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Evocationer/Simmone Depression Case Please Help!

Hello Evocationer/Simmone,

I am a 29 year old female suffering from depression since 2008. I will try my best to provide as much information as I can. I have a strong maternal side family history of depression. My grandfather had 14 kids out of which my mom, eldest aunt, uncle and grandfather were all diagnosed with bipolar. My mom has been on lithium since the past 15 years and is doing very well on it. She started it after my birth so it's not like I was exposed to the medicine. I knew that depression was always in my genes but there had to be an incident that provoked it and that was in 2008. I have always been against allopathic medicine but since alternative medicine including homeopathy has slower results I tried it.

I am going to give a quick overview of my childhood. I was born and raised in Pakistan and was the only sister between two brothers. As far as I remember I had a beautiful childhood. The only thing missing was a loving father but my mother tried her best to make up for it. I don't even know how to explain my dad. For a girl father is the first loving male figure you see in your life as he sets the benchmark but I never saw that. He didn't abuse nor was he alcoholic, he just never had time for us or my mom and was very poor in showing his feelings. Till date I don't remember my father ever hugging me :-) He was stubborn and aggressive. I remember when he got angry he would break things. All his weekends were for his friends and he only cared about his entertainment. The only responsibility he fulfilled was financial. I used to get most affected with my dads behavior emotionally and till date do.

I was a very confident child, average in studies and always willing to set and achieve goals. All my uncles and aunts would be proud at my intelligence and business acumen at such a young age. According to my mom I was a stubborn kid but mostly my stubbornness was for a better good for everyone in the end. (Still stubbornness is not always justified and I agree to that :-) I am possessive about my loved ones. I have always seen a weak and crying mother. It was and still is my wish to see a confident mother. I always liked to help the poor and could not see pain. I was quite social and was known as an entertainer amongst my friends.

The only thing I felt sad about when I hit my teens was my health. I always had headaches and mouth ulcers. I have had leucorrhea issues since teens and it has increased now. I hardly had milk as my stomach used to get upset. I have had and still have extremely painful periods. Very sharp cramps in lower abdomen. If I don't take a painkiller on the first sign of pain it gets so bad that I end up vomiting. I bleed heavily and my periods last 4 days. My cycle is a full 30 days. I always used to get annoyed with the heat as I felt they were causing my head aches and mouth ulcers. I remember eating too much ice in my teens and after coming to Canada I found out that as I was extremely low in FERRITIN I had ice cravings Till date I prefer cold weather over hot. I used to get very scared as a kid and could not sleep alone. The moment my mom turned the light off I used to feel someone is watching me. I would not go to the washroom alone. Countless times I ran back to my mom's room in the middle of the night. I was never a morning person, I used to do bad in morning exams as I could not sleep at night. In my teens doctors prescribed me BROMEZAPAM which I took rarely but it worked really well on me. Even today I take it sometimes.

In 2006 I joined my brother in Canada for my further studies. It was a dream come true as I was the first girl from our family who came to a foreign country to study. I was over the moon. I was so passionate and determined and my only aim was to get my family here as I also wanted my younger brother to get foreign education and a better future for my mom. I worked very hard did odd jobs to make ends meet.

My elder brother had invested my mom's and some of her relatives money in stocks and the picture showed to us was that he is very well settled in Canada and that he could support me if I wanted to come.

Until 2008 I didn't even know what depression meant. Yes I was homesick but it was different. In 2008 I came across some paper work which showed that my brother was making big losses in stocks and has taken on more riskier things than he should have. He was in big debts and had loans to repay (Mom's Relatives Investment) as all the investment had become zero. He had stopped studying, was failing courses and all his fees (high international tuition) was going down the drain. I was devastated with what I saw, I didn't know how to tell all this to mom who had such high hopes from her eldest son. She had invested all her life savings on him. I didn't know how my weak mother would absorb that and who to take help from.

After that incident me and my brother had to leave Canada due to financial difficulties. We could no longer afford the international tuition fees. My whole future was ruined as I left my studies in the middle. After coming back home the only hope to go back to Canada was on immigration.

On our pressure my dad had applied immigration in 2004 but due to his irresponsible nature he made a lot of mistakes in the paperwork due to which our immigration file kept on getting delayed.

After reaching back home in 2008 I was a completely different person. I don't remember much but I would cry a lot, stopped seeing friends, slept 12 hours a day, palpitations, anger mainly on my dad and brother for ruining our future. Overall it was an extremely stressful situation.

