Worry, anxiety, fear, duodenal ulcers, right sided headaches, port. hyp. tension, varic. - Dr. Sameer help requested _{Page 16 of 18}

I wish to post few things.
I took 2 doses of LM2 on Thu. Fri. I was confused between okay and not okay. But by Fri end, I was dull. It felt that I kept avoiding Crocin Pain Relief that I take to feel better.
Sat. progressed to very dull mood as usual. So, I didn't take any dose.
The weather on Sat. Sun. was of rains. Here it gets quite cold. No humidity and no fluctuations. Drizzle, clouds, cool air.
Sensing discomfort, I took Gelusil before sleep.
Sun early morning it was quite cold. I wore a thin jacket and felt comfortable. I have continuously worn it till 7 pm now. This is the difference between me (and my family members) and others. Others may feel cold but will tolerate and sustain for 2-4 days. By that time weather will change and they would want fresh air.
The day started with very dull lethargic non-energetic feeling. Sleepiness by 11 am as usual. I kept postponing Crocin PR until at 12 noon, I finally took it. It gave me relaxation. But still by 3 pm, I was very sleepy due to which I just lied down instead of going out with family. I just couldn't get up. Then, only after some sleep I could get up by 4 and go out.
After returning, I had the same strange feeling as people have on weekends/holidays. Their routine perhaps causes their livers to become very sluggish.
It has been very bad feeling. Today I feel nearly back to zero. Also since every Sun I have the same fears of office of next week.

Some 'ghaav' (injuiry) feeling had been there in left abdomen. On lying down I have vertigo on and off. Head feels going down and down, etc. I also felt slightly paralyzed in left leg.

Dear Sameer, should I buy Staphysagria LM3/4? Haven't ordered yet. Also should I buy pills from Indian companies? Because it is taking very long to get medicines from abroad, parcels 'may' get damaged, and it has been very expensive too.

I was thinking to take 2 more doses of LM2 depending on my feeling. After that 'I' want to keep a gap but normally I catch so much trouble that I am compelled to ask for some remedy....
My earlier doubt of Staphy. not going much forward in potency for me is picking up....

Actually last week was in control w.r.t office. Last week end and this week end I got some rest. I should have felt a lot better.... and with sustained effect....but at the moment it does not appear to be so......

Sorry I can't stop talking and telling few more things.
On Fri I had some freedom to do work on my own in office. I had taken Staphy LM2 on Thu. So, I was able to concentrate a bit and keep on doing that thoughtful 'design' type of work for long. While no output came (and this thing lets me down later), I felt at peace and better.
So, what happened in next 2 days?
1. Is Staphy still not my remedy?
2. Was Staphysagria a layer but uprooting fast and asking for or revealing or going back to another remedy?
3. Are we getting the direction of old doctor where he always preferred to give me daily doses of LM? Because on taking daily LM2 dose, I felt somewhat better but as soon as there was gap, I had trouble or will have.
4. While searching for purchase of remedies, i came across a website (do not remember) which was mostly for doctors. I saw names of hpathy doctors. One of them, I mean not necessarily from hpathy, 20 yrs experienced, said that he always preferred to give remedies ('liver' type and similar) to clear up the toxins from body (to the extent possible) and felt that then only the constitution of the person was better revealed. Something like that......Am I the type of person where it fits better...? I got the website (but not webpage);
http://homeopathyworldcommunity.com/
5. The old doctor also used to give two medicines alternately. Do I require this before I reach a single remedy?
6. I have one more feeling. My liver and other systems, heart, etc. are giving away. Close similimum remedies have not been deep enough in past 2 years, so they seem to do something but clear results are not obtained because they do not work deep enough and soon the body (vitality) sags down by the time I wait and by the time the potency is lifted up. Therefore, I start asking for new remedy or higher dose....

I can do better scientific analysis but I am rather putting thoughts based on my feelings too.
[message edited by sci_spi on Sun, 24 Jul 2011 16:39:03 BST]

Yesterday Mon. morning I had stomach ache for about 2 hours. I hadn't passed stools in morning but I am sure that wasn't imp. I then went at 10 am. And that should have improved matters. But the ache really picked up after that. 2 Gelusils didn't help much.
I had received new bottles by evening. So, at night I hit new Staphy LM2 8-9 times and took another LM2 dose. I did this since I was having dull right sided headache. I thought fresh pack will be better. But I think I made a mistake. It appears that I should have hit the bottle 8 x 6 times with a gap of few minutes since that was what the status of old bottle was.

