dr. nawaz please help a mother......

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1. ID - A mother
2. Age -36
3. Sex -F
4. Single/Married - Married
5. weight - 95 lbs
6. Height …. 5' 1'
7. country - Currently in TX, USA
8. climate - hot/humid

9. List of your complaints

a Depression
b Pathetic feeling
c lack of confidence/no will power
d headache
e tightness in head
f. Nervousness while speaking to people
g Argumentative
h Fear of the death of loved ones
i. Fear of insanity
j. Back pain
k. Hair loss
l Greying of hair
m Too much worry
n Burning of head, inside
o lazy,
p. not enthusiastic.
q. no energy
r. fear of supernatural things or ghosts (I do not believe in them yet I am fearful if somebody talks about those things and also I cannot watch horror movies)

10. Since how long are you suffering from each complaint

a Depression/sadness- for the last 16-17 years.
bPathetic feeling- for the last 16-17 years
c lack of confidence- For the last 7 years
d Continuous headache- For the last 16-17 years.
e tightness in head- for the last 16-17 years.
f Nervousness while approaching towards any new event e.g. Joining work or joining school or if I have to speak infront of mass. I fear that people may find out my mental disease.
g. Argumentative- for the last 10-12 years.
h. Fear of death of loved ones - This started 3 years back
i. Fear of insanity- for the past 4 years.
j Back Pain- for the last 4 years
k. Hair loss- for the last 14-15 years
l Greying of hair - for the last 14-15 years and its now increasing rapidly recently.
m. Worry- for the last 17-18 years
n. Burning of head- for the last 16-17 years
o. I cannot hear about mentally ill persons behaviors or I cannot see or hear anything about mental disorders. or Somebody committing suicide etc. Those news make me so upset and fearful. Fearful about being psycho or insane because of mental disease.

11. Diabetic or non-Diabetic- don't know , never checked. most probably not
12. Desire sweets/sour/salt - I like salty things better. I like Indian food little spicy. But Sometimes I desire for sweet things too.
13. Thirst - very less
14. Tongue and Taste - little coated yellow, taste is okay
15. Current BP (without medicine and with medicine). Used to be low about a year back. I don't know at the moment

16. What exactly is happening?
I am sad all the time. I am having lack of confidence. I think I can do nothing in my life. Time is running out. I will be old in few years and I have not done any significant things in life yet because of my mental problems. Think about only negative things in my life. Never happy, never laugh, never satisfied. Cannot accept any challenges. makes excuses if someone asks me to go out and work. I do not have faith on myself. Always look for the negative sides of the things. Do not like husband's behavior. Feel pathetic because of not been able to get good life even after marriage. I have been more depressed after I got married as my husband is a carefree, childish and irresponsible person and also financially not stable. I fear of future. I have lack of confidence so I think I am not able to do anything in my life on my own. I cannot stand for myself even if somebody is dominating me or insulting me. Easily offended. Worried about my child's future. Not able to pay proper attention to her. Feel depressed because of lack of money.
Husband does not earn enough and I cannot go out and work because of lack of confidence and also I do not trust my husband for my little girl that he would take care of her properly if I leave her with him.
These days I am not talking to my husband at all. I am really angry and sad being with him.

My marriage is a disaster. I blame others for my ill fate. (specially about marriage issues. It was an arranged marriage and nobody verified about my husband's financial status and his nature, prior to marriage and now everybody is telling me to leave him). But I don't want to leave him because I do not want to see my scattered family once again.Because I already saw my scattered family in my parental home. I had always dreamed about my would be ' Happy Family' but unfortunately my family after my marriage could not be more Happy Family than I had before. We are not financially stable. We are not able to do anything besides having two meals a day. Not even buy proper clothes. I ask my brother for my clothes and he buys them for me. I have had enough of bad things in my life, now I cannot tolerate anymore bad things. Any negative things in my life is bad thing for me.

Death is another scary thing for me. I cannot hear any loved ones' death news. I cannot afford to lose any loved ones in my life. I always worry about my parents back home. They are in their 60s and 70s and I am always worried about them that something may happen to them and I will lose them. I cannot hear like, they are ill or suffering from any health issues. Even if they are suffering from small health issues I get anxious and worried and start thinking 'what if they die' because of that health problem.

17. How do you feel?
I feel very depressed, very sad, pathetic, helpless, alone, controlled, dependent, Angrier, My heart always cries when I see couples enjoying their lives when couples do something for each other etc

18. How does this affect you?
Its affecting my day to day life. I am becoming weak mentally. I am becoming dependent day by day. I cannot stand for myself for anything. I am tolerating everything unwillingly. I think I am not smart enough for anything now. I cannot give logic in any matter now. I am forgetful and vhave ery low memory. I don't want to go meet people. I speak a little. I feel nervous when I get to talk to people.

