjust them. When I grew up I could handle malls, parties, bars, etc. but only for a while then Id start panicking from all the stimuli.
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10. Anything else you feel is important that hasnt been covered by previous questions? Ive always been sensitive to my surroundings but was still strong and vibrant and could handle most things. I could stay in hotels and watch TV, go shopping, etc. to an extent. These things make me sick now. Ever since being exposed to toxic mold, losing my two dogs after caring for them for three years "c" and losing all my belongings in the mold house Ive been unbearably sensitive to everything. Also, I have candida, mild adrenal fatigue, very low blood pressure and heart rate, and hypoglycemia. Im hypo, in other words. Always have been but I used to eat lots of sugar, salt and exercise for hours every day all of which helped hyper me some. I cant do the sugar and exercising now. Again, I used to be like an amazon, very fit, and I could eat anything I wanted so all this sensitivity and fatigue, etc. is new and very depressing. Oh yea, I have been diagnosed as having PTSD and depression and being stuck in flight or fight mode. My sympathetic/parasympathetic nervous system is messed up. Im cold and get chills on and off (more in the morning). Also, the slightest bit of stress or upset makes me feel completely exhausted, nauseous and off center.
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Re: very confused re. remedies From Evocationer
on 2015-01-16
(Please spend the most time on this section and give DETAILED answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)
1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
Anger and regret at where my life has ended up. I am stuck with an overbearing and jealous man who likes me being sick and dependent on him. He can be kind, but I never know how hell be. I need more energy so I can get independent. Ive come to realize that he has manipulated me for decades now into giving up my life (I was quite naïve I guess).
He and members of my family often treat me with disrespect and disregard. Ive stopped seeing my mother because of i.
Before I met him I was very motivated and happy with my life. I had good friends who and an active social life. I enjoyed my friends, my work and my hobbies very much. He has slowly alienated me from everyone. Also I love being creative. I used to dance and worked as an actress/model. I dont even have the desire or motivation to create anything and even if I start something I dont finish it I think whats the use? when I start getting better (physically and emotionally) or I get excited about something, hell lose money or his job or fight with the landlord and we have to move and I get stressed and upset and angry again. Then I get sick and just give up. Weve moved TWELVE times in three years. Always to places I hate. He has fought with every landlord.
The main thing that bothers me is that , my whole life I felt incredible joy and optimism. Often even when life got very challenging. I had faith that everything was for the best and therefore would work out for the best. I enjoyed life immensely. Even the small things. I dont have any of that anymore. No Joy, no optimism, no faith and I do not enjoy anything at all anymore.
Also, I do very well with rituals, and security. All this moving around and being insecure is tremendously hard on me. I like having my set space, my set schedule, etc.
2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
Anger, regret, apathy, giving up on life, feeling victimized. I have wonderful dogs who I love but my heart is locked. Ive never had a locked heart before. I always believed in magic and if I took a positive and joyful approach to everything believing it would all work out. I dont believe in any of it anymore which makes me very sad. I always used my intuition to help me decide what to do, but I dont anymore. Every time I feel disrespected, which is often, it gets worse. Thinking about all my regrets and my talents not being used makes it worse. Any stressful event. Were now fighting with these landlords and have to move AGAIN. They sent someone out to serve us and I had to deal with him. I was sick for two days afterward. I was so tired I could hardly move, I get light headed, cant think clearly and get very snappy and agitated. I also feel extreme regret and guilt about how this is affecting my dogs.. Im very angry with myself for ending up this way. I feel like Ive wasted my life. Sometimes I see something I like or think a happy thought and get happy again or feel positive. Then I immediately think you dont deserve to be happy or thats not who you are anymore, you cant be that now, or Ill do something to sabotage myself like eat food Im allergic to, etc.
