Worry, anxiety, fear, duodenal ulcers, right sided headaches, port. hyp. tension, varic. - Dr. Sameer help requested _{Page 9 of 18}

I took Lyco 6 yesterday at 10:45 pm, 1 drop in 250 ml, 1 spoon.
I could not get German medicine. It was India made.

Also took Pantodac today morning for precaution.

I am OK today till noon. Thank God no aggravation.
Sameer do you suggest Lyco in higher potency before Sulphur?

Sorry I am not waiting 5 days.
On 24th I was very tired and my office colleagues too found my face strained/pulled. I got exposed to AC later. But then today morning after a long time I felt and sensed that inclination to work - just a little though.
I think Lyco is going to help much.
Mentally just a glimpse of that specific tpye of 'better' feeling, physically worse and better both. Acidity and biliousness increasing much.
Sort of 'wound opening' but not like Lachesis/Calcarea which opened 'not my kind' symptoms.

But again I think Ars., Nux. and perhaps Sulphur too will be needed.
(Frankly I am a bit reluctant on Sulphur but of course I rely on your advice Sameer.)
Before I order and get Sulphur I request you to consider Lycopodium further up for me till it works.

Yesterday at night I was compelled to take Crocin. Then I took Gelusil for acidity.
I was going to take holiday from office so that I get 3 days but due to imp work I didn't. Office went hectic but ok as such.

In evening I started to have headache around left eye, esp. on the left eyebrow. I am very disturbed and afraid. It is so painful. I am desperate to take any remedy. I just don't know why this has come up again. I am having vertigo and feel like I may fall from chair on movements. Is it high BP due to stress?
When in lot of pain I get afraid because I cannot take pain killers except paracetamol. Also I have to hide situation from family members.

If I am frantically searching to get relief, I may try antibiotic...or whatever.
It is 11:30 pm. If sleep can help ok, otherwise I may do anything to get relieved....

After avoiding all medicines, I still had some left-sided headache today morning.
It is Sat. but had some work so got tired. Trying to rest in afternoon.
Great pain/aching and burning in waist between navel and penis extending to left groin. Old problem.
Body is asking for lots of rest...Has become lighter...even feet shrunk and light as I put in shoes.

Some diarrhea also. Great ache and burning at the end of stool. Taken Pantodac.
Weakness. I had bent down. On rising I felt a lot of weakness.
I will try to skip office on Mon.
Overall 'tabiyat kaafee gadbad lagati hai'.
Only (helpful thing is) that it is weekned.

Very kind of you to ask Sameer.

I took Pantodac for 4 days from Sun to Wed. Definitely in two days I was better.
The Lyco +ve effect had already come down.
Sulphur ordered (but I am inclined to experiment with Lyco.)
But all in all I was very tired. So took leave but again got tired due to other works.
I felt that the desperation to keep on writing and get some magical remedy was tiring me. So I just stopped.

I am sure that Lyco effect had already died out. After that:
1. Rest on Sat. Sun. Mon. helped me.
2. Pantodac helped much but I have stopped from today.
3. Tue. Wed. no interaction with higher up (leave hint got received). This thing helped me much. 'Main khul jaataa hoon' and I get some enthusiasm to work on my own otherwise it feels like 'jabardasti' even if it was the same work. Please note that it does not happen to me w.r.t to others too. There is a strong incompatibility here.

So latest is this:
1. I get feel tired and sleep in morning for about an hour or more at 10 am onwards. I know Sulphur covers this.

2. As I write now, vertigo. Reason not known. Weakness of neck muscles?

3. More sex, but wanting causes loss. I cannot describe too much here except that the most imp problem w.r.t. this is prematu. ejac. (and guilt)

4. I feel very tired in evening after coming home from office. This continues even after feeling better after food. My office job is not hectic that way and importantly I come back by 6:30 most of the time. So this great exhaustion in not understandable.

Maybe I have again gone too much. It is 12:30 am also.

Sameer, kindly advise what next.

Please note, many problems lessened after continuous Pantodac even though in these 5-10 days there were not continuous symptoms of ulcer.

I wrote a very long post but all the text is lost due to reset of internet connection.
I am very frustrated and upset.
I will write tomorrow. At the moment I have taken Pantodac and am going to sleep at 12:15 am.

So it was a tragedy yesterday...losing the huge text.
I will first write just what is asked and then other things.
(Now it will be shorter since I cannot dare to recall and write what I lost yesterday.)

