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Hello Kaps,

Thank you for taking my case again.

I tried to change the name to something else but the website does not have option to change the name but others. But I will try to find another way, again.

I don’t know why but I really am reluctant to meet people or talk to them. It’s like a punishment for me. Specially after I have gone through so many difficulties in the past few years(I was handling everything by myself for 5 years)
I just feel most of the people don’t have real feelings for others. They just show off or Bragg about things.


I have a long list of remedies (in pellets) that I have at home.

In 200 ck potency I have:
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Chamomilla
Lac Canninum
Staphysagria
Lithium Carb
Calc Phos
Magnesia Phosphorica
Anacardium OR
Argentum Nitricum
Aconite
Ruta
Sepia
Lycopodium
Ars Alb
Rus Tox
Belladonna
Nat Mur 200 and 1M
Psorinum
Arnica Montana
Kali Bromatum
Sulphur
Aurum Metallicum
Aloe Soc
Aloe
Hyoscyamus Niger
Thuja
Apis Mel
Coffee Cruda
Colocynthis
Naja
Gelsemium
Nux Vomica
Causticum
Adrenalinum
Calc Carb
Lachesis
Ignatia
Phosphoric Acid
Hura Brasiliensis
Kali Phos
Nitricum Acidum
Tarentula Hisp 200X
Stramonium
Kali Bromatum
Buddleja Davidii
Pulsatilla
Bryonia
Viola OD
Carcinosinum

Potency 30 C
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Sulphur
Sepia
Anacardium OR
Nat Mur
Ignatia Amara
Ars Alb
Hyoscyamus Niger
Gelsemium
Lycopodium
Terebinthina
Mercurius Solubilis
Agnus Castus
Arnica Montana
Causticum
Lachesis
Kali phos
Apis Mel
Cantharis
Nux Vomica
Ipecacuanha
Staphysagria
Cammomila
Pulsatilla
Calc Phos
Burberis Vulgaris
Kali Carb
Sulphur

Potency 1M
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Phos Acid
Nat Carb
Colocynthis
Nat Mur
Ars Alb
Aconite
Lithium Carb

If it's a popular remedy and is easily available it takes 2-3 days to reach me if I order online. Otherwise, it’s really hard to find sophisticated remedies .

Thank you for your help.
[Edited by depression1 on 2021-12-01 20:21:58]

Hello Kaps

I took a dose of Staph 30 last night as per your advice.
I think I have been having mild aggregation since this morning.
I feel like something is squeezing my head because of which I am a little agitated. I hope it's gonna go away soon.

One of my past stories:
I was alone struggling here in the USA with my little daughter. So I had so many ups and downs at that time as a single mother. We were married for 7 years then.
My husband was a very irresponsible person, very laid back, very lazy and never did anything significant even after his Phd graduation. He could have done so many things for success here in the USA, as there were many opportunities here than back home. But he chose to go back. I decided to stay back here as I didn't see any good future back home with an irresponsible person like him. So he went back home in 2012 without us.
And I was here working and taking care of my then 4 years old daughter. I was having so many difficulties raising my daughter, but I never wanted my daughter to be raised in a developing country if I could raise her here. I did not want to lose the opportunity to give her the best I could. So I stayed back.
In the process of raising her I had to beg for help from others (relatives) some turned me down. Some helped me but I had to pay for their service. Nobody was there to support me selflessly. So I missed A supportive Husband,
My husband did nothing back home. He was staying home with his mom.
So I was like 'If I had gone back with him, I would have struggled there more than what I did here'. So I did not regret my choice of staying back here without him. My daughter was my biggest strength and biggest support for me even though she was just 4-5 years old.
It was really hard to take care of my daughter and go to work at the same time.
Everybody was suggesting that I forget about him and move on, find another person as he already said He was not coming back to the USA. But I was reluctant to do that because I was not sure what kind of person I would end up with if I found another one. What if the other one turns out the same as him or maybe worse.
So I was just expecting him to be back, if not for me but for his daughter.
I waited for him for 5 years and finally he came back in 2017. But he was still making excuses not to work from the bottom up. I did not say anything to him as I needed somebody to take care of my daughter when I go to work. At least I had to work full time. So I let him do what he decided. He was doing part time UBER. I was kind of relieved at least I did not need to put my daughter in somebody else's care but her dad's.
But the sad part was, my daughter always had complaints about him not being nice enough to her like her friends' dads. She said He was too bossy and annoying., He was never polite and did not respect others.
I tried to make things better between them but she never liked him because of his unfriendly behavior. She was so excited when I told her, her dad was coming back. She had so many expectations from her dad but she never found any of the characteristics in him that she was dreaming of. She was disappointed. I was disappointed too but thought things would get better as time passed by.
Finally, after 4 years of his comeback, he got a job in a different state. I did not want to move to a different state but also did not want him to lose the rare opportunity. So we are here in a new place, starting a new life. Now my girl just turned a teen. My husband does not know how to handle her, he always bosses around and she doesn't like it. They still argue sometimes. She always asks me to send him back so nobody is there to annoy her.
I expect him to change his behavior towards her. But he doesn't understand. He is very nagging which irritates me a lot too. He sometimes tries to control me and my daughter for no reason. which is really inappropriate. He is an orthodox.