3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life? When I was about 18 I was studying to be a dancer/choreographer and wanted to go to NY. A Dr. told me I had scoliosis so bad that I had to quit dancing and would be partially crippled by middle-age. Then I hated my body, became anorexic and a cocaine addict. I found out later he was lying. But it was too late by then. My mother kicked me out frequently since I was sixteen. So, I was on my own a lot which terrified me and made me feel very vulnerable and envious of people who had security. Also, since I had no protection I was raped three times. One of the times I was drugged and taken to a cabin in the woods for a weekend. Luckily I dont remember much. I cleaned up, dated a man who was my best friend for six years and moved out of town. That was a happy time, but rather traumatic when we broke up. Seven years ago, in a two month period, I was electrocuted (could have died), bitten by a very poisonous scorpion (can be deadly) and then poisoned by a pesticide. I got really loud tinnitus, and couldnt tolerate food or hold water. I became extremely bony and I almost died. It drove me insane. I was living at my mothers and realized she doesnt love me based on her lack of empathy and concern. I was deathly ill for over a year. When M (the man Im with) and I moved back to California I remarkably healed immediately as if nothing happened. I also decided to never see my mother again. Recently (starting in 2011) my little Chihuahua got very sick. The vets hurt her more than helped which made me feel guilty. Then M made me go work with him on a farm in a horrible house in the middle of nowhere. It had mold and scorpions in it and who knows what else. Bad well water. She got much worse there and started having seizures. I went insane there. Maybe from the mold and stress? I just wasnt me anymore (and havent been since). Then we moved out and she crossed over. I saw a therapist who diagnosed me with severe PTSD. I still cannot be around things that remind me of Tootsie, or of the horrible town the farm was in. I went hysterical the night she crossed over and became suicidal. When she was alive she went everywhere with me and we slept with her lying across my chest. I love her more than I ever loved anyone except my other little dog, Mimi. I tried to make the best of things but then Mimi started getting sick. She too had c. I blame myself. At this same time we moved into a house I hated. I got so sick I ended up in emergency. It turned out the house had toxic black mold. Its also where my family is, so Ive been in touch with my mother again, with mainly bad results, again. I lost my health and all of my belongings including mementos and baby pictures, etc. because everything was tainted. Anyway, I nursed Mimi for two years and extended her life with herbs, etc. Then she crossed over just this winter. I was devastated and exhausted. Ive tried recovering, but with all the fighting and moving its hard. I also know I split I no longer feel like the old, vibrant me, and dont allow myself to. Its like I became a weak sickly person and am subconsciously keeping myself that way (Ive recently realized this). One thing on a happy note. When I was in my early twenties, I went to the Academy of Dramatic Arts. I did nothing but acting, singing and dancing all day!!! I was in a state of never ending ecstasy the entire time. I felt like Id found the family and life I was always looking for.
4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately. Im afaid of anything happening to my other dogs. Im afraid of wasting my life. Im afraid of sleeping, especially in the dark. Im afraid of people with overbearing or evil or dirty energy because Im very empathic. I will go out of my way to avoid them and try not to look at them Im afraid of evil spirits and things like shamanism or witchcraft. Im afraid of being watched by someone. Im afraid of making a mistake that will hurt someone else. Or, of being unfair to other people, so I am often unfair to myself and get screwed. I am afraid of making mistakes and being less than perfect. I feel very guilty because Im also terrified of anyone whos sick. I was there nursing my two dogs but being around their illnesses and watching their bodies deteriorate terrified me. I avoid ill people as much as possible due to a fear Ill get sick, too. I used to work as a psychic but Im afraid to now because Im so porous Im afraid of picking up other peoples energies. Im afraid of EMFs. I am terrified that I will never get well and am going to feel like this for the rest of my life, that essentially my life is over and now Im just going to barely exist like this until my body finally gives out. Im afraid of things like anesthesia, and of anything that makes me feel high, like alcohol. Im afraid of my brain not working right. Im afraid of having a curse put on me. Im afraid of being punished by other people, God (tho I dont beiieve in a punishing God), etc. Im afraid of being poor and homeless and unable to take care of myself. I was always terrified of anything invading me like parasites, etc. even to the point of a fear of pregnancy.
5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities? I used to have a lot of hobbies but dont anymore. Im studying Yoga Nidra but doing it slowly because some days I like it and some days I dont like anything at all. I still like eating but I cant eat anything I really like anymore. I think Id be much happier if I could eat more.. I like Yoga Nidra because it seems to relax me and even out my energy field so I feel more balanced. I used to love doing anything creative. I used to love walking my dogs and hiking in nature, bicycle riding, writing, acting, dancing. I like doing Qi Gong. I like to feel and visualize the chi . I do at least a little every day. I used to LOVE cooking yummy food.
6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they? I think that I cant get out of this life. Im stuck and theres no use. I keep feeling that its unfair that Im not getting any help from anyone. I literally have nobody in my life to offer me a helping hand. I keep thinking about being weak and sickly. After I do something or smell pollution, etc. I think now youll be sick again, now youll feel weak and horrible or you better not do much or youll get more weak and sick again. Its to the point that I was watching a movie and associated with the main character and when hed do a lot Id think oh, hes doing too much, hell wear himself out and get sick. This is all just in the last couple of years.
