Worry, anxiety, fear, duodenal ulcers, right sided headaches, port. hyp. tension, varic. - Dr. Sameer help requested _{Page 15 of 18}

There are very many things to write but most of them are external things so I would mention things but not describe much.

That time, my feeling was this very thing that 'take Staphy. 200 another (diluted)dose so that it helps in acute trouble too and then go for Staphy. LM1,2,3'.
Well, thanks Sameer that you knowingly or unknowingly sort of respected my thinking and allowed me a dose in time.

I took Staphy. 200. Took Crocin, etc. for a day. Went to doctor next day but till then the problem died out enough. So I kept Mox aside.

There were positive signs of Staphy dose and it would have helped me much but the office circumstances have been terrible. I just can't describe. Work is wanted from upper level but then others are just snatching work from me.....Everything around me was trying to prove that I am just not worth.

If I describe those things much as well as mental trauma then many of my descriptions would be counted in my symptoms and picture would get highly confusing.

Till I feel that external factors are very very strong, I will not try to tke stock of mental syptoms.

As of now, in last two days my throat trouble has again picked up and I am feverish most of the time. So i am in high mood to take Mox antibiotic. There is excess office load and other things at home. I can't tolerate the dullness and the daily excessive lack of vitality. The stress in the head and face region, the 'stretched/pulled/heavy' feeling. The sinus/ENT type trouble adds to it. Can't tolerate draft of air now in rainy/cloudy season. Today I was the only one wearing (cotton) jacket.
Let me cut it short.
Staphy 200 had helped somewhat in 'stressed' face and also brought sweating on face making me feel a little better. But the contrib. was far too less compared to what I needed. (So again the LM4, LM5 thoughts are coming.)
But really the whole thing was terribly spoiled by office matters....

Already ordered.
But till they arrive I might have to take Mox.

1. As told previously, I did take Mox 500 mg on Friday (24th). But after 2 tabs I was feeling very bad. So, I stopped. Earlier, the allopath had also given me B-complex tonic which I had taken only 5 ml doses (3 to 4 doses). I got such a bad sleep. Palpitation and felt as if heart is losing out since it is unable to pump. It was terrible. So, I had stopped. Now we cannot criticize B-complex for this! 'I' have some terrible problem, not B-complex...!%#$?
So after 2 doses of Mox, I felt so fed up with everything that I finally took Bio-Chemic Combination no. 28. I put 4 tabs in the cup of tea.
I felt considerably well. The feverish feeling improved and I felt like I was 'moving' for 2 days, some swiftness.... The diarrhea/constipation combination was better. No immediate trouble after eating little extra. Good relief in thraot trouble. The awkward feeling of antibiotic gone. All this is well-known experience. But I haven't mixed up anything after consulting here on forum and was away from bio-chemics for 1 1/2 year. Some particular salt must be mis-fit. It gives some 'hollowness' that is known to me.
Next day on Sat. (25th) I took 2 tabs (bio-comb 28) in tea. Relief continued.
After that my experience says that there is normally no further improvement.
So I stopped.

(I also did this since I felt that Staphy. LMs won't arrive for another 8 days.)

2. Well Staphy. LM1 and LM2 did arrive but other bottles in pack were broken. So, the liquid spread.
Sameer, I do not know if the liquid from other bottles affected the intact Staphy. bottle. One thought says, wait till the replacement arrives. Another says, The bottle lids are well tightened, so Staphysagria intact bottles must be good. So, it would be okay to take 1-2 doses till new bottles arrive. I do not know. What do you feel Sameer.? Also, I am again in (throat) trouble.

3. There is excess office work. But at the same time this throat has inflamed ears too. This causes me to loose awareness and balance. I feel bewildered by voices and driving even though there are no typical symptoms like sneezing, cough, expectoration and all.
The throat lining feels 'eroded'. Ear itches, feels inflammed, bewilderement by voices. Feverish feeling not allowing me concentrate, also added bewilderment. More of warm face.
All sorts of office work in this working week only. Most other general circumstances worse.

