Binge eating _{Page 3 of 6}

Wow, tough question.I guess I try to be perfect in everything, including the way I eat, so whenever I eat something that´s not on my diet I just give up, I´m so angry with myself, and so anxious that I can´t eat just one candy bar, I have to eat the whole package (or the whole box of cookies or whatever).

but most of my binges have a reason besides dieting...
actually most of them have the same reason: my ex boyfriend.
I don´t remember what was the trigger of binge eating before, but for the last 4 years it´s been my ex boyfriend. we live in different countries so we only saw each other once a year, when summer was approaching I would try to loose weight very fast, eating just apples for 2weeks or things like that, then when I was with him i could not keep dieting and I became fat again. same thing happened every year. so the rest of the year I was depressed ( ==> binge) not only because I missed him but also because he had seen me fat!!! (yes, I know it sounds stupid...) Anyway we broke up 10 months ago and I´m still obsessed with him. every time someone tells me he´s seeing a girl, or even when i´m just thinking about him, I binge and if the next day i don´t have to go to college early, I take laxatives.

which I find pathetic because I´m 20, I´m not a kid anymore and I know I should learn how to deal with problems instead of stuffing myself with junk food. that´s why I´m having some doubts about homeopathy, I mean...this is not an ankle pain, I´m sort of crazy, and I´m afraid homeopathy may not be enough for that...

Yes, first sexual relation.

I think he must have really loved me in order to be in a 3-year long distance relationship...but now I´m not sure I´m his "true love"...recently I found out he already had a 2month girlfriend when he broke up with me. Yeah he´s a real pig but still...I adore him!

Now he sees dozens of girls, cheats on them all the time and then calls me and tells me "they´re all stupid, you´re the only one and I do this only because you´re not here"...

I know he´s not going to change so I want to stop being in love with a guy who treats women like objects...

(how is this relevant for the prescription?)

ok...

well if relationships are important for homeopathic prescriptions maybe I should tell you that I hate my father (...sometimes I would like him to die but then I think my sister is only 12 and she would be very sad...)

anything else you need to know?

when I was little I didn´t hate him, I was just angry because he was very old (he had me in his 50´s, and my sister in his 60´s) ans I was really scared he would die, I prayed every night for him not to die and sometimes when he fell asleep I would go and see if he was still breathing!

then as a teenager I admired him a lot because he´s so intelligent and we talked about litterature, history, etc...but we´ve never been very close, I mean it´s more like a student-teacher relationship.

and 5 years ago he went broke, lost our house, made me leave my school and sent my mom my sister and I to Spain. one year later he came with us, he had become so old...he was very tired and was becoming blind (macular degeneration or something like that). Now he can only see (a little) with his left eye and he´s annoying me all the time because I have to read him stuff and take care of him.

besides he makes us feel really guilty for not being blind...for example when I don´t want to read a book for college he goes "oooh if only I could read blah blah blah", I´m sick of him.

and he thinks he´s better than my mom but at the same time he´s jealous because he thinks (...he knows...) we love her more...I don´t know, he´s very weird with this subject, he´s always saying that I say hello to my mom first, or that I kiss her more often, so I have to be careful and say hi to him first, or kiss him even if I don´t want to.

In Peru. Life was ok...but I was getting kind of tired of my friends and I was feeling I did not fit in the group anymore, so even though I was sad for leaving, at the same time I was willing to start over, meet new people, etc. My new school was great, as well as my friends, and Barcelona is a wonderful city.
So...everything is great here, and I know I should be happy, but I´m not.

in Lima

anything else?

Took the ph.ac. 5 days ago. I have noticed aggravation in depression, cry for the silliest things especially at night, and I´m also sleeping more than usual. (Kind of my PMS symptoms but I´m not having my period soon)

However, no changes as far as binge eating is concerned. I´ll post back in a few days if there´s news...

I have followed all your instructions about foods/medicines...is there any kind of eye drop that does not interact with ph.ac? my eyes are very red and itchy in the morning

Yes, when I wear contact lenses for more than 12-14hours. But this time I think it´s due to smoke since it started on saturday ( in didn´t smoke but the air was full of smoke). It´s not very bothering, just when I wake up.

Depression is not so deep, I mean I´ve been worse before. No special reason, I just have a lot of works and exams and I´m scared because people think I´m more intelligent than I actually am...and instead of making a bigger effort I just stop working at all...I just don´t have the energy right now. Besides I haven´t gone to the gym and I feel guilty, I have so many things to do and I just think about food! yesterday I had a fight with my mother because I´m skipping meals in order to eat junk food (she says if I had a normal meal I wouldn´t be hungry, hence I would not binge...and that´s just nonsense)

Sleep: I normally go to sleep at 12pm or 1am, but now I need to sleep earlier (yesterday at 9:30). And normally I read in bed for half an hour before falling asleep, now I don´t need to, I just fall asleep immediately. But I still feel tired when I wake up, not very tired but I turn the alarm clock off and sleep for another 30min...or more (I should be in political economy class right now...)

same symptoms as always...apathy + crying a lot

ok I´ll be patient...thank you for the kind words

Mostly cookies and things with chocolate (muffins, candy bars,etc)

Does it have to be B complex only? I have Multicentrum is that ok or should I get one with just B complex