Sameer att:

hi david,
i tried to do exactly in the manner you asked but forgive me if i messed up the exact manner but i tried please ask anything if you don't understand my words. And also pardon me for this long reply.

i must also inform you about myself. i am ....

28yrs old

married

four childern(two died)

from pakistan




what exactly happens?


there are multiple problems i am having or happening to me i will state them one by one by the order that the most very important will be written first then goes on one by one by their importance.
the most important problem right now is joints pains the effected parts are feet, toes, toes balls, ankles,wrists, fingers,knuckles, thumbs, my uric acid is more always high 8 or 9 or 10 etc . i have tonsillitis since i was child till today and note that my aso titre test is very high due to them may be pains are due to tonsillitis i.e strepococcus bacteria (rheumatic fever?). or may be psoriatic arthritis as multiple joints are effected or i am having joints pains due to all three of issues. my memory is bad really very bad, misses words while typing or writing forgets the names of people even my own childern, forgets what i have done yesterday etc etc really bad do something about it , its since i started homeopathy. my teeth are decaying and having carries and doctor suggested scaling and filling etc etc but they were the most strong thing in my body before getting ill four years back. i am also having stomach issues since one month after getting joints pains specially sometimes pain in left side of abdomen, there is lot of gas also. sometimes weird kinda disturbance or irritation around or above navel (belly button) and when i press it it pains. i am also having keloids since 12 years which have got worse and more with homeopathic treatment and they are countless i.e in hundred some little some big and they had made my body ugly i cannot show my body even to my wife. my shoulders and upper arms , chest and hips are having keloids which are increasing day by day either by size or by numbers. left side of chest have pain. my other main issue is that i am having cattarh(blocked nose type condition i don't what it should be called in english) and blocked soft palate type feeling. i feel if i or someone else cover my nose i will die because of no breathing. i have what you called in english phelgem (mucus that blocked nose and throat) in nose and soft palate. i catches cold easily. i am also having very painful hemorrhoids since 4 years which were healed in past with homeopathic treatment but now after sulphur i think they are back. there is also some hard mass type (cyst or lipoma ) on my left anal lip got it with homeopathic treatment i am sure about it, though it don't pains or anything just feels hard mass under my left anal lip not protuding. when i think about hemorrhoids they got worse even if i thought i am going to get fissure i got anal fissures. i also have eye floaters, a really big one in my left eye and some more and now also in my right eye though they don't bother lot in right eye but left eye floater is very much disturbing. my hairs are also falling since 10 years and this falling is going to make me bald we have family history or front head baldness. my back also got painful since when i got joints pains it was very very severe at that time but now its not that much painful. my left side of neck got stiff easily and really awfully painful that i even can't move it easily i think i have pinched nerve. i am usually constipated since i got joints pains. i also feel after every urination that i have dribbing(some very little drops or wetness) feeling though it may be my imagination or i really may have but this issue is really ruining my normal life as i check that wetness for hours and after every urination i sit in bath or in my room naked and press my penis and every time i press a very little drop or some wetness came and i think i am having post dribbing issue. oh note this issue also i have no interest in my wife for sex but i do masturbate 30-50 times a month or 9-15 times a week i rarely get erected during sex with my wife but during masturbation i have no issues even after ejuculation i recover fast and easily and do masturbate again and again, i was very much in love with my wife in early months of marriage but right now i don't like her even a bit for sex even if she walks in my room and if i am erected my erection goes away by seeing her but i compromise and don't show her that i am not really into her i satisfy her completely but i like to do sex with every passing girl or women but not my wife. when i am in market and sees girls, ladies i start imaging how i will bang her etc etc, i love to watch porn a lot lot. i fantisize having sex with every passing women and sometimes i want love just love but again not from my wife but from other women. during having sex with my wife i imagine myself an innocent girl and thinks her a big man and then i can do sex good sex with her. i want to experience every new enjoyment or thing and i usually do. lots of abscesses in underarm or legs and around genital areas and sometimes acne on face and sometimes acne pimles or little abscesses on whole body. get tired very easily

