Att: David regarding Endometriosis

hi David,

I hope the below makes sense, I literally wrote what I first thought of, so if you need more clarification please let me know.
thanks in advance for your help. Would really love for you to help me battle this Endo pain that I experience.

Endometriosis
1. What exactly happens?
Since having my son 7 months ago, I thought my endo would of got better from the pregnancy, but it didn’t. After I had my son I bled on and off for 10-12 weeks (I did not breastfeed). I than went to see a Classical Homeopath and she prescribed me Sepia 200. This helped stop the bleeding and got my periods coming on time. At first I was diluting the Sepia 5 drops in water, but than she told me to start taking 5 drops directly in my mouth. But I am still experiencing pain during menstrual and ovulation.
Prior to falling pregnant I was on and off the pill since the age of 16 years; I am now 29 years of age. I really don’t want to go back on the pill, as I know it doesn’t agree with me. I have also had a laparoscopy about 3 years ago where they removed a 3.5cm cyst in my left ovary and removed adhesions, my gyno described my endo back than moderate to severe and that I should have children within 5 years.
I have been suffering from endo for about 4-5 years now. I’ve always had periods issued as long as I remember.

2. Describe all sensations and pains. Each pain or sensation should be described in such a way that allows us to imagine having the same pain.
I could say that I feel some sort of pain everyday, whether it be for a little bit of the day or the whole day depends where I’m at in my cycle, it feels at times like a constant pain running from my hips down to the back of my legs, also lower back pain…I feel as though my legs, hips and waist feel numb. I think they call it sciatic endometriosis. I must have adhesions on nerves hence why I feel constant pain going down my legs. At times it feels like stabbing pain, but mainly just constant and achy. I also get breast tenderness (to be honest, I’ve never had breast tenderness in the past only since starting Sepia) my stomach gets bloated and I feel the pressure around my uterus and ovaries. I sometimes feel nauseous too and even fatigue. Sexual intercourse can also be painful, but not as painful as I feel the next morning. I feel like my back is going to break and my ovaries feel very tender. Every morning I wake up, I’m in so much pain…my back feels like its going to break and my legs are really sore too. I think I also have a back problem, not sure if that is related to the endo, could be a separate issue but I’m sure the endo makes it worse. Ovulation is a really painful time for me, nothing seems to make it better again the lower back, hips, waist and legs are really sore like as if I had a workout and all my muscles and insides are going to fall apart. My breast lately have been getting so painful, I’ve never had breast tenderness since I was pregnant. Sometimes I think my body feels like its pregnant again.

3. What causes the problem to get worse after it has started occurring?
The worse times is on the 3rd day of my period, sometimes even before my period and during ovulation….My ovulation pain is probably the worse, my whole body just feels so achy almost like I have a cold or virus. I just feel like dieing to be honest. Stress definitely makes the pain worse; I guess having now a child and lifting him all day long certainly doesn’t help the situation. But when I get the pain, I just get so worried; I do worry a lot about my health particularly around my reproductive area. I have this fear of infertility for some reason, because that region has always been a concern to me. I was very fortunate to have been blessed with a child naturally. Again Sexual intercourse can make the pain worse.


4. What creates some relief for the problem?
Seeing a chiropractor once a month to help correct my pelvis and lower back (apparently I have a twisted pelvis, so I’ve been told). Hot showers, heat bags, Naprogesic, magnesium, walking, someone mentally talking to me and calming me down, sometimes exercise like yoga, when my periods arrive I get some relief there. For eg this month I was spotting for one week before my periods arrived. It’s probably the worse month I’ve had during the 7 months. Once I got my periods I felt so much better and even happier. I was so weepy and achy before that.

5. What triggers the problem into occurring?
I think it could be anxiety or stress; I’m a constant worrier and just can not stop thinking. When I start to get pain, the worry kicks in and the pain only gets worse. I also worry a lot about my son, so I’m sure that is not helping the problem either. Perhaps not eating well also may trigger it, but to be honest I don’t know why I have this disease. I’ve had a lot of on and off relationships in the past, not sure if that trigged it.


