Dr. Sameer, chronic psoriasis patient seeking help from you! _{Page 4 of 7}

Hi Sameer,

I am not feeling any better :(. I feel that spots are spreading and getting thick too. Initially I felt that although spots are spreading but they appeared to thin out. Also, many spots that disappeared are surfacing again almost everywhere on the body. Itching is also back :(. Even scratching also does not relieve itching.

It is not as bad as it initially was, but from a meagre 5% a month ago, it has jumped back to nearly 20-25% of initial levels.

Majority of worsening is seen on arms/legs and scalp. Face is relatively better but not seeing tangible signs of improvement there too.

Please let me know what should I do next.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

It was a mixed bag mentally this time.

I was having less or no anxiety in critical situations. However, I was back to square one yesterday. I was unnecessarily anxious about something of no importance. Didn't last long as it got resolved soon but i was anxious in that moment. My injured eye was somehow not feeling well yesterday and I was scared as hell. I visited eye ER and they said corneal abrasion is back. I am still worried.

Apart from that, I was feeling relatively at peace and happy. I was even able to empathize with others better and also emotionally not as dry as I felt before. In spite of having few spots on my face, I was not very self conscious and could communicate quite freely. However the day I posted my last message I was worried because I thought things were not getting better or getting worse.

I think worrying is a kind of groove - I was out of it for relatively longer period of time. Fell into it last monday when I started worrying about psoriasis and it sort of impacted other aspects as well. Maybe thats why I was anxious yesterday. Wasn't helped much by the eye scare. I don't know how well I would do from here.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

I've placed the order. Hopefully it should reach me by next Friday. I'll let you know once i am in the possession of remedies.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

I made a small mistake while filling in the order form. I ordered 10ml instead of 30ml. Is 10ml going to be enough quantity or do you think 30ml would be needed in any case? I know this is not a very intelligent question otherwise you wouldn't have asked for 30ml specifically. Unfortunately helios.co.uk is not a very shopper friendly site and I am not able to modify my order. If 10ml is not going to be sufficient then I'll make the remaining quantity as a separate order. Please let me know.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

I am in possession of Calc Carb LM1 and LM2 bottles. Please let me know the procedure to take the remedy.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Thanks Sameer, I'll take it today and report back to you in a couple of days. Should I use disposable cup for preparing the dose, or can I use steel/glass too? Your recommendation of disposable spoon makes me think that maybe we aren't supposed to use the utensil for anything else later on once we've used for a homeopathic dose.

please let me know any restrictions that i need to follow with the LM dose.

Hi Sameer,

I took calc LM1 exactly 2 days before. Immediately after taking the remedy, I felt like I am on a some kind of tranquilizer. But that was followed by aggravation of psoriasis symptoms. The intensity of spots seemed to skyrocket. Spots seemed itchy, bleed when scratched and i felt burning sensation upto hours after being scratched.
I was extremely worried by aggravation that I started to despair.

Yesterday the focus of my attention shifted to eyes. I saw a couple of floaters in my vision and was worried. My doctor is saying that nothing is wrong, but I think I've become hypochondriac about my eyes and vision.

I peeled off some skin yesterday, which led to tender skin appearing from below. Now the absence of hard skin is making me think that things are better, but it may not be actually so. Its just that the accumulated dead skin has worn off, but I see no other sign that things got better after LM1 dose.

On a positive note, spots on face haven't gone much bad. They have increased in number (even before this dose) but intensity wise, they look the least intense.

It has not been one of the best states to be in. I've been worried and restless most of the time. On day 1, i was worried about my skin. I came across an article on net which was discussing other future complications related to psoriasis (psoriatic arthritis). With increased intensity I started worrying that I might also get this disease.

Infact, I've observed that I've developed this dread about diseases. Even before I started worrying about psoriatic arthritis, I was worrying about glaucoma, cataract, optical neuritis, sotoma etc. I see some symptoms, sometimes I dont even understand them fully, and I start jumping to conclusions. It takes me some time to realize that I was wrong and come out of it.

On day 2, I was seeing a little blurred and I was worried about my vision.
When I am in a worried state about my eyes, I would keep switching eyes to find out whats wrong. I won't talk much and I am lost in my own world. Internally I feel as if I've seen a ghost. I feel scared to death to think that I might lose my vision, although I don't suffer from any serious condition to threaten the vision. But still with any small perceived vision defect, the first thought to occur is 'I am going blind'. Thats why I mentioned the word 'hypochondriac' in my last post while describing my mental state.

Thanks Sameer, will report back to you after a week.

