Intrusive thoughts, sexual obsession, panic attacks depression _{Page 2 of 4}

Thank u sir!!
Will I stop taking nux and phos as said by Dr anuj sir?

Having a stucking pain at head throughout the day! Woke up today with anxious feeling and hot ears and the thoughts came much later!! this is the worst this month! ignoring those i went to tuitions though concentrating was a big deal! I went to play forcefully just to feel happy since happy feeling is all lost since 3 months! Had panic attack while resting in afternoon which is very common since sept thats why i dont sleep at afternoon. . talking in an anxious voice with people i dont know why.But amazingly having clear defaecation of satisfaction at morning which was not happening last week...but stucking pain at head which sometimes stiffing the neck.is this nux effect? today is the last day of nux dose! But headache is uneasy throughout the day

Before taking the remedy i was pretty much convinced that im not infertile but it was my thoughts and worries thats creating the problem! Suspected ocd and googled about it and feeling every symptoms of it! Getting scared about it was my problem! Questioning everything was my problem! overthinking was my problem...and getting no clue what was my real problem...
After taking Nux Vom my symptoms just got severe....waking up in the morning and mind in within seconds tell me you thought these things and its time to worry...and my loop of worrying starts waking up with same headache....as if a motor starts in the brain....with much heat in my brain... ears getting heated up....have to take cold shower and put some water on ears on back of head and same intrusive thoughts ruminations what wrong i thought...
Palpitations remained same....no interest in studying....pressuring my self in studying ...constantly thinking of such sexual thoughts when im sleepy during day....please look into this matter

Oh my god! I already took the phosphorus as schedule because i didnt open the blog because email didnt cone in time....and the last day I was administered by a dry dose of sulphur by my uncle since at home saw me panicking everytime which i cant deny to take in front of him by saying I self medicated myself from internet. Though hot pain by nux vom is not there but old symptoms of rumonation and intrusive thoughts are still there....
what should i do now?

when should i take phosphorous? at night or morning? Only 4-5 drops?
Ruminations and intrusive thoughts are strong after few minutes after waking up and at the evening

Panic attacks are not severe than before. But Strange feelings with intrusive thoughts is there. i have observed that any obsession doesnt remain if i overdo it and it remains for 3 to 4 days. Sex obsession is there...and meaningless thoughts regarding sex is there like i saw some girl's leg Im sexually aroused by it! Another like while masturbating to any erotic video i feel like My focus is not in the act of video but in any object kept in the video and attracted by it.Though i let it go. Masturbation is like im doing everyday! Its like its been a habit to any video or appealing pic. I make vow everyday that I will not masturbate and i break it! Like 2 days before my friends were deciding to visit a sea and then on next day after seeing the sea in internet I had strange feeling which i cannot explain then i put strange vague logic to satisfy my strange feeling but it went in vain! Then i went almost gloomy and started scrolling net and atlast u broke the gloomy feeling to any random erotic video. On the next day only I saw a dance video in a spacious background suddenly had that same strange feeling...like why is that spacious and I compulsively look at the roof and how high the roof can be! Imagining any pic in mobile in 2d or 3d aspect or viewing the background ignoring the people....but nothing can satisfy my strange feeling. I understand these are meaningless but these are bothering me. So many obsessions!!!! I cant bear anymore!!
Even one day I saw some dirt in bathroom drain while urinating I felt like i will pick it up and put it on skin. Sometimes i simply get scared to imagine anything while remembering answers of chapters fearing that i will get into some wierd stuff. Sleep is right now nice! But if wake up for toilet early morning like 3 or 4 then again sleep i dream of having sex with someone to whom i attracted with even i dream of going to tour with her....i had consecutive three dreams like that! In all these silly stuffs im wasting my time at home which was given to study for upcoming exam at the end of this month...as i cannot concentrate as all these things going inside head....even i cannot learn answers...plz help