6. What time of the day or night does the problem occur?
I feel pain first thing in the morning when I wake up (gets a little better once I get moving), mid afternoon and late evening when I seat down to relax at around 7ish. But some days it feels like all day and I’ll take a pain killer to feel better

7. When did the problem start? What was happening in your life at that time? Did some specific event or treatment take place just before the problem started?
I guess it probably started when I was a teenage perhaps, I always had heavy periods. I did have acne issues as a teenager and was put on Roaccuatane, the Roaccuatane definitely helped clear my acne but it started coming back after a couple of years and that is when I went on the pill. I was on the pill for a few years after that and decided to come off it. As soon as I did the acne came back and this time it was even worse, it was as if the pill was suppressing the acne to come out. So once again I went on Roaccutane….BIG Mistake. Everything went wrong after this, I started getting back problems, just felt really weak, I lost a lot of weight, and my hair was falling out at an alarming rate. I had to stop the Roaccutane after being on it for nearly 5 months. From that time I was suffering hair loss problems and they put me on a progesterone drug to help with the hairloss, this helped but it reduced my period and than once I stopped the drug, my periods came back heavy again and my hair started falling out again. I could say I’ve lost 50% of my hair and til today I still have hair fall issues and that is another health problem that concerns me the most, I’m afraid of losing all my hair and having really thin hair. Its already somewhat thin compared to what it use to be in the past, I had such nice think dark wavy hair and now its just frizzy, lifeless, dry scalp and thin. But I think the endo exacerbated when I went to see a naturopath and he was prescribing me all these herbs to help with my hair which in turn was playing around with my hormones. That’s when I first started feeling pain around my ovaries; I was about 24 yrs by this age. But my gyno thinks it was a matter of time and it probably had started earlier than that, but I was just not experiencing the pain.

As well as this, please describe any traumatic incidents that have taken place in your life. Discuss anything that has had a lasting impact on you mentally, emotionally or physically.
I broke my nose when I was 12 and was never happy with the appearance of my nose so when I was 19 I decided to get it corrected. I had a really traumatic experience, the surgeon did a really bad job of my nose, and it took a few operations to get my nose looking better but it still not 100%. I am still not happy with the look on my nose but to terrified to get another surgeon to even look at it and till today it has affected my breathing. When I sleep on my left hand side of my nose gets blocked and I can barely breathe, I can only sleep on my right side. Also from all the stress over this incident this is when I also lost a lot of hair, it seems as though I lose hair when I’m stressed out.
I now also suffer from some breathing issues, during Spring or change of season I do feel my nose gets blocked at times. I have to use a spray to help me breathe. My sleeps are disturbed from my nose getting blocked up.


Discuss the way that you manage or deal with your problems, or any problems that occur in your life.
I guess you could say that I don’t really deal well with my problems. I’m a very nervous person and worry all day long when I have a problem or if I’m sick. I do suffer from anxiety, at times I worry so much I feel as know my heart is going to pop out and than I find that my body is so achy.


Discuss any patterns you have noticed in your behavior especially concerning your disease.
I have a lot of fears, I can’t make any decisions for myself. I’m always indecisive and just struggle to make up my mind and when I do I always wonder what if the other way. If something goes wrong, I’m always hard on myself and find it hard to let it go. I fear that I will never be able to get rid of this endo pain and that I will have to live a long and suffering life. The more I try to improve my health, the worse it seems to be getting. Stress/Anxiety has exacerbated my endo to get worse. I thought having a child I would be happier and my health would get better, but if anything it hasn’t and now its just harder cause I have a child to look after on top of my health.

Discuss any part of your life where you feel stuck or unable to change and grow, especially where this occurred around the beginning of your disease, or as the disease evolved.
I had a really bad relationship when I was 19 til I was 21, there was a lot of mental abuse – he use to say things like I was ugly and no one would ever want to be with me. He had a gambling and anxiety problem and never trusted anyone. He was overweight too so had a lack of confidence, but we constantly braking up and making up. In the end we bought a house together and it was the biggest mistake I did, I lost money and it took me a long time to sell the house. So he emotionally drained me out
The other experience would be when I lost a lot of my hair and it affected my self image as well as my nose operation that I mentioned earlier.


