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does it matter what time of day I do this?

also, tomorrow is a holiday and I might want to have a some wine. is it alright to have it if its not near the dose at all?

It has been 48 hours. That evening my back hurt at the base of my neck, it felt tight and tired and on going to sleep I had a lot of itches on my skin and had to move a lot. Also, I my boyfriend got into a talk with my about how I am neglecting the relationship and it made me cry. I just didn't want to talk and spoke very little and didn't want him to see me cry and was quiet about it.
The next day and today didn't notice much difference except slight headache today at the top of my head. I have been having these a lot since first sepia dose a while back.
None of these things are new or unlike me.
Also, the past two nights I've had similar dreams. In one a girl i went to school with had an art show in an important gallery and I was jealous. The next night i dreamed that I went to graduate school in art but I couldn't do it and i quit. So both dreams about my insecurity/failure in making art.
I think that's it.

Happy Holidays to you Sameer!
Thank you for your kindness and time spent to help me and others!!:)

I am supposed to hit the little bottle of original LM1 Helios solution, correct?

I took a second dose on the in the evening before bed about 36 hours ago. The next morning it was a bit easier to wake up and I think I felt a tiny bit better this day. I exercised for the first time in a month so this might also have made me feel better. However, right now I am on holiday and not working and my boyfriend is away so most of the factors which irritate me are out of the picture and it makes it more difficult to gauge my mood. Throughout the day I had anxious thoughts, thinking about my time in university and how I should have made more of it and wondering what people I graduated with were doing now.
Also yesterday during the day my right knee hurt for a bit and my scalp was unbearably itchy when i started exercising and sweating. Head itchiness seems to be getting worse.
Last night I had a hard time falling asleep because the smell of my shampoo was really strong after I'd washed my hair. Also I was freezing even though my room was hot and stuffy. I slept with a hat and clothes and socks(normal for me).
Today I woke up tired and am still tired. I was reading a book and there was a description of a sunset and i imagined if for a second and this made me cry. It made me thing of how I can't and don't enjoy things around me, like I am part dead all the time, just going through the motions and waiting for time to pass. I guess I can call this self-pity.
Later, I saw my mother and we spoke briefly about nothing important and after we parted I felt very sad. This feeling I have had before where I miss her even though she is nearby and we just spoke. Like I am far away from her. This makes me cry too.
In general, I don' have much willpower, whether to not eat things I shouldn't eat or to do things I don't want to do which I put off. I have been reading and doing not much of anything in this time I have off. My room is all disorganized and messy and has been for a while but I cannot bring myself to tidy it even though I know this would make me feel better as I like things neat and clean.

also, i was wondering if it is ok that i use a anti-dandruff shampoo. it has colloidal sulfur and some herbs in it... should i cut it out while i am taking remedies?

Thank you. I will let you know the outcome

Hi

Its been 23 hours since my second dose. The evening of taking the dose i had some insomnia as i think it gave me some energy. I also exercised too close to bedtime on this day , another reason for staying awake. The next day I woke up feeling like i had underslept, but alert and energetic. Felt pretty good all day. The next morning after second dose I woke up tired even though I slept late and was sleepy until about 5 when I had some decaf coffee. So I had another decent day today, although it is hard to tell because I am still on holiday.
Only other things i felt were some more strange chest pressures.. but this is in sepia, right?

Can I ask what your plan is for me? Do we just lay off of dosing for a while if i am feeling ok? With LM, do the effects keep acting long after the dose is taken? If so, how come you are having me take consecutive doses? Do we keep dosing until I feel completely good? Do we move onto higher LMs, or only if needed?
Sorry for the onrush of questions, I am a novice.

Thanks Sameer.

Thanks that's a concise analogy:)

There is slight benefit, nothing very dramatic though. I will be able to discern better next week when I go back to work.

also, just wondering-- this isn't too crucial, but, can I expect the sepia to help with my nails eventually? they grow with horizontal waves in them and split at the ends.

ok, i will let you know after the doses

hi. I have taken the 3 more doses. I don't think it is having any effect :(.

I have been sad, tired, back has been hurting.

also, I have my period again and the bad mood, and cramps were not helped by sepia this time.

Where do we go from here? Is it possible that I can react with improvement toward a remedy and it is not 'the one'? I

Would you like for me to organize my symptoms and list them here or email them to you? .. at his point i am not sure if i have omitted something

thanks for your attention

Hi Sameer.
My menses were a bit shorter again, so maybe sepia did that. Sometimes I think Sepia helped and other times not, but this could be because i am very moody. Overall there is a lot of sadness in me and I don't think sepia is helping it. Is this something that would be helped with higher LM's or does it require another remedy?