pabitra said Panic attacks are not severe than before. But Strange feelings with intrusive thoughts is there. i have observed that any obsession doesnt remain if i overdo it and it remains for 3 to 4 days. Sex obsession is there...and meaningless thoughts regarding sex is there like i saw some girl's leg Im sexually aroused by it! Another like while masturbating to any erotic video i feel like My focus is not in the act of video but in any object kept in the video and attracted by it.Though i let it go. Masturbation is like im doing everyday! Its like its been a habit to any video or appealing pic. I make vow everyday that I will not masturbate and i break it! Like 2 days before my friends were deciding to visit a sea and then on next day after seeing the sea in internet I had strange feeling which i cannot explain then i put strange vague logic to satisfy my strange feeling but it went in vain! Then i went almost gloomy and started scrolling net and atlast masturbated to break the gloomy feeling to any random erotic video. On the next day only I saw a dance video in a spacious background suddenly had that same strange feeling...like why is that spacious and I compulsively look at the roof and how high the roof can be! Imagining any pic in mobile in 2d or 3d aspect or viewing the background ignoring the people....but nothing can satisfy my strange feeling. I understand these are meaningless but these are bothering me. So many obsessions!!!! I cant bear anymore!!
Even one day I saw some dirt in bathroom drain while urinating I felt like i will pick it up and put it on skin. Sometimes i simply get scared to imagine anything while remembering answers of chapters fearing that i will get into some wierd stuff. Sleep is right now nice! But if wake up for toilet early morning like 3 or 4 then again sleep i dream of having sex with someone to whom i attracted with even i dream of going to tour with her....i had consecutive three dreams like that! In all these silly stuffs im wasting my time at home which was given to study for upcoming exam at the end of this month...as i cannot concentrate as all these things going inside head....even i cannot learn answers...plz help

Food craving has increased has increased very much! specially sweet comes to kitchen and eat anything sweet! and feels like something mentally wrong in me sometimes and watch mental illness videos by doctors suspecting to have one...

Please reply sir! Having brain fog and bit restless! Sitting with open book in front of me....but cannot study...huge syllabus left...plz help sir

Shall I start with Staphysagria since sexual obsession is not yet gone! For anxiety and intrusive thoughts can I do with arsenic alb.
If yes!? Then say its potency and doses

Sir please reply

Emailed Anuj Sir! Didnt get a reply! So if anyone else do a favour...i will be obliged.
Exams are about 2 weeks but cannot concentrate full fledged way. I get easily overwhelmed with may be 10 minute serious studying had to fiddle with phone uncontrollably.
Sexual obsession is not yet gone though previous thoughts comes but dont haunt me. Compulsive masturbating if any sexual content comes in internet.
intrusive thoughts with sexual content still there:
1. does Woman breast give sex appeal? I remember i need to masturbate for this meaningless questions
2. Listening to songs gives sexual appeal which is just added to my recent dislike to listening music. Once a music lover gives irritation of music
3. Urge to pick any dirt or maybe stool to feel and taste it.... this was the worst...which gave me panic attack
4. talking to women or seeing them except family members must give sexual appeal or erection which makes difficult for social events...though i managed a marriage ceremony always conscious about the music play and women around
Dreams are likely for almost all alternative days maybe good or bad ...and my third intrusive thought came during the end of a dream and I woke up with disgust.
Panic attacks are like almost everyday anytime of the daytime. Sometimes depressive attacks feeling sad where head gets light or sometimes heavy as if there something inside the skull apart from the brain with strong ruminations of happy past...which is the only source of happiness.
Eyes feels like sunken with prominent dark circles with stiffening of head , neck , shoulders and sometimes little back pain and knee pain

phos 200?
When should be taken? afternoon?

Had phos 200 today! But having heavy heart beat throughout the day....feeling very restless cant even lay down.Heads are heavy with dull pain eyes are feeling deep sunken ....feeling alienated..feeling massively depressed and mood off overall feeling today very alienated sir!
yesterday i was better though...except those intrusive thoughts

today i cant even sleep due to massive heart beat.with pulsating at various parts for which remained awake with eyes closed. i took 3-4 drops of phos 200 in cup of water after that these things started....gone throughout the day and now in night also...should i continue?