Dr. Tahira, Returning patient, Thank you

Also, another thing that's happening: I am getting dry-blood scabs in my nose typically in the morning. The weather is humid it's been raining so not dry weather. I used to get dry scabs in nose that were just skin-like scabs (no red/blood), those feel reduced. Now some red/blood scabs. Not sure if this is related to other symptoms.
I have felt like going outdoors more now, and went swimming, so overall improvement in my mood as well.

Dear Dr. Tahira.
Thank you for your study of my condition. Answering your questions below:
1-When did u take thuja(Date)?: Answer: March 22
2-Describe ur upcoming symptoms(both physical and mental) and modalities in detail(write in a sequence)?: Will try my best to write in sequentially, Sorry had not kept a diary this time: (Still worried about hair loss and scalp deterioration) As background, continued studying for my exams while all this is going on:
Before Thuja: Throat Bumps: I recall I had bumps in my throat recurringly for many years, used to come is like a bumper-crop at harvest season and then go off after a few days. Sometimes itchy. This time, I had 1 bump left in throat on left side just before taking Thuja. That last bump has stayed on, although it is small.
1 Day after Thuja: Front of scalp continued to look crumbling/powdery. Literally looking at scalp at front hairline you could see a white carpet of power laid out on scalp. Washed my hair that night and then seemed reduced (maybe washed scalp-powder away).
Now front hairline still had scalp-crumbles, the powder seems more like small flat pices instead of complete powder. This is also familiar since I’ve had a long histroy of this recurring for many years (flat scabs, powerdery dandruff, small crumbles).
Felt quite good a few days after Thuja. Felt very strong and fresh. Slept well as if I hadn’t slept like this in years. Also “felt” younger/stronger. Was able to do increased household activities without getting tired. Also the pain in my legs had disappeared (used to have pain previously). Did develop 2 small rough patches on skin at the left most side of my back at the height of the navel, but on the back and 1 small rough patch on chest in middle but slightly to the left. This was before Thuja and after Sulphur, but the patches seem to be less rough today.
Scalp-Itching seemed to subside about 1 day after Thuja. And felt better in scalp, no itching. But I had also washed my hair so was not sure what had stopped the itching. Had noticed very minute light brown spots scattered on neck before taking Thuja. Still see spots in the mirror, it is hard to tell whether these are new or the same spots, but there are spots on neck.
Mood has been better overall with people that I live with: I have become more accepting of other people’s mistakes. For e.g., it used to irritate me when family members spent a lot of our money on long distance calls or on spending for liquor. Now I have accepted it. I can’t change anything in this regard, so I am letting it go. Still bothers me a bit, but I have decided to focus my energy on positive things like earning more money and to be happy and satisfied professionally, to do well in my exam and launch my new career.
(Past before Thuja I tend to be a polite person, don’t like to hurt anyone’s feelings. Try to do my duty, but used to get very irritated when (joint family) family members spent our money on useless things.)
Past with a sibling I don’t live with since marriage: One thing I had not mentioned earlier was that since the last 7 months I have not been talking to a very close relative in my family, since that person has been consistently upset and angry, and misunderstood my good intentions all the time. In the past I was very close to that person, but tended to be afraid of the unpredictable upsets of that person. My hair loss/scalp itch issues seemed to have magnified recently again immediately after this person’s big + loud upset when I was at the person’s house. My body felt shut-down, as if in shock that night. My body and mind seemed to have gone into some deep-fear, and memories from the person’s childhood upsets, when I was growing up, had re-emerged. I still think about that person, and then try not to think about it since I have to study for my exams. I feel like I don’t want that part of my life. Feel can I change that part of my life? Can I really have a fresh start? Do I have to continue with people who hurt me and talk angry-nonsense, especially all imagined things about me. If I am so bad and I can’t make a difference to the other person, I am wasting their time and mine. I cannot help this person at all. I can’t give that person a good life because that person just does