19. How does it feel like?
Very very bad. I feel no one in this earth is as sad as me. May god don't give any mental disease to anybody. Its painful and beyond tolerance and incurable. I feel like why' Me '? I was a very good person, I was beautiful, I was qualified, I was smart, I never touched any liquor I never kept any boyfriends, I was an obedient person, then why fate chose me this kind of life for me. Now I do not feel I have any of the good qualities left because of the mental problems.

20. What comes to your mind?
If this disease persists, I will be insane one day and eventually I will die. I don't wanna die young. I wanna live a happy and healthy life. I still have some hope towards homeopathy. But sometimes I feel nothing will cure me now.

21. One situation that had a
big effect on you?
3 years back in 2009 I was being sent back home forcefully by my husband and he kept me and my child there against my will for 6 months. I could not do anything against his action as he was holding and was not sending the documents for my Visa application to apply to reenter the USA again. Then I felt so much depressed, cheated, trapped and suffocated. My second phase of depression started from then. I felt somebody threw me inside the hell. Moreover, the environment back home was very depressing at that time and I had to live inside that environment for 6 months unwillingly. It seemed like my husband's never gonna call me back in the USA again. He knew living in the USA had always been my dream and my weakness. So he kind of tortured me by not sending me the documentation for visa application. During my stay, back home in NEpal, I witnessed horrible death of one of my cousins and also heard about the death of his best friend too by an incurable disease AIDS. My mind captured those sad and depressing moments very badly and I became so much fearful. I still don't want to see photos or hear about those deceased ones. Whenever I do so I recall all those incidents and become fearful and upset again which is very bothersome. I had become very restless because of bad incidents happened back home. It was 3 years back. But because of some homeopathic treatment it is not as painful or suffocating as before but still to some extent I get anxious when I recall those moments. My current health issues are because of these major incidents happened recently.

I am not able to accept the reality of death. I always fear what will I do when my parents die. I cannot imagine the gap or silence after any close or loved ones death. I feel that I will be all alone after my loved ones die. So whenever somebody calls me I fear that the person might say something bad or the person might have called me to tell me any bad news related to me. This bad news is specially related to death or poor health which may lead to death. This much fear for death was not there about 4-5 years back. But these things bothers me a lot.

22. How did that feel like?

It feels like am going towards insanity. My mind is not working properly and my mind is wounded very badly.
I have a feeling that I have broken down that far that I will not be able to stand up again on my own. I am going down and down deep into depression. Please help me come out of it.

23. What sensation do you experience in that situation?
I feel congestion in head. Dull headache all the time. My mind is numb. full of clouds and cannot enter any positive feelings inside. It seems like my mind / brain is full of poisonous liquid.

24. What are you showing by that gesture of your hand (Habits or Actions)?
something is grabbing my head very hard and not leaving it. Its very suffocating and painful. I want it go right away and I feel relieved.

25. Current and previous remedies/medicines you are taking or took in the past?
I have taken Natrum Mur 1 M a week ago and it helped me like 30-40%. But the fear of insanity is bothering me more than any other things now. Congestion and tightness of head also increased.

I have taken various remedies in the past. Allopathic like prozac for 5-6 years around the age of 22. and stopped after few years and started controlling my mind by doing some breathing exercises and yoga. I was also working at that time. I was okay till I landed in the USA and started living with my husband. But gradually I came to know about his nature and behaviors so started feeling that I will never be happy with this person.
Again 3years back(after I came back here in the USA for 2nd time, in 2010) I had to take prozac for my anxiety, fear and depression. I took it again for 6-7 months and then give up. Then I started taking homeopathic remedies prescribed by a homeopath here in the USA. I don't know the name of those remedies as he never mentioned the names of them. I took various of them for 6 months but I quit going to the homeopath because of my financial problems. Then I start taking some by my own with the help of some websites. Here in this forum I was prescribed two of the remedies by DAVID and after he disappeared I followed the advice of TABISH then again after prescribing two remedies he disappeared.

here are the name of the remedies I know, I tried so far besides the various remedies given by a homeopath here.

1. Natrum Mur 1m( recently a week ago)
- after Natrum Mur the report is as such:
- Sometimes I feel very well, sometimes bad.
- Tensions and worries as soon as I wake up in the morning - decreased by 40-50%
- Mental clarity/confusion - improved by 30-40%
- Head congestion - increased
- Dull headache - increased
- Fear of insanity increased.( this is bothering me a lot this time. I cannot see or hear anything about mental disease e.g. movies where there are pshycos or depressed persons doing so many weird things etc )
- Anxiety after hearing bad news related to death improved by 20-30%
- Anger - improved by 20-30%
- hatred towards husband - improved by 20%
- stuck feeling- improved by 20%

2. Aconite 200C felt 50-60 % improved while taken but fear of death of loved ones become so much intense and after that David didn't advise me anything
3.Lithium Carb 200C and 1M
4. Ignatia Amara 200C
5 Lycopodium 30c(self prescribed)
6. Pulsatilla 6c(self prescribed)
7. Calc Phos 30c
8. Natrum Arsenicum 1m
9. combination remedy(self prescribed)


