Seeking Help for Anxiety and Depression

Hi, I'm hoping someone can help me. I'll see if I can give appropriate details.

I'm 43 year old female.

I feel anxious, fearful around finances, of people not liking me.

Depressed, general feeling of just being down, heavy in my chest, not motivated to do things, especially clean, paperwork etc. clutter is building up. do not want to go to work tomorrow, to have to talk to people.

i have neck stiffness and pain tonight (it's 10pm), I have pressure in my eyes, and a bit of blurred vision, this is definietly worse at night. a bit of a headache in the front of my head, my forehead.

My hands are dry, my lips are dry.

I have been having acne, which i got to clear up with some products. pretty much all over my face, cheeks, chin, forehead.

I've suffered on and off from depression and anxiety since i was a young child.
-my parents got divorced when i was 11, didnt see my Dad for 10-15 years, felt abandoned by him.
-my moms 2nd husband made sexual advances toward me, was an alcoholic, and i lived in terrible fear of him all through my teens, yet i desperately wanted his approval.
-my first sexual experience of 14years of age was my boyfriend raping me.

-I am always cold. it feels like a cold headache that i'm having. even in my eyes.
-I prefer warm foods and drinks.
-not very thirsty for water, not really thirsty at all.
- I like salt, but i dont crave it now (although i have a history of craving it)
at this point i crave rich, fatty foods, like nuts, crackers, heavy foods
-my symptoms get much worse before my period, which is about 8-9 days away.
- feel a shortness of breath. like inhaling is almost forgotten.
-no sighing
-i'm clenching my jaw
-i'm irritable and angered easily, i have a hard time not reacting without thinking when my anger strikes.
-sometimes when i sleep i get butterflies in my stomach so bad i have to curl up in a ball, do something to alleviate it and i loose much sleep this way. I am a fairly light sleeper
- i'm sarcastic
-i have pain on my left side sacrum and into my left lower back and hip.
-even though i do much yoga, i constantly feel tightness in my muscles.
-have been prescribed some different remedies in the past, nat mur, ignatia, sepia, phoshorous (was told i am phosphorous type)

Thank you,
Heather