7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body? Sometimes I get like an electrical impulse in my arms or, now and then, in my legs and then they twitch or jump a little. Now and then I get a feeling in my head like when youre in a roller coaster and it starts going down. This only happens at night when I first lay down to sleep.
8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body? Sometimes when I feel guilty or you dont deserve happiness, thats not you anymore I feel like a gate shutting and then I feel dead. When I feel the fears, anxieties, regrets, etc., I feel itchy inside, and as if I want to just run but theres nowhere to run to. Then I panic and feel out of control itchiness inside my core. Or, like youd feel if youre face to face with a lion or a man with a gun, just that physical panic.
9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like? Initially, I felt great when I was dating my best friend (who I met when I cleaned up) and we supported and loved each other and vowed to make every moment really count for each other. I also felt my best when I was in California dancing, acting, modeling, doing theater. I even felt great when I later worked as a psychic and masseuse and was helping people. During this time I dated a few different men who adored me and pampered me and we had amazingly happy times together. They were very amazing and exciting. I felt motivated and alive and happy with my accomplishments. I lived in an apartment, but I adored my little space because it was all mine. I felt very secure and safe. I felt as if everything will always work out one way or another. My life now is how I would (and do) feel that is the opposite.
10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern? THIS IS AN IMPORTANT QUESTION PLEASE CONSIDER CAREFULLY AND GIVE DETAILS.
Yes. I am getting more aware of it. For some reason I feel this man Im with has some power over me and I know he wants me to be weak. So I may be keeping myself sick from that and from the guilt I have about my dogs and now wasting my life. I am sabotaging myself on and off by doing or eating things I know will make me worse. I do have some physical issues, but Im also certain Im keeping myself in a weak, sickly victimized pattern. More and more Im avoiding other people and everything in life in general. Ive become a hermit even tho I dont want to be one.. I am stuck in a pattern of not wanting to, and being afraid of, facing my life. This is new for me, when I would get stuck before, Id decide on a plan, put my head down and charge ahead, trusting everything would work out. I am stuck in a pattern of ZERO trust in my intuition, the Universe/God, etc. so I behave in a paranoid, overly cautious way about everything. I get angry if M doesnt answer his phone or call me back soon, I am controlling with my dogs and with myself. Ive always been slightly OCD but its gotten worse. Im stuck in a pattern of starting things then losing interest or finding excuses to not complete them.
11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately. Ive already discussed the man Im with, though not the fact that sometimes I feel guilty being angry about him because sometimes hes nice. I have always had ONE friend or boyfriend I was close to and then numerous acquaintances I had fun with also. My family always used me to solve their problems but would not be there to help me (except my grandmother).I adored and worshipped my grandmother. She lived a life of beauty and grace. I loved the beauty she surrounded herself with and her pampering rituals. She loved me very much.
My mother enjoyed denying herself and us anything and everything. My father was a great man when I was very young, he loved me. But by the time I was about five he was an alcoholic, then also a drug addict. He became abusive and overbearing. My mother became angry and very punishing. Shes a narcissist, everything must be about her. I would vacillate between rebelling against them and then feeling guilty. I talk to them on occasion but do not see them. I tried last summer and felt sick for days afterward. This is also new. I used to just see their positive aspects and deal with that, but M keeps pointing out their negative aspects so I see it more now. Also, I often have a problem standing up for myself or setting boundaries, because I always see the other persons perspective and feel what they want or need. I tend to get in co-dependent relationships and then feel stifled. Ive not had much working relationships because I cant hold a 9-5 job. I feel claustrophobic. I cannot do the same thing in the same place for more than four hours or so. But when I acted, etc., I had great fun with my partners and anyone I worked with.
12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
My empathy is good and yet bad for the reasons stated above. I am highly creative which I love but I also tend to get overly imaginative in my head. Im very honest which can upset people at times or get me in trouble. Im very fair, I believe in win-win situations. Im very loyal, which is bad because it gets me stuck when I should go.
13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
Im a perfectionist. I guess that can be positive because I get things done right, if I actually finish them. Im overly sensitive to things. I procrastinate. Im insecure and dont trust my abilities so I put more faith in people who have less capabilities. I tend to get stuck in patterns, which is great if its an enjoyable pattern (tho bad once it ends).
