Erectile Dysfunction with Existing Sexual Desire

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Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experience and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering? State the correct location of pain or suffering.
Erectile Dysfunction I think what I am suffering from. During young age, I had enough sexual urge and drive and also strong erection. But never indulged into sex with anybody. Only masturbation I used to do. Even several times a day because of my extreme drive. Now I am married. My wife loves me so dearly that she is always ready to sacrifice her pleasure for me. I have sexual urge but almost no erection. Almost because sometimes I get erection while I think of sex or watch porn but that erection is not enough to have sex and even shortlived. The slight erection then dies out. I have seen that it is difficult for me to get erection when lying down but I sometimes get slight erection when standing, I wonder if it can happen or just coincidence. Even carressing my body or even genital never help me to gain erection.

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?
No physical suffering I have. I have Hypo Thyroidism but for years I have been treated for it and now I am okay. But my ED started much much before I was diagnosed with thyroidism.

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?
Agony, Dipression because I can not give pleasure to my beloved.

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst? Describe the sensation in your own words.
I feel like I am a failure. I am shy, introvert so I can not reach out to doctors for help.

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease? What was happening in your life just before these symptoms were noticed?
I was never physically ill in that sense except for when I was diagnosed with hypo thyroidism.

6. What time of the day do you suffer the most? What time of the day /night do you feel most energetic and happy?
During my youth, I used to like evenings because I love to set out to watch movies or eat out. But I always disliked nights because I used to get nightmares related to my boyhood. My father was a tyrant and he used to torture both my mother and me, tortures us, throw us out of the apartment and even we lived several days at my maternals, spent night outside sitting on the stairs with my mother. I was an extremely intelligent student. I could pass my exams (not with flying colours) even studying for few weeks just before the exams. I never liked school studies because I always liked those unusual studies that help me to exercise my brain. Later on I studied foreign languages, tried to learn computer programming, and so on. When I grew up, I grew up to be an extremely logical person, self-criticising person. I can never escape my conscience even if I do something wrong. I hardly can escape my soul. I kept on modifying myself, tried my best to curb my inner vices but nobody knew that. I was never greedy of money, fame or such things. I hate narcissism, hypocrisy. To be honest, if by any chance I do anything wrong, I might not be able to say it to anybody but I start condemning myself. I even sometimes hit myself, slapped myself but honestly I try my best never to commit the same wrong again. I never became like my father. I unknowingly became right opposite to my father. I used to love my mother greatly. My mother taught many good things to me since childhood but later I discovered that she failed to perform them in her own life. It was a shock to me. Anyways She failed to understand my pains, agonies. I felt utter loneliness, depression and despair. I was hugely career-driven being since boyhood, I didn’t know what to do but I always thought that I have to do something that can be wonderful, so that I never repent that I took birth to eat, sleep and talk. But when I discovered that I failed to do anything that I wanted to do in my life because of terrible domestic violence, I fell into depression but I hardly exploded, rather imploded, like hiding myself inside a coccoon, like preparing myself for that apt time, waiting for that time that will change my life. It might sound foolish to you that during boyhood, I wrote to some internationally renowned personalities for job so that I could escape that miserable life for my mother amd me. Today I laugh at that silly innocence of mine. I started dreaming horrifying, ghostly entities, accidents but those dreamy events took place inside or just outside of the very apartment we suffered. My father also did a bad thing; he always took me with him to see whenever any ghastly accidents took place nearby. I could never sleep at night after seeing those accidents. After marriage, in 2010 I started getting homeopathic treatment from a nearby doctor and after his treat for a year or more, my dreams vanished, although reappeared but only a few times, rarely, very rarely. The great thing of my nature is that the external influences make me pessimistic or depressed but after a few minutes I regain optimism. I have seen that optimism naturally emerge from inside and probably that is keeping me alive and trying. Now the main problem is ED. I discovered my ED in 2002 probably when I first tried to have sex with my then girlfriend and I failed after a little erection and since then it continued. Although very rarely I could do sex with my wife and then it was a little bit satisfactory but that was very rare although the erection was not enough.

