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Also, wanted to mention that I have had somewhat of a cold even though my flu is over. Stuffed up and snotty. No big deal

Another thing I experienced around day 7 or so but forgot to mention is these kind of electric buzzes in my brain on going to sleep. They are not painful. I have only experienced these after coming off of an SSRI like lexapro in the past, years ago... It was weird to feel it without having taken medication..

Hi Sameer,

Its been a week. Today I have felt bad emotionally- irritable and angry, also upset and scared and anxious. I complain a lot when i am around my boyfriend, who I feel very comfortable around. I feel like there is something wrong with me and that I will never get well. Time flies by and there is so much to do and to be done and I don't know where to start and none of it is interesting but a task. I took some valerian just now to try to offset the anxiousness.

Here is a recap of the week:

taken in the evening last sunday

1st day :
-sad thoughts of my father(who passed last year) and thoughts of missing my mother(although she lives not far away)
-slept 13 hours this night
-dreamt of my dead father
-dreamt of a stressful social situation with people from my past

2:
-didn't notice anything much, except have no willpower to not eat when i am not hungry and i ate a bunch of snacks before bed time



3:
-back hurting
-stomach itches(i was walking at the time and this happens to me when i walk or exercise)
-thinking about my dad again
-singing to myself while walking (this happened to me after ars6c also but i forgot to mention. it comes with a better mood, but also an exhausted and kind of excited and slightly manic one- as in not peaceful good mood)

4:
-better mood in first half of day
-some frights by weird noises
-then bad mood- anxious with boss and when talking on phone with friend and when in public on metro
-worried and feel like i did something wrong
-stuffy nose
-again, no willpower to not eat junk

5:
-bad dream- that I was awfully mistreated by my boss and felt abused
-awakened exhausted even though it was day off
-nose runny/sneezy
-on evening walk i thought about killing a small child

6:
-felt better in afternoon but then abd again in eveing- moody
-feel scattered
-time passes too fast


7:
-few itchy bumps on knuckles of back of hands. kind of like pimples

All week:
-runny or stuffed nose on and off
-back hurting especially between shoulder blades
-itchy skin
-mostly crappy mood except for the ups i mentioned

Thank you for reading. Does all this make any sense? I feel kind of defeated in this quest.

zoloty

things i want to add:

-today i've had a hard time communicating with my mind going blank mid-sentence

-want to eat at bedtime(this is an ongoing struggle)

- i am hasty and also i give up really easily on something

-many negative thoughts and feel guilty for it

-with regards to my boyfriend, i feel like i want him with me because i am sad/scared/anxious. Its like i want him around when he is gone and want him to leave when he is around. Also, i don't want to be touched and his constant interest in me sexually really really annoys me. I don't like sex and it is kinda painful sometimes. He is a very positive person and i fear that in the long run all my negativity will affect him and make him sad too. Feel like the responsible thing would be to leave him out of my life so that i don't make him depressed as well.

I was really hoping Ars would work for me. it seemed to match so well when i read about it- the controlling, planning, finding relationships that are helpful, the selfishness(the kind where i am so stuck in my worries and my head that i can't get outside it to help anyone else), not liking ingesting cold things, being very cold but wanting air because head feels stuffy.

Is it possible that good mood will come in a few days(as occurred with 6c)? Or is my negative state of mind right now showing that ars isn't curing? -- in this case, why did 6c make me feel better?

again, thanks for reading

Hi Sameer. Today is day 12 after ars 30c and I am not improving mentally. I am feeling depressed and anxious. My mind is not working as well, especially short term memory because of the depressed mood and the stress. I felt better for the second half of day 9, but I can attribute that to having taken a quick nap and not feeling so exhausted also.
Yesterday I still had physical feelings of getting hot and cold with nails blue and aching head with feelings of pressure. Could an aggravation still be going on?

Also, I have been drinking coffee about every other day and I i've been taking some valerian sometimes at night. None of this was near the doses but I am concerned that it may have interfered.

ok, i will hang in and get back to you

thank you for the quick response

Hi Sameer,

I took Ars 30c on March 1st so it has been 25 days. I have been in a better mood since about the 16th of march. Often this good mood is excited and a bit maniacal but it is mostly not sad at all. In life, I have had a bunch of things do deal with because I have to find a new job but I am getting through it and staying more active and positive, whereas in the past I may have become more procrastinating and sad and avoidant. Also, my bowel regularity is better and my skin has been getting worse the last few days(could be pms related) and scalp has been awfully itchy and more hair falling out for a few weeks now.
Is there a higher potency of ars I should order to be prepared if my mood goes sour?