not feel happy in any circumstance and is so angry and loud in talking. I feel helpless and weak, very dejected. Even as I type this my stomach is curling a bit inside just thinking about this. I am keeping a deliberate distance because all that sorrow is not worth it, for that person or for me. It is better not to interact that to interact and hear that I am causing so much grief. I barely used to talk in front of the other person, being mis-understood most of the time anyway. Also, this person kept saying that I have not done enough for the person. I used to keep trying to please and please, but I can’t do that anymore. I am tired of pleasing people. It is a thankless and endless job, and the person is never satisfied. It is never enough, not a “Thank You” for any gifts or anything. It’s as if I am doing the person and that person’s children a favor by doing for them. Like I owe them something permanently for being related, for being born into the family, for being the youngest. There is so much childhood/past in the relationship that there is no possibility for true future peace/harmony.
I had taken training courses in the past to deal with my fears in life, and I understand my life to be what I make of it, what I create it to be. I used to be very afraid as a child, still have those thoughts come up, and my eyes have tears as I type this. I had one memorable bad experience in my childhood and I try to protect my child any significant negative things by other people. I have tried very hard to get away from my fears. Now I try to be helpful to people and be of use to community, and do make a difference. Don’t feel freed up completely. Feel as though there is still something hanging on. I can’t be around loud angry people. Just can’t.
My tea-drinking seemed reduced soon after Sulphur and later also with Thuja. Do not feel like drinking wine anymore. Had been eating in morning better after Sulphur, feel as though my morning eating has gone down again, I have to remind myself about food. Do feel hungry at 9 a.m. more that before Sulphur.
March 27: Another thing was – could feel small flat itchy bumps on skin at back of neck a few days after Thuja. They seemed to come and then disappeared soon after. That section of neck (under hairline at back of neck) seemed itchy when the bumps arrived, itchiness subsided soon after the bumps disappeared.
Saturday : March 29: Terrible neck pain throbbing, all the way to my left eye-lid, near the nose-bridge. I thought I had not slept with good posture. Was hard to describe whether it was just neck or headache, seemed all linked together with slight throbbing. But the ache was horrible. Felt like it would never get better. Wanted a neck support for the back of neck while sitting. Stretched my neck backwards to feel better. Went swimming Saturday afternoon thinking that I had studied all day so needed exercise. Water was quite warm. Swam well, about 15 laps (done laps after 20 years). Neck-ache seemed to still be there, so I relaxed in the water floating on my back and calmed with no motion, that’s when my neck ache disappeared. Then neck-ache returned. Came home slept for 3 hours till 6:30 p.m. Then woke up did some little household work, sat around. Got some diarrhea. Thought is was because I had eaten scrambled eggs that morning. Slept at 12:30 midnight. Slept with towel rolled under neck, felt better with that, as if neck was supported.
Next day neck-ache had literally shifted to the right side, throbbing at right eye-lid where it meets the bridge of nose, and upper back felt a bit stiff. But at the end of day, this ache stopped completely.
Last few days have been feeling that my back is hunching up, especially when I sit to study. Have to remind myself to arch the back backwards to “correct” my posture, otherwise it is arching forwards and hence hunch.
HAIR ISSUES: Hairline at the back of neck in front of ears still itches recurrently now, but not too much.
March 31: Feels like some Hair from scalp is “popping” out, sometimes when my hand touches the hair, I feel a “pop” soft sound as though the hair has just come out of its follicle. The hair that falls has no root at all attached to it. It has a black tip that signals the end of the hair, but theer is no whitish root, so it shows that the scalp has probably deteriorated.
March 31: Top of head: Scalp at top of head feels hardened, yesterday a lot of itching. Top of head scalp feels slightly bumpy and rough (has felt like that for years now). A lot of scalp-powder falling out, feel as if scalp crumbling, as if continued condition except that the scabs / flat patches of skin are not falling out anymore. Front hairline scalp had scabs .