14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming. Dreams are very important in unlocking the deepest truth of a patients case, but it is not enough to simply describe them in a sentence. Give as much information as you feel comfortable doing. I dream about evil people chasing me and Im terrified and dont know where to run. Often, lately, I fight back, but they keep coming (usually men). I feel terrified, confused and sometimes exhausted just running, hiding and fighting but I know I must fight back or Ill be completely defeated. I have dreams with multiple women (probably different mes) who all want different things, so some end up being disappointed. I have dreams about my mother chasing me or following me and wanting things from me and she feels like a huge weight. Tho the last one I kept running away from her. Sometimes I have dreams about a very wonderful, kind man who gives me strange but lovely gifts, Hes usually odd, too, like the last one, he was a centaur. But he was so kind and felt so good to be around I didnt care. Ive also been having dream (more nightmarish) about being in horrible hospitals or research labs where they Dr.s are incompetent or strange.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them. As a very young child (up to about age 7 or so) I had reoccurring dreams that my mothers hair was on fire and I couldnt put it out no matter how hard I tried. I felt guilty and hated myself for failing. Or, Id dream that I was walking home from school and my house was no longer there. Id walk back and forth certain I was in the right neighborhood but my house was completely missing. Id also have dreams about witches and evil spirits coming after me (this one continued through to adulthood). Later I had a dream for many years that left me so terrified and with dread that I could barely function the next few days. I would dream I was in a house and I was happy playing with a ball or jacks or something. Then someone (usually a woman) would come to take me by the hand and lead me to a door, or my ball would roll into another room and Id see the door. And I knew that horrible tortures and death were behind that door. Id scream and scream because I didnt want to go through that door down into the basement. But I knew I had to.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems? I was highly intelligent and psychic. I knew what everyone was feeling and why they did what they did and I often knew what they did even if I wasnt around. I was very strange and unnerved some people (esp. my mother) because of my differences. I loved playing but I also needed to hide in my room for periods of time. My mother wasnt around much when I was very young so I learned to amuse myself which was easy for me. I loved reading fairytales as a young girl because I believed thats how life really should be (fairies and magic, etc.) I loved being in nature and with other animals. I would even hang out with ants for long periods of time and just observe them. I loved going to my grandmothers house and cleaning her beautiful things, and having her teach me the proper way to eat, set a table, etc. Even as a very young child I enjoyed being with adults and having adult conversations and even debates with them about politics, etc. I enjoyed learning, not at school, but through conversations and reading. By nine or ten I was reading my parents and grandparents books on history, art, theology, etc. I would spend a lot of time in the school library until my mother volunteered there. On one hand I was strong and determined and stood up for what was right even if it meant Id get a beating from another kid or my father. On the other hand I was often afraid of the other kids in school and the teachers. I was very nervous in school. I could not stay in school for a full day, Id sneak home. I loved sports and was a real tomboy. I wanted to be a boy, not a girl, though I envied the girls whose mothers did their hair, etc.. I was very outspoken and would point things out to people. I didnt understand how or why people did what they did and would point that out, too, or question them. People didnt like that. I would even talk back to my father, knowing it would result in a beating.
17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school? I think I covered most of it. My first school the kids were mainly nice. But in fourth grade we moved and the kids and people there were nuts. They were all highly abusive. They thought it was fun to hurt each other. Even the teachers would tell us torture stories or have us watch horrible abusive movies in fifth and sixth grade. I hated it there. A sad story in the newspaper would haunt me for weeks. My family would hide the newspaper (except the comics) from me. I felt horrible for many of the animals in our neighborhood because they were not treated well. I loved going camping with my family Though my mother preferred spending time with other ladies in the neighborhood during the day, she did make us lunch and read us bedtime stories, which was nice. I lived for holidays and birthdays which were always huge and celebratory for many days. During these times everyone got along and we had great food! BTW, Im tall and thin. Lucky me for my fast metabolism, tho now it doesnt matter. Id just like to say in summation, if theres a remedy to help me get my energy, strength back and stop being so ultra sensitive, stop my outbreaks and help me emotionally. I used to be very carefree and happy go lucky with lots of joy. I had sooo much energy. Enough for ten people.. Ive become very depressed, angry and punishing. I no longer enjoy life. Thats just not me. I hope this wasnt too long. Thank you!!
candra 9 years ago
More information usually a good thing :)
I will get to work on this and let you know what I think you should do.
I will get to work on this and let you know what I think you should do.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Thank you! I forgot to add that I feel very toxic, like heavy with toxicity esp. in the morning. Glad I wasn't too informative!!
candra 9 years ago
Hi, I made a mistake, I prefer sleeping on my left side. It's been awhile since the post. Please let me know if you are just busy or are not interested in my case? Thank you.
candra 9 years ago
Hi, I haven't heard anything for a while. I'm wonderingif you're very busy or maybe just not interested at the moment? Thank you.
candra 9 years ago
My apologies, I was away for over a week and unexpectedly cut off from the internet. I will look at this right now.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
This is a big case. A LOT of symptoms - almost an overwhelming number. What I have had to do is try and focus on a central theme here. I looked at the FEAR, TERROR, and the themes of VIOLENCE and being PURSUED.