Describe your childhood and the kind of environment you grew up in, with reference to your relationships with your family, your school experiences, and any serious childhood diseases. Your parents may need to help you answer these questions.

I was always a shy child, a mummy’s gal, cried to go to school, found it difficult to make friends, was never close to my dad or sisters, felt like the black sheep in the family, I was chubby when I was little girl and got teased for being a little chubby, this obviously upset me and I decided to stop eating much when I was a teenager. My mum got really worried about me, I was even taking laxatives to lose weight, and I actually did lose a lot of weight which resulted in me losing my period for over a year. I did live overseas for a few years when I was 5yrs and came back when I was 9yrs. I got teased for not being able to speak English very well and this really upsetted me. I had a bully in school from yr 2 to yr 10. Perhaps a long time to get teased. I was a very loyal friend, but friends always disappointed me and back stabbed me. I had a tendancy of feeling left out in groups and til today I still feel left out in groups. I lack confidence of myself. I struggle with trusting people cause they always let me down. I don’t really have someone that is like me at all. I feel like a perfectionist compare to others, perhaps cause I’m a Virgo and have that trait.

If your earlier discussions have not mentioned these already, please describe:

1. The specific foods that you crave (not just like) or hate
At the moment it’s been chocolate, fatty foods, sugary foods, and hot foods over cold foods. I would say really bad foods instead of healthy. I am also lactose intolerant I think. I do have lactose free milk cause I find the other milk gets me more bloated and I do suffer from a bit of IBS too. A lot of cheese can also give me a sore tummy.

2. The specific drinks that you crave or hate
At the moment I crave for sparkling mineral water, water or orange juice. I don’t crave for soft drinks or alcohol

3. What your sleep is like
Well my sleeps haven’t been that great since having the baby, but overall my sleeps weren’t that great. I can easily fall asleep but if my nose gets blocked up, it wakes me up. I also dream a lot which makes me feel even more tired. My body gets really achy during my sleep so when I’m turning at night I feel my body achy. I can wake up easily and I'm a really light sleeper

4. How the weather and the temperature affects you
The cold weather gets me depressed; I don’t feel like going out, I just want to stay indoors. I love spring and weather that is not to cold or to hot. I don’t like it if it’s extremely hot like over 30 degrees, it tends to block my nose more and I feel like I’m suffocating.

5. What kinds of things in the environment you are particularly sensitive to
I do get a bit of hayfever in the change of season, lately my nose has been getting a bit stuffy from Spring and I do also get the hayfever symptoms around cats and dust.

6. What your general level of energy is like
Would say on the low side, I feel over tired, over worked, looking after a child all day long can be so overwhelming for me. I feel sometimes too weak to even look after him. I sometimes feel too lazy to even do anything. I can easily loose my temper if someone I feel comfortable with upsets me and that is when the anxiety kicks in and I just can’t control what I am saying, I pretty much lose at them and my blood feels like its boiling.. But I’m also a pretty sensitive person too and get upset easily if someone puts me down or says something about me or if they don’t like me. But I guess you could say that I’m a sensitive person in general, medications in the past has made my health issues worse hence why I am scared to take medication now.
I can also get depressed at times, I hate gatherings or big groups cause I feel left out or I feel like I don’t fit in. I like being at home because it’s safer that way, but also get really lonely and have the need to talk to someone over the phone. But I do prefer one on one that a big group.


7. What your level of sexual energy or desire is like
Since being off the pill is sexual energy and desire have been good actually, but the pain is what the problem is. When I was on the pill I had no energy or desire

8. Describe your menstrual cycle
Well my last menstrual was the worse I’ve had in the last 7 months of having my son, the ones prior to that weren’t too bad but I still had pain, but at least they were coming on time. Last menstrual I was due to get them on the 11th of Oct and I ended up showing brown discharge on the 3rd Of October and I didn’t get red blood till 9th of October and even had a bit of clots that day, not big clots though just little stringy ones. So I had my periods for almost two weeks. I think I am now ovulating cause I was in a lot of pain yesterday after my sons christening which was quite stressful for me and when the christening was over when I got home from my waist down I felt so sore and my breast were so tender. This morning I had the clear discharge so it must be ovulation. My husband and I are planning of trying for another child next year, so would prefer to stay on something natural till than.