Hearing: Hear more intense shrill sound / high pitch in my right ear while sleeping at night, before falling asleep. Mind keeps thinking at night, does not go to sleep right away. Shrill sound seems louder.
In the day in morning, sitting at study: seemed the high pitch sound got louder for a few seconds and then completely “deafed out” where felt sudden hear loss in right ear. Then hearing came back. Felt as though hearing had switched from right ear over for a brief moment. Then came back.
April 1: My Left Eye: Background: Vision had declined slightly (fuzzy views) since age 14. The left part of my body has been slow in coordination since I was a child, not sure if it was from the fall I had (Had fallen from climbing a ladder, indoor in the room about 7 feet high, when I was age 4.) My left eye also had coordination problem, like a lazy eye. I have to consciously move my left eye to see better/align with right eye. I feel a stress in me, an inner tension that locks up eye position. Had myopia at 27, been using reading glasses since age 27 to ease the strain on eyes while reading. Without glasses, eyes used to lock up in reading position, so far-vision was blurred. My confidence to see a 6+ feet out had dropped and I had stopped looking at people to smile, ‘coz I didn’t know if looked squint. Eyes felt as thought they had to strain.
April 1: My Left Eye Change: When I was driving yesterday felt as though left eye is starting to ease a bit, and is moving better, so my eye sight (far distance) improves for a few seconds, then left eye gets tight again as if back in a locked position. I started stretching my left had back/up and felt better while driving, seemed to ease my face/hand left side, helped with easing vision again.
April 1: My attitude towards house-work had become neutral again, and not complaining. Although my irritability had increased, and I am snapping more at my child (afterwards I feel I should not). Yesterday I told her to turn off her TV-movie and she got upset, turned off the movie. Child then explain that the story was not bad. Then I regretted having child turn off the movie.
In general With friends, I don’t feel like having friends really, although I am quite popular. I feel it is a waste of time and that I should study and get my career back on track. I used to have a great career money & prestige –wise, although I didn’t enjoy it everyday. Now I am studying what I enjoy, but the project I do from home is not very paying and I still have to “prove” myself in this field.
April 1: My tea drinking has started again the last 2 days. I like to hold the cup of hot tea and sip about 2-3 cups in morning (is the tea causing the hair problems??), and then 1 at tea time at 3-4 pm. I have been a tea-drinker ever since I can remember. My mom used to say that I was given tea even when I was little when we were traveling and the milk was hard to get.
I keep thinking my hair is going to fall off and I will be bald and no-one will care for me then, not even my husband. That is a horrid feeling. My exam study is a lot, and trying to draw visuals to improve my memory. Wish I could also remember better. I forget to charge my cell phone, and missed 3 important new-job related phone calls. Felt terrible, will start to be more attentive to cell phone.
Apr 2: I used to love/eat spicy food, but now my yearning for spicy has gone down, although still enjoying it at lunch/dinner.
At home, have joint-family. Feel that family members talk the most trivial basal things, that are too low for me. I feel I’m an intellectual, smart. So I am usually quiet when they talk and talk. Especially 1 person elder keeps talking. So I am patient with that and then I proceed to study for my exam or I work on a very fantastic project. Also, I don’t like to waste time with family-politics, “who said what and why”, “who said when and where and with what bad intention”, “how much mustard seeds did you put”, “do you want to use this pan for frying, or that” etc. It seems as thought most people spend their life with all that mundane stuff, I don’t want to.
I like to see and hear inspirational language. I see shows of Inspiring speakers and follow the path of making a difference in the world. I have taken training in several ways to create and help others. Feeling positive after Thuja as well.
Apr 2 Hearing: Hearing still feels like there is a high pitch sound pronounced in right ear.
Feel like going outside more now than before. Studies prevent my going out very often. Do go out for pharmacy, grocery etc.
Feel that I am so brilliant and the world has not recognized my brilliance yet (Gosh, I feel I have such an ego!!)
Hope the above description helps.
You are a healer, with God’s gift. Thank you for your greatness.