My mom used to be very worried for me and despite of me being against medicines she forced me to see a psychiatrist. The same one who had been treating my mom. He gave me PAROXETINE I forgot the strength but it was a mild dose. The side effects were horrible ( Weird headaches, nausea and too much drowsiness) That was the only allopathic that helped me a little. I took it for 6 months though the doctor advised for a year. It made me capable enough to stand on my feet and find a job back home.

My heart and soul was still in Canada and I just wanted to come back and get my foreign degree somehow and make my mother proud. My whole family was miserable as we were going through the most stressful time of our lives and my dad's irresponsible behaviour kept on adding to it.

By mid of 2010 when I had enough savings I decided to come back to Canada to resume studies. I had lot of difficulty focusing and things were not the same. One morning I started getting suicidal thoughts and I rushed to my university clinic. After hearing my history the psychiatrist put me on ESCITALOPRAM 10 MG. I got horrible side affects mainly nausea and headaches. I could only bare it for 3 months after that I stopped it.

Fortunately by 2011 my family got immigration and they all moved to Canada. As me and my brother were the only ones knowing the ins and outs about Canada the pressure of settling our family in was on us.
In general even it is very stressful to leave your home country and settle abroad, our stresses were aggravated due to the past baggage of sorrows.

People had started asking for their money back and as my mother was answerable she was going through a horrible time. The only priority I had at that time was to get my mother's dignity back in the eyes of her relatives.

As we came on entrepreneur category in order to be eligible in Canada we had to operate some sort of business creating job opportunity for people other than the immediate family members. As cost of doing business was much higher in bigger cities like Toronto we had to take an outrageous decision of moving to a remote smaller town because we found a very good franchise business opportunity. An opportunity that would help pay us our bills and save enough to pay off the loans in a timely manner. The immediate drawback was that we had to move to a smaller city with hardly any people from our ethnic community and work 7 days a week with no days off. We took the tough decision and moved. We stayed there for almost 3 years (until March 2014), made good money and paid off the loans and saved a decent amount for ourselves.

During those three years my elder brother's anxiety and anger had also hiked as all his friends had graduated on the right time, some were married and were already well settled. He was left way behind and his insecurities arose. He started swearing due to being in a highly stressful business doing menial jobs. Swearing changed into brutal swearing which left our family very miserable at work, specially myself.

I was already half dead before moving to the smaller city but those three years took away everything I had . I worked like a dog, had no social life. Whatever I earned I gave away to pay my brothers loans. I started getting migraines that would last 72 hours and felt sensitive to light and sound. Mostly my headaches were one sided sharp pains. My neck and shoulder muscles were always tensed and felt like rocks, terrible pains around and in between shoulder blades mainly upper back. I had painful scalp points. Hyper acidity mainly at night. I got horrible eczema on face and hands. I was devastated but I still kept on pushing myself.

I wasn't brain dead as I was running my own business I was just emotionally dead. I had no Joy, stopped watching TV. Could not feel the taste even of my favourite dishes. Had difficulty crying. My pulse was in early 90's. Nothing excited me. I had no interest in life. I was numb could not feel anything and till date can't.

My family doctor tried many times to put me on anti depressants but my mind would just not accept it. The only question it asked was why me at this age? I knew I needed help and it took some time to accept it. I was convinced to see a homeopath in states who was very famous. She put me on 1M doses of medicines like LYCOPODIUM, NATRUM MURIATICUM, AURUM METALLICUM, ACONITE, SILICEA, PULSATILLA, IGNATIA, CHAMOMILIA, ARSENICUM ALBUM, ANACARDIUM AND A FEW MORE. They were made by her so I am assuming they were alcoholic tinctures.

In short those medicines did a great job in controlling the physical symptoms just like the allopathic did but they lacked the emotional kick I was looking for. There was one prescription which I have no clue what it was gave me a spark for a few days and I was delighted but soon it died down. I wish it lasted a few more days because all I need my doctors is to help me walk and I will start running on my own.

I lost contact with that doctor as she moved to Europe and long distance didn't work. Meanwhile after doing some research online I started with ST.JOHN'S WORT It didn't cure me either but kept me stable and from sinking down to being suicidal.

After a year's gap I again visited a psychiatrist ( I know I always say I am against allopathic but my condition has made me so deprived that even if someone gives me slightest hope I go to them) he prescribed me DIVALPROEX SODIUM. Despite of me constantly denying that I don't have bipolar he still forced me to take it. I took it for 5 months and when I saw no major change in my symptoms I left it.