I couldn't sleep well. Not due to LM2. It was already in coming.
No improvement by morning. No headache of course. But I took Bifilac, then Crcoin Pain Relief and then Pantodac. I just couldn't have waited. No internal heat. Feeling too down. Today there is sun and people are feeling hot immediately but I want to go in warm place. Again, normally I enjoy sun but now if I go, due to low internal vitality, I will feel dull, sleepy and all.
I got talkitive by 10.

Sameer, I will hit the new Staphy LM2 8 times, throw out 2 drops, wait for several minutes and then do this again for 5 times (since I already hit the bottle once yesterday). This makes it 6 times and the state of bottle should be like old one. Then I will take just one more dose of Staphy LM2. Will it be a proper corrective action?
Please write.

This is 2:30 pm and there is overpowering sleep now. Very difficult to sit...to work....

Sorry Sameer for doing some odd things.

I am hopeful of arranging LMs much faster.
lmpotency (dot) com
They send it and have agreed after doing needful.
On contacting modernhomoeopathy (dot) com they say that they get it from the former only and that it is a very reliable source.
So I hope to get LM3 and 4 in 10 days (pills).

It is 11:35 at night and i am about to sleep. Some imp observations:
Crocin Pain Relief was slightly negative since just after that sky was open and it felt bad. Bifilac was neutral. Pantodac did provide relief since the acidity level must have been increasing.
At the moment after passing stool I feel 'ghaav/phapholaa/phode waalaa jalan+dard' (injury/boil/ulcer/blister type burning+pain). Location is same, 1 to 2 inches below left ribs.
While I am quite confident that inside it is ulcerated and bringing me much down in energy, but I am less anxious with support of Pantodac in more difficult situation and I know that it is not the 'bleeding type' at present.

Took Staphy. 30c, 3 drops in 120 ml, one spoon in evening (28th). Later there was bewilderment, strange feelings, I guess mostly because of that. Lack of understanding where I was.
Earlier I have seen (and today even before I took the dose) that Staphy has affected ears and wax a lot. Before dose too I had events of loss of balance. On chair I suddenly had vertigo and felt that I would fall. It has been there. After dose, darkness before eyes.
There was considerable pain in left chest (and now in liver region) after the dose.
Just now at 11:35 pm when I was typing, my wife said something from sleep. I was extremely startled and called out loudly, almost shouting...'Who is saying...what is being said...wh...what is happening...' As if I had been woken up awakened from sleep. But I wasn't sleeping, since I was typing....I just don't know why I was so startled, shocked, bewildered....I almost died....

That's okay, no remedy if you say, but Sameer, you will really need to handle this and help me.
After yesterday night's post with left chest ache, I felt very tired to get up in morning. 'Dragging' sort of. I really needed rest but still was compulsory to go to office for some reason.
Throughout the day in office I kept having localized chest and back pain on left, draw 1 inch line diagonal from nipple downwards and towards out (arm). There is the pain. Feels like blister/boil that is swollen/inflamed....but inside, where one cannot see...in the gastric/esophageal region, maybe...maybe not...
There was moment of strong pain along with which I felt some change of blood circulation in that region and then some handfuls of volumes of blood in some bigger blood vessels moving in left chest.... connected to neck too...then feeling of that palpitation and sudden drop 'local' of (blood) pressure for successively 3-4 pulses.... frightening me greatly, 2-3 more pulses and I was loosing consciousness....
From night to morning, I have also felt 'pulling' /dragging in legs causing tiredness in legs. This has been so with earlier Staphy doses too but less...
One more imp trouble. There seems connection of blood circulation on that long 'patch'/path from right eye, then on right to forehead to top right region. I am sensing frightening (or if i may say, dangerous) changes in top region of head but more to right.
There are major activities in circulatory system....I am passing my time with lot of fear....I cannot tell anybody....But investigations will certainly reveal 'special' things.
I don't know if it is heart trouble that goes unattended for many...
Was it really such a big mistake to take Staphy from new bottle? I don't think so. But Stahpysag (LM2, 30, etc.) or some spicy food or something has caused great disturbance...I am moving on silently with fingers crossed...

As I want to end the post, a pang of medium strong pain comes in chest region and then I feel like I may fall down....
Problem of vision too...
Sameer I kindly request you to please be in touch and be watchful for my posts....
Any time you feel, please advise...

Please add slight pain in left arm as if it were heart trouble.... The only reason I feel it may not be and I am watching patiently is that there does not seem to be fast pulse or something like that.... But I have had slight want of breath.....

