depression and anxiety

Dear Doctor Sameer,
I read somany similiar case history which you could solved so iam also keeping hope and seeking your help. I have taken Psycartic medicin called seroxat from last six years, initialy i started taking it for social anxiety and job performance anxiety( I develouped this because of my physical look like very tall and lean)because of this i was withdrawing from social situations and i was facing lot of fear from childhoud itself,like goest,superioer, scholl teachers etc.)But when performace anxiety started effecting my carier and fear started effecting my helth like sleeping,feeling just pain etc i decided to take the above medicin and it helped my alot it removed my fear and social phobia. But after some period i started felling emotional blank, then i stopped this medicin which was horrible,like suicidal thoughts, and restlesnes,depression etc. so I went back to the medicin again. Now it is my third attempt to stop this medicin, now from last four months i did not take this medicin,I am taking homeopathic medicin from last five months under the doctor consultation, He has tried lot ot medicin to controll my symptoms,but nothing worked at. Now iam in deep depression with suicidal thoughts, Anxiety is too high, low self esteem, feeling jelous about others who is doing well, not feeling love towards family and friends, compleat deatachement form world, do not know how to survive this condition, tride lot of alternative things,like yoga,hypnotherapy etc
I stoped Physcartic medicin very slowly.If you required any more information i can provide, Iam staying in dubai with my family.My sleep pattern is to worse I sleep at 12 at night and get up 5 in the morning with lot of anxiety and negative feelings. Day time i can not sleep becouse of excess negative thoughts and worry , it is very dificult to pass the time, justo counting minuts, not able to take care of myself and family.