7. What are the things that aggravate your suffering and those that ameliorate the same? Example: time, hot or cold application, pressure, rubbing, washing, eating, tight clothing, sweating, walking, climbing, stool etc.
Thinking of my beloved, or my previous girlfriend sometimes give me a little erection, nearly 50% but mostly in standing position, while taking a shower. Other than that I hardly feel any changes. But I have noticed that when the transparent pre-ejaculate liquid that gets out of the penis when think of sex, is abundant. It secretes in good quantity.


8. Do you think your sufferings have direct relation to any particular external factor or are it something to do with your own biological changes?
9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?
My favourite climate is monsoon. I like winter because of the enjoyment I can indulge myself into, like eating out, movies, but dislike it because my skin is little dry. I hate humidity and during humid hot weather, I take shower several times. I dislike smelly unclean sweaty skin.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Please pick out the adjectives which best describe your personality; (at least 10)
Nervous, Anxious, Shy, Worrying, Paranoid, Proud, Unsocial, Guilty, Depressed, Hypochondriac, Untidy, Weepy, Emotional, Impractical, Confused, Suspicious, Jealous, Timid, Aggressive, Headstrong, Forgetful, Follower, Insecure, Immature, Impulsive, Rigid, Restless, Feminine, Empathetic, Introverted.
I can only say my present mental set up. I am extremely optimistic, although too logical, and this logical set up of my mind, often shows me the negetive aspects of life, chances of failure and so on. Sometimes I am anxious, worrying, but not always depressed. Only failure makes me depressed. I love to see change but also afraid of changes because I worry if that change brings bad luck. I feel for the future security and safety of my wife; always think what will happen to my wife if I die. I am mostly introverted, only open with my close friends and my wife. In other words, you can call me unsocial too because I only interact with the people I know. I am suspicious sometimes, I don’t believe my own race. I am masculine but hate to show machoism. Financially impractical, but love to take challenges for future. I only worry for the future of my beloved. I am not jealous in that sense but I hate to see unworthy people playing with wealth. Yes I get aggressive while faced with opposition. I am not a follower not even intentionally try to lead. Whatever work I do, I try to do perfectly. Perhaps I am perfectionist. I love clean tidy room, clothes. I love to eat salty stuffs and then sweets. I prefer sweets over anything. Yes I used to have good memory but after thyroidism, I forget. But recovered considerably than before.

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?
I love thunderstorm, rain.

- How do you respond to consolation during your tough times?
I accept consolation normally but I always think with my sense logic.

- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc.?
Surely I dislike foul, bad smell. I feel like vomiting if such smell enters through my nostrills. I can tolerate noise but not that I like them always. Light is alright but since boyhood I always prefered dark room while watching tv. It relaxes my eyes, mind. But I don’t mind light either. The only thing that bothers me is foul smell. It can disrupt the peace of my mind.
- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless Weeping, talking to one self etc?
I used to do nailbiting years before but that doesn’t exist any longer, but I bite my hairs in moustache while engrossed into thinking, watching movies. Yes recently I have noticed this ‘Talking to myself’while alone, mainly while taking shower. I try my best to avoid it because I hate it.

- How do you get along with your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?
My wife is a born comedian. Her existence soothes my mind and also I fear to lose her. We don’t have any children although desire to adopt a girl asap. Friends are rare in my life, a few good friends are there and I get along well with them. I have already told you about my parents. My mother could not adapt herself with my wife. My mother is good person with some vices she can not curb.

-What is your profession? Do you love your profession? What is your dream job?
I wanted to do something with space science stuffs while I was a student. But I work as a mechanical staff in a central government establishment. I hate what I do. I am surrounded with mostly incompetent beings. They might have certificates but they don’t have intellect. Although I hate my job but I try do it perfectly; I am not adamant but I don’t show subordination either. I might not always express my feelings, but I move logically. Even in work, I am efficient in what I do because I am extremely logical.

-Did you have any bereavement in life? How has it affected you?
No bereavements. But I feel sad for some relatives of my mother who died trying to save my mother and I from the severe tyranny of my father. My father never became a good person, rather those good people died. They died worrying about us. I feel terribly bad for those poor souls.

-Do you have any issues regarding your parenting by guardians?
I told you about my parents. My father was an egoistic tyrant and my mother was an absolutely sensitive unselfish immature lady.