Warm blood, small gushes flowing in brain....after returning home late from office, I feel strange...Feeling that I will fall down....vertigo on specific angle with head angled down....Normal vertigo of PC users but also something else...
I feel (with warm flows on top portion of head) that I will fall down because without a jerk, many blood vessels will softly leak out and there will be a stroke....
It is all difficult to explain...Burdening also to post here rather than simply speak out....
Small patches of congestion here and there in head nad forehead region...
[message edited by sci_spi on Fri, 29 Jul 2011 16:38:43 BST]

O yes. I am fully in 'wait' mode. And most probably it is a severe aggravation. Such sustained aggravation on such aspects of mind and body (not directly affecting digestion) but more so, of the body, I have not seen since long. Olny that...I hope that by 'week' you mean just this weekend....not 'one' week of 7 days.

But please be there so that I have an assurance from you. Please keep replying if only very brief. I will be relieved.
This is Friday night and weekend so I am trying to pass this horrible time by many things.... also by posting replies here. This also tells what exactly is happening.

I feel at 11:55 am that it has come down a bit after Crocin Pain Relief and tea. The ears are highly affected opening on yawning (as if they were a bit closed earlier). Something is pulling in limbs and muscles. On every movement of head there is vertigo and I feel that I am sitting 'slant'. When I move (and walk), the upper abdomen and chest picks pain and I suddently feel as if warm poisonous liquids are running in blood vessels and bringing an 'attack/bout/pang' of sleep - 'zookk'. If i am standing I feel that I will fall down due to sudden sleep or intoxication....
Vision is blurred every now and then as if I did not clean eyes....
[message edited by sci_spi on Fri, 29 Jul 2011 19:31:23 BST]

This is Sat. morning. (I had taken Antax in night.) When I woke up, I felt pain in abdomen within 2 minutes. This is typical of an inflamed boil/blister. It felt and I think there is a red boil/blister/injured spot on esophagus lining or in gastric region. The pain radiated along a 6-7 inch line from that spot (at level of left chest/heart/nipple) down the abdomen till the point 2 inch below ribs at a location of spleen (but which I do not have). It was a strong pain and a variant of that pain in neck+abdomen blood vessels where blood forces into vessels and makes me catch neck, etc. which I have mentioned earlier.
Why I strongly feel of a big boil is that it is similar to that when we have it externally on hands or legs. Though that big boil is on one spot it gives pain along a nerve line, stinging, perhaps burning pain, pangs of pain.... periodic for few minutes, then silent...then again.....
Also two days ago I found that the pain would start just as soon as I thought of food. Even the slightest oozing out of intestinal juices, esp. in upper region was causing some pain...
These are very strong indications of 'injury type of boil'.
Three days I had taken Pantodac. But not in last two days. If I do not suspect bleeding, I avoid it. But if acidity discomfort comes i will again take it.

Anyway, I knew that if I got up and walked, it would pain more so I lay down for several minutes, say 10 minutes. After that it subsided. This is 10:20 am of Sat. (30th). The pain is less but lingering there...

Thanks for your kind words Sameer.
The day went with less trouble. But at 9:25 pm that strong ache due to push of blood in left side of neck came up....and then here and there in neck...then on specific spot beneath right ribs at location of liver (the spot from where biopsy was done long ago). And the pain was there for several minutes all together but more along the left line of left side of neck and on a spot in liver region. I started to feel like catching hold of neck (as we see in movies) and I almost got up watching TV.
Then it subsided.
Things may look as hitting target, etc. But everything will have a meaning and use only if there is a good improvement.
I expect back-
1. Appreciable Energy and enthusiasm.
2. Highly controlled fears of illness and 'how I will do...' or 'no' fears.
3. No fear and discomfort of travel.
4. No vertigo at all.
5. Reasonable freshness.
6. Highly controlled (or 'no') hyperacidity.
7. And such things....
(Asking nothing fancy that I normally do...)

I am holding well because I have gone through an order of magnitude more troubles. I also have learnt the tricks of trade and to use latest antacids in emergency. Pains have subsided noticeably, so no desperation for homeopathic remedy as of now.

As soon as I feel sufficiently better, I shall give a break to posting replies.

It was better today on Mon. Evening when I was hungry want to go home and eat, I had some pain in same region. Slight oozing of juices...
1. Did not feel too sleepy.
2. It was rather hot and moist in afternoon but I wasn't so tired. Later on I did get tired in evening by 7 pm.
3. Head wasn't much heavy or 'clumsy' inside.
4. There is boil since three days in inner corner of left eye (nose side). It slightly picked up today but okay.
5. Still occasional feelings of something on legs, esp. left leg.