26. Family Background
I have a brother, mother and dad in my parental family. It was not a good family background. Financially very unstable. There had been always quarrel and arguments between the parents. They were never satisfied with each other. Suffocated environment. Father has mental disease. Mom housewife but not satisfied with the lifestyle. Mom was not at all supportive and friendly towards me till I get the mental disease. She was kind of biased towards me. I have been grown up in a depressed environment, there was no love and respect left for each other. So I had always searched for love, affection respect and care outside. In the meantime I started liking a boy because he was a hardworking boy and furthermore he had a very sweet family. So I started dreaming about being in their home as a daughter in law. But unfortunately before I express my feelings towards him he left the country for further study and I lost my so called love and my dream scattered. My major depression started since then.( I do not have anymore feelings towards that guy now )but because of depression I lost interest on my studies and became a failure all the time. I lost interest in almost everything in life. So I have been depressed for time to time for various reasons. I lost control over my mind and become a sad person all the time. I had always dreamed about a happy and successful future life but because of my ill fate I got a husband who is very careless, self centered and irresponsible(everybody here says so here). It was an arranged marriage. So now I do not have anymore hope of having a happy and loving family environment. I am so much worried about my child ' What can she learn from a depressed mother and a careless DAd ? '

27. Educational Qualifications of the patient
I have done my Masters in Sociology.
I was a smart person and never was a failure before I get depression like 16-17 years ago.

28. Nature of work, what do you do for living?
I have been a housewife for the past 4 years. Before that I was a working woman for 8-9 years. While I was working I was not very much depressed and I was not taking any medicines then too. But I still had extreme anger and complain towards life as I was still in the suffocated environment of my parents' home.

29. Desires, likes and dislikes for food.
I have very less hunger. I like dry foods than liquid. I like Indian food, little spicy.

30. Name of foods which increase your problem
Have not noticed yet

31. Mind-behavior, anger, irritability, hurry, impatient…and so on.. How are you different from other persons, public speaking or not , you can describe all of the details about your behavior, love and affections.
- too much anger, specially towards husband. I shout a lot when I have a talk with him. I am not satisfied with him. But I don't want to leave him either.
- Too much irritation over small things. Sometimes I shout on my child too which I regret later.
- I cannot stand failure. So I hesitate to do new things.
- I panic a lot if I have to do things hurriedly so I do things before time.
- I panic while I hear bad news related to me.
- I am a punctual person or lets say I reach the destination before time. I panic if i am late
- Sometimes if anxiety attacks I become so much restless and look for the remedy hurriedly or else I feel something bad will happen to me if I do not take medicine or remedy on time.
- I love my daughter a lot. I am possessive about her.
- Sometimes words don't come on my mind at once and I speak different sentence than what I want to speak.
- I cannot stand criticism.
- I get nervous in public speaking
- I love my parents a lot though they act weird sometimes and complain about each other all the time. I cannot see them suffer.
- I love dogs
- I extremely hate/fear cockroaches
- I cannot see people helpless or suffering.
- I help people but with the hope that they will help me in return when I am in need.
- I am little selfish too.
-Impatient too.(but specially when I am anxious)
- I feel pity for myself when I see any happy couple or couple who respect and love each other or who does something good for each other. My husband does nothing special for me or for my daughter. he is a self centered person.

32. Aggravation (increases-time, season,)& Amelioration (Decreases)
Bad news( specially related to mental disease or death or death from suffering long from incurable disease ) aggravates my symptoms, I panic a lot if I have to do things hurriedly. If I feel controlled, or somebody forces me to do anything against my will then it aggravates. I have noticed these days, I am more depressed in the morning time till noon. Its little better towards evening. Aggravates in cloudy and gloomy days. when my husband tries to control me over something, when I am inside home, when I see my husband is wasting time

Amelioration
I feel good if I am with some other persons or somebody is with me. I feel better if I travel. Sometimes I fear to stay alone for long time because of the fear of health deterioration. I also feel if my health deteriorates nobody will be there to take care of my child.

33. Attached here your photographs of the affected area. (if required/optional)

34. Location of the disease
Head and mind/brain.

35. Side of the problem (Right or Left), (Upper or Lower part of body)
all over head mostly on the occipital and vertex of the head..

36. Color of the secretions/discharges e.g urine, stool, sputum, Saliva etc.
urine- light yellow, sometimes dark yellow.
stool- soft, little in amount a time and thus have to go 2-3 times in the morning.
saliva- white

For Females Only
37. When is the period during the month approx date? Any monthly cycle issues? Regular, early, late, before problems, after problems, pain, any other discharges?
Date: 9- 11th of each month. Back pain, irritation during the period and cramp on the first day. Scanty period.

38. Are you pregnant? If yes, please give pregnancy start date? Any current issues?
Not pregnant

P.S. I easily get aggravated with remedies of any potency. Its very hard for me to tolerate those aggravation.