i think you might get angry of me stating my mental issue in first question of what happens but i need them also be cured that's why i am stating them below i think they also need treatment.
my mental problems are that i get easily angry even little things make me angry if something goes against my will it makes me angry. i also get angry and feels pi-ssed off when someone to who i am taling don't listen to me with attention or ignores me. i myself also don't listen to people and keeps talking without listening to him thinking my words are important that him or rarely fears that i may forget my subject of talk . i get worry easily. i hate fight,quarrels or voilence. i am coward. i takes too too much anxiety about little things or issues. i got depressed easily very easily. every passing moment seems to that i already have passed it eveyrthing and i mean it. if i do something even new thing or new business or travelling or anything and during doing that thing i feel i have already done it and this past is repeating. even if i travel to you during meeting you i think i already have done all this before and note please its not thinking its like i am sure. i have fear of can-cer , disease and death and also fear of infections also. every disease i got my mind starts thinking about it and makes it chronic and never forgets it even if i get healed i press or check that disease too much till it starts again. my all complaints get worse with thinking and got better with happiness i.e; i get happy they become less or disappears. every disease seems to me can-cer even or something big that will make me die. i don't like to take a bath if it is possible i won't take shower for years. i have lot of ego. i don't eat from other people plate or you can say i don't want to share my food with anyone not even with my childern. i think they are dirty or infected. i am extremely lazy not got to urinate for hours. that much lazy that i don't even give a glass of water to people. note that its important i do give benefits people but i don't want them to give me in return anything. i even can't ask people to pay me for my work because i think i will be indebted of him everyone in my home is angry with my this behaviour. i do thing that will make me respectable in society but avoid bad thing. i don't like people mess with my thing. you cannot believe i even treasure my cheap thing very much. i think i am chosen one. god will take some valuable work from me but i dont think i am prophet but someone special and i can understand well than other people in world. i hate to take debts of other people on me i even hate to ask people to give me a glass of water because it makes me indebted to him. i hate to travel. i like my home very very much i don't want to leave it on any condition you cannot believe i am living in my home since years and rarely very very rarely visit anyone or do any business or even go out. i don't wany my room to be cleaned i like the way i messed it up if someone even my wife clean or maintain it orderly i get angry why she did it etc etc and my room is really a mess and sometimes i myself is a mess, don't change cloths and visit people in my bad cloths (my wife and mom is always angry with me due to my cloths) but i hate to wear new costly cloths or costly shoes but i like to wear used cloths or shoes of my brothers. oh note please i am very very rude to people as i told i don't wanna leave my home even my room and when someone calls me i get angry very much angry and talk very much rudely even if prime ministers visits me, if he disturbs me i don't care if he prime minister and scold him. i don't like people specially new people or strangers. i am not social. i only speak with people when i need benefits from them and when i want benefits i becomes very polite or i speak with people because our religion tells not to be rude with others. i do things in hurry always. i cannot wait. if someones tell me to come meet him tomorrow 8 am i will reach there at 7:55 am but not so early but on time never late i like justice but if someone comes late even 8:05am i will get angry and scold him and i myself is never late. i am not elder one in home but everyone obeys me like leader of home. i am very sensitive(meaning every little disease makes me worry). i got jealous i don't know if it is called jealousy or something else as if i see someone better than me in any aspect i will try to become better than him until i beat him or i am satisfied. let me explain with an example if i think you are knowledgeable in homeopathy i will try to get more knowledgeable than you until i am satisfied or someone announces that i am better than anyone else. i want people to recognize me as someone special or someone who is blessed and i want people to praise me. i want to experience new things for example if you say to me australia have two route to travel from pakistan one is very easy and the other is harder you cannot believe i will prefer harder thinking what new experiences were there in that route that people avoid it. like if you tell me to take one drop in 100ml of water and don't take three drops i will take three to see what happens. i think i am beautiful in a way that i am complete god made my everything perfect my nose eyes lips etc. i want love of people though everybody loves me intead you can say i need appeciation of people need to be praised etc. i like thunderstorms, rainy seasons, winters.



2. what pain or sensation comes with it?