Currently I am being treated by a naturopath who was not in favour of how I was treated before. She said classical homeopathy is one remedy at a time and you were prescribed a bit too much. As I have learned about my disease and the names of medicines over the years I kind of agreed to her.

She started me off with NATRUM MURIATICUM 1M 3 Pellets once for depression and ACONITE 30CH 3 Pellets each time as needed for occasional palpitations. These were not wet tinctures like before, this time I bought BOIRON company bottles. I started feeling heat in my body. It felt like fire was coming out of my eyes, burning sensations. I got bad anger attacks and got suicidal. I know aggravation is a good sign but it didn't do any benefit for me despite of continuation. On my next visit after hearing my symptoms she reduced my dosage of NATRUM MURIATICUM to 30CH 3 Pellets once for depression as she thought 1M was a bit too much.

As my D3 results came low she also started me with 4000 IU. She also prescribed 30CH STAPHYSAGRIA AND CHAMOMILIA 3 Pellets once alternately for anger.

Aconite did a very decent job in controlling the palpitations. Staphysagria and Chamomilia really calmed down the anger and suicidal thoughts went away. The depression had no change. My personal instinct said that Natrum Muriaticum was not working.

On my third visit she decided to stop the Natrum Muriaticum and advised to take Staphysaria and Chamomilia only if the anger returned and Aconite when I felt fearful or palpitations started. She started me with AURUM METALLICUM 30 CH 3 Pellets once and since she noticed me I was sighing a lot during my conversations she started me with IGNATIA AMARA 30CH 3 Pellets once.

Ignatia did a good job to control the sighing and out of all the medicines Aurum Mettallicum helped in depression in the sense that my aches and pains went down and the push I was giving myself to do things actually worked. I was able to get out of bed, drive and go outside do my chores. Acidity was also in control. It's just that the emotional side, not willing to live no joy part is still unchanged.

On my next visit my naturopath was so happy that she increased the dose of AURUM METTALLICUM TO 200CH 3 Pellets once daily. After about 20 days suddenly for 3 to 4 days I felt extremely dizzy, down and had nausea. I had no clue if this was aggravation or if I overdosed myself. It's been 10 days I haven't taken any medicine.

Since 3 days the burning sensation in my eyes is also back. I have no clue which doctor to trust and what to do.

I have gained almost 25 pounds in the past 5 years due to medications and currently the Atopic dermatitis (ECZEMA) Which is back on my hands is killing me with itching. None of the steroid creams, hydrocortisone or Fucidin H is working.

Please Help!
 
  zarminay on 2015-09-22
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Someone Please reply. This is urgent.
 
zarminay 5 years ago
OK, will come back to you...
 
rishimba 5 years ago
I ll be replying you shortly.

Regards
Mani
 
mani_jee 5 years ago
Rishimba: kindly go ahead with the prescription, since you replied first. However, her first prescription need to undo the effects of aurum met 200. I hope you wont mind if i make her first precription.

Zarminay: unfortunately you have been overdosed by aurum met. It is a deep acting remedy and must not be repeated too often. Kindly take a single dose of syphlanium 200 (not to be repeated daily) and wait for 1 week. It ll undo effects of aurum met. From that onwards rishima will take care of your case.

Regards
Mani
 
mani_jee 5 years ago

[message deleted by Annie 10 on Thu, 24 Sep 2015 07:25:27 UTC]
 
Annie 10 5 years ago
Thank You Rishimba and Mani for your quick reply and being so considerate. I don't mean to offend any practitioner but I really want Evocationer or Simmones advice on this. Please can you ask them to take this over?

Sincerely,
Zarminay
 
zarminay 5 years ago
With the little knowledge I have I feel it was the aggravation :-) as it lasted 4 to 5 days and is over now.
And I don't think I have been overdosed

I have been on Aurum 1M 10 doses a month, one every alternate day, every 2 months back in 2012. I know it is a deep acting remedy but my depression and case is deeper trust me.

Zarminay
 
zarminay 5 years ago
As Mani said, you have been severely overdosed on Aurum Met 1M and you presently need to either be away from any medication for a few months or slowly antidote Aurum met over a few weeks.

Not a problem if you want Evocationer or Simmone to look into your case.

Best wishes.
[message edited by rishimba on Thu, 24 Sep 2015 08:07:08 UTC]
 
rishimba 5 years ago
Hi Zarminay,

Evocationer has not been on this forum for 3 month now and Simone717 has a pause for almost a week. If you click on their usernames you can see the last posts of them.
I suggest you to ask for the help of Rishimba or Mani.