I have made an enormous list of symptoms. Sorry it is so
much reading for you!
Are you ready?:)

CHILD AND YOUTH

-when very small mom said I threw up her milk

-grandma said I cried when alone

-lots of problems with digestion/elimination- constipation, then cramps with diarrhea

-growing up- father very self absorbed, critical and verbally abusive(but I tried to reason with him)- affectionate but only in jest

-he was very critical about trifles- example- how to wash the dishes- his way

-mother- critical and self-absorbed-not affectionate but but helpful in practical matters

-many fights with me crying a lot

-always felt like I would do something wrong and in state of anxiety

-independent and could entertain myself

-always treated like adult

-hated my body



MIND

-have always been very sad

-feel like I am not really living but waiting, stuck, not connected to universe

-watch everyone else and want to not think about things so much, want to be someone else

-worry that things will only get worse as I get older and uglier and less healthy and less opportunities will come

-have fear but not sure what I am really afraid of- maybe its not ending up anything in life, wasting life

-stuck in my head

-forgetful, preoccupied, bad multi-tasker

-cry easily

-wasting my life and aging

-loneliness don’t see the point of sharing it so I don’t pick up phone when friends call

-loneliness but irritable when around someone

-critical of close people and can be snappy

-want to do the job myself because I know other person will do it wrong

-very very critical of myself

-very self conscious about many things- how I said things, how to say them, I rewrite emails and letters many times

-going over negative past events, putting myself down

-constant worrying about little things- overwhelmed, tired

-very indecisive, little and big things- can’t decide which kind of lotion to buy- this is tiring. Ask boyfriend for his opinion but still can’t make up mind and change it

-very moody

-when VERY depressed and in despair I get diarrhea and don’t eat, sleep all the time to escape and need to be around someone but don’t want to talk. Also, think about suicide but I wouldn’t do it because its not a solution, its more that I wish I didn’t exist. afraid to be around people who aren't the closest. afraid people will see my fear

-when sad I oversleep ad overeat

-used to be a heavy smoker for 9 years, quit 1.5 years ago

-i am good at hurting people with words

-impatient

-anxious when around people I don’t know

-if I am feeling very anxious that day I am scared that people will notice

-timid with people like this
but open with close people

-timidity really upsets be because I want to be friendly but can only be serious and cold-wish I could be with strangers how I am with close people

-anxious when around my boss- I say stupid things and forget everything and get flustered

-bite nails and pick at skin

-very little willpower

-everything is a chore

-when doing something I am rushing and my thoughts go very fast and I don’t seem to be doing it fast enough and get bored

-what to make art but can’t enjoy it and put it off and don’t do it- i think because I want it perfect and because I can’t decide where to start or why

-don’t want to do things but when I do they turn out fine

-get my feelings hurt very easily and take things personally, defensive

-sometimes think of things before they happen

-drop things

-when excited or really tired get giddy and have ridiculous laughing fits with tears

-mind goes very fast, can’t remember what I was writing

-when excited and talking to friend jump from one things to another and omit parts of thoughts

-opinionated and stubborn but come off as pretty easy going and mild I think

-don’t argue much because if I think I am right I am satisfied with knowing it and keeping it to myself

-can’t stand vulgar, disrespectful stuff- example(when I stay with parents)- stepfather is innaproriate with my mom in terms of how he thinks its ok to touch her in front of me- this really distresses me and drives me NUTS

-boyfriend is full of fanciful plans for future and I am always the one who tells him it’s a bad idea, or not practical


-get startled and jump very easily- example in movie theater- I am the one jumping and sometimes scream- feel it in my stomach

-also in movie- cry easily and while reading books too

-get upset when animals are mistreated in books

-have happy times that come from within and not from something going on in life- feel hopeful and fantasize and feel like chest is full of love

-don’t enjoy myself – even if going somewhere nice

-prefer to stay at home and read/watch tv to distract- a favorite vice is tv with snacks- so I don’t have a tv

-don’t know what to do with my life- am only wasting time.