1. Well what I meant was nothing different from what most males have fallen into. Firstly I started masrtb. long ago. I used to feel very guilty initially but just accepted it later on. When things used to go wrong, I used to feel that it must be due to my habit. Many times I would feel that certain unwanted result was a punishment from God for this.
2. Then during college I went to a homeopath. I was highly anxious when he asked if I had habit of mastrb. Hoping for help I said yes. Later there were a few things, too lengthy to describe here. He asked me for sono recognizing very enlarged spleen by phy. exam. I was again very anxious that the tests may reveal my habit to parents. I did other tests but not sono. I really paid a very heavy price due to this.
3. The homeopathic medicines didn't help much. 2 years passed. I bled very heavily later and underwent surgery. I used to think many times that this was my punishment for bad habit of mastrb. But since I continued later, my previous thoughts didn't pick up. Again I accepted sort of and kept guilt thoughts aside. Of course the guilt thought never totally go away since I continued the habit till marriage.
4. I have an imp observation. But now I will be brief unless asked to expand. During my 2nd bleeding episode, I had a strange inclination to mastr. an hour before....I did it and then after 45-60 mins I bled so heavily that I was near death in 2 days. Also, this had something to do with a (imaginary) line drawn on left side of abdomen and left sided blood circ. Whether the fully ripe problem of circulation caused an inclination to mastrb. or whether the act of mastrb. gave that last push to the intestine to make it bleed early, I don't know. I am not sure but this again happened later once. I felt that mastrb. caused a duod ulcer bleed. Reason says that there is no one-to-one correspondence because several times I mastr these years but I didn't bleed all those times (who will be alive then!). And also every bleeding episode of varices or ulcers was not after a mastr. act. But on those 2 occasions there was some relation.
5. I underwent many stages of problems due to continued mastrb. but esp. after surgery. Excessive pain in groin, discharges, night fall, and then foul smell on scrotum due to something (infection). Again the so called infection has one to one relation with antibiotic Mox. I had to take Mox 2-3 times a years for about 4-5 years. It used to help. After a long gap, when I again would take it, I had itching on scrotum, stickiness, foul smell and all...
6. I will expand the recent problems. Most troublesome is premat. ejac. Controlling this will solve many other things and reduce excess sex. First of all we hardly go for intercourse but whenever possible I ejaculate as soon as penis touches the other part, in a second or two. This problem is compounded by thin skin which slides back with a rough feeling and great burning. The brushing/burning/pulling of skin is so harsh that I silently cry in pain and also ejaculate immediately. All the enjoyment is lost and then the whole thing becomes wanting.
7. The craving for satisfying sex is there. I am quite affected by what I see. Real world, TV, media.
8. A cycle of about 3-5 days has got created by hormones and/or habit. I feel like doing sex then. And if I do not, I just cannot come out of that thought. I keep on looking for occasion till it is done. In last 2-3 years, if it is not done in a day, I have pain in waist in hip side, pain and discharge in scrotum area, etc. After the act, all the tension in lower abdomen is relieved for next 5-7 days.
9. If I do sex too frequently, I feel very guilty (even now after several years of marriage). I have observed suppressed anger and I see Staphy. in this. Definitely excess makes me weak and so.....- anxious.
10. Even if I have missed any key points, I must stop here as the post has become very long.

I feel Nux Vomica has been close to my constitution many times. Irritable, chilly, all sorts of digestion problems, addictive. Though I am not actually addicted to anything (except mastrb.), my constitution is of that type. I feel like consuming special things and try to do heroic acts. As far as I know, my earlier doctor once revealed that he had given me Nux. 0/5 and Lyco 0/5 for regular doses. I took several doses of Nux. Vomica 200c on and off during this time. 4-5 years back I felt I recognized proving of Nux due to everyday doses (0/5). The main problem with Nux. and Lyco I feel is that I was overdosed. The remedies were quite similar but given too often on daily basis for long. Also, during acute problems, they were mixed up with other remedies in no particular sequence.

Sameer I feel that after long gap, Nux and Lyco may again be tried in correct sequence and at correct potencies. This may help me a lot. And then after appreciable benefit (like we went far with Calcarea) we and stop and see what exactly is my mental frame.

Though brisbane homeopath has warned in another topic not to extract symptoms from remedies and try to match but on basis of my experience (and not really from any reading) I feel that I was helped most by Nux., Lyco and Ars. and perhaps Sulphur (200). Lach and Calc do not really affect my mood.

Sorry for this very long post.

