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Oh you are very smart, hmm that's the main issue when firstly i got that arthritis, i cried/weep a lot some with pain and mostly with the issue that why i who is so much perfect and great got this problem and my mind didn't and don't accept this, not then and still not now that i am actually having this serious disease, the cause of crying was how can i get this arthritis i have lot to do in my life (not making money) i have to do something greater in my life how can i have this and that's WHY I REMAINED IN SHOCK FOR ONE WHOLE MONTH NOT BECAUSE I GOT ARTHRITIS ITS BECAUSE THAT HOW CAN GOD GIVE ME THAT KIND OF SICKNESS OR HOW CAN I GET THIS DISEASE AND THEN MY MIND STARTED REJECTING that i don't have this disease even though blood test reports are positive + very high uric acid(gout) but i don't accept this that i have arthritis that's why when i take drugs i think i am diseased and that's why i am not taking any as it makes me feel that i am sick. David remember i already told you before taking my case in sameer's thread that 'how can I HAVE this disease my mind still don't accept it and rejects this disease'. Think David why i choose homeopathy its because it have complete cure for any ailment not just suppression, why i choose you because i want cure not just temporary relief why am i not taking painkillers because i don't want temporary relief i want cure that's why i do wait and i do follow advice etc. I know i have some great work to do that's why i don't do job, don't work why should i waste such precious life on something so common why should i spend my life just for making money, i will spend my life in such a manner that it will be an example for others not just some common person living common life and then die. i cannot accept that kind of life. In Sameer's thread i mentioned lot of times i don't do work or job and thinks how can someone spend whole life in something so cheap, wasting his precious time for only making money or spend a life for spending only, its gives me so much pain that people do this.



To become great is my only wish since childhood that's why i didn't play in my childhood or do some common playing activities that normal children do as i already told that my mother told me that all children plays but i didn't play or join them, to make or prove myself great i seek powers that's why i read everything and tried everything hypnotism , telepathy, yoga, magnetism etc and lot more and get something and mostly nothing then i came to think Who made this world and Who is doing all this then i got believe in God and then i started searching for God at age of 12-13 in different religions not just by reading but attending their activities and movements but then i stopped at Islam, which told me that God(Allah) is the only great, the most powerful, the most merciful and Who make all this and nobody can match Him and nobody is his daughter or son, He is unique and best. Then i started taking interest in religion at age of 16-17 and i gain some popularity in religious works i.e; helping people for nothing etc. That way i got some greatness but that's only one way but i want more that's why i need to be cured permanently.


when i was in school taking 1st position in examines is my first priority not just pass. If i am 1st then i am relieved if i am not then i am not. I was head monitor in school that's make me great person who can stand above all. In my home/family i have elders but i gained position so i am now leader of them all and leading my family perfectly you can ask. If i am in business then i was head of my business not just employee and if by chance i become employee i will become great in remaining that position by doing work perfectly etc.

May i tell you something important, what my real will is what i really want to be WHAT I .... I CANNOT EXPRESS MYSELF MY FEELING ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO BE, DON'T LAUGH ITS LIKE I WANT TO BECOME ''THE GOD'' IF THERE WAS NO GOD, IF I EVER GO TO HEAVEN I WILL ASK GOD TO GIVE ME THAT SAME KIND OF EMPIRE/KINGDOM THAT HE HAVE, THAT'S WHY I SAID I BECOME THE KING OF WHOLE WORLD THEN I WILL NOT BE SOME CRUEL KING BUT THE REAL JUSTICE KING.

please David note that that is not just ego or arrogance that the belief i have in me. its not like am psycho (mad). Everyone have wishes and feeling i have that but to gain those i don't do kill people or do cruel thing its like i want everyone to accept me what the point if i kill someone in doing that, i will not disturb anyone in gaining this greatness but if someone opposes me i will not kill him by myself but i want him to be killed by someone or i want him to leave my area etc.

Did you get some idea what i want to express Or tell you.

can i delete some private things i.e my wishes etc.

No don't interrupt in my thread starface, its easy for you to make joke of other people but you yourself is a joke, i don't enjoy talking about it publicly if i do then why i take so much time its been almost more than four months since with David,why i didn't express it before why now two thing.

1. I am homeopath and know its impossible to get a REMEDY (similimum) without expressing those. I felt lot embarrased in doing that. I gathered lot lot of courage to express these things these are my secrets my feelings, i went too much deeper inside myself to gather those things i feel and have. If he was not my prescriber i won't be stating those and David rarely replied my emails so instead of wasting my time in emails and waiting etc i think i should express the original thing i am feeling.

2. I saw that spending money on lac-leo didn't gave me any benefit so i have to express myself and why should i let my cure to come late that's why i express those.