Dear Sameer, please advise and please forgive me for taking 2 doses of bio 28, 4 days ago. Not inclined to do any such thing but I may opt for Antax if I feel terrible, Crocin of course I have taken few....sorry....can't sustain.
[message edited by sci_spi on Tue, 28 Jun 2011 18:52:34 BST]

Dear Sameer, Thanks for your reply and giving an option.
But really there isn't a choice as such. The 1Ms aggravate. So it is not appropriate to take them. Also by rule the 1M will act for long so one must wait before next dose of anything. I mean that is what I have seen.
LMs aggravate less but again the LM3 or even LM5 if you ask me (is suitable to me). But still, LMs are manageable if they trouble. Secondly, in case of trouble one doesn't have to wait long for next step.

At present I am highly inclined to wait.

Allopathic, I can't avoid at the moment. To get undisturbed sleep I took Antax 0.25 mg yesterday. It also helped to have better mood today. I will take it for 3 days maximum. Then, I shall stop as far as possible.

I am managing without Pantodac since long. A good thing. I will try to avoid Crocin and any other thing too. But STAPH 1M, no, I do not prefer. I hope to get LMs earlier than 3 weeks.

Latest problem is trouble due to noises/sounds; especially in the evening, a bewilderment through the day, increasing in evening not letting me concentrate on anything. I just move here and there trying to do too many things. Lots of 'ear' involved.

I forgot an important observation since 3 months. If I speak on phone with elbow at normal table height, my hand becomes numb and blood flows constricts (in left hand) even after 2 mins and surely after a long call of several mins. I can feel later that blood is trying to establish flow with difficulty. (Left hand).

Dear Sameer,
I need urgent help. This 6:15 am (Sun.)
1. My throat problem never went. This week it got blown fully. Cold, yellowish-green expectoration with smell, loss of smell, 'inhibited' feeling of head (but no headache), voice changed and hoarse, tinnitus, fever, feverishness....
I kept taking Crocin on and off.
But yesterday night, I could not sleep well. The fever was in head/face region. Taken Crocin 1/2 hour ago.

2. Also first time, I had 'toothache' on left side. Several teeth were aching. Actually considerable infection has spread in ENT region and everywhere. I am frightened of this. Because I am not allowed pain killers. My policy is not at all to go to the dentist. No mechanical work is needed. We need to kill infection.
This may further indicate Staphysagria or whatever, but I need a quick dose.

3. The rainy season problems are back. Cold, ENT troubles, hoarseness of voice.
But importantly, the foul smell all around the scrotum is back. It feels very displeasing. The skin on scrotum has become thin, without wrinkles and like that of an old man - thin, delicate, tender, smooth.

4. As I said, the office load continues, so no point in talking about mental state. But still, if I may say - 'bad'.

5. Due to the ENT and 'inhibited' feeling, I cannot concentrate on anything. Just spending extra hours in office but doing something monotonously and not much output.
Yesterday, I had to work on child's school project. You just keep doing it, on and on...draw...that is....And there is no deadline. It can be given in 3 to 7 days. Due to 'sardi' (cold) I felt like - Just go on and on with it and nobody should interrupt and no awareness of environment. Or, I may keep on solving/trying to solve a (Sud) puzzle in newspaper. After one is finished do another.
That is what I feel like doing. Nothing else.

6. By the way, there would be guests for a week who would need lot of attnetion.

If I am in trouble, I will just take a dose of Staph. LM1 since that bottle was intact. This is in hope of covering toothache, cold/ENT and srotum foul smell simultaneously.
No, I think I can't take Staph. 1M and wait for so long. It is not appropriate to follow a norm again and again without suitable purpose and with adverse experience.
In allopathy, I shall have to take antibiotics but then they have given me trouble recently.

Sameer, I need your advise at the earliest but not doubting Staph. bottle and taking an LM1 dose appears to be the best option.

Hello Sameer.
Thanks first of all for a quick reply.
Thanks secondly for putting so much effort in my case.
While doing all this you have again respected my inclination/thought (and previous experience).
Now this is what helps me somewhat especially in the present unhelpful circumstances.
I think these things are also important in homeopathy and any system of medicine other than the correctly chosen remedy.

One can go on and on discussing on this. I too can connect this to quantum mechanics, mind/will power, vibrations, electromagnetic fields (of remedies and persons) and such associated things. There IS a connection after all.