I am still hoping our lives will be better. I just want to ignore some of his behaviors.
I have become too sensitive after all these happenings. So I get so irritated in some situations. I hate when my husband takes me for granted.
I don't care much about others as well. I rather stay quiet and aloof.
I love my daughter, my parents and my brother.
And these people are enough for me for my life.
I think everybody else was faking a relationship with me. No cousins were there , No Inlaws were there to help me when I was all alone, fighting.. Even if I am in any kind of trouble again in life I know nobody except my parents and my brother will care and worry about me. So I moved on from the people whom I don't need. I don't think I need to be in touch with them ever. I know this is a negativity but I really can't fake things and give a fake smile to them.
I have become a strong woman now. But sometimes my anxiety and depression pull me down and I need to take help from the homeopathy. Even Though I know what is wrong and what is right in this world, it's very difficult to control my mind, so I become so anxious and depressed.
I have been taking homeopathy's help for about 10 years now.


Thank you for listening

Hello Kaps,

Yes you are right Past is gone but the aftermath of those past situations is still sticking with me. I am totally a different person now.

I took another dose of Staph 30 last night as per your advice .

Current update:

I woke up tired this morning.

My head is bit heavy and congested and has a dull ache.
—-These days my mind doesn't process anything quickly. I need to repeat more and more to understand some things. e.g. I am learning Analytics these days but I don't understand simple things as easily as before. I can't do simple calculations as easily as before.
My head is bit congested. I feel like there is a fog inside my brain which is blocking things to come for processing. I forget things so easily nowadays. I have a bad memory power now. My head is not clear and light.

—-I don't have much hatred towards my husband like before. It’s been improved by 50%. I am less irritated with his words and gestures.
But that does not mean I have started loving him. I can’t force myself to love him. I could not develop love for him ever, as he broke my trust so many times, he led me to sufferings so many times. I don’t have any respect for him. As such I could not develop good feelings towards him as yet. Now, I just hope he does not create more problems again in future.
—-I don’t have much thoughts about the rudeness of my cousins towards me which happened just because I didn’t communicate with them by phone. They wanted to teach me a lesson and started ignoring me. Its not bothering me as before.
—-I want to start a new life happily without any complaints. I am trying for it myself and also am seeking help from Homeopathy.
I love the way Homeopathy works by taking into consideration a Person's overall mental and physical Personality and not by generalizing people in the same category. So I have hope here.

Thank you for your help and remedy suggestion

Hello Kaps,

Sorry, I will try to write an update as soon as I can

Sometimes I wait to write the response because often after I send updates of the effect of the remedy my condition changes in a few hours.

Tonight's update:

My head is still congested and has a burning feeling inside.
My irritation has not improved furthermore. It's still about 50% and I hope it will improve with time. I just want to wait for a little more to see any further improvements, if you think it's okay.
Now my main suffering these days is hard to process things especially Mathematical problems or Reasoning problems. It's hard to understand what my teacher is explaining to me. I have to ask the same thing or the same explanation again and again. It feels like something is on the way, blocking my brain.
I get stressed out too easily with overwhelming feelings. If somebody gives me more responsibilities, it stresses me out. I forget things quickly nowadays.
I feel so much pressure inside my brain if there are added responsibilities.

Thank you.

Hello Kaps,
I did not wake up tired today. I still have to pressurize my brain to solve mathematical problems though I was a very good student when I was in school and colleges.
I have been trying to start a fresh since I moved to this new place.
I am going to take 3 doses of Staph 30 starting tonight. Will give you update after 24 hours.

Thanking you.

Hello Kaps,

I took three doses of Staph 30 in 24 hours, as per your advice.

current update:
The congestion in my head is almost clear now. about 70% improved. There were no classes for me yesterday and today so I can't tell if I have started understanding my teacher's explanation. I have a lot of hope that I do.
I was a bit angrier and irritated and a bit depressed today. My head was hurting too. I felt like my whole body was burning. Maybe a part of the aggregation from the remedy.
Overall I am much better than before now. There is not much of a hate feelings inside.
I have noticed in myself now that I have become more sympathetic towards vulnerable people or helpless people. I feel empathy for my dad who cannot walk well because of his back problem. And my mom is not much of a help for him, she has hated him her whole life. She does not care about him that much.
She has her own reasons for that but I love my dad, no matter what.
He sounds so pathetic every time I call him. I don't want him to suffer like that. I wish I could help him in any way.

That’s all I could update for now.
Thank you.

Hello Kaps,

First of all, my parents are back home and Homeopathy and homeopaths and remedies are not easily available there. Very few people understands the concept of Homeopathy.
Nobody is there to help them getting homeopathic medicines. My mom is 69 and my dad is 78. Mom is still active and my dad has some psychiatric problems and back problems. It’s really not possible to empower them about homeopathy.

Secondly, My mom and dad were pharmacists once. They don’t believe in alternative medicines. In my family I am the only true believer in homeopathy.
Because I have been benefited by it.

