Worry, anxiety, fear, duodenal ulcers, right sided headaches, port. hyp. tension, varic. - Dr. Sameer help requested _{Page 18 of 18}

Dear Sameer,
1. I have felt rather well after 1st LM2 dose of this set. Office conditions too were not pressing. Holidays too. Luckily, less interaction with seniors. And when it was - it was the same - stressful. So, I have felt much better but external factors should also be considered.
2. No headaches as such.
3. After Sun. dose, I had feverishness and that pain on left line. In 2 days I had sweating. Also pain subsided a bit. Something in upper chest still gives up.
4. There was some work in house and I did a lot without problem till Wednesday.
5. Thursday after heavy work I got tired. Now when I get tired, I just sit down not attempting anything.
6. I took 2nd dose on Thurs. There was sweating within hours and then it gave back pain in chest on left and on left line. But pain hasn't gone. The quick reaction felt good but what followed makes me feel that Staph LM3 will not work now. Also I have stomach pain, very sticky stools, that anyway I have regularly, but increased stickiness and dysenteric.
7. Since I ate spicy food on Thurs and felt affected, so I took Pantodac on Fri morning. This is perhaps the only medicine I took in past 6 days. Tendency to take Crocin has largely gone down. A good thing.
8. Sleepiness has come back with stomach upset in 3 days.
9. Overall it has been good but I need a quick dose, say LM4, to avoid problems that have picked up in 3 days. (LM3 might cause aggr without changing state.)
10 As i try to finish the post Sat morning, I am feeling quite sleepy, tired, unmotivated.
11 The dread of office work is still there. I feel frightened and bewildered with certain office works that will hang on my neck in next 7 months. Some (purchase) things are pending and put a great stress on me.

Sameer, please advise.

Sameer, this is 11:20 am of Sat. Since about 1 1/2 hours I am feeling very sleepy. I just want to lie down and not get up.
Last 2-3 years I have been rubbing teeth over each other when there is some anxiety, concern, etc.
I also rub teeth over each other when that pang or attack of sleep is there.

This is 12:30 pm. It is aching strongly in spleen region and around. The same injuiry like pain. It makes me lie down and do nothing. Why it has picked up I do not know. Is it that somewhat spicy food on Thurs? It should not have been. But it may be....
There might me loose stools too. I think I am going to take Bifil and Cro-PR.

This is Sat night. While I haven't taken any allopathic medicine yet, I have a stomach upset. Sticky stools for which I have to strain. Of course then there is some pain and burning in the rectum region. This is all usual. Not first time. Indigestion normally brings me down much and again that theory of 'liver' starts coming to my mind.
The amount of relapse by evening today is giving a new thought to me again. If the latest Staph LM3 doses helped me well but I have relapsed so much again, is Staph a partial similimum? And due to which it helps me...., 'partially'..... mixed with symptoms like left sided pain and followed by a large relapse....

Dear Sameer,
Do consider this and also remedies like Phosphorus, Causticum and Lycopodium. What about Hydrastis Canadensis?
'In chronic cases, when the tissues have suffered and not the mind.' - Kent.

Sameer, I do not write repeated posts to attract your attention so that you may see my posts. It is because, once I get into trouble, so many strong symptoms come up and I am so desperate to give a proper picture and the level of trouble is generally asking for 'fast' (or sometimes immediate) relief therefore I am compelled to write whatever comes to mind.
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i have not taken the first LM4 dose yet. Strange things have been happening. The latest is bitter taste in mouth, especially when drinking water. Could it be due to inhaling paint and adhesive due to their usage at work place? Hard to believe. Normally it is not like that. Or is it due to eating different things in 2-3 days on religious ceremonies?
1. Dysentery was there but died down.
2. 'Phak-phak' sound like vibration of membrane due to change of air pressure in left ear.
3. Some blood vessel gets a jerky flow at joint of left and right ribs in centre. But more on right. That depression is perhaps the location of devas-suture.
4. Other unexpected things that I do not remember....
5. Today boss talked of 'blocked' work and I was tense again. It is also displeasing to me and perhaps to many many people if you are trying to collect yourself and perhaps you were about to do something but somebody comes and reminds you to do the same things as if you would not have paid attention to it or not done it otherwise, and .... as if you cannot do it by yourself without a force being applied....

I will be taking first LM4 dose soon as 2 extra days have passed.
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So, I took Staph LM4 early morn on Thurs. Lot of problems. If I write '....since then....' it would mean problems are triggered by Staph LM4 dose. But I am not sure. It appears that the dose did nothing but it did aggravate a little. No relief.

