Dr. Tahira, Returning patient, Thank you _{Page 22 of 29}

swelling not gone down, noticed while sleeping that swelling is the same.

But overall - mind is feeling a bit lighter, body feeling a bit lighter - and I feel like exercising. Have become more physically active and did more housework, with some ease - or at least not much stress.

Just got upset about a sensitive point discussion in the family. Is it normal to get upset ? I did. But then thought about it and have resolved the issue at hand.

Had sight recurring pain like a headache in the left eyebrow - closer to the middle of forehead.

Cried as i got upset and cried after it as well, as I got very nervous as my very close family member got stressed and made me stressed about something she thought I did. Even as I told her not to image it --- I got so nervous and stressed. My childhood has had continuous such episodes trying to deal with these two very dear people in my family - who kept thinking I was doing things wrong...they would keep correcting me. It happens now as well. Today I cried in the morning after waking up happy as a lark ---> because I'm in my 40s and my life hasn't changed even now. I'm still that blumbering idiot no matter how much I try.

correction for spelling error 'Even as i told her not to imagine it...'

I am astounded at how life occurs to me. On some days it's great and then the very next minute it is overwhelming and i feel lost. Friends and socially feel great - on top of the world. But with my nearest and dearest - I am nervous as a 2 year old - all my past comes up - and I am afraid as hell, afraid afraid afraid.

like my emotional triggers are not in my control. Like this part of my brain is completely devastated. The person I love so much is my very own mother.

Her stress makes me very very very nervous. I am ready to grab a blanket and bury myself in it everytime she gets nervous. Have told her repeatedly not to worry about small things, and that things are good and that life is fine. She gets panicked about anything related to money - anything at all, even a gift. I get so nervous when I hear her, all my fears come back and i become that blumbering fool all over again and again and again. She tells my sister her imaginings and then responds to me with 'don't do this' or 'don't do that' ...although I had never planned to do any of it to begin with. I said ' please don't imagine..' or 'I dint say that...' or 'i don't plan to do that...' or that 'I know ...' I feel that the rest of the world now sees me as smart and successful, but my mother and sister have always felt I'm completely stupid and only doing things wrong. Even to admit that - I was nervous - even as type this I am scared to be 'found out'.

I have been accused over and over again of saying things I have never said, that is way back in the past. Now when she wants me to do anything it is 'Highly Urgent' - I am so afraid what the net conversation would be like. I love her so much. Why is this happening?

I have been accused over and over again of saying things I have never said, that is way back in the past. Now when she wants me to do anything it is 'Highly Urgent' - I am so afraid what the next conversation would be like. I love her so much. Why is this happening?

I'm so afraid to be joyful and even temporarily happy. The moment i get that way something happens that brings me completely down. So down that i don't feel like living anymore. What is the point?

Sorry - in hindsight I feel as though I over-reacted. After some thought, have made a decision of 'good-will' to help her more than she expected. That is all I can do in life. Is give more than I get and give more love and good will than is expected by others. Feels so much better this way.

Have important meetings coming up in about 7 days, so am able to take it after about 7 days.

Thank you. Have not taken Staphysagria yet.

In the mean time - today a man who speaks a different language than me - and working a project for me, got angry and started accusing me of trying to pay less for a project - he had completely misunderstood what was saying. But I got scared, and got suddenly very quiet and slowly moved away. I realized he had misunderstood, but I realized he might get more angry if I get defensive.

Soon after that I noticed 2 spots on scalp itching very badly. Not sure if that would have happened anyway, or whether it was because of my body reaction /my fear generated from this incident. Also realized that this has happened previously and in childhood. Will get Staphysagria 200c.

no period yet since last reported (in December i believe)

also - just where neck meets scalp at back of head, in the area where hair is on scalp: have a few small boil-like bumps - hard / not soft, these are itchy.

slight ear ache in right ear. Had taken Belladonna 200 2 pills many days ago. Should I take it again?

What is the dosage for Stapysagria?

Had very slight pain and took BD 2 pills. Not noticed pain again. Will wait few days

Have not taken Staphy yet. Thank you

Have got Lyc 1M and Staphysag 200C. Not consumed any yet.

Currently have flat itchy balded bumps at base of scalp above the back of neck.

Will take Staphy dose - tomorrow as you had asked me to wait for a few days after Belladonna. Thank you

am sitting on chair typing / working. slight pain again deep in the right ear.

have not taken staphy sag yet