Alright this is what I want you to do.
Obtain Belladonna 30c, and 200c. You will start with 30c first, and only move to 200c if I ask you to. Obtain these preferably as a liquid remedy (oral dosing liquid)
If you have obtained pillules or pellets, you will need a small bottle and a dropper to make your own liquid dose. Mix water and alcohol into this small bottle to the ratio of 5:1. Dissolve 3 pillules/pellets into this bottle. All doses will be made from this bottle.
If you already have a liquid dose just start from step 1.
1. Hit the bottle 5 times firmly against the palm of the hand
2. Place 3 drops into 100mls of clean fresh water
3. Stir very thoroughly
4. Take 2 teaspoons out into the mouth and hold for 20 seconds, then swallow.
This is one dose and the same steps should be taken for any further doses, unless I ask you to change them in some way.
If any old symptoms reappear, or any current symptoms worsen, this is a GOOD sign in most cases. DO NOT SUPPRESS them with other kinds of medication unless you are in real danger (which is a highly unlikely reaction to a remedy).
However, if you are on regular medication it is also important that you do NOT stop taking this unless it is perfectly safe to do so. Once it is determined the medicine has acted beneficially, we can look at reducing such medication. Regular medication in this instance is NOT defined as other homoeopathic medicines which MUST be stopped. Tissue salts are the same as homoeopathic medicines and are in this category, as are Bach Flowers, Flower Essences, and Bush Flower Essences.
For the 30c, I want you to take 3 doses, one each day. Do not take all if you get a reaction to any one of them.
Alright this is what I want you to do.
Obtain Belladonna 30c, and 200c. You will start with 30c first, and only move to 200c if I ask you to. Obtain these preferably as a liquid remedy (oral dosing liquid)
If you have obtained pillules or pellets, you will need a small bottle and a dropper to make your own liquid dose. Mix water and alcohol into this small bottle to the ratio of 5:1. Dissolve 3 pillules/pellets into this bottle. All doses will be made from this bottle.
If you already have a liquid dose just start from step 1.
1. Hit the bottle 5 times firmly against the palm of the hand
2. Place 3 drops into 100mls of clean fresh water
3. Stir very thoroughly
4. Take 2 teaspoons out into the mouth and hold for 20 seconds, then swallow.
This is one dose and the same steps should be taken for any further doses, unless I ask you to change them in some way.
If any old symptoms reappear, or any current symptoms worsen, this is a GOOD sign in most cases. DO NOT SUPPRESS them with other kinds of medication unless you are in real danger (which is a highly unlikely reaction to a remedy).
However, if you are on regular medication it is also important that you do NOT stop taking this unless it is perfectly safe to do so. Once it is determined the medicine has acted beneficially, we can look at reducing such medication. Regular medication in this instance is NOT defined as other homoeopathic medicines which MUST be stopped. Tissue salts are the same as homoeopathic medicines and are in this category, as are Bach Flowers, Flower Essences, and Bush Flower Essences.
For the 30c, I want you to take 3 doses, one each day. Do not take all if you get a reaction to any one of them.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Thank you so much, I was worried I was being overwhelming. How large should the small bottle be, or how many times should I be able to use the three drops in 100 ml. or am I being too nitpicky or maybe I didn't understand. Thank you so much for your help, Candra
candra 9 years ago
I usually use a bottle 15-25mls.
Every time you take a dose, you will start from step 1. This means step 2 is always with fresh, clean water, not the water you used for the previous dose.
Make sure you clean the glass or cup between doses as well, and be careful no-one drinks from it before you do (or they may get a dose of the remedy!).
Every time you take a dose, you will start from step 1. This means step 2 is always with fresh, clean water, not the water you used for the previous dose.
Make sure you clean the glass or cup between doses as well, and be careful no-one drinks from it before you do (or they may get a dose of the remedy!).
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Hi again, I do not mean to be a pain, but I looked up the Belladonna. Much of it seems to suit me (unfortunately) except it says Belladonna people are vital. I am rather weak and have almost no vitality. So I'm worried if I take it, it might help with the other things, but make me weaker? I don't think I could get through the day if I was any weaker/more fatigued than I am now. I used to be very vital up until a few years ago, but not now. Thank you for your kindness and I hope I'm not trying your patience.
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candra 9 years ago
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