I don’t have anything much to update today besides I was not much struggling to grasp the lesson my teacher was teaching today. But today’s lesson was the lesson I already knew before so, I can’t tell precisely at the moment. Give me more time to update on this. But my head is not foggy like before.

I will update you once I see more improvements and/ or new symptoms.

Thank you for your help so far.

Hello Kaps,

Update after the last dose.

I am little, may be 15-20% more better than the last time now. But my head is still congested.
About learning process, I am still understanding the class contents slowly. I have to pressurize my brain and repeatedly go over the lessons to understand. I can’t understand things as quickly as before. It feels like some thing is there as a blockage inside my brain. That’s why I am not able to focus and understand the class lessons properly. My calculations is still not improving. I used to be a bright student before in my 20s and 30s. Now my brain function in this regard is much slower.
My head is congested and has a dull pain inside.
It may be because I am stressing myself out for learning and passing my exams. I hate to fail. Failures make me disappointed. I never failed academically. I hate to have this slow processing hinderances.
Please suggest.

Thank you.

Hello Kaps,
I am not good at Assimilation reproduction if I need to pick among those.
So Hyoscyamus will work for this too ?

Please suggest.

Thank you.

Hi,
Yes I can retain it once I understand.
Its very hard to understand what the teacher is teaching. Even if the teacher is saying in a simple way. I feel like my mind has become significantly dull. My mind is not as sharp as before due to so much of stress I had gone through.

I am learning Data Analytics and I need to do simple as well as complex calculations for the analysis. I can’t grasp things quickly like before. I have to listen to the class recordings again and again to understand the topic.

If I don’t understand at any point during the learning then my mind gets stuck there and start struggling and all the other explanations from there onwards go away from the top of my head. I can’t catch and put all together to grasp until somebody explain it to me until I understand. Sometimes its so embarrassing to ask simple questions in the classroom.

I took the third dose this morning.

I have been having a headache since afternoon and huge head congestion. I am not sure if this is an aggravation from the remedy Or because of the pressure of the study. I want to wait for 1-2 days more to give more on current updates, if that’s okay. My head is still congested and so heavy.

More things to share
I can’t pressurize my mind, if I do I feel like I will have a breakdown. These days I have a huge load on my brain because of the study and since I have lost my capability of calculations I have to give too much pressure on my brain, which is giving me difficulty. I feel like I am struggling to achieve a goal. I hate failures. I want to succeed in one attempt. I know it’s always not possible but I am afraid to fail.
I panic if I see there is too much left to do. I always feel, I don’t have much time and I have to do a lot. So I feel frustrated and panicky.

Thank you.

Hello Kaps,
I took a dose of Belladona 200
last night. By this evening,
My head congestion and headache have been better by about 80 % now.
My calculation power has not much improved but improved, may be by 20-30%.

Overall, I am much better than before.


Thank you for your help.

Hello Kaps,
update as of today:
My head is heavy and I am depressed again.
I am again getting irritated and bothered by my husband's behaviors. His gestures irritate me all the time.
He is totally the opposite of me in nature, which is why I get irritated quite often.
He is so loud, he does not show any manners in public, he just passes his judgment about other people criticizing them. I hate to hear that again and again. I don't care what other people do in their lives, it's none of my business. But he always judges/comments, sometimes about people's looks, people's driving ability, people's opinion, etc and I have to listen to all these quietly because I try to ignore his comments (but all the time it is not possible). I don't know why on earth he has to care about all these things. I wonder, why can't he just put his mind to something creative? He was telling me that he is not doing well at work,.....he could focus on how to improve his capability if he wants...The thought of him being fired from the job freaks me out.

I try to ignore as much as I can, but sometimes I feel so overwhelmed, so frustrated.

He wants me to listen to him all the time even though there is not any relevant topic.
When I try to suggest something to him, he says he doesn't need my suggestion or advice on anything. He does what he wants and when he gets in trouble, he gives me stress and trouble too. Last time as well, he had a stroke. I used to advise him not to drink any alcohol as he had hypertension, but as usual, he never listened to me and kept on drinking. And in June 2019 he had a stroke and got right side paralyzed And I was so stressed out as it was an added stress for me. I had my work, my household stuff, and a daughter and on top of that, his disability. It was a horrible moment for me.
Since the beginning of the marriage, he has given me so many troubles and I have been tolerating all of his tantrums and troubles. Still for the sake of marriage or maybe a fear of loneliness I am tolerating all the odd things that life has been giving me. I am still hoping for the best out of this marriage.

My head is heavy again and has a burning feeling inside.
We argued today, I tried not to, but couldn't help myself. We tried to hurt each other verbally. He was yelling at me and I didn't like it and I yelled back at him as a defense.
I don't like it when people tend to control me for no reason. I get irritated.
These days, I feel like I am his puppet as I do not have a job. I can't do any jobs right now as there will not be anybody for my daughter in this new place. I do not want to leave her alone at home. And also I am taking this course as well.
I feel so helpless from time to time. I just want to run away but I can't...
Please help.