Okay, I have taken Staph. LM1 at 3:45 pm as specified.

Today has been so terrible. First my daughter again picked up fever (after suffering from it for 3 weeks earlier, typhoid). And then worst of days at office.
These things have nothing to do with any homeopathic remedy, any aggravation.
In fact, Staph. LM1 must be helping me.

Whenever I have been more and more keen to fight health problems of family members, they have propped up more and more without any abnormal steps from me.
Almighty is trying 'all his might' to stop us from improving. On the contrary it is being ensured that we go one step back on health front. Reason is unknown except that we may attribute 'sins of past birth and this one' to it.

Really such circumstances beyond laws of homeopathy are causing intolerable havoc. It is a waste of words to tell how terrible the situation has been. One must see it. But still I write in despair.....
[message edited by sci_spi on Tue, 05 Jul 2011 17:39:05 BST]

Hello Sameer.
Daring to write.

1. So things hve continued to be terrible. Daughter's fever didn't allow sleep from 3:30 to 6:30 morning. Doctors anticipate a relapse fearing which we feel terrible. But I am hopeful that won't be so. I gave her Phos. and then today I asked family members to give her a spoon every hour from bio 28 in water. I am so tired.

2. Today morning I finally had a loose stool in office after long.

3. As I said it is of no use to connect any of my problems and behaviour to remedy action. This includes another things. In the past one month I have repeatedly faced adverse results with my life philosophy. It is difficult to put it in words.
Whatever stand I took and whatever claims I made are all going incorrectly. The very recent addition is relatives stressing on me giving bio-chems to my daughter daily for an year. From my experience, I feel that this should not be so which is making others feel that we do not listen.

Anyway please do not connect it to effect of Staph. or any emerging layer or anything to do with remedies.

4. Office situation showed no improvment. But I am very adament on being patient and watchful.

4. I just cut-short my previous points. So, what to say on Staphy. Well, I think I can separate out its effect from the chaos and say that the remedy, that bottle and that dose has helped me.

Staphy. LM1 produced aggr. similar to the problems though not very highly similar.
Of course, there was immediate help from the dose for ENT.
I had not discussed one thing after we started Staphysagria. That is - I have managed to avoid Pantodac inspite of quite extreme situations, eps. in the last 10 days. There have been aggravations after 200c and now after LM1 where I felt like 'ghaav' (injury) in stomach, slightly left, etc. But all in all I just took a lot of risk and saw how it went without Pantodac and I could go on. Yes, Gelusil I did have to take. But it is different.

Overall I have sustained well after Staph. 200c and LM1 but I can't report feeling any good and positive due to very bad external circumstances.

Dear Sameer, my feeling is to take 2 more doses of Staph. LM1 to ensure it is a suitalbe remedy. Then we must shift to LM2. It will be of no use to stretch 7-8 doses on LM1. Staph. is likely to help till LM3 after which my deep fears will still be left and we shall have to think of Ars. Alb. LMs and Lyco, etc.

Please advise.

Hello Sameer.
1. Staphysagria LM1 2nd dose has not helped. I took it on 7th. I am not posting here since it is 3 days. I am posting because I am again in bad state.
2. The physical problems remained static. But yesterday (Sat.) and today (Sun.) I felt very tired. Had I not taken rest, I don't know what would happen, I mean that's how I felt.
Thu. Fri. I felt at night that I had lost awareness. After going to bed, I lost where I was. Nothing good and not like aggr. that I recognize well.
Friday night it felt as if the heart was sinking down trying to pump less. Few mins, this happened with loss of awareness too. And not at all like 'knocked out'. Then I got up with a shudder, as if otherwise the heart would have stopped. And even I didn't do it. Something in body caused a vibration (like of a motor just losing out and being OFF at few Hz and this action is reviving it by some feedback) and I got up in a startling way.
Sat. late morning I was very sleepy as usual. The sleep had palpitations again. Bad sleep.
Sun. first I felt very sleepy by 10:20 am. I just couldn't get up. It appears as if the heart just doesn't want to work. I get paralyzed in body - not muscles of body, but just that I cannot move.... must lie down and take a bad sleep....But the sleep wasn't very bad because I tried to be slightly awake. Then, throughout the day I didn't feel like doing anything. Anyway I haven't felt like doing anything in past several months but it was slightly worse than in last 7-10 days. After lunch I again felt like sleeping so I slept in afternoon. While the sleep was better, it was far from revitalizing.
The body again has an ache and sleepiness. And no encouragement, no motivation.
Rather, I am again frightened of the next week's office work. The superior had talked of reviving an old office work and I was frightened, anxious, worried and had a sort of dread of it. Sat. Sun. I was relatively okay, but today, Sun. night I am again getting anxious of that work and other urgent reports.

