Anxiety, depression, delusions of grandeur? _{Page 2 of 2}

Hello Sameer

I have just recently got over my illness and I will now take my first dose today. I'll keep you updated

Thanks for enquiring

Regards

Sameer

I took the dose in the gentler water version 3 days ago and have not noticed any noticeable reaction at all.

Should I wait or take the dose without dissolving

Thanks

Sameer

It has been 10 days and nothing noticeable has occurred.

Regards

Hello Sameer

Delusions of grandeur - maybe i am using this term a little loosely. It is not as if i feel any better than anyone else, but like i have said before it is if i know something more than most on a deeper level, ( hence the earlier comment of feeling on a different plane), although it is not something than can be easily put into words. I feel as though i have awakended something inside me on a more spiritual which draws my attention inside, which can make me disconnected slightly with the outside world - perhaps why i find it hard to connect with people. I feel a bit too fragmented and dont have the right balance of internal/external. I tend to be either one or the other. I feel the above will be balanced out if the paranoia could be adressed.

Paranoia - there is the paranoia of people observing everything i do, to the point of just walking down a busy street on my own can be hard, as i am fully aware of every move i make may be observed. Sitting in a waiting room or similar with other people can be very difficult uinless i focus my attention on something i.e phone, paper. If i just sit i am too aware of my every move which can cause an uncomfrotable energy which i am sure people pick up on. I go to regular exercise classes which is fine when there is a task in hand, but at the end of a lesson where everyone will be relaxed and have a standard flowing converstion, this is where i fall down a lot. Whilst coversing I will also be thinking about what people are thinking of me which makes the whole conversation disconnected, so i cant really connect with people because i am too worried what i and they are thinking. I need to stop worrying of peoples opinions so much perhaps and just get on with it.
There is obviously different types of energy about people, and i feel i give off a dark energy due to my worries, which i believe makes it uncomfortable for most people.

My state before drug use was fairly normal, maybe a little shy but nothing out of the ordinary, positive, determind, still very much aware of what others thought, a slight sense of fear of failure.
I am still optimisitc and positive but the sense of awareness of myself seems to have increased.

I need to get things flowing more

I hope this helps you draw some conclusions.

Thanks for your time

I dont believe so but I have a very very bad memory so it's hard to pinpoint.

Do you not think that a dry dose of calcerea carb as first prescribed would be correct?