note: i don't know and think that i can really explain my joint pain its very harder to explain the exact feeling but i tried please ask anything if you don't understand my words.
joints pains feels like bruised or sprained and sometimes like cold pains like when you walk with naked feet in winter and your toes get cold and if these cold toes get knocked with wall that kinda pain and sometimes needling or pinching or hurting pains or if someone beat you up with hunter and you get pain that kinda pain and also note sometimes pains are like some hot fluid in my painful joints like when anyone get burnt from hot thing or fire and get boil and that boil have pain and burning that kinda pain. when they are worse they also emits heats but thats rare there isn't any swelling on any joints. sometimes got stiffness but not always. i don't have any stiffness permantely since sulphur and my pains are also not that much worse that were before sulphur and haven't returned to that much worse not even near that much worsening.
tonsillitis feels like when we firstly do excercise and get muscles cramps(what you say i don't recall the exact name or feeling) that kinda pain.
the psoriasis type thing on testicles i am not sure its psoriasis or not because it occurs only when my wife have leucchorea or water discharge and i do sex may be that isn't psoriasis its some kinda infection but is completely gone since two months. the psoriasis type thing on joints are also completely gone since after ars, and then sulphur though it aggravates a lot in start but now completely gone since six months not even a single flare up..
keloids have intense itching, great itching and pain their color is purplish black. the pain is mostly like pinching or sometimes due to itching ulcerating. note please if i think i am going get a keloid in the thinking spot i got one.
abdomen is now a days better but it comes back it feels like my abdomen is tight and making me hard to breath and my abdomen feels like its beaten with punches very deep pain on pressing it.
constipation feels like i have to push the stool out but it stuck in my anus/rectum and don't come out but mostly with some little or more effort it comes.
oh yeah my hemorrhoids pains like ulcerating or like if someone beat you up with hunter and you get pain that kinda pain.
my left side chest pains like bruised or sprained. i also have in center of chest pain little right side which i assume is due to cold and its very old.
if i work in water for long i get cold or if i lay in front of fan or around fan i might also then get cold.
back pain feels like sprained pain.



3. when does it happen?