I have got Nux (Reckeweg). I will take tomorrow.
Few comments.
1. From today itself I am going to try to sleep early. This is 10:35 pm. Much better. I hope to improve by 25 mins today.
2. In a sense I haven't taken much allopathy. No regular medicine prescribed. Only 3-4 mild medicines for few months after surgery. Then I did take medicines on every ulcer bleed. But for one month only. Always there have been gaps of 5 to 8 months or even more before I really took allopathic medicine. Yes during heavy bleed strong medicines (Sandostatin) were given on 2 occasions.
Antibiotics of course.
Only in last 2 years I caught habit of Pantoprazole.
But all in all not too many allopathic medicines.
This does not mean you were incorrect Sameer. In another sense I have had to take allopathic medicines and your comment is not incorrect.
(This was one reason for earlier doctor to choose Nux.)

I am afraid of 1M potency but I will take it as advised. As such I am less afraid of Nux. It won't act adversely as far as I know.
If in great trouble, I will take allopathy.

Please note that these days my condition is tolerable since interaction with my superior is very less and I am freely able to write posts. If this continues I will feel better and better without any remedy. But this is not a homeopathic cure I guess. It is Ayurveda's 'pathya' and 'apathya'.

3. I got forwarded email regarding eating 8-10 grains of raw rice with water everyday before food to control acidity. I shall try that too.

I hope to stop posting for sometime (and also be brief).

I took Nux Vomica 1000 at 6 am on 7/12/2010. 1 drop in 500 ml, one spoon from that.

Now I know what that 'pulling' and strange feeling used to come at 12 noon. This was due to my earlier doses of Nux. And this is also connected to China. Sleep related up and down has started.

Sameer, I have Sulphur LM now.

Due to tiredness yesterday and left sided sore throat I had take Crocin PR today morning (Mon.). Sore throat trouble increased in evening.
When it catches, there is constant and much pain at back of throat and on left side extending to the ear. I just can't carry out anything. (Earlier it used to be followed by loss of voice eventually.) Such 5-6 days are one of the worst then. I can't talk, there is fever, constant pain, burning in throat. Cold in head too in last few years. Cold food pains. I wish for warm drinks but it doesn't relieve.

Today evening I had such a strong 'pang' of pain in stomach due to 'warm' acidity that I ran for Pantodac.

Later my head was inhibited, such uneasiness, disturbed feeling, head hollow and vibrating due to lightness and it is very cold now (in city) so that I felt that 'head was not there'. Terrible feeling.

I am so terrified. Sameer since you normally don't recommend any medicine early esp. after 1M, I guess I might take antibiotics.
I feel that if remedy is right, maybe it is okay to wait till improvement is totally exhausted. But if it is not 'similar', I am not sure if waiting for any amount of time is helpful.

After Nux some old things came up but no improvement mentally. How ever it must have antidoted many things so irritation, anger and the bad old left-sided throat trouble has come up.

I remember that Nux 200 used to help me. Then since I was given LM5 and too frequent, the dysenteric diarrhea and 'fever or feverishness (caused) of indigestion' was its proving. But at that time my vitality was quite good. Now my vitality is too low.

In two days I was getting suddenly angry. When I was sleepy yesterday afternoon and there was disturbance, I felt like hitting other person or throwing something on TV, etc. Though I always control and do not hit or throw.

Anyway now I am finding difficult to balance also because in harsh winter my ears are anyway affected and more so now.

Sneezing. I am catching cold with sore thraot.

Sameer do you suggest something?

There is 'loud' tinnitus in ears. If I cover my head due to winter it is even more...
I went to stool 5 mins ago at 11 pm. It has been okay till now but as the cough goes down the intestine, I will have loose stools tomorrow.

I am sorry Sameer, I was hopeful that Nux will bring back that 'freshness' and 'swiftness' even though the old problems may come back. But has brought back only problems and none of the good things.
I even got good sleep during weekend in 3-4 days. That should have helped me a lot. But it didn't. My vitality is just too low, it just doesn't pick up.

I have been hopeful of Lyco (after Lyco 6) because I got the glimpse of exactly that positive feeling that makes me get up and start doing things. But I am now afraid if that too will work.

In fact I still feel Nux must have been very similar to me in the past but presently 1M potency has done something else. 200 might have been okay and LM5 is perhaps of no use now.

brisbanehomeopath has been warning against pick up symptoms from remedy descrptions and if I am say, trying to point out remedies and all. I too will try to pay attention to describing things in my own words and not talk about remedies but I am compelled to.....I have had reasons.

Finally if I may add, I drank 2 juices in party for taste. These were cold only up to winter ambient temp. and not sour but that might have affected me. I drank only 50-60 ml total but it did add to start of throat trouble.