As of now on Sun night at 10:30 pm, I have a strong feeling, the work of Staph is finished.

It will be a long post if I write about the troubles and many are the same. I will just write in brief.
Aching, pain etc. 'continued' in left chest as earlier. Sometimes too much, making me feel like a heart trouble. Constant dull 'injuiry like feeling' and heaviness in left chest.
Again, I was sleepy yesterday morning and noon but guests. It made me feel as if there is exertion for heart. I had a really bad sleep today afternoon. Same palpitation, etc. Now in last few months I feel it more strongly. Something sinks so much that even a 25% increase of the problem would make my spirit would leave the body any moment suddenly.
More loss of balance. When I had to sit on a stool today without back, it was very difficult. When I was standing on road for 15 mins, the traffic made me feel vertigo. This level of trouble is latest.
Nothing good. Took Pantodc yesterday and today.

Oh, no more.
Dear Sameer please advise. On my own I can't predict if I shall take a 2nd dose of LM4 tomorrow or later or not.
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I have not seen LMs to work like this few years back. At least at LM5. So may be LM4 should be similar.
As I have been saying earlier, aggravation is fast and strong. Amelioration follows quickly with a sense of much well being. All in hours, not even days.

Mentally I am not better. Anyway I find it hard to motivate my self and move but when I remember office work, I get even more tense. Is the fear somewhere deeper now...? I do not know.

Sameer, please read this fully.
Same fear and dread tomorrow on Monday. Please note this Sameer-
I will go to office. I will plan to collect myself and do something. Even before I can do anything, boss will remind of something else and also indicate how it has been pending and that it should be done 'urgently'. It will make me hurried and tense in my mind. While I won't be convinced that work was so urgent, I will be thinking on doing it. Mostly it would be forced thing. So affecting my health. Other times I will convince myself that yes other things must be done. So, I make up my mind and start preparing to act. But actually I get stuck. The very thought that I need to deliver it very fast like an 'IAS officer doing emergency work' will make my heart sink. (There are reasons why an IAS can do things swiftly.... the work is that way....)
I will start searching ways and reasons to postpone it to a time and situation when I can do it. And then it may or may not happen. When I can manage to do it my way, I feel relaxed. Otherwise, the work is not completed for long due to pressure of completing too fast and later on it is found that anyway it could still be done now. So, I ask this question, if I had already been given 'reasonable' time, would I not do it nicely?
I won't describe more here. I will get confused and may miss the theme.
Rather I add an important point. When such trouble as above comes up, my sincerity then tells me that I must put extra effort and energy to do as per the boss and also do things my way. Then I start looking for more energy and health. But it has been always missing.....since my surgery....if i may say so....
(Medicines like Ignatia 200 haven't helped me much if they are supposed to...)

There starts the fight.....The more I feel I need health and energy, the lesser it seems to be there....

And recently I do not know why my luck is such that some other colleague will also want to get something done since his work is held up due to mine. Just my destiny. I can't explain properly here.

The whole thing has got so frustrating that I become hopeless and feel trapped and I want to fly free out of all this and do nothing and yet I do not want leave without keeping anything pending. It feels awkward that I run away with people blaming me behind....
As if I had option to run way.... no, as already told, due to circumstances and reasons, the chance of me going for alternatives is very very rare at present.

Many people will think after reading this that they know many people like me who have this (office) problem. Some may even think that superiors are constantly tolerating persons like me. Others will label some aspect of this as 'procrastination' and perhaps they are correct.

I would love to put forth my side and tell how I am very reasonable.
But I cannot write about my office (or even home) any more in the forum than highlighting my psychological problems and limiting myself to aspects that help in a homeopathic treatment. Maintaining some level of confidentiality, I am otherwise very open and expressive already.

Sometimes, phone is the better alternative.

Well, in the past, Lyco has helped me 'get up' and do things. May be it used to 'maintain' me if not go up and up. Maybe that was my limit. Expecting any more health was wrong. My liver/digestion used to be good.

If Staph has done its work, good. Then we go next. Else, it is possible that something close to Staph was my similimum but not Staphy. Yes, Staphy has acted on headache and sinus type left sided headache has subsided. The right sided headache has also gone down but not fully, because it is digestion related.
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After a long previous post, I wish to write about my condition nearly 1 week after first dose Staph LM4.