-can’t decide on profession- I know I could be good at all of them

-I think that if I could either pick another occupation or make art and want to become totally engulfed in it so that I feel like I have a purpose, I think this would help me mentally

-long for joy and peace and an occupation I can be proud of

-wish i didn't torture myself with thoughts

-I know meditation would help me mentally but can’t seem to fit 2 hours/day into my schedule

-exercise helps

-listening to music helps

-huge procrastinator

-perfectionist- with anything- turns everything into a big deal

-perfectionist- very good craftsman

-very good taste

-sensitive and aesthetic

-dumb myself down to others- conscious of sounding smart

-hate sex with boyfriend but masturbate 3 times a week or so

-don’t want children, feel they are a burden

- I see a lot of my parents’ qualities in me and hate this

**example of getting upset with mom:
mom says/does something rude and selfish and I get really upset but don’t say anything. What she does is sometimes not a big deal but she does it a lot. I get angry and feel like I hate her and I know this is pointless and it makes me want to cry. Then confront mom and try to reason nicely and communicate that she always hurts my feelings and doesn’t realize it and can we clear this up please and stop doing it. I tell her that she should hold herself accountable for her words/actions. She tells me how did something that hurt her feelings too, and it makes me very sad because I didn’t mean to and she should have told me so that I knew.
We start talking about a lot of stuff. I want to defend myself but start crying and feel stupid and can’t talk. I get scattered and feel like and idiot. All I can do is sit there and say uh huh. She is also crying at this point and then I begin to feel really sorry. In the end I feel better after crying and better from talking but stupid


SLEEP

- exhausted all day, get giddy at night can’t sleep

-many nightmares, think I am screaming but boyfriend says I moan

- can’t fall asleep because I hear everything very well

EARS

-sensitive to noise and irritated by it – can’t read or focus with music or talking and annoying by chewing sounds

-can’t hear what is said to me and need repeating

-occasionally get big pimples in outer ear canal which are gross and oozy when popped

HEAD

-same pimples on head sometimes

-itchy scalp and dandruff

-dull heaviness in head often

-occasional headaches where it is very violent repeating shocks

EYES
- twitching eyelid- one time lasted for a week

-tired red eyes

-blue rings under eyes

-puffy lids and under eyes

NOSE and THROAT
-itches-sides and tip

-always have snot/mucus not enough comes out

-slight rawness in throat because of mucus

-get sick often a lot and it starts in throat

-huge tonsils which get inflamed easily and hurt

SKIN
-moles and freckles

-eczema on upper arms and stomach in winter

-slight acne on chest

-face has tiny bumps of acne that are usually dormant but flare up

-pimples flare up and get painful and swollen, and then settle again

-if I pop one it just fills up again

-big pimples mostly on cheeks and on chin under sides of mouth

-fair skin which can get very pale if I am sick or red

-when I exercise face gets beet red

-splotchy skin especially on legs- can see veins

-when tired red hot cheeks and ears

ARMS and LEGS
- left wrist hurts

-knees feel tender sometimes

-feet sore unless I wear really supportive shoes

-used to twist ankles all the time(hasn’t happened in a few years)

-ankles swell sometimes

-fingers swell when exercising

-feet get very cold at night

-fingernails blue when cold

- fingernails split at tips and grown in horizontal waves

-cuticles dry and split from nails

-toenails become ingrown

BACK
-slouch, always put my head forward

-neck tight

-bottom of spine right

-tired

-spine sore when touched at nape of neck

-pain and stitches at nape and down to between shoulders

-sometimes burning feeling



URINE
-pee 10-15 times a day

-after peeing soon feel like I have to pee again but not much comes out

-really have to focus and work on peeing if someone is nearby

-urge to pee during sex

STOOL

-always constipated unless I stick to rigorous diet and time schedule and don't travel

-mucousy stool when constipated

-hard stool that is broken up and wo’t come out

-sometimes have to press on perineum to make stool come out

MENSES
-extremely constipated before and tired

-very sad and irritable during first days

-week before want to MUCH meat

-cramps 1st and 2nd day- they comes in waves


CHEST
-tightness and pressure on bone between breasts(sternum?)


STOMACH
-heartburn

-painful gas and bloating

-want to eat in evening before bed

-crave ice cream, chocolate, chips, meat(more before period)

-nausea from too much fat

Thank you Sameer. I will pick up the Nat mur. in next few days and get back to you!

Hi Sameer, here is an update

Today is day 8 after having taken Nat Mur 30c.

I can’t really tell if there have been mental changes. I think this means not.

On the physical, I had stitches in right ear canal and some stitches in vagina on the first day. I also had pulsating pain in right temple on day 5, and that night I had a bunch of worries that kept me up late.

Strangely, I twisted both my ankles. My left ankle on day 2 and my right ankle on day 6. I also leaned on my left wrist in the wrong way and it has been hurting again and I somehow managed to twist the joint on my right middle finger where it connects to the hand.

Also, on day 5 in the evening I had some alcohol – few drinks, and then dinner and I vomited later that night.

Also, the first few days I had a cold. Lots runny nose and also stuffed up nose, mostly left side of nose and sneezing. This went away after 3 days or so. Today I have slightly sore throat and mucus that I am able to bring up only in the morning and its yellow. Don’t know if this stuff is relevant at all.

Thank you Sameer.

Is there any danger of my trying so many remedies??