Thank you for your guidance. Agreeing with your insights. I normally don't discuss or make people wrong, but had typed my thought-profile thinking it might help with diagnosis.
Apr 2 as I typed notes here, realized I had been getting upset over trivial things over the last 4 days. At night felt tense & tried to sleep, left leg skin started itching a few inches below knee, was unbearable itch for a few seconds, I had to scratch. Then itching totally dissappeared. Checked in the morning and noticed that the area is a dry patch on skin. Fortunately seems to be going away. No more itching. Thanks.

Also, will get uterus checked again and respond regarding menstr'l.

Diary of symptoms continued...
This morning tried to work on project. Mind started to blank out several times as I was trying to learn how to do some list of things I need to provide to someone for a email marketing campaign. For e.g., had to send logo to someone, mind got blank and I tried to remember things a 2nd time. Had to read the list over again, got very slow in thinking. This is very unlike me.
Also, got tears suddenly when someone started talking loudly in my office room, I could not concentrate on my task at hand. Will try to focus. Not sure if this is related to the medicine...

Dr Tahira,

You had asked for the following symptoms: '...In next post write ur symptoms related uteris and menstral cycle'

It took a few days to get appointment with gynaecologist. Got uterus checked yesterday. Gynaec said that fibroid is little. Last time gynaec had saod small....was not able to say whether it has grown or shrunk. Also gynaec said that it is quite normal for 40+ women. Said everything else is normal. Please advise.

In the meantime, hair on scalp that falls is looking very very thin, almost transparent and no roots, just like a small black dot attached at base of falling hair. Itching in parts of scalp.

Thank you for your continued guidance, please advise.

Not much vaginal discharge. Is that called leucorrhea?

sorry for above typo. correction: 'Last time gynaec had said small fibroid.'

Thank you for the advice.

Apr 10/11 night - can hear a sharp pitch sound in my right ear especially while trying to sleep at night.

Saturday Apr 12: Per your advice, I took Thuja 200, 2 pills at 10:48 a.m.

Apr 13 - Felt better overall (could not say exactly what it is, just felt fresher than usual).
Apr 14: Had slight itch behind ear. Then stopped. Right eyebrow twitching on and off, the side closer to the nose. Twitching is not visible, but I can feel it. Especially notice it when I am trying to sleep. Twitching is slight.

Apr 15: I have waited for my periods, it is now 7 days late. Pregnancy test is negative.

Slight itching, in small spots at back of neck where it meets hairline, much reduced than past itching, but still there.

Apr 16: I am feeling very subdued with people. May be a good thing. Feel I am not aggressive /assertive with people. Feeling a sense of calmness. Am not getting upset or even irritated by things that used to irritate me previously. Feeling dominated by others, letting it go.
Still brooding at night for some time before I actually get sleep.

Apr 17: Still have powdery spots in scalp. Some itching in some spots. While combing, hair still falling, hard to tell whether it is less or more.

Have been feeling increasingly hungry the last few days since Apr 13

Twitch in right eyebrow has continued, same slight twicthing on and off, not visible, can feel it.

Whitish powder also increased in my ears, skin of ear lobe (inner side). Scooping out with nail, looks like flattened powder.

My left eye has improved. I feel it is now aliging better when I am driving and my eyesight/coordination of left eye with right is improved.

Learning capacity seems improved. While studying for exams, seem to grasp and remember better.

Itching has started again in scalp areas behind ear on both sides.

When I try to sleep at night, I feel a certain 'hyper-active mind', although continuous thoughts are less/ slower than before. Now able to control it, calm and quiet myself, so have become better at sleeping at night, but with 'self-management.'

You mentioned I should take Fraxinums Am. Q between the 2 Thuja doses: Should I take the Fraxinus Amer. Q on Apr 12, that would be a week after the Thuja 200 or before that?...pls. advise.

I forgot to mention that yesterday Apr 15, I noticed that the nails of 3 toes on my left foot were breaking off into pieces: 1 piece per nail.

Correction: 2 days ago April 15, I noticed nails breaking off.

Just above/behind my knees, feel slight pain, although I have been sitting while working all day