Here are is a list of symptoms Days 12-24:

12
AWFUL day- all sorts of depressive thoughts- scared, pathetic, wishing i didn't exist
black spots floating in vision
vision shifted sideways
noticed vertical crack or line is growing on R thumbnail

13
R side of head hammering, pulsating pain--comes and goes
R middle finger middle joint pain as if jammed
can't finish anything, brain skipping around

14
R side of head hammering again
Scalp itches like crazy while running

15
feel more in the moment, less worried, depression opening up
say and write wrong word-frustrated
upper lip pain when pressed
canker sore inner upper lip
head heavy pressure
pimple on back of head
pimple on labia
want to eat meat, cheese, miso constantly, especially in evening

16
slightly better mood
nails blue and cold
evening- strung out, maniacal mood-- energetic but not sad

17
say and write wrong word
feeling ok, but excited and can't focus or finish things
can't concentrate
realized i curse a lot
feel stupid
big pressure in head when i stand up

18
excited and worried but better mood
pain above left knee makes me feel it will collapse-- comes and goes
nose itches and rest of face too

19
calmer, better mood
sleepy
head pressure when standing up and heartbeat in head
goosebumps L side of head

20
pressure L temple
few pimples back of L hand
a bit sadder

21
a bit sadder
enthusiastic
mind replaying songs in head

22
better mood
itchy skin
face and chest skin breaking out

23
face and chest skin breaking out
better mood
temperature fluctuating

24
energized, motivated
still decent mood




Thank you!!

Also, even though mood is better there is still a lot of worry and obsessive thoughts and feeling like i am doing/did things wrong.

I have been using aloe vera gel on my face.. it has some additives.. is this ok? what about lotion and simple face wash?

i'll order 200c and update in a week

Hi there,
It has been 5 more days but I think it has shifted. Since day 26 or 27 I've been feeling more down again. I don't feel like i am back to the depression i felt before, but I am irritable, worried, upset, moody.
For a good 12 days in the middle there I felt much better mentally.
I am happy that ars seems to be working. But, Sameer, do you think I could have a very bad mental aggravation from the 200c?

here are the symptoms:
day 25

-only 5 hours sleep but energetic anyway
-itches
-good mood

26
-first day of period- not as sad as i would usually be, but feeling a little sad
-cramps

27
-dreamt of hitting bicyclist with car
-cramps
-starting to go over regrets and sad things from past
-ok mood in afteroon
-black spots floating in vision
-procrastinating
-not good mood in eve
-not wanting to go outside but to hide inside
-don't want to be alone

28
-pretty good mood, energy
-dry brownish/red flaky wax from left ear
-hand feet cold
-nausea after coffee
-irritable and angry, not really sad but frustrated and unable to focus
moody
-mean to boyfriend
-painful bloating
-thinking sad thoughts of my father who died and going over regrets

29
-violent hiccups
-stressed, irritable, anger easily
-rethinking everything
-vision- saw what i was looking at trembling, as if hot air was coming out
want chocolate

Also, my period is shorter than it used to be. I first noticed this after sepia but it seems even shorter now after ars.

Also, up until about when I began to feel worse again my stool was greenish(I don't know if this was related to drinking mate tea which has some chlorophyll)

Thank you. I'm still waiting on the remedy to arrive but I will do this and get back to you.

Hi Sameer.

Today is day 10 after ars 200c( i took on april 1st, the way you instructed). Below is a list of symptoms. Generally, I have been irritable and easily angered and more thirsty and craving things that are bad for me again- like ice cream and snacks and stuff. My skin is worse but the mood has been only a tiny but better in spots...
Also, I realize I am pretty superstitious. I also realize that I have a LOT of anxiety when i have to write something that someone else will read like an email because i care a lot about what others think about me and its overwhelming and takes all my energy. Worrying about how I appear to others and going over past negative things that happened that are not even important happens a lot for me. I also notice that I sit crooked all the time, with my legs to the side and my torso to the other side. Its uncomfortable and i don't know why i do it.
No symptoms are new other than that I woke with my arms above my head last night, and i never do that

day 1
-taken at 2pm
-took a nap, awoke ravenous and had snack. went back to sleep util morn- 13 hours

day 2
-awoke anxious- vivid dreams but can't remember
-body feels weak
-had tea
-itchy face
-anxious
-sharp passing pain R hip joint and L ankle joint

3
-vivid dreams but can't remember
-feel better emotionally, energy back, productive thoughts (?)
-good mood, excited
-miss mom, after i just saw her
-stiff and painful and swollen middle joint of 2nd finger
-awful breath
-time going too fast
-thirsty

4
-black floating shapes in vision
-procrastinating
-moody
-stressed- so much to do and times goes so fast
-thirsty

5
-stomach gassy and pained in am
-irritable and angry
-not sad
-worried
-left corner of mouth crack
-itchy skin
-cant concentrate well
-rereading and rewriting
-wave of feeling sexual mania
-thirsty
-wave of nausea
-crave fresh fruit/veggies
after run: legs weak and tired and body, face red, fingers swollen, pressure in head, trachea sore
-finger joint pain is better
-don't care about anything
-want to be along but also want bf around
-itchy skin
-pimples starting

6
-hard to wake up
-tired, irritable
had coffee and tea
-back hurts
-going over regrets and past wrongs
-stomach gassy/pained in am-2nd day
-softer stool
-itches around genitals
-1pm sexual mania
-guilt for mean thought/talking badly of someone
-bottom r foot hurts
-sexual mania in bed in eve