Starface i may clear one thing that is in our country and religion expressing sex related things is more embarrassing than expressing these things. So i don't feel too much ashamed of my recent feelings about been great but i am ashamed and embarrassed of my sex related issues i expressed here. So no worries about expressing my other feelings. Don't you ever wrote an essay on the subject ' What will you become in life'?
[message edited by Paki1 on Thu, 02 Feb 2012 01:24:26 GMT]

Nothing joke about you because when i try to think anything about you joking, you only seems to me as patient. becoming nothing is also a symptom. Probably aurum. So nothing from me toward you. :)
[message edited by Paki1 on Thu, 02 Feb 2012 03:55:58 GMT]

ok i won't delete it yet, i will be waiting for your reply. So please reply ASAP when you decide what should i do

thanks

ok take your time i will bump this as reminder.

bumping up again ...............

oh don't bother to reply all my posts as i already told you that i will bump it so that it will be in queue and also as a reminder. No worries take your time but also remember my thread(case) as i am having hard time with my condition sometimes.

Hi, i know it too early to report but i prefer to update today because i usually forgets everything or changes.

Took the dose yesterday, and yesterday night had dream, don't know even if it matters or not, the was i was in an annual religious gathering which usually helds once a year and in there were lot of speeches by different scholars, in my dream during listening speeches i suddenly remember i parked my car away(i can't drive a car in real life), i ran from the hall to towards parking and i then lost keys then i found it, the main thing that had huge impact on my mind is the running the whole dream was about running and that running was very lively, refreshing and energetic as i can't run due to my arthritis properly and when i woke up i still felt that running thing and i even tried to ran during morning in my street.

Anyway now since after dream during whole day and still now i am extremely frustrated, angry, pi-ssed-off, very very sad, want to be alone in a room with no doors or windows, thinking deeply about my life specially about my love, the girl with which i was deep in love and that love have huge and big impact on my life but after marriage i almost forgot that love but now today i even weep by seeing her picture on Facebook, the surprising thing is i even didn't told her but today there is great urge to talk to her and yet i haven't even said hi to her in my whole life.


One more thing i don't know why, i started fear of poverty(poor), i become afraid that i don't have money to spend life and this is GIVING ME GREAT ANXIETY. Why money become valuable to me. I didn't even give her a bit value but now i started fearing that i don't have money.


These kind of behavior changes are very weird to me.

Not physical changes at all.
[message edited by Paki1 on Mon, 06 Feb 2012 12:21:30 GMT]

Hi David,

Its been a week since veratrum 200c dose and nothing happened at all, not any kind of improvement or aggravation. Didn't feel anything much.

Please listen to me and think deep and clarify one thing that is bothering me a lot, firstly a question, can you tell that with how many doses a person's disease will be cured? For example think me as an example (patient) who had huge number of ailments and can you say with 100% surely that i will be cured with 2-3 doses of 30c and one dose of 200c?? if yes then the thing that bothers me will be cleared but i don't and doubt that a person like me who have that much ailments will be cured with ONE single dose. What i mean is anything that worked miraculously on me was sulphur with how many doses only just first day 3 doses that a person like me who was totally disabled, can't walk, can't even lift a spoon and was totally on bed, who can't even move any of his joints, got up with just 3 doses of Sulphur 30c, please listen and don't mind just think a little more and understand what i am going to say, as now i doubted that you understood my previous replies regarding sulphur work, what just only 3 doses of sulphur did is that if i was 100% ill it made me 80-90% better and whenever i said my pains are worsening i didn't mean that they went back to 100%, the pain just aggravates in 20% remaining thing. Since after sulphur i am almost 80-90% better what i mean is that how can a 30c remedy last long (9 months) that much if it had done just palliation or suppression, why not there is a complete relapse or even some relapse. And four months back when you asked to repeat it again just one dose to check if it is similimum it will work and it worked again but with some first 2-3 days of aggravation + skin symptoms appeared (Abscesses) and then after 2-3 days aggravation it work again but you said it is just doing palliation what bothers me a lot if it is similimum how can we assume that that four doses of sulphur 30c were enough TO KICK OUT THE WHOLE DIS-EASE?. And if sulphur isn't my ready we shouldn't ignore the face it worked even if palliated, it may be near to my similimum, shouldn't we try something which is near to sulphur or something like sulphur.

Anyway you know better than me and can judge a remedy better than me. What should i do next, i remember that you told me that you will be analyzing my case deeply so did you find something?



P.S. Forget to tell you that a split dose of veratrum 200c was taken in almost 70ml water.
[message edited by Paki1 on Sat, 11 Feb 2012 14:09:36 GMT]

No, i want you to recommend i didn't mean to force you to prescribe me sulphur again. If you think it is worked partially then i don't want to suffer more deeply if its partial. If you see that i look like sulphur then i will take it otherwise i won't take it. Don't want to delay my treatment in experiments of checking sulphur.


My teeth need scaling four months ago doctor told me and he said if i don't let him do it my teeth will be decayed etc and i haven't visited him again and there is plaque formation on my teeth. Should i go for scaling and root canal?

what makes a person sure is the proof, how can anyone deny if a thing is proved? But i already told you that i strictly follow my prescriber's advice not mine own guesses. Again i won't go against your advice.


And you didn't tell me about dentist or homeopathy is engough?