Other Medical conditions
- Hemorrhoids – I do have a hemorrhoid problem it was really bad during my pregnancy, but it started before the pregnancy. I’m not sure if Sepia has helped that area actually (it was pretty bad at one point), I do bleed from time to time still depending on my stool if it’s hard or soft. Regarding my Stool – I normally go every day. However when I do get my periods, prior and during I tend to go a bit more. My stool seems to be okay, not constipated at the moment. They sometimes seem a bit on the runny side at times though especially during my periods. Could also be from my IBS problem, or lactose but than again I also got told that Endo can affect your bowel problems and I have been told that I have endo on my bowels.
- Acne – Don’t seem to have much since having the baby, I do sometimes get little pimples around the side of my chin. I’m not sure if Sepia has also helped a little with my acne or if it has been the pregnancy.


I also need to know what homoeopathic remedies you have taken in the past, and what the results were

I was taking Phosphorus 200 for my hair loss concern when I was pregnant by another Naturopath and a whole heap of other homeopath medicines depending on the symptom I had at that time but than once I had the baby I went to see a Classical Homeopath and she explained to me that I should only take one medicine. So she put me on Sepia 200.

Thanks David, thought to give you as much info as I can.

I did forget to mention that I did get post natal depression after having my son, I was really sweepy and I regretted not breastfeeding him, also found being a mum very overwhelming and blamed myself for his reflux cause I didn't breastfeed him. I sorta still do blame myself for the whole breastfeeding thing.

Thanks

Also I did have an ultrasound over a month ago, and there was no signs of cyst on my ovaries. But as you know ultrasounds can not tell you the severity of the endo.

What dreams do you have that are so exhausting? Be specific, and especially give me any reoccurring dreams or images or symbols.
I find it hard to remember dreams, but I do dream a lot about being with different men – perhaps weird to say cause I’m married but sometimes my dreams are sexual and Im sleeping with someone I don’t know of sometimes I do know the person which is even weirder. I also have bad dreams where I feel there are spirits in my dreams and they are trying to kill me or my son. I see a lot of pooh in my dreams and children

Describe the feeling of worry, the physical feeling of it.

What are all your fears?
I fear of being sick of a killing illness, losing my hair, infertility – unable to have more children or carrying my child to full term, my son being sick, taking the wrong path in life, claustrophobic and unable to breathe. Being cheated on. My son dieing in his cot during the night. Taking any new medication and the side effects, the unknown in life and what my future holds for me and my family.
When I think of my fears, I feel tensed and trapped, unable to control the situation or my mind. I feel scared, lonely and ashame.

How are you hard on yourself?
I want to do the right thing by everyone and when I don’t I try hard to fix it. If I do something wrong, I keep thinking why didn’t I know better, I should of done my research first before making a decision. For instead I blame myself for my sons reflux cause I did not breastfeed him, I can’t seem to let it go. I heard breastfeeding can help a child digest better and I feel that is why my son is having all these digestive issues.

What is the experience of being 'drained out'?
Someone who sucks all my positivity and energy, where I am left with nothing no positive perspective and just weak, I just want to sleep and not talk to anyone. I feel exhausted and unable to socialize.

What is the experience of being 'stabbed in the back'?
Unliked, unable to trust that person again or move on from the situation – if ever! They broke my heart into bits and have crushed any feeling I had about them. But mainly disappointed that they didn’t know better.


What is the experience of being the 'black sheep', of being always left out, of never fitting in?
Always having a different point of view, perhaps taking a complicated path in life than an easier one. Being open minded than narrow minded. Speaking the truth rather than keeping my emotions in. Wearing my heart on my sleeves instead of being heartless.
Always trying to do the right thing, instead of not caring. If I see someone who is looking lonely or not included in a conversation I try hard include them in the conversation, but if the situation was reversed they wouldn’t do the same.
I worry of not being accepted, of being talked about, being different

How do you experience groups?
Again I feel invisible, like as though I’m not even there.. I like one on one as oppose to a big group. I find it hard to stand out or even find conversation that others would find worth listening too. Im not loud person and also don’t find myself interesting to others. I tend to compare myself to others, I feel worthless and unliked if someone is not listening to me.