Things that are better:
1. Heaviness of head, esp. forehead and especially due to cold, sinus, etc.
2. I had seen some improvement in sleepiness earlier during 200 dose.
3. Sometimes there was improvement in feeling 'chilly'. I used to perspire a lot after Staph doses but that improvement has gone now, perhaps.
4. There may have been improvement in digestion and 'warm' feeling of stomach. The digestion is still sluggish. Only that - I do agree that liver remedies used to increase appetite but so also acidity, 'warm' acidity, etc.
5. Mentally I have felt lighter but not very helpful to take me further.

Things that are same:
1. Dread of certain works. When I try to pick some specific tasks, I recall that these should be done in a certain time. I get very stressed and burdened and do not have confidence to do them, so I drop the idea to do them. Otherwise also, I have got tired of the adjustments I made for several years in completing tasks, so now I just don't feel like doing things again in the same way. The more somebody tells me to 'just do it', the more 'low' and 'energy-less' I feel.
2. Fear and dread that I cannot do many things, even those things that I have done earlier. This is due to lack of energy, vitality and low state of health.
3. Constant burden of pending tasks.
4. Lack of energy. Lack of vitality. Great tiredness. Sleepiness on and off.
5. Very bad physique overall. Loss of hair. Hair fall from body. Very dry body.
6. Lack of motivation.
7. Fear of illness.
8. Fear of travel.
9. Problem of palpitations is back in last few days. Even worsened at times depending on external factors. I will not describe. It is all related to malfunction of heart.

New symptoms after Staph doses:
1. Pain in left chest and along a line on left in abdomen.
2. Sometimes the pain feels like heart trouble.
3. Reduction in eye-sight.
4. Things like pain in right groin or sudden pulses of pain on left side of head along a blood vessel making me anxious that this might lead to stroke. These are occasional.
5. Exhaustion, tiredness.

As of yesterday/today:
Yesterday, I intensely tried to do some office work of my interest at home. While the head did not get too heavy, I went in the old mode of getting confused while thinking on work and searching on computer. I had that impatience, hurriedness and usual less grasp.
Later I had problem sleeping.
Today morning it affected me immediately. I was anxious how low sleep would affect me. In desperation I took a spoonful of B-complex hoping that it would help my highly drained body. Then, I was chilly throughout the day. No vitality. Finally I took Crocin at 7 pm.
Today pending works were strongly brought out at work. Through the day I was okay, but in evening I felt very 'down'. I feel that my heart sinks, 'dil baith gaya hai...'
I tried to take short nap at 7 in evening but at the moment of sleep I again felt loss of heart beats. Also these days i feel that just when I sleep, I feel that I have lost all contact with world and I become sort of unconscious. Then I get up soon in a minute to feel that i am alive and conscious. This keeps on happening for 10-15 minutes about 2 times and then I will just get up with whatever bad sleep I have had. At night I will of course sleep finally to get up 'un-refreshed'.

Dear Sameer, please advise.

Few minutes after meals I had strong pain in left abdomen around spleen region. Burning and aching. I was crying 'Ah...ah...' for few minutes and just wanted to sit down and then lie down. The pain subsided after few minutes. It has become a regular feature now. Pain and burning comes anytime after eating.

Condition in office has become terrible. I can't explain. Pressure from all fronts.
But my point is, I am trying all tricks. Today I have shifted to Zinetac (Ranitidine 150 mg) in the hope that it will benefit more. Today I felt very convinced that there is a full-fledged ulcer, may be gastric 'ulcer' in my intestine. Whenever I eat, after that I have that typical strong 'Ahhh...' pain of ulcer written everywhere in literatures. All this is most likely triggered by some homeopathic remedy, Staphysagria, of course.

In the last 10-12 years I have never had this typical ulcer pain. In fact, if I had pain, it was dysenteric and loose sticky stools would follow and all....Aching gave me confidence that stomach is upset as usual but won't bleed. But if I felt bad and ill and the stomach was silent except for 'very warm' feeling, it used to be a dangerous indication. It was an indication that I 'may' bleed suddenly....

Also these four days, I have foul smell of mouth, indications on tongue. More dangerous is the start of lack of sleep at night.

I plan to continue Zinetac most likely for 7-10 days unless a remedy helps me too much.