Regards
Adina
 
aflorea 5 years ago
Hello Simmone,

As of October 3rd I see you are active on the forum. I would be very thankful if you can please take over this case and give me some advice.

I have tried to provide a detailed history of my symptoms but still if you feel something is missing please ask.

Your fellow practitioners feel I have been overdosed but I feel I really need medication as i am so numb. I have no will to live and find joy in nothing that i do. Everyday is a push.

I am on day 3 of my period and as this time is the worst time of the month for me my aggravations are rocket high.

Two days before starting my period I got suicidal (last time I was suicidal was in May) I have no clue what to do!

After some research I started Sepia 30CH and I felt a bit better.

Please Help!
 
zarminay 4 years ago
Dear Zarminay,

I have been off the forum, due to family
emergency that I have to take care of and
it is taking all of my time. I responded
to the last person as it is not me, giving
the advice, but Dr. Mohla thru me and it
takes only minutes to ask Dr. Mohla.

If Sepia 30 is helping you, I suggest
that you click on Rishimba's name. See his
email address. Ask him to come back onto
your thread to help you here. He is a
homeopath and a good one, he knows a lot
more than I do.
 
simone717 4 years ago
Hello Simone,

Hope your family emergencies are resolved soon. Thanks a lot for your reply.

Rishimba on simone's advice I would be very Thankful if you can take my case. Extremely sorry for being unresponsive before.

As I am new to this Forum I don't know much plus as I was only reading on mental topics I liked the way Simone and Evocationer advised.

Now that I have started reading your posts I understand that a questionnaire needs to be filled. As I have already filled it I will post it here hoping that you will take my case.

If you want me to start a completely new topic I can also do that.

Regards,
Zarminay
 
zarminay 4 years ago
Female: 29/Single: Looking for a Job:

Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experience and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering? State the correct location of pain or suffering.

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?


Answers 1, 2 and 3

Depression! No Joy, No willingness to live, Have stopped making and achieving goals. Numb don't feel anything. Every day is a push.

I have had headaches since teenage years, have become worst now. Sensitivity to light and sound. Sharp left sided pain with painful scalp points. Very sharp pain at specific points between shoulder blades. Neck and shoulder muscles always tensed and like rocks.

Had very bad and very often mouth ulcers since teenage which have disappeared after hitting 20's.

I have had leucorrhea issues since teens and it has increased now. It happens daily and I have to use a liner every day. It is watery and offensive smelling. Rarely it is jelly like. Mostly white sometimes very light brown. My ultra sound and paps smear test all came normal.

Hyper acidity mainly at night.

Eczema/ Atopic dermatitis since the past 2 years. Mainly on hands last year it was on face. Gets worst by going in the sun. Doctors are confused if it is solar dermatitis. Unbearable itching.


4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst? Describe the sensation in your own words.

Answer:
Hope less, helpless, nothing to look forward to, confused, rushing thoughts, lethargic, numb, sigh a lot, feel like crying, start talking to god and ask why me? Angry, run away from the house for a few hours in worst cases and feel suicidal

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?

Answer:
In 2006 I joined my brother in Canada for my further studies. It was a dream come true as I was the first girl from our family who came to a foreign country to study. I was over the moon. I was so passionate and determined and my only aim was to get my family here as I also wanted my younger brother to get foreign education and a better future for my mom. I worked very hard did odd jobs to make ends meet. My elder brother had invested my mom's and some of her relatives money in stocks and the picture showed to us was that he is very well settled in Canada and that he could support me if I wanted to come.

Until 2008 I didn't even know what depression meant. Yes I was homesick but it was different. In 2008 I came across some paper work which showed that my brother was making big losses in stocks and has taken on more riskier things than he should have. He was in big debts and had loans to repay (Mom's Relatives Investment) as all the investment had become zero. He had stopped studying, was failing courses and all his fees (high international tuition) was going down the drain. I was devastated with what I saw, I didn't know how to tell all this to mom who had such high hopes from her eldest son. She had invested all her life savings on him. I didn't know how my weak mother would absorb that and who to take help from.

After that incident me and my brother had to leave Canada due to financial difficulties. We could no longer afford the international tuition fees. My whole future was ruined as I left my studies in the middle. After coming back home the only hope to go back to Canada was on immigration. On our pressure my dad had applied immigration in 2004 but due to his irresponsible nature he made a lot of mistakes in the paperwork due to which our immigration file kept on getting delayed.