Hi Sameer,

I am into the final day of observation and I do not feel that there has been any significant improvement in the condition. There have been numerous new spots popping up especially on my arms.

There has however been some change in the texture of spots. Skin on the spots seems to be relatively thin and comes off easily. But still that leaves quite tender skin exposed underneath, which occasionally gets peeled a little more oozing out some blood. Itching has been there, but not so much to trouble me.

On the mental front too, don't have much to report. Despite everything being alright, the deep fear about the well being of vision persists. Even my conscious efforts to get rid off the monkey on my back hasn't been too successful. I realize that nothing could be wrong but the fear of 'what if something is wrong' has been too overwhelming.

Please let me know if you need further information.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

A lot of things that I told you earlier about myself still hold good. I am going to make a very honest attempt again to answer your queries.

ANGER: I get angry somebody is not listening to me when I feel he should be listening. This category is most applicable for my family members, and is the most frequent cause of my being angry. The other few instances in life when I've been angry was because my ego was hurt. I used to carry a huge ego, but have reduced it to a very large extent. I hardly get angry with others because of ego issues now. Another very rare category when I feel outraged is when somebody cheats on me or tries to cheat on me.

ANXIETIES: I am a negative thinker and for any given event, I would dig out the negative possibilities to the core. My anxieties are born as a consequence of brooding over the negative outcomes of the event. The more the event is related to something I hold precious, the more stronger the anxieties.

FEARS: I have been afraid of public speaking, but I think that was primarily because of bad self esteem born out of psoriasis spots everywhere. Ever since they reduced in intensity, I can better handle my communications.
I have a fear of being mugged or some important article to be stolen. I go to a new place and I see a group of people walking towards me, I become conscious.
I have a fear of being cheated (especially of money).
I have this new discovered fear of physical well being. I am scared to have any disability which can hamper my normal lifestyle.

I have fear of unknown when it comes to physical well being of self/loved ones. If i know this is the problem and this is how it will be resolved, no issues, but if someone is not well and I don't know why, I'll be scared to bone.

Please let me know if you need any specific details.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

I needed to procure the 1L mountain water bottle, so couldn't have it in the morning. I plan to take the dose either tonight or tomorrow morning. What time do you suggest is the best for taking the dose?

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

I took the remedy as suggested by you on 23rd morning and didn't have anything after that for a couple of hours. I've been patiently observing my symptoms for last 5 days. I was supposed to report to you after 3 days, waited another couple of days more to be sure about reporting the changes happening.

Spots on the face and scalp have been relatively stable. No deterioration but no improvement too. Spots on the ears got worsened.

Arms and legs - a few more new spots, no change in old spots, or maybe they got a little worse. Earlier seen new spots started to grow big. Moderate itching.

Midriff - Spots increased in number and perimeter, lots of itching. spots bled and became very sensitive and even changing sides while asleep and any kind of stretching became painful.

One positive change I observed today is that I am drinking a lot more water than I used to do on any typical day.

Sameer, A very dumb question - I've had many remedies before, but the kind of aggravation has been unprecedented. Is it possible that this is correct remedy but the force of disease is much stronger and overwhelms the remedy once it enters the body?

Anyway, if you think that we need to change the remedy then please let me know. There are a couple of more personality traits which I would like to tell you, and which might help in nailing down the right remedy.

Thanks,
Navdeep

Hi Sameer,

I haven't been too consistent with my moods during this period - varied from energetic to ecstatic ( didn't observe myself but my wife told me that I seem to be happier last friday and saturday) to sluggish ( don't feel like doing much work in office these days) to worried to angry/disappointed.

I believe my mental state was event driven most of the time.

I was less worried about my eye, partly because my search of related symptoms lead me nowhere and made me believe that what my eye doctor is telling could be correct (tear film disturbance).

however, I had a re-occurrence of eye pain accompanied by headaches. Doc had put me on steroid based eye drops and didn't inform me to stop it suddenly, which I did and that resulted in relapse of symptoms. It used to be worse during day time and relatively better in the evenings. But even that apart, I wasn't feeling like applying myself much.

I went to see the doc again for eye pain and she reprimanded me for stopping the eye drops, while I felt that she should have informed me of that, at the same time I was hurt by her scolding.

On a couple of days when I didn't have pain, I was happy and felt like playing with my son, I was even joking around much and laughing on small things.

I normally don't expect much from people (I used to think so, but I realize I do have expectations), and someone close fell quite short of that. Had a disappointment along with anger.

Thats brief summary of my mental states during the week.