This is 11 pm of 3rd Aug. I saw this article:
fatigue.htm..." rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">http://in.lifestyle.yahoo.com/4-reasons-for-that-fatigue.htm....

Yesterday I got late from office which made me very tired, feverish and increased biliousness. Since was moving restlessly in bed with mild fever at night and couldn't sleep, I had to take Crocin Pain Relief. Actually things really got disturbed by my staying.
Today morning my breakfast again got delayed but I could finish off office work and day wasn't hectic but by evening I got tired and sleepy in bus. That made me talk a little more. This was causing me to loose balance.... changes in blood circulation in head, etc.
All the time in two days, that 'injuiry' pain in upper abdomen was showing up more or less, esp when I didn't eat at time or during exertion. Well, I was unable to avoid harmful situations.
So, today by 7 pm I just had no option but to take Crocin PR and also Pantodac.
Office burden might be less and I should hope to control harmful actions especially till LMs arrive.

Just after my 11 pm post on 3rd, I had sleeplessness. Actually I had been eating a little less and when 4 such days pass by and if my digestion is okay, I become sleepless until I eat. So, I ate and tried to read by 1 am. Only then I could sleep.
Just when I was awake at 7 am there was a strong left chest pain, that 'injuiry'...
(gastric, espophageal?)
On 4th, 5th I took Pantodac. Both days I got talkative. I would talk intensely 2-3 times in a day for 5-7 mins and then feel the head vibrating. The usual trouble, It would feel as if if i talk a little more, the heart will loose out and blood won't be enough to the head. Please note that my talking wasn't so intense but its effect was....I took another Crocin (plain) on 4th evening.

6th morning was Sat. and weekend. So, the old story repeated. I wasn't highly energetic. I was wet in bath and remembered I had to shave. So i did it remaining wet. While I bathe with warm water only, I also washed a cloth for 2-3 mins with cold water. As expected, even remaining wet for just few mins might have triggered some 'cold' in stomach. Of course there are those unknown things on Sat. that are always there. So, 15 mins after just one thin 'paratha' I had to pass loose stools. Thinner in the end.
Then what? Considerable exhaustion followed by sleep and rest. Even after getting up late in morning, I again needed so much rest and sleep at 11:45 am. I got up at 1:10 pm. Then, even after meals and tea I was never much energetic.
But as usual, as it gets late in evening, I am unable to sleep early to just 'change' the cycle, get up in reasonably good time and fresh.....NO.....My bio-cycle just does not let me sleep till 11:45.
Today I again got up late (8 am) with the feeling of completion of sleep. One should hope to be fresh and energetic then. But as I am nearly back to square one now...I hardly did anything. Took breakfast by 10 am only to feel sleepy by 11 am. I kept on lying down since it was hard to get up and do 'something' and straining also caused that 'injuiry' pain. So, I remained on bed, sleeping a little, dozing a little, just 'trying to' rest....
Now it is 12:30 pm and I am just hungry.....No energy, no motivation, just lethargy....(and occasional aching if any...)

Dear Sameer, are we waiting for Staph LM3? Or do you suggest any other remedy before it arrives? Why not take 6 potency of something to cope up with 'acute' tiredness? I hope Staphysag will reach me in next few days. Please comment.
[message edited by sci_spi on Sun, 07 Aug 2011 08:07:51 BST]

Dear Sameer,
I have received Staphysag LM3 and LM4. These are small (1 dram?) vials having very very small pills. The size of pills is of poppy seeds or perhaps smaller.

Since today morning, I was having left sided headache, if I may say so. Over left eye brows. Further on a line 2 inch away to left from centre line of head/vertex. It felt as if somebody is teasing by pressing those blood vessels on top portion (left) of head so that blood flows achingly. There were small jerks as if you are catching a metallic rod and getting down. The hand slides a bit and then moves with jerks and then slides again.....Hard to explain...
Finally at 9:15 pm, I took Crocin Pain Relief.
Reason unknown. When I got up, I was sleeping on left side. and while going to sleep, I cannot do that. Did it pick up more due to rains or due to another computer monitor on which I had to work? Just do not know.

Please suggest how to prepare and take medicine. It will be very difficult to use 'one' pill since it is really small. I remember my earlier doctor used to ask me on rare occasions to use '10 number' pills, the smaller ones. But we will require several pills (may be 5 to 10) from present bottle to make a 10 number pill.

I had purchased some alcohol from homeopathy shop that is used to make medicines. Will it do? It may be tough to find Vodka.