After reaching back home in 2008 I was a completely different person. I don't remember much but I would cry a lot, stopped seeing friends, slept 12 hours a day, palpitations, anger mainly on my dad and brother for ruining our future. Overall it was an extremely stressful situation. My mom used to be very worried for me and despite of me being against medicines she forced me to see a psychiatrist. The same one who had been treating my mom. He gave me PAROXETINE I forgot the strength but it was a mild dose. The side effects were horrible ( Weird headaches, nausea and too much drowsiness) That was the only allopathic that helped me a little. I took it for 6 months though the doctor advised for a year. It made me capable enough to stand on my feet and find a job back home. My heart and soul was still in Canada and I just wanted to come back and get my foreign degree somehow and make my mother proud. My whole family was miserable as we were going through the most stressful time of our lives and my dad's irresponsible behavior kept on adding to it.

By mid of 2010 when I had enough savings I decided to come back to Canada to resume studies. I had lot of difficulty focusing and things were not the same. One morning I started getting suicidal thoughts and I rushed to my university clinic. After hearing my history the psychiatrist put me on ESCITALOPRAM 10 MG. I got horrible side affects mainly nausea and headaches. I could only bare it for 3 months after that I stopped it. Fortunately by 2011 my family got immigration and they all moved to Canada. As me and my brother were the only ones knowing the ins and outs about Canada the pressure of settling our family in was on us.
In general even it is very stressful to leave your home country and settle abroad, our stresses were aggravated due to the past baggage of sorrows. People had started asking for their money back and as my mother was answerable she was going through a horrible time. The only priority I had at that time was to get my mother's dignity back in the eyes of her relatives.
As we came on entrepreneur category in order to be eligible in Canada we had to operate some sort of business creating job opportunity for people other than the immediate family members. As cost of doing business was much higher in bigger cities like Toronto we had to take an outrageous decision of moving to a remote smaller town because we found a very good franchise business opportunity. An opportunity that would help pay us our bills and save enough to pay off the loans in a timely manner. The immediate drawback was that we had to move to a smaller city with hardly any people from our ethnic community and work 7 days a week with no days off. We took the tough decision and moved. We stayed there for almost 3 years (until March 2014), made good money and paid off the loans and saved a decent amount for ourselves.

During those three years my elder brother's anxiety and anger had also hiked as all his friends had graduated on the right time, some were married and were already well settled. He was left way behind and his insecurities arose. He started swearing due to being in a highly stressful business doing menial jobs. Swearing changed into brutal swearing which left our family very miserable at work, specially myself.
I was already half dead before moving to the smaller city but those three years took away everything I had . I worked like a dog, had no social life. Whatever I earned I gave away to pay my brothers loans

6. Which time of the day you are worst?

ANSWER
Mornings are worst as sometimes wake up with palpitations as the day passes it gets little better.

7. What are the things that aggravate your suffering and those that ameliorate the same? Example: time, temperature, pressure, rubbing, washing, eating, tight clothing etc.

Answer:
My dad and brother's behavior reminds me of past and makes it hard to forgive them because they haven't changed. My weak mother.

Back/scalp massage, going for a walk, epsom salt baths, chamomile tea they all help me but only for a few hours.

8. Do you think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)?

Answer:
I don't think so but the smaller city where we did business for 3 years apparently had very bad air quality due to the oil refineries so my eczema could have been due to that but I believe it is due to body being over used. Eczema is a way for the body to show anger its due to excessive stress.

9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?

Answer:
I always used to get annoyed with the heat as I felt they were causing my head aches and mouth ulcers. I remember eating too much ice in my teens and after coming to Canada I found out that I was doing that as I was extremely low in FERRITIN.

I prefer cold weather over hot but on the other hand I also don't like dull, rainy and gloomy weather. I like sunlight but not the heat if that makes sense.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.

Answer:
Used to be Head strong, Confident, Determined, Passionate People's Person(still am), Anxious, Only get nervous during exams specially when it's a morning exam or say when I have to perform like as a speaker or sing a song.

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?

Answer:
Nothing really. I used to love Adventure and wanted to do all the crazy things. Now, even roller coasters don't excite me

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?

Answer:
Not by everyone only a few people. Which is also changing a bit now because I feel one has to go through something similar to understand my pain.

I feel it is very hard for a human brain specially an untrained person to understand depression because it's something you cannot see. I wish I had an option to live with a broken bone over depression throughout my life as human brain only understands the pain it can see.

- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc?

Answer:
I have became sensitive to smell over the years. Noise and light only when I am having a severe migraine.

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
Weeping, talking to one self etc?