I will soon go to bed since it is about 11:30 pm but I am afraid, there is going to be constant aching, burning, pain in left throat and ear throughout the night.
'Thanaknaa' what we might say.

I will request Reiki and look for relief from hand 'mudras'.

Thanks for comments. It gives me strength to sustain without homeopathic remedy.
Yesterday after Crocin I was having pangs of nausea, that type when one shakes one's head murmuring, 'unh...unh...'
Later through the night the entire throat was paining/aching. Morning I was having 'pulling' sleep but I got up and came to office.

Antibiotics avioded till now.

Pangs of nausea continued later too esp. after Pantodac. Perhaps too much variety of food caused it.

Now I have acrid yellow sticky but scanty expectoration.

Sorry for spelling mistakes (interchange of letters) in earlier posts.

Now I have proper cold. Left nose blocked. In the vary same manner I had caught cold last year. I was trying some suggestions given on abchomeopathy for excess sex. Due to incorrect low potency remedies or some other reason I got piles. That was strange.
After ulcer bleed in 2003 I had piles. I just don't know why. I do not have any such tendency or other indications.
Then it disappeared as it came. Last year it again appeared as if from incorrect homeopathic remedies.
But I had so much cold. Stuffed nose always. I had gone to in-laws and I was ashamed to be in a condition of constant nose block.
A local homeopath there gave 2-3 remedies and he also suggested me to take 'amla' as suggested by mohammad. He also suggested aloe-vera for good digestion. By his remedies I got full relief in piles/fissure whatever but the stuffed nose remained and cold and discharges. Of course left sided headache was there sometimes. I was fed up.

This year at the same time when winter has picked up, it has come back again, this cold with stuffed nose. My vitality is too low. I can describe 20 separate symptoms to prove this but I won't.

Last year I don't know what that doctor gave but I feel I saw Silica in his paper.
My entire body appears dry. Baldness, hairfall. During bath and otherwise, the dry hair falls/comes out every time. Dry skin.
I am obstinate, chilly. In my own words, once a thought enters my brain, I keep on thinking over it on and on. It takes long for me to leave it. A few second thought at teatime would be minutes in me. A 2-3 minute discussion at teatime will keep going on in my head for several minutes. A long discussion for an hour might or might not keep in my head but if it does, it will be much more than anybody else's, perhaps a day....2 days...

I am so desparate due to 'sardi' so I wrote so much. Apologies.

I have great 'utaawalaapan', hurriedness, uneasiness, desperation, impatience and excitement when I am not in 'well' state.
Due to cold, stuffed nose and associated uneasiness/discomfort, this 'utaawalaapan' has increased very much. Thoughts are running....I just want to do things quickly (but actually I do not)....I feel that time is running fast....
During prayer this is very high...I quickly want to finish off....If I had taken Crocin Pain Relief and if gave full effect, the hurriedness will convert to 'strong', 'fast' prayer.

All this hurriedness indicates liver and associated blood circulation problem.

I found that I have itchy small 2-3 boils on outer neck (where we shave). Other problems and this one call for China/Cinchona.
I think I have mentioned this. 4-5 years back I had this stubborn cold. As soon as I also added that I have feverishness/fever through late morning till evening, my doctor immediately asked me to take 2 doses of China 30 in 2 days. Then he asked me to get (constitutional) medicine procured by somebody from him (which must be Lyco LM5 and Nux LM5). China had helped me much.

I just can't control and write about my constancy of thoughts.
1. My earlier doctor had said that '...you cannot leave a thing...'
2. Once a specific need gets into my mind I just cannot throw the idea out of me. If I feel like taking tea at 10 pm, I just cannot sleep without taking a bit of tea. Similarly, in summer I have had a craving for something cool for stomach in afternoon or night and which is sweet. Then I am just terribly desperate till I get an ice-cream. Externally nothing shows but internally I am terribly disturbed and feel like going mad. (Cold-drink has too high a specific heat and causes throat prob.)
3. The tendency to keep thinking on and on goes with electronic products like mobile, computer, digital caemra, etc. This is enhanced much by a perfectionist tendency-to choose the best, to try to get the best item.
4. Even now the idea of taking China 30 is just not going from my mind. While I am very flexible and try to be objective and neutral in my thinking, I also get stuck to an idea and my idea or thought gets fixed. Now my thought is fixed that (given the freedom) I will first take China 30 and then I will go for Lyco. (Nux has failed so I will be equally afraid of it.)

Sorry Sameer, I did not see your post.