What is the feeling of disappointment?
I guess someone not meeting my expectation, someone who doesn’t care of how I feel, they just care about themselves. I get really upset when someone disappointments me, it feels like the end of the world. I almost want to never speak to them again, cause they have done wrong by me. I feel angry, let down, sad and unsure how to fix the problem.

Describe the experience of 'overwhelmed'?
I feel edgy of all the information and advice floating in my head, unable to make a decision cause I think about all the different ways my decision can turn out. I start to panic and procrastinate. I lose focus, I need to talk to someone I can trust…I go on and on about the situation. At this point my blood is boiling of how much Im talking about it and going round and round in circles. I don’t ever give up, but I want someone to make the decision for me. I’m feeling exhausted and confused from all the advice I’ve been given. Not sure if I will be able to do it correct, is there a right way or is there a wrong way

Forgot a couple of other things. I have a fear of water, like drowning, I don't know how to swim properly either. And the other thing, I hate it when someone touches my neck, just get this feeling all over my body like a shiver.

And also when I panic or get anxiety I feel tight in my reproductive area

The feeling in water?
Mainly have this problem in beaches and pools btw, not showers. I feel cold, conscious about if I can reach the ground, looking at water relaxes me, but actually being in the water I feel a little un easy I guess because I'm not sure what is in the water and if I can reach the ground or if a wave would knock me out.

Drowning?
Suffocating, helpless, no air, traumatic, unable to calm down, panic, anxiety

Touch of the neck?
Again uneasy, hate wearing skivvies that touch my neck, feeling of suffocation, I take extra breathes. Mainly when the touch on my neck is unexpected, I'm not prepared for it and when it's a little rough

Tightness? Chest feels closed, whole body is really tensed, muscles are less achy- body is more achy when I relax, mind is on over time. My ovaries and the lower region feel tensed like they want to pop out.

Dreams? I mentioned a bit about them in the last email, would you like me to elaborate? I guess I don't always remember them, sometimes they are clear and real, other times really dark and unclear on faces. I had a dream last night that 2 ppl were telling me to take Sepia, not sure what that means? I've been told that I get messages in my dreams, but I don't know how to translate them. I dream of ppl i know being sick and when I speak to them they are sick of some sort.

Also David, since stopping the Sepia I have noticed a bit more little pimples on my face than before

This sorta reminds me when I was in school again.

Suffocation- unable to breathe, someone trying to kill you by closing your oxygen pipe, being strangled by the throat, being in a confine room without windows and unable to get out - like in a lift, having a pillow over your face or a plastic bag covering your face, wanting to be Outside in the fresh air instead outside

Tense and want to pop out - wanting to run away from a situation, insecure and stiff, unable to relax or being uncomfortable. Seeing a snake who just ate a mouse and the mouse trying to get out of the snakes body.

Sorry meant to say wanting to be outside instead of inside for suffocation

Not sure if I answered those correctly, best I can do with having a littleone

Strangled - a man who is disappointed and mad with his wife loses control - grabs her by the neck with his two big hands, slams her to the floor, shakes her neck and head vigorously ....holding her tight around the neck, the woman is choking and unable to gasp for air. Her neck is going blue.

Being strangled by hanging yourself with a rope

Something trying to kill you- being chased in the dark by someone trying to rob you as you are walking to your car, he catches you before you are able to get in your car, ties you down to the floor by his strength and starts stabbing you to death

I honestly struggled with the above

Wow I find all this pretty amazing, the description of this remedy matches me quite a bit.
I never went this deep with other homeopaths, so am interested to know where this will take me.

I'll try to purchase this remedy soon, cause it may take a little while to get to me. I'll let you know once I receive it. And you can let me know how to take it

Thanks for all your time and effort on my case. And for actually caring in choosing the right remedy for me.

Would you like me to puchase liquid or pellets? And if pellets should I get a lot or not