Answer:
Nope! I only shake the right leg sometimes which I know is a very bad habit and I do get cautious and try to avoid it as much as I can

- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?

Answer:
As far as I remember I had a beautiful childhood. The only thing missing was a loving father but my mother tried her best to make up for it. I don't even know how to explain my dad. For a girl father is the first loving male figure you see in your life as he sets the benchmark but I never saw that. He didn't abuse nor was he alcoholic, he just never had time for us or my mom and was very poor in showing his feelings. Till date I don't remember my father ever hugging me :-) He was stubborn and aggressive. I remember when he got angry he would break things. All his weekends were for his friends and he only cared about his entertainment. The only responsibility he fulfilled was financial. I used to get most affected with my dad's behaviour and till date do.
I just feel there is no leader in my family and I always have to lead. I wish someone elder was confident enough to lead us. The foundation of this family is weak. How can there be love and unity when the two people who got married and started this generation had no love, unity or anything in common.

-How do you respond to music? Do you feel better or worse mentally listening to music?

Answer:
Music was the only thing that made me happy but sadly that is also dyeing down now.

- What upsets you most in yourself and in others?

Answer:
I regret the fact that I wasted my golden years for a heartless brother who is married, loan free and in a way better state in his life than me but sometimes I also feel that no one's life is perfect and he still has problems as everyone has problems. It's like a love/hate relationship

My dad's behaviour....It's been years, so many people got affected (Mainly my mom and both my brothers as well) but he just doesn't understands. It's like he is a rotten soul.

11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?

Answer:
I really want to learn swimming and I am scared to learn due to a childhood incident where my dad's cousin tried to drown me to take out my fear while my dad was standing and watching and my mom came to rescue besides that I come across as a strong and confident personality.

12. What do you crave in food items and what are your aversions?

Answer:
I am not that Foodie but since my teens popcorn and French fries have been my favourite foods. I have really cut down on fries now as I have become extremely health cautious.

13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?

Answer:
Normal. I make sure to drink 8 to 10 glasses a day and am always monitoring my urine colour to check for dehydration.

14. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?

Answer:
Normal but nowadays my mom has to remind me to eat as I don't feel like eating.

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand?

Answer:
I hardly had milk during my teen years as my stomach used to get upset. I can only digest very small portions or lactose free milk. I also used to end up vomiting while eating certain fishes but it's nothing life threatening and doesn't happen any more


16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?

Answer:
I sweat quite less specially because it's quite cold in Canada. If I do mainly in under arms and I have noticed the smell has become more offensive

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?

Answer:
It's quite normal. Every morning after tea I get a movement. Sometimes I get 2

18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?

Answer:
I am a one shot sleeper and a light sleeper. I need straight 8 hour sleep. I cannot survive on less sleep. If I wake up due to noise or palpitations my whole day is miserable. I try to sleep naturally and not to take any medications for sleep but since the past 2 months I rarely take melatonin 1 mg. Also when I have exam or have to wake up for something important I need to take BROMEZAPAM 1.5 MG (which is rarely)

I don't sleep straight I usually sleep on the sides. Also since the past 2 years I am having this habit a kind of phobia where I change beds, bed positions and I feel if I won't do that I won't be able to sleep.


19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?

Answer:
Not Always

20. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual symptom or feelings? How are you different from others?

Answer:
I used to get very scared as a kid and could not sleep alone. The moment my mom turned the light off I used to feel someone is watching me. I would not go to the washroom alone. Countless times I ran back to my mom's room in the middle of the night.

Also since childhood I get obsessed with some friends/acquaintances as in I keep thinking about them, want to spend all my time with them and want to get very close to them. They become the world to me unless I realize they are using me or cannot become my friends and I am left heartbroken. This habit really annoys me as I lose control over my heart and mind and I wish it did not happen.

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?