Sorry for the long answer.
I have taken Pulsatila many times in past. In fact when my interaction with my previous doctor started around 1997, he prescribed Merc Sol 200 and Pulsatilla 200 to be taken alternately.
It used to help me generally. It was mostly for the dyseteric stools and troubles I had due to food that proved 'rich' for me only on account of surgery.
Mostly I took it in pair with Merc sol 200. When I used to take several doses of Pulsatilla 200, an overdosing, I used to feel strange - As if things or myself are becoming very tall and tall and large....some hollowness somewhere.... After several tens of minutes, the trouble would stop. Then I would feel quite better. Its after effect was slightly terrifying that I used to wait for to come and pass away but otherwise it was not highly troublesome or irritating or annoying.
Yes, Pulsatilla, always 200, never low, never high....and several (tens of) doses during 1997 to 2003. (Once I have tried 2-3 doses of Puls 30 in 2007-2009, not sure...)
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I just typed a few symptoms in OpenRep and I get Staphy at the top. This indicates that present problem is (likely to be) triggered by Staphy doses but is not subsiding now.

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Two Zinetacs in two days appeared to be giving relief (Thu, Fri). I had also taken Antax for 2 nights (Wed, Thu).
The mood had improved on Fri evening.
Today Sat. I have not taken anything till now (2:30 pm).

I have sniffed Puls. 6c. Twice in 15 mins. The sniff is not convincing isn't it, so twice!

I then decided not to play risky and took Zinetac around 3:30 pm. Later in evening at 8 pm or so, I had a strong pang of ache in left chest and abdomen which made me lie down. I did not understand.
Later I understood that I hadn't eaten for 4 hours and it was meal time.
This is a high indication of gastric ulcer.
There has been expelling of foul gas too.

Dear Sameer,
Please do answer Sanjeevkumar.
Those who strictly follow homeopathy, I know of Bhadra Homeo. Please search on Google and go personally. Then you can decide.

Coming back, I have this to tell:
1. Sat. 17th I sniffed Puls. and posted the situation.
2. Sun. morning the smell from mouth was worse. Something septic. By 9:30 am, I felt light sleepiness. I could feel something infectious/septic/foul in and around the body. Rather it was in breath, causing dull sleep. Something like fish or stale portion of human tissue...(Strongly indicating conditions inside stomach...)
By afternoon, it continued and I had aching by meal time. I had office work on computer throughout Sun.
In evening I had loose stools with typical indications. So, I took Providac ('curd bacteria' if I may say so). It helped me.
3. Mon was strenous in office. Evening I took Providac again. No I do not take chances. I have done that many times and seen the results in the past (13 years or so). So it helped again. No forced sticky stools in evening. (slightly) Improved stools in morning.
4. Today Tue. it was very strenous in office. By chance I had to explain work to trainees. That time and otherwise, I had those moments when I felt drop of blood flow in chest. Evening I didn't take Providac, so sticky, forced stools by 9 pm. This is 10:15 pm and I am too tired.

5. Pain below left ribs and left chest keeps coming more or less. It was less after Providac and increasing again since I did not take it till now at 10:20 pm. I take the action of Providac as proof of H Pylor infection and probable Pyloric Ulcer like the one that bled last time few years back. Of course, here, a pain is triggered after a homeopathic remedy.

I plan to start taking Pantodac for 15 days. Other things might not work eventually.

Sameer, I am in s bad state. Had I not had some luck with today's works it would have been really terrible today. Things still may go out of control. Please advise.

From my earlier experience I would have perhaps take Merc. Corr. 200 in morning and Nux. Vom. 200 at night. Or perhaps Bismuth Met 200 at night. I might have dared Arg. Nitr. 200 too. Somehting among these 3-4 remedies. I might also have gone for Lyco LM5. But that is what I would do desperately. Not necessarily what should be done.
Please help.
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My previous post was at about 10:45 pm. I went to sleep early but had lot of trouble, hence I was keen to post this today morning at 6:45 am (Wed).

After sticky stools with slightly darker colour at 10:30 pm, I took Providac so that I could take a light meal at night. Normally it is not this late.

Later as in last 3 days I was unable to sleep. But also I had severe bout of 'warm' feeling and acidity. That inflammation inside was troubling. Finally I had to get up and take Pantodac. After several minutes, it subsided. But I could not sleep well at all.

I have not been able to sleep well since last 3-4 days. Some thoughts related to work keep occurring again and again. This is usual for me. But added by abdominal trouble.

If I could go to hospital without letting my mother know, I would surely have tried for endscpy. But it is tough to disguise fasting. Also, I am banking on the fact that there is no sign of bleeding yet.

Since a month or so, I have been getting up (morning) on many occasions with burn and ache in left abdomen and chest. So, was it today.
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