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Hello Nawaz,
I report again. I am very well and also my man. I feel quite normal myself and not put too much energy in stupid little things. My ticking and muscle strains are ok, only in my jaw used to come back. Now, that major sypmtoms are not filling my mind, smaller became apparent. My eye muscles are strainig, for the evening my eyes are aching and get red. Sleep is sometimes good, sometimes bad. My skin symptoms disappeared again.
All in all I am well, I can hardly remember the feeling how was before. Humans are wonderful, they can forget pain and suffering so fast :)
All the bests
Sambucus

Hi Nawaz,
Thank you for the reply.
No water in my eyes, if you mean tearing. Just red and sharp aching whenever I look somewhere. Some days I use computer a lot but other days not, there is no connection. I have strong myopia (-6) and base on what dr. Bates says, the strain in my face and eye muscles is because of mental strain, that I stongly want to see and understand.
Sleeping is ok, just sometimes I am not able to fall asleep for a long time. I haven't dreamt for some weeks.
There is another thing: sometimes bothering thougts come into my mind about my work - that I will fail, or what I have figured out is not true. These thougts come suddenly - for example during a conversation, without any sign and makes my heart clamp. This is important to me as I am a researcher. Then the thought disappears without leaving a bad feeling.
Otherwise I am very happy and optimistic, I feel very very well.
All the bests
Sambucus

TV and reading is the same, like computer, some days a lot and some not at all. But indeed, I almost always use my eyes :), I mean if I have to read I use mainly computer, if I am tired for learning I watch TV and if I have to focus on some other work, I just simply strain my eyes :)
I will buy the new remedy and report.
All the bests
Sambucus

Hi Nawaz,
I bought Euphrasia, and only now I saw that I should buy also Ruta. However I have at home Ruta 15C. Is it suitable too? And how should take Ruta?
Regards
Sambucus

Ok, I will.
All the bests
Sambucus

Hello Nawaz,
I took Euphrasia, as you advised. My eyes a bit eased, but still there is some strain. But in the last days I had to work in the open air, so I couldn't compare properly. My eyes still became red for the evenings, no tearing, not inflamed, just very tired. I can feel the strain when I look up or to the side and also if I have to concentrate on things, or when I want to relax.
All the bests
Sambucus

Hello Nawaz,
I feel no improvement, have the same symptoms. It seems to me that only two remedy worked really on me: Stramonium and Nux :)
Otherwise I am well, although my man told me that last night I was flapping while I was sleeping, like I am angry. Indeed I had troublesome days, I had to return to my ex-laboratory and felt again anxious, because nothing has changed there. I felt pity about my old collegues.
I concluded that my balance still could be disturbed, and that place has imprinted in my mind associated with very bad feelings.
All the bests
Sambucus

Today I got up with rested eyes, Ruta finally working just needed some time. Compared to other mornings it is much better, I hope it will last till the evening.
All the bests
Sambucus

Yes, you are right. I think I always was hasty, and things always solved only when I yielded to my faith. Maybe I will grow up one day :)
All the bests
Sambucus

Hello Nawaz,
I a writing you because you asked me several ties to talk about my dreams, but in the last months I never remember. But yesterday I had a dream which could be interesting. I think I dreamt it no too late, rather around midnight. I don't remember clearly, but there were a lot of corpse around, they were white and had huge bluish-black patches on them. They were lying everywhere. And there were porcelain things, which we at the end broke, one by one for some reason, I don't remember. During all the dream very sad music could be heard, like just one violin or one human voice singing without words. It was really a very sad music.
After that I woke anxious or with fear, but no sweat or screaming. Just I opened my eye, and feel fear, hear voices. Later I fall asleep again.
Ah, yes, I just start my period tonight.
All the bests and I will report about my man soon since he took the second dose now.
Sambucus

Hi,
i think it was 5-15 minutes, it is hard to estimate. My period is normal and approximately in time (30 days, for me it used to be normal).
One more thing came into my mind: in my dream the porcelain things were filled with soil, and they had shell-shape or like half of a stone-seed, although the shape was much more complex. The color was indigo and gold.
All the bests
Sambucus

Hello Nawaz,
I wanted to tell you that positive changes still continouing in me. For now I got surprisingly calm. Seems, ordinary things cannot bother me, and I can defend my opinion or other people also more effectively, because I think I appear stronger and balanced. Very good feeling! I feel life as a precious present that now I can live better.
Thank you Nawaz and Niel.

PS.: I hope, Niel is well, if you are in contact, please tell him how thankful I am.

All the bests
Sambucus