remedy for homosexuality and depressionGreetings to all,
I am 28 years male.
I need cure for HOMOSEXUALITY and DEPRESSION.
I am suffering from depression since childhood but, unable to identify and was suffering. One year back I've consulted a homeopath to cure depression. His medicine is least effective on me. Moreover, he doesn't give prescription, he gives medicine alone. I have gone through various types of depression. Unfortunately, more or less I have all such symptoms. In this regard, I need advise from experts handled depression cases already.
Second, I am a homosexual. In childhood (at the age of 8yrs) my classmate used to force me to fulfill his desires. This continued for 2 - 3 years. After that we were departed to different areas and never met again. But, since that time I have identified myself being attracted ONLY TO MEN, never attracted to women. As a male, I am mostly around men and have many chances to touch and feel the sense of males. I am crazy about my room mate. He is straight sexually. I adore him, always seeks his company. He is everything to me. We never had any mutual intercourse. Being a straight man he avoids me due to such unacceptable behavior. It is too painful. We do not stay in same room anymore. It has been more than 100 days we spoke with each other. He never cares for me. Even then, he is always in my mind. I am unable to forget him. My depressive behavior of inattentiveness, procrastination adding fire to this pain. In simple words, my mind seeks company of some confident, straight, strengthy MEN.They does not need to appear handsome. Rather somebody should appear rough & confident to attract me. Soft looking men can't attract me. Sorry...this is what I am by nature...All these are going unintentionally...No manual mistakes. But, still I believe/feel I have little bisexual tendencies than a she-male. But, I am lot confused by reading various threads online on 'Cure for Homosexulaity'...whether it is curable/not. There are many debates that homosexuality is incurable. BUT, I POLITELY REQUESTING DOCTORS WHOEVER BELIEVES HOMOSEXUALTIY IS CURABLE TO GUIDE ME AND SUGGEST MEDICINE.
I've found a questionnaire in the forum. Hope this could be of some help in analyzing my case.
Patient ID: ANONYMOUS_GENTLEMA
Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experiences and happenings.
1. Describe your main suffering?
ACIDITY - Which does not allows me to take all kinds of food. I am a vegetarian.
And my major concentration to get rid of homosexuality and depression as both are related to behavior and I find dependency between these two.
2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?
Gastric problems, acidity, loss of appetite, no interest towards food, burning throat, severe hair fall, weary throughout the day....
At age of 17, identified I have tonsils. Didn't took proper medication and remained with same height(5.6 feet). No more height growth after that age.
I am very susceptible to cold. Cold catches up easily and remains for longer times. From past 2 years I didn't found suffering from cold so frequent. If I go to more humid places, cold catches up easily.
3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?
Depression symptoms related to 'Not functioning full stream', 'Not feeling good', mood switching(most often they are gradual), unwanted thinking, more judgemental, less mingling socially, Feeling sad or blue, Loss of interest or pleasure in usual activities, Inability to sleep or excessive sleeping, Agitation or irritability, Fatigue or loss of energy, Feelings of worthlessness or excessive guilt, change in eating or sleeping patterns, spends more time alone, away from friends and family, more dependent on certain relationships(with confident men..being a homosexual), Poor performance, Persistent boredom, Diminished ability to think or concentrate, Memory impairment, over emotional, over excited, high urine passage, slowness, dullness, pale skin, exhaustion, hair loss, morning sickness, dull, lazy, instability, excitement, confusion, hopelessness, cannot do things fast enough, over sensitivity, unable to handle pressure, more sweating(under control after medicine from my previous homeopath), fantacies, imaginations, illusions on future and past ( How it would have been, how it would be, it could have been), expecting everything to be perfect, day dreaming, Time passes slowly. keeps on thinking something irrelevant to situation, poor concentration(suffering from age of 12), desire to be alone( from age of 5)
4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst?
Helpless, introspective, inconfident, weeping sometimes, guilty, inferior.
5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?
Depression symptoms identified before 10 years..and are grown up with me..
Homosexual feelings from age 8
6. Which time of the day you are worst?
By the time I get up from bed/whenever my ind is calm I am comfortable.
Whenever I have at least one/two things to do, Pressure builds up unwantedly..gradually, i will be dull, over carried, preoccupied, restless, dull...
7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same?
If I have to do even small things such as brushing, bathing looks like a load of work to me....More pressure aggrevates my suffering. No pressure, no work keeps me cool...even though no work can't stop my mind cool....my mind keeps on thinking unwanted, irrelevant things...
8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)?
My mind seeks change. more unstable whether it be place, food, sleeping area, personal preferences...
9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?
As my mood changes frequently, I feel comfortable based on my mood...
If I am happy(rare case) - I wish to take sweets, more spice foods, smiling, strong perfumes.
In usual mood - I prefer spicy foods.
These days, I am comfortable with luke warm or hot water...3/4 years back I was comfortable with cooler things than hotter.
10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.
I don't get sleep easily. Not at all easy. Late night sleeping. And sleep gets disturbed with minute disturbances such as fan sound...or if nails of the cot are not fit enough for slight movements on bed.
- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?
When I hear thunderstorm, I feel shocked(but for a while). No reaction before thunderstorms.
- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?
Absolutely...I am looking for people who takes care of me.
- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc?
Yes. Smell, noise, light can impact my ON GOING MOOD.
- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
weeping, talking to one self etc?
No nail biting.
When I feel depressed, when I introspect recall my past sometimes I weep.
And 24 hours a day, even in sleep I am thinking, thinking, thinking irrelevant. And more introspecting (I am not sure whether this can be treated as talking to myself).
- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?
I am sentimental to my parents. I have no friends. But, I will prefer to mingle freely with people around me . Don't to be egoist (as I feel inferior).
No spouse yet.
11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?
I am fearful by nature almost all for everything..especially when I need to do a new thing or meet/talk to new people.
Repeatedly I will be thinking something. Day dreaming, procrastinating, fantacize.
12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions?
In general I am not interested to take food. If I have to take something I like spicy, tasty foods. I like ice creams. If I have to take sweets, I like sweets with moderate sweet. I don't like food items with more sweeter.
13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?
More water intake prior to noon or 1pm. After 1pm or so...I don't feel much thirst might be due to gastric or heaviness after lunch.
Generally, I take much water as much as 7-8 liters a day. Keep on drinking and keeps on visiting washroom. I can control from taking water also lesser than a liter in a day.
14. How if your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?
No hunger. I am not sure whether depression symptom or gastric (as I am suffering from gastric as well as depression).
15. Is there any kind of food which your body cant stand?
Yes. Foods which are stored or not cooked properly, highly spicy foods cause burn in throat/stomach...high acidity..In such case, I have no other choice than taking GELUSIL(antacid) for relief and allowing the problem to increase.
Generally, whenever I take food outside I feel heavier during/after meals. I don't see such heaviness with food cooked at home.
16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?
Normal throughout the body. And excessive at armpits.
17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?
stool is more fatty. My belly is not flat. It is oblique.
18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?
I won't get sleep easily. My unwanted thoughts chase me. I sleep late night. Even though I go to bed, I can't get sleep easily. Throughout my sleep I will see unlimited, continuous, relevant & irrelevant dreams on various matters. If I had to think/concentrate much on any thing during day time, more chances I see a dream on that matter. I CANNOT HANDLE EVEN LITTLE PRESSURE.
One important point..Till teenage I had habit of bed wetting. Even I did at the age of 22 and sometimes after that also.Those days I had good sleep. In the dreams, I feel like ' I have to go to wash room....I've been to wash room...and I start urinating'...this is all in dream..But, physically I will be on bed.
From early 20s I am not getting sound sleep and I can get up easily and going washroom if I have to....This is my problem..and I am explaining to doctors in the forum... Please do not laugh at me...I am not doing any mistake to feel shameful.
19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?
NO. I AM A HOMOSEXUAL. AND CAN NOT TRY PROPOSE ANOTHER MAN ON THIS MATTER. IF I DO SO, THE SOCIETY LAUGHS & DESCRIMINATES ME.
20. How do you think you are different from others, if at all?
Uncommon thinking. Uncommon preferences. HOMOSEXUAL PREFERENCES.
21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?
I have gone through some medication by a homeopath. He gives me medicine but, reluctant to share/inform me what medicine I am getting.
After medication, my sweating levels at armpits are low. And I am bit sociable (want to mingle with people IF I GET A CHANCE otherwise, to myself I stay alone...lonely...thinking something...irrelevant, unwanted). THAT'S ALL. NO ADDITIONAL IMPROVEMENT I FELT IN ONE YEAR TREATMENT.
22. What major diseases are running in your family?
I think some of my ancestors have depression symptoms. But, I never know anybody with homosexual feelings.Acidity.
23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance
People around me says I look dull, Preoccupied, as if I am thinking a lot, working a lot, no good dressing(I don't want to dress perfect), weary, energy less, sad smile, sleepless, dark circles around my eyes, skin looks dull, shineless, looks like I have lots of pressure, innocent, unclever...etc.
I have written much because to give clear picture on my problems. NONE OF THE PROBLEMS ARE ACQUIRED BY MYSELF INTENTIONALLY.
I POLITELY REQUEST DOCTORS TO SUGGEST APPROPRIATE MEDICINES AND SAVE MY LIFE. DEFINITELY, THESE REPLIES CAN SAVE OTHERS TOO AND THUS EDUCATING THE PUBLIC HOW EFFECTIVE HOMEOPATHY CAN BE TOWARDS HEALING HOMOSEXUALITY..
As mentioned in the beginning, I need guidance for depression and homosexuality. Both are related to mind/psychological behavior. If I take medicine simultaneously for both problems, will there be any chances of failure/side effects?
If YES, I want to take treatment prioritising HOMOSEXUALITY.
If NO, please guide medicine that can treat my problems altogether.
Anonymous_gentlema on 2013-12-26
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