3. Since 2 days, since I took butter milk, I am having light coloured stools. They are anyway sticky and I have to keep boring fingers. Also, since I never feel good and fresh in morning my bio-cycle has again shifted my stools to night from 11 pm to 12 pm.

4. I am even anticipating some headache or achy head.

Evening I felt that it was better to take Pantodac rather than just pospone. So, I took it and felt better.

5. So many old things are back, Pantodac, tiredness, anxiety of up coming week, office work. Lack of motivation, encouragement, zeal. Great lack of willingness to work in same environment/place, wanting to change but unable to (and this in unlikely in near future, ~ 6-8 yrs) And I have not talked of irritation/anger/indignation that keeps coming intermittently. I always remain frustrated these days.

6. The desperation of some remedy that might help me is back. Now I feel very good for not having taken Staphy 1M. It would have been terrible to wait just to suffer.
The palpitation part makes me think of Gelsemium since I am feverish also at times.
My fears make me think of Ars and Lyco again, but Lyco more so.
I thought that Staphy. will extinguish only after LM2 or LM3 but it has exhausted. I do not have hope with Staphy. LM2. The bringing out of suppressed anger etc. is over and in the deep are the same fears and are back. Add fear of illness/health and again I am inclined to Ars.
I again feel that organ remedy, but esp. of liver will soothe the vitality for sometime and help heart/brain also.

For the very bad state of vitality gasping to come up, a strong LM potency like LM4, LM5 causing a strong aggravation within hours (not even 1 day) followed by amelioration and feeling of betterment for 3-5 days will more likely help. Then may be I can apply what I learnt on this forum, to be patient, and be careful with next dose.

So, Sameer, please advise what to do?

Thanks for such a quick reply Sameer. I do not have Staphy LM3, I procured LM1 and LM2 earlier.
Also I wish to say that, when I said, 'I do not have hope with Staphy. LM2' I meant that I am not hopeful with Staphysagria (any potency). I didn't particularly mean LM2.
Since I will need to procure LM3, it will take long (8-10 days at least).
In the mean while, if there is still hope of Staphysagria LM2 helping me, please suggest if I should take its dose. If you do suggest, I will take it after a gap of 2-3 days. Maybe I am very turbulent/excited and it would be good to let it die out before taking Staphy. again. Let me think like this. Maybe I will feel better after 2-3 days and Stpahy. is still helping.
So Sameer, please suggest.

Hello Sameer.
1. I feel very tired. Sleep not refreshing in past several days.
2. I feel that load comes on my heart. 2 days ago I had to walk a lot in office. Up stream and down stream on a 300 m slope too. Later I was very exhausted. Not in the usual sense.
3. There are times when I feel difficult to breathe. In the bus in morning. As such this may be due to rainy season but others will perspire or due to awkward warmth they will open window for fresh air. If having problem with air, a person with good vitality would feel different. He will pass time with some patience.
I feel different. I have want/gasping of fresh air (not excessive at the moment). But as soon as I think of draft of air, I have dread of getting ill. Sometimes, I will face the air from other windows opened by others and feel momentarily good but soon I start getting that ENT trouble with inhibited face even before feeling chilly.
I have passed years together looking for seat with closed window. Earlier when vital force was strong, I was chilly and I would move away from draft of air, that's all. Now there is occasional gasping sort of.
4. Acidity is coming back.
5. I feel very tried, un-refreshed, unmotivated, dull, useless, frustrated, looking for change of routine/holiday but having office work for few more days, dread of travel, dread of any kind of exposures, etc.
If you could see my face...

