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Hello,
I haven't had any drainage from the cyst since I last posted, yet it seems less irritated and possibly smaller.
As far as current symptoms I have chapped lips that do not get better, a slight sore throat that is not from a cold, the mucus in my throat continues to be greenish.
I think that I ma slightly less stiff when I rise.
I have had some bad indigestion; what I mean is that I don't digest very quickly-the food just sits and when I eat bread, rice, etc I often get stomach gas and then intestinal pains and gas. I have tried to cut down on the carbohydrates for now and I am not very hungry. also some belching.
All of this has been common for me over the last years, but seemed worse the last few weeks. And along with this I become more irritable.
If I think of anything else I will tell you.
Thank you
Gardeneerd

the cyst was draining a few weeks ago with a yellowish and slightly bloody discharge. It stopped before it all drained out, but continued to be irritated and not change size. Now it seems less itchy and smaller.
The stiffness has been with me a long time, but I think I just thought it was age and didn't say anything about it, so not expecting any difference.
My stools have not been improved or changed. I go daily, but not large amt.
I have been sleeping well. going to bed early and getting up early. I have felt slightly more rested.
My state of mind is good today. A few days ago I was very negative and became angry at my husband. I realized later that it was my fault for being critical. I have an attitude of being busy and getting things done and get frustrated with him when he sits around and doesn't do what I think he should do or use his time wisely. but that is my opinion and not necessarily true. It becomes a source of anger to me because of my own thinking. does that make sense?

The digestive issues are on going, but someetimes are worse than others and the last week has been bad. I am very thin and feel the need to keep up my appetite.
Thanks

Hello Nawaz,
I did not see the earlier post from you. Yes I think I respond slowly. I am like that with vitamins and things also.
I have the 50 remedy first aid kit in 30C, so I have quite a few
I cry sometimes more than others. I cry at sentimental movies and when I am frustrated and hurt. I cry when I think I am not loved or when I am just tired and frustrated. but most people would say that I am not overly sensitive and I am not overly sympathetic. I don't think I am like pulsatilla, from what I read. I am strong minded and opinionated and make quick decisions. I can be overly bossy and critical-yuk!
Does that help?

Alright, but I don't have the 6X and so will have to order it.
Gardenerd

Hello Nawaz
I have taken the Natrum Mur for one week and one day.
I do notice my mood being much more positive and cheerful. also my cyst continues to get smaller.
What next?
Gardenerd

I should also say that I am sleeping well, but still constipated-meaning I have stool most days, but small amt and narrow. My skin is very dry and my lips are cracked and sometimes my upper lip has a quiver that is only noticeable to me. I also had a herpes breakout above my anus-I have never had one there before. But I have not had any for a while before that one and when I have they have been slight. Before I began treatment my breakouts were very frequent.
Thanks

Hello Nawaz
I haven't heard from you after my last post. I am waiting to hear your advice on what I should do next. Should I continue the Nat Mur? Or try the thuja again?
Gardenerd

Hi
I am glad to hear from you. I will take the thuja tomorrow.
It has been a few days so hard to remember specifics, perhaps not dramatic. I had a bout of sickness on early monday am and vomited and was feeling ill all day on monday and weak still on tues, so it affected how I felt emotionally. But I had a very positive outlook while on the Nat Mur. Sometimes it is hard to tell though, because from week to week I can have different moods. this week has been very very busy and I don't feel well emotionally when I am too busy. So it is hard to tell.
Since I stopped I have two outbreaks of genital herpes. I haven't had much for 2 months.
If I think if anything else I'll post
Thank you for your prayers and help
Gardenerd

Hello,
It is good for me to alwasy be reiminded of need for patience. I told myself that again about the new breakouts and that they are a good sign. I continue to read and learn and see how much there is to learn. I do love the study and the philosophy and understanding behind it.
I read my scriptures every morning also and read a verse that I thought you would relate to.
'the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle and easy to be entreated. Without partiality and without hypocrisy and the fruit of peace is sown in them that make peace'

You are very kind and gentle to me and I appreciate your help so much

I will let you know about my response to the Thuja
Gardenerd

I took the 3 doses of thuja on Sunday-it was the first day I was able to do it. I have not noticed any big changes, but am slightly less constipated-though this can be cyclic with me. My cyst though does continue to reduce in size.
I don't seem to be very sensitive to the remedies.
Ecogenie-I don't think that we always look for a healing 'crisis'. I believe Hahnemann's aim was a gentle, continual healing of symptoms.

The last two weeks have been very busy and not a good time for me to pay close attention to my body and also when I am very busy I feel more stressed and anxious. But even so I am sleeping well every night and that is a huge improvement

Gardenerd

Hello, Nawaz,
I will try to answer your questions.
I don't have any discharge at this time. Though I do have the post nasal junk, it does not come out to see-I hawk it down. If that's the way to describe. If I blow my nose it is clear. The cyst is not draining externally.

I don't think that my symptoms are extreme-just chronically irritating. What I would love to see as far as what I call 'drastic changes'-other than the cyst which is really dramatic considering I've had it for 2 yrs-
I would like to see the high-pitched ringing in my ears(mostly right) decrease and my hearing improve.
I would like for my skin and eyes to be less dry, and my lips not always chapped, peeling and burning.
And the thick post nasal drip to go away.
I would like my gums and mouth to be healthy.
I frequently have rawness in my mouth and a feeling of raw and peeling inside my mouth (inner cheeks) Sometimes my teeth just feel irritating, its hard to explain.
I have not had the actual sores in my mouth and on the edges of my tongue for several months.
I would like to have healthy frequent stools and no indigestion, bloating and gas.

I am very thankful that I am sleeping well.
I hope to have a more cheerful attitude.

while on the natrum mur I felt happy.
At the same time the study of homeopathy is a source of happiness-if that makes sense. There is so much hope in it.
But I don't want my 'cheerful ness' to relate to circumstances or to satisfaction from my studies, but rather to an attitude of rest and trust in God.

This is quite long-but I also wanted to tell you that I have had a headache since I took the Thuja. The first few days it was on the top of my head. It could also be from the pressure of the busy schedule the last few weeks.
I can't change the schedule, but I am trying to have down times. Next week and the week after are more quiet.
I am able to function fairly well with a headache and don't let it bother me, but by evening I want quiet. I love to be alone!!

I hope that I am not expecting too much!

In my study I have been reading on the temperaments and constitutions. I am also really enjoying the book that was recommended-Homeopathic Drug Pictures. I am studying David Little's course from beginning and have a long way to go. Every word from you and others helps me on the way.
Gardenerd

Hello Nawaz,
i am not sure if you got my last, long post as I have not heard from you.
MY cyst continues to shrink-that is very good news I think and perhaps that is what will be taken care of before the next layer.
I coughed up a small amt of green mucus a day or so ago.
I had a tooth pulled-took 1 liquid dose of arnica 30c-and had no problem with extraction.
I had one day of swelling and abscess in right top molar-this is an occasional problem-but it drained on its own and is not bothering me afterwards though I have some bleeding in my gums from there and lower gums. I have been sleeping well. going to bed earlier and earlier and waking early. I am tired by evening.
that's about it for now I think.
Gardenerd

Hello Nawaz,
I hope that you will receive this as I know sometimes there is difficulty in the forum.
I should receive the merc sol in the mail tomorrow or the next day and I would like you to tell me how much to take and how often.
I took the last dose of Thuja 5 evenings ago.
Thanks so much
Gardenerd