Answer:
My family doctor tried many times to put me on anti depressants but my mind would just not accept it. The only question it asked was why me at this age. I knew I needed help and it took some time to accept it. I was convinced to see a homeopath in states who was very famous. She put me on 1M doses of medicines like LYCOPODIUM, NATRUM MURIATICUM, AURUM METALLICUM, ACONITE, SILICEA, PULSATILLA, IGNATIA, CHAMOMILIA, ARSENICUM ALBUM, ANACARDIUM AND A FEW MORE. They were made by her so I am assuming they were alcoholic tinctures
In short those medicines did a great job in controlling the physical symptoms just like the allopathic did but they lacked the emotional kick I was looking for. There was one prescription which I have no clue what it was gave me a spark for a few days and I was delighted but soon it died down. I wish it lasted a few more days because all I need my doctors is to help me walk and I will start running on my own.
I lost contact with that doctor as she moved to Europe and long distance didn't work. Meanwhile after doing some research online I started with ST.JOHN'S WORT It didn't cure me either but kept me stable and from sinking down to being suicidal.
After a year's gap I again visited a psychiatrist ( I know I always say I am against allopathic but my condition has made me so deprived that even if someone gives me slightest hope I go to them) he prescribed me DIVALPROEX SODIUM. Despite of me constantly denying that I don't have bipolar he still forced me to take it. I took it for 5 months and when I saw no major change in my symptoms I left it.
Currently I am being treated by a naturopath who was not in favour of how I was treated before. She said classical homeopathy is one remedy at a time and you were prescribed a bit too much. As I have learned about my disease and the names of medicines over the years I kind of agreed to her.
She started me off with NATRUM MURIATICUM 1M 3 Pellets once for depression and ACONITE 30CH 3 Pellets each time as needed for occasional palpitations. These were not wet tinctures like before, this time I bought BOIRON company bottles. I started feeling heat in my body. It felt like fire was coming out of my eyes, burning sensations. I got bad anger attacks and got suicidal. I know aggravation is a good sign but it didn't do any benefit for me despite of continuation. On my next visit after hearing my symptoms she reduced my dosage of NATRUM MURIATICUM to 30CH 3 Pellets once for depression as she thought 1M was a bit too much. As my D3 results came low she also started me with 4000 IU. She also prescribed 30CH STAPHYSAGRIA AND CHAMOMILIA 3 Pellets once alternately for anger. Aconite did a very decent job in controlling the palpitations. Staphysagria and Chamomilia really calmed down the anger and suicidal thoughts went away. The depression had no change. My personal instinct said that Natrum Muriaticum was not working.
On my third visit she decided to stop the Natrum Muriaticum and advised to take Staphysaria and Chamomilia only if the anger returned and Aconite when I felt fearful or palpitations started. She started me with AURUM METALLICUM 30 CH 3 Pellets once and since she noticed me I was sighing a lot during my conversations she started me with IGNATIA AMARA 30CH 3 Pellets once. Ignatia did a good job to control the sighing and out of the all the medicines Aurum Mettallicum helped in depression in the sense that my aches and pains went down and the push I was giving myself to do things actually worked. I was able to get out of bed, drive and go outside do my chores. Acidity was also in control. It's just that the emotional side, not willing to live no joy part is still unchanged.
On my next visit my naturopath was so happy that she increased the dose of AURUM METTALLICUM TO 200CH 3 Pellets once daily. After about 20 days suddenly for 3 to 4 days I felt extremely dizzy, down and had nausea. I had no clue if this was aggravation or if I overdosed myself. It's been 27 days I haven't taken any medicine.
22. What major diseases are running in your family?

Answer:
I have a strong maternal side family history of depression. My grandfather had 14 kids out of which my mom, eldest aunt, uncle and grandfather were all diagnosed with bipolar. My mom has been on lithium since the past 15 years and is doing very well on it. She started it after my birth so it's not like I was exposed to the medicine.

My dad has type 2 diabetes since 30 years and is on Insulin. Due to excessive smoking and not taking medicines on time he had a silent heart attack after which he went through quadruple bypass surgery.

My elder brother has also been diagnosed as pre-diabetic.

Since I have been having palpitations and shortness of breath. My MD sent me to a cardiologist. All my tests, ultrasounds including stress test and 24 hour monitoring reports came normal.

23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance.

Answer:
I am 5'2 whitish complexion and weigh about 145 pounds. I have gained almost 25 pounds in the past 7 years before that throughout my teens and early 20's I had a stable weight of 115 to 120 pounds.

Some people just by looking at me have asked if I am anaemic or have leucorrhea issues as I looked pale to them and have deep dark circles and white eyes lids.


24. What major diseases have you had in your life and when. Please write them in a chronological manner.
(For Females)

Answer:
Depression is the only major disease I have had and still do.

25. If your menstrual cycles are not normal, please describe all irregularities, like pains, moods, flow type, clots etc. as below:

- Are your periods generally regular, early or delayed? What is the usual cycle duration?

- Describe the sensations and locations of pain before, during and after the flow.

- How do you generally deal with your sufferings during periods? Do you have any non-medical way of relieving your suffering?

- What is the duration of flow? Is it heavy, medium or light?