-Can you remember any unfortunate incident in life that you want to forget?
My whole childhood that I want to forget.

-How do you respond to music? Do you feel better or worse mentally listening to music?
I love my favourite set of music. I love gentle love songs, I love beautiful love numbers played on piano. Most of the songs are English.

- What upsets you most in yourself and in others?
The vices I inherited as an Indian. I try my best every moment not be become a hypocrite fraud person. I know perhaps I have done many a bad things in the past, I never repeated them and never I will. I hate bragging, posing what most of the people here do. I want to be a simple person.

11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?
I wrote that in detail. I used to dream horrible dreams related to my childhood place. In my dreams, I always worried about my mother.

12. What do you crave in food items and what are your aversions?
I love chocolates, candies, sweets, sometimes salty stuffs and try to avoid sour stuffs, although I sometimes eat mango pickles but that is the only sour thing. During winters, I love to drink coffee. Sometimes tea throughout the year but always with something to eat while drinking coffee and tea.

13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?
I sweat a lot. Even thinking can give sweat during summer especially. So I get thirsty a lot during summers. But during winters I oftern forget to drink. I love to drink chilled water during summers because I can enjoy any food with chilled water.

14. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?
I don’t get hugry that much. I only eat during my eating time.

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand?
If I eat the slightest of any food made with hot chillies, my body immediately reacts by sweathing, especially the top of my head. The top of my head gets wet with sweat.

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?
I sweat profusely. Head, chest, arms, legs.

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type? Do you have any abnormal smell in the urine?
Not constipated but little softer. Feel like going latrine more than once. Too much flatulence, gas. No abnormal smell, as I don’t drink that much water, my urine is mostly yellowish during summers. Supppose if I eat spice hot food that involves hot chillies in dinner, I feel the heat inside my stomach in the morning.

18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?
No. I start normally with straight upward looking. In the morning, I find myself turned sidewise and rarely upside down. During childhood, I had light sleep but now I sleep deeply, although I fell asleep when I am tired. If I am not tired, I don’t sleep. I feel, sleeping is wasting the time.


19. Do you think you are able to address your libido in general? Would you say your drive is low, normal or high?
Now it is very low and I written in detail in your earlier questions.

20. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual sensation, thoughts or feelings? How are you different from others?
I have a fear of ghosts, although my logical mind denies.

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?
I have taken some herbal stuffs but nothing has changed.

22. What major diseases have run in the family in the last two generations both sides?
My mother has got Hyper Thyroidism since many years back. My mother has got acidity and I feel slight acidity in my mouth. I mostly brush my teeth soon after whatever I eat.

23. Describe your overall appearance with respect to your BMI, skin type, muscular or flabby etc.
In 2005 I met with a bike accident. My right knee was broken, then also a homeopathic doctor helped to recover. Then the symptoms of thyroidism started appearing. Although before that accident I used exercise daily and after the very accident, I could not exercise any longer. I am now nearly 82 kgs in weight and my height is 5 feet 6 inches. I used to be muscular previously but now I am a liittle flabby. Probably my skin is mixed. During winters, the T-Zone on my face is oily but rest of the body is dry, highly dry.

24. What major diseases have you had in your life and when. Please write them in a chronological manner.
(For Females)
25. If your menstrual cycles are not normal, please describe all irregularities, like pains, moods, flow type, clots etc. as below:
- Are your periods generally regular, early or delayed? What is the usual cycle duration?
- Describe the sensations and locations of pain before, during and after the flow.
- How do you generally deal with your sufferings during periods? Do you have any non-medical way of relieving your suffering?
- What is the duration of flow? Is it heavy, medium or light?
- Do you observe clots?
- Do you have mid-cycle spotting? What are the days you have spotting?
- Describe changes in your mental condition or any other peculiar symptom that surfaces before, during or after the flow.
- Do your sufferings increase or decrease as soon as the flow begins?
- Did you ever take birth control pills on a regular basis?
- Have you ever been treated earlier or recently for any gynecological irregularity?

Wholehearted Thanks to you for your prescribed medicine. I will start asap and let you know later. Thanks a lot again.
[message edited by droide on Fri, 19 Jun 2015 10:40:27 UTC]