let me have some details answer for every problem but the main is joints pains problems and hemorrhoids.
firstly i let you know how and when it happened in detailed manner below.
i got joints pains seven months back when
it all happens after lot of stressful incidents in my life firstly on 15mar11 my father died and then on same day at graveyard i got call from home my sister isn't feeling well i immediately went home and my sister was unconsious, it took me 15minutes to make her consious and then right after that on same day of my father burial, my wife who was having 8month pregnancy got severe bleeding, please note that i am extremely extremely sensitive type person ( take stress of even little things like if i have to pee i became stressful until i pee) anyways, i took her to gynaecologist she said she is having placenta preavia and i spent the whole night at hospital emergency, standing near my wife and i wasn't slept since six nights back due to my father illness and when my father was ill i most avoid taking him to hospital as i cannot face the fact what doctors say about my father or any of my family member and cannot bear my father or any of my family member been treating by allopathic syringes and iv infusions and cannot bear to see them ill i care lot about myself and my family . anyway the next day i and my wife came back and gynae doctor said she has to pass one month on bed if she moves harder or walks she will got severe bleeding and we have to do c-section so shortly she was on bed and i was with her as i cannot leave her on anybody even not on her mother, i spent whole month with her on bed and during whole time of month i fear bleeding with now come, she will be immediatly ill and i have to take her to hospital or she will die suddenly etc etc, in short word i passed whole month in hell, one thing during the whole month i daily ask her thousand of time are you well are you feeling ok she mostly got irritated with so much asking but i cannot control myself as i care lot lot lot about my family members. i mostly one day after took her to hospital to check for fetal movement one day doctor said we have to c-section now on 15april11 i got more depressed anyway c-section was done, whenever my wife got pregnant i during whole 9 months spent in depression what will happen will she be ok, will she able to deliver etc etc and please note that i always have fear/doubt that when my baby be delivered doctor will said she/he isn't fine take her to hospital and that happened before and again happened in this recent pregnancy after c-section doctor said don't wait you have to take your baby to big hospital he isn't well that was also bomb on me i took him to doctor and spent there whole night standing and haven't met my wife till next day, note i also fear of taking patient from hospital to other hospital when one doctor says we cannot do anything take him to other and that happened with my born baby doctor after two said take him to bigger facility hospital that was real atom bomb on me i called my mother crying lot lot and saying why this happening she said don't worry i will take him and she took him to other and then other hospital and then he died on 20april11 but points to note that my father death,my wife placenta preavia news and my sister unconsciousness happened on 15mar11, i got pain on back of my right knee like muscle pain, 4 or 6 days after. then i thought this pain will be on left knee and then that pain also occured on left knee more painful than right knee i usually took nsaids for pain and passing days, after c-section of my wife my pains on knee got worse that it became hard to walk, i gave my blood for testing and report came with uric acid 7.0 and high aso titre as 281 on same day of my son's death but before his death. that report made gave me real shock and then my son's death new came both things son's death and specially my reports been positive made me depressed, anyway before burial my friend who is doctor gave me infusion of pencillin g 12lac for aso titre and i really was frightend that what happens to me as aso titre will cause rheumatic fever and my heart will be affected and i will die, i got severe panic attacks due to aso titre, i didn't eat or speak properly with people and spacing out for hours for my death.then on one day i got severest hellish pain on my left feet toe the finger which is right with big toe thumb and there was swelling, heat and redness and tenderness and even slightest touch of bed sheet made me cry and that pain was that much that i cried for hours due to pain note that more pain is on soles that made it harder to walk, i took nsaids for pain and the next day i visit my homeopath professor he gave me acid benz 30 stopped allpathic nsaids but after two day of acid benz 30 my right feet finger got same severest pain along with left feet having same pain again as my professor stopped all allopathic even painkillers. i cannot bear pain and started again pain killers. my mother took me to the medical specialist to rule out what i have he laughed and said high aso titre in adults doesn't matters and two things to rule out one is uric acid and the second is my mind its stressed and he gave me high anti depressents along with painkillers and allurpurinol for uric acid after returning from there i noted psoriasis or may it was simple dryness on my elbows and knees and hand finger joints but i started that drugs but after some day pains spread to my spine and shoulders,wrist,elbow and hand thumbs severe pains started at night and i read on internet about psoriatic arthritis and felt and sure my symptoms met with it and i got lot of fear i got several anxiety attacks and cried for two or three hours several times daily that i will be disabled and there isn't any medicine for me and i will die and these panic attacks happened for days and several in one day, i also have great fear of can-cer, i told that to my previous homeopath from whom i recovered from hemorrhoids and chest pains, and he gave me arsenicum album 10m a single dose and said wait for a month and surprisengly i recovered from my panic attacks and my mental state improved but it took time. i leave drugs without consultating md and also note that after death of my father my homeopath gave me aurum sulph 200 but i got aurum sulph 200 two days before death of my son and took it and then after two day as pains was getting worse and also my son;s death my homeopath recommend ignatia 1m and then pain getting worse then ledum 200 after two days again but no relief then acid benz 30. note that all these were taken in a single dose but 30 for three doses only. now i have severe pain wrists thumbs hands specially feet soles, feet soles became extremely sore swell from soles and painful .i must also mention that i am that kinda person who read symptoms of diseases and thinks i have all diseases etc etc. the specialist gave me painkillers. without nsaids i cannot think to live as pains got worse specially feet soles and the mentioned finger became severely painful inflammed and sore and there is lot of heat coming from my feet soles but thanks to my homeopath i am now off from any allopathic drugs but the story not ends here ars 10m did help mentally but not progressing more so my homeopath give me three doses of sulphur 30 and i within a week became 90% better both mentally physically and remained better for straight 50 days without medications but now pains returning gradually day by day little by little i consult him he gave me sulphur 200 then sulphur lm1,2,3,4 and it helped but not much after somedays pains again return . i also have fear of pain to be increased or pain on soles will be that much painful that i cannot bear them. after my father death i took great tension that i didn't serve my father properly and god will punish me of not doing that but thanks to god i recovered from all of my bad mental state. i also got scillating scotoma during early days of treatment but not now
hemorrhoids happened four years back after death of my little daughter i get extremely depressed or anxiety with the diseases of my family members and when they die i feel releived but homeopaths thinks that death of my family members causes me disease but i am sure its the stress/anxiety of their sufferings before death makes me ill not thier death.
keloids happened 12 years back when i became adult and i have acne started on my shoulders and chest i think it will come back and instead of coming back they started becoming keloids i don't have family history of keloids.
have abscess since i got adult.
got stomach issue two three months back before that i was complete heatly.
hair starts falling at age of 17-18.
teeht started decaying four years back along with hemorrhoids.



4. what aggravates it when it is happening?
when its happening thinking about it makes it worse very much worse and i don't stop thinking about my problem and they keep getting worse. sometimes after sex i think it aggravates it more.


5. what ameliorates it when it is happening?
been happy makes it relief even if i act that i am happy and say to my mind i am happy they get relieved. mostly warmth relieves my joints pains but also sometimes or mostly cold things releifs it. And i am happy on every morning very much and on every morning pains aren't worse but by the passing day they get worse but i can sleep easily at night without bothering of pains.


6. what triggers it into occuring?

thinking triggers my complaints to come back. or as now i am having high uric acid (gout) some foods may also aggravates like rice or red meat or somethings else but i haven't tried them yet. joints pains may also be triggered with tonsillitis or sore throat. whenever i have sore throat my joints pains also get worse may be it has to do something with strepoccocus infection ( rheumatic fever).



7. when did it start initially?

joints pains started seven months ago and hemorrhoids four years ago and keloids & acne 12 years ago and other complaints started after joints pains.



again forgive me if not understandable ask me anything if i cannot answer correctly.
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