- Do you observe clots?


Answer:
I have had and still have extremely painful periods. Very sharp cramps in lower abdomen before the flow starts. Once the flow has started I get bearable cramps here and there but before is the worst.

If I don't take a painkiller on the first sign of pain it gets so bad that I end up vomiting. I bleed heavily and my periods last 4 days. My cycle is a full 30 days. Observe clotting throughout the 4 days of bleeding more in the first 2 days.

I take heating pad for lower abdomen and back cramps and chamomile Tea.

- Do you have mid-cycle spotting? What are the days you have spotting?

Answer:
Nope

- Describe changes in your mental condition or any other peculiar symptom that surfaces before, during or after the flow.

Answer:
Since the past 5 to 7 years I have noticed mood swings and anger mainly before the flow starts. Once started they go down by 50%. I am like a zombie 10 days of the month out of the 30 days due to periods. I get very irritable, cranky, sad, emotional, lethargic and what not.

- Do your sufferings increase or decrease as soon as the flow begins?

Answer:
Emotionally and pain tolerance wise I feel much better

- Did you ever take birth control pills on a regular basis?

Answer:
Never. Not sexually active.

- Have you ever been treated earlier or recently for any gynaecological irregularity? Please describe.

Answer:
Nope
 
zarminay 4 years ago
If these symptoms are your original disease symptoms and not created due to overdose of Aurum Metallicum you have been taking earlier I would suggest you to go for a single dose of LACHESIS 200C.

I am really surprised no one has ever suggested Lachesis when your symptoms and modalities are so clearly indicating it.

Just take one dose on a single day morning and then wait for 10 days before you share your observations.

Buy liquid dose from Reckeweg, Boiron, Helios or any reputed manufacturer.

One dose would be 3 to 4 drops in 10 ml of water taken up as soon as you open your eyes in the morning after sleep. After you have taken the sip, keep the mixture in your mouth instead of gulping it down. Rinse your mouth with the mix and go to sleep for another 2 hours.

Follow the above strictly. Just do it on one day.

Let me know after 10 to 15 days, how you responded to it.

If your present mental state is not an aggravation of aurum metallicum, Lachesis should create a good response.

All the best.
[message edited by rishimba on Wed, 07 Oct 2015 10:56:00 UTC]
 
rishimba 4 years ago
Thank you so much for the quick reply and for taking my case.

I am positive that these symptoms have not been "CREATED" due to overdose of AURUM METTALICUM. They might have been aggravated but not created for sure.

As far as LACHESIS is concerned after going through my previous prescriptions I noticed I was prescribed LACHESIS 12 POTENCY (5 PELLETS TWICE A DAY) Since it was back in 2012 and since I was taking so many remedies at that time I have no clue what changes LACHESIS bought in particular

With the little knowledge I have I think my homeopath was attributing all those symptoms to LYCOPODIUM since it is quite similar to LACHESIS. I heard her saying many times that LYCOPODIUM has worked beautifully on you.

Since Homeopathy is all about trial and error I don't mind giving LACHESIS a try but are you sure to start of with 200C?
Shouldn't we try 30CH first?.

Also I am unable to find the liquid formula all I could find was BOIRONS 200C pellets.

Would that work?
If yes how to take it?

Regards,
Zarminay
 
zarminay 4 years ago
Homeopathy is NOT about trial and error...at least not for me.

Your symptoms are very clear and nowhere Lycopodium is indicated.

Your symptoms are more in the mental plane and thus its useless to give anything less than 200C.

Find liquid dose if you can but pellets should also work...but not the same way as the liquid dose.

Dissolve 4 pellets in 10 ml of water gently and do exactly as I have told you for the liquid mix.
 
rishimba 4 years ago
I will go with your word rishimba as I am desperate to get well :-)

I found the liquid potency.As I had to order it I will have to wait till Tuesday. As soon as I have it I will take the dosage exactly as told by you (After rinsing should I swallow the medicine or spit it out?

I will jot down day to day changes till 10 days. I will contact you around 23 October now if side affects don't bother much.

Meanwhile I am also emailing you my previous prescriptions so that you have an idea of what has been given to me.

Sincerely,
Zarminay
 
zarminay 4 years ago
Please don't spit out the remedy. Take just the quantity of water...around 10 ml which is used up wetting the full mouth inside. Let it remain in the mouth or swallow.

Don't take any food or water or rinse your mouth for at least two hours. Just go to sleep again for two hours. Do it on a weekend so that you don't have to rush.
 
rishimba 4 years ago

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