7
-really hard to wake up, irritable
-tired
-typing completely wrong words and unaware- writing wrong word, frustrating
-can't stay with one task, jumping alll over the place
-pin prick r ankle
-angry, irritated
-skin bad
-stayed up all night this night working on project

8
-maniacal
-no sleep
-song stuck in head
-feel little better today
-hands feel heavy
-more patient

9
-dream of dead father- unpleasant, dissapointing, and of sleeping and not being able to wake up
-slept 13 hours this night
-dont want to do anything, just lay in bed, no motivation
-cuticles dry and peeling away from nails

10
-woke up 4-5 times during night
-woke up having slept with arms above head
-feel a little better today
-songs stuck in head
-hair dry
-skin still breaking out more than usual in cyst-like acne

That's it. What do you think? Do you think that it won't work because my skin is worse but the mood is not really better?

Thank you

-zoloty

That first paragraph is absolutely me. Even the deceptiveness and lying.
In the symptoms list, most fit.. a few like the 'something is alive in abdomen' i can't really relate to.

so you think ars treatment is over? Why did it work at first? Was it a miasm that was lifted and now we are moving deeper?

Thank you thank you for explaining.

So, to be clear, I can take it as soon as I find it, the Thuja, no need to wait?

Also, is there a chance I will have awful mental aggravations? I have to be kind of productive in the next week and so i am worried--what if i will feel really bad?

2 pellets in 250 m water, right?

Great, thank you!!!! I'll let you know how it goes!!!

Hi Sameer,

It has been 10 days. I don't really feel better...there were a few better moods mixed in, but overall its moodiness.

Here are symptoms:

day 1
-cheeks red
-hands feet cold
-mentally ok but tired
-thought of first love
-headache(coming and going poundings)
-pigged out(meaning ate too much), headache went away
-mid finger knuckle pain
-pee wont come out

2
-dont like myself
-feel haunted by bad feelings
-cry about dad and upbringing
-feel like i will never be well
-pretend to have headache to avoid social situation
-dont pick up phone when friends call
-avoiding all responsibilities, procrastinating
-hanging out in bed all day, watch movie, nap, do nothing
-writing things incorrectly
-heartburn, constipated
-stitches in ear
-fear that i am forever going to suffer and no remedy will work
-stitches upper abdomen

3
-song in head
-ok mood
-procrastinating
-cloudy urine

4
-awoke sweaty and hot
-anxious, had to get out of bed
-abdomen bloated and painful
-pain R shoulder when breathing in (from neck to back) lasting 6am-9 or 10 am
-feel tired about 4pm and yawning
-throat tight pained and raw, as if i'll be getting sick
-anxious
-pin prick in heel
-saying wrong words

5
-nails blue cold and lips blue(upper) neck very cold
-anger when i hear about someone defenseless being treated badly
-exercised and felt good about it
-hands feel weak and trembling
-felt better mentally seconf half of day- enjoy tasks and events more

6
-anxious in bed on waking(yesterday in good mood, woke today in crappy mood)
-tightness in chest-sternum
-stand up vertigo and vision obscured by dark
-yellow mucus from throat w blood
-spending most of day in bed. procrastinating, anxious, with deadline looming
-hands tremble
-goose bumps with chill
-feel bla(don't care about anything)
-waiting for day to go by, killing time on internet, waiting for bf to come home from work
-cry at sappy movie
-this gets me crying about myself, cry quietly so bf doesn't notice and very very sad
-want cold water
-told people i wasn't feeling well to be alone

7
-dreamed of someone dying
-dreamed of my friend who is successful and who i envy
-dreamed sexy dream
-wokeup a lot this night and was tired
-wake 4:30 am, feel good
-wake 6 am hot and sweaty, esp on chest between breasts
-better mood but still nervous and very itchy skin, some zits
-R corner or mouth crack
-eyes watery
-excited mood, energetic, slightly manis
-kinda nauseous after drinking a beer
-upper lip dry and burns
-tongue feels burnt
8

-better mood
-hear music playing in my head that i heard few days ago.. this is with
positive mood but nervous
-sexual mania feeling
-nervous with desire to smoke cigarettes

9
-waking up many times during night
-dreamed of someone dying, and separately of my successful artist friend again
-tired, bad mood
-shopping spree
-cannot pay attention to what is being said to me, can't focus
-zone out and stare off into space
-face itches, esp nose and eye margins, but really all over
-move my nose sides
-coming and going- pounds/ stitches in brain(pound first in back L, then top L)
-pain in r elbow and r foot
-chill with goosebumps
-r eye hurts can't help but rub, this makes it water. grey floaties in vision
-hungry in bed at night turns to painful bloating

10 sunday eve
-like electric current, mini shocks, in legs
-angry in the morning, cursing
-tired
-painful bloating abdomen
-craving smoked meat
-more hungry after beginning eating and then want to eat more even though it should be enough
-embarassed and blush easily
-say wrong words many times

what do you think?

thank you