6. Just give me something so that at least for 4-5 days I will immediately feel very fresh as soon as I get up in the morning and feel like doing all sorts of things. Then, on account of this, in spite of my excitement through the day, I won't be abnormally tired to the extent of repenting but feel satisfied and sleep again.
Just for about a week....give me this....then....I can write well (concisely)....and.... we will be able to find out more about my constitution....
[message edited by sci_spi on Thu, 14 Jul 2011 18:59:23 BST]

Dear Sameer,
I took dose on Friday (15th) morning. This is Sun eve ~ 7 pm here.
I had some improvement with Staph. on first day but it died out by evening. Later there has been more of trouble.

Day 1 (Fri): Morning in office, I felt somewhat good after the dose. By 12 noon, I felt sleepy. The day went in 'jam'. Early morning, too long meeting. Then, traffic jam in evening. Then queue in 'Guru Purn. Prasad'. Manageable day.

Day 2 (Sat): Got up late. Due to story narration, I felt sleepy later morning. Afternoon I took meal at 1:30 pm. I had stool after meals that made me very very tired. I just lied on bed unable to move. Paralyzed or jammed or hardened but not on muscular level. This was more of great exhaustion due to loss of nutrition. I kept on sleeping till 4 pm but did not want to get up. I did not have good energy in evening and night but being Sat. it was tolerable.

Day 3 (Sun): Morning by 10, I was sleepy. I slept for 40-50 mins. Then after early meal at 11:15 I was not too energetic but felt manageable. (I even tried some exercise forcefully at 9 am to try to get out of stagnation.) Later, there was a good gap of food till 4 pm. I tried to avoid sleep and tried shopping for 2 hours. After tea I ate afternoon 'snacks' by 5 pm. I tried to be careful but finally ate slightly more w.r.t my own capacity, not really. But alas! By 6 I had to pass stools which obviously were loose in later part. Already I have felt exhausted and have felt like resting and lying down through the day. But whatever little advantage I might have got of Sun appears to have lost.

(Mouth smells foul indicating H Pylor.)

3rd day is not over yet, why this post? Because some improvement after LM2 dose is nearly fully cancelled so 'any dose' has become 'wanting'. Also since I have continued trouble, maybe in this situation, one should repeat previous dose (with hits). Maybe I should take one LM2 dose everyday for 3-4 days if I feel good for that day but not afterwords.
Lastly, if it calls for higher LM, I wish to ask you, should I order LM3, LM4, LM5? Because medicines take long time to reach, so I prefer to order as soon as possible (if they are to be ordered).
Another question is should I order LM4 and LM5 rather than LM3? You see, I still have same feelings about potencies.
As for Staph., 200 worked okay. Next 200 (dil) also helped as expected. But LM1 got me down (and so would have 1M). LM2 shows hopes but again LM1, LM2 would cause confusion. LM3 may also cause confusion, perhaps. LM4 will perhaps tell better if we should touch LM5 or look for another remedy.

At the moment, I am exhausted. Body feels achy, tired.....dehydrated not usual dehydr. from diarrhea but from loss of important nutrition in just 2 loose stools.
Evening I have noisy ears and most sounds are troublesome. Waxy ears.

I may not be sure of many things but what I am sure of is that just 2 stools have got me back by 4-5 days (unless something great happens). It will be hard to stuff back nutrition in body. And I must take Bifilac now to prevent further stools in office tomorrow. After all it is just bacteria of curd.

So, Sameer, please advise.
(And yes, foul smell around penis/scrotum is back. Both have shrunk a lot in past 2-3 months.)
[message edited by sci_spi on Sun, 17 Jul 2011 15:14:46 BST]

Thanks for such a fast response. That helps me more.

Well, I was hesitant but took three doses and now I have mixed comments.
Sun. night on 17th I took first dose: Through the night and next day, ENT problem seemed 'inhibited'. Rest was manageable. But motion after stool and smell of mouth by night.
Mon night 2nd dose: I got up on Tue with that (sinus type) left sided headache. It continued through the day. I kept myself ready but never actually took Crocin. I dont remember much of both days. Tired today...
Tue night 3rd dose: Wed was much better perhaps.

Then I could not post here. So yesterday (Wed) night I did not take anything. I felt I got good sleep but was sleepy in morning. Later, I had to eat somewhat chilly breakfast. Though I wanted to avoid it but had no option. That disturbed my set up today on Thu. My stomach felt it and I felt concerned through late morning. Then after 1 pm and lunch (light tiffin) I was very sleepy and tired. This continued till evening 7 pm. I tried to take short nap but could not.

Okay so the goods of Staphysag:
1. Some improvement in mood.
2. Better in stomach complaints after initial trouble.
3. Similarly better in headache/ENT problem though there was a glitch.
4. Felt like singing and listening to songs. (Not to be taken as indication of good energy.)
5. Less irritation and anger.
6. Less lethargy in doing things but not consistent improvement.

Bads of Staphy:
1. Still tired, worn out.
2. Trouble with ears, balance, tinnitus.
3. Obviously still quite fearful or anxious of many things.
4. I feel that there is some insect of thread on legs, esp. left leg. When I feel, I suddenly shake off my trousers or try to move it or its folds, etc. I remember long back about 13-15 years ago I had this problem after a homeopathic remedy. It might be Staphysagria because my doctor had precribed few doses then (of 30c).
This problem is disturbing.
5. After today's incorrect eating, I was feeling in evening like a 'ghaav' ('injury') was there in abdomen in exactly the spleen region on the long stitch line.
6. My face has become 'aged'. Slightly bulged but that of a thin man and with 'lines' showing up.

Dear Sameer:
1. Should I take a dose or two more of Staphy LM2? Continuous doses help me more as I guessed (from past experience).
2. Should I procure LM4, LM5. I mean, should we skip LM3?

(The delay and non-arrival of previously ordered medicines has frustrated me terribly. I feel like shouting loudly and throwing objects on those who have delayed it. Let me tell you, this has nothing to do with Staphy. It is the problem 'here' since the parcels are in India but not yet delivered.)
[message edited by sci_spi on Thu, 21 Jul 2011 18:49:21 BST]

I wish to post few things.
I took 2 doses of LM2 on Thu. Fri. I was confused between okay and not okay. But by Fri end, I was dull. It felt that I kept avoiding Crocin Pain Relief that I take to feel better.
Sat. progressed to very dull mood as usual. So, I didn't take any dose.
The weather on Sat. Sun. was of rains. Here it gets quite cold. No humidity and no fluctuations. Drizzle, clouds, cool air.
Sensing discomfort, I took Gelusil before sleep.
Sun early morning it was quite cold. I wore a thin jacket and felt comfortable. I have continuously worn it till 7 pm now. This is the difference between me (and my family members) and others. Others may feel cold but will tolerate and sustain for 2-4 days. By that time weather will change and they would want fresh air.
The day started with very dull lethargic non-energetic feeling. Sleepiness by 11 am as usual. I kept postponing Crocin PR until at 12 noon, I finally took it. It gave me relaxation. But still by 3 pm, I was very sleepy due to which I just lied down instead of going out with family. I just couldn't get up. Then, only after some sleep I could get up by 4 and go out.
After returning, I had the same strange feeling as people have on weekends/holidays. Their routine perhaps causes their livers to become very sluggish.
It has been very bad feeling. Today I feel nearly back to zero. Also since every Sun I have the same fears of office of next week.

Some 'ghaav' (injuiry) feeling had been there in left abdomen. On lying down I have vertigo on and off. Head feels going down and down, etc. I also felt slightly paralyzed in left leg.

Dear Sameer, should I buy Staphysagria LM3/4? Haven't ordered yet. Also should I buy pills from Indian companies? Because it is taking very long to get medicines from abroad, parcels 'may' get damaged, and it has been very expensive too.

I was thinking to take 2 more doses of LM2 depending on my feeling. After that 'I' want to keep a gap but normally I catch so much trouble that I am compelled to ask for some remedy....
My earlier doubt of Staphy. not going much forward in potency for me is picking up....

Actually last week was in control w.r.t office. Last week end and this week end I got some rest. I should have felt a lot better.... and with sustained effect....but at the moment it does not appear to be so......