Help! desparate sufferer of PCOS _{Page 12 of 28}

Hi Sameer,

I hope you are well...

Just reporting back-

my neck is even itchier than before.
I had pain in my left ear and pus came out a bit.
My mood is mor subdued now.
I have suddenly put in weight and I don't understand why- especially on the stomach and waist area. My skin is rough and dry. Reading is very difficult. The general feeling of a little depression is there- I have no will to live and have no fear if dying. The headaches in the morning are improved quite a bit. My hair is still falling and weak. I feel disheartened with the world!

Please instruct.

Thanks!

Summer

Ok...

I feel stuck without the person I want which makes me feel empty and without any passion for living. I feel that death would be an end of these thoughts so I feel indifferent to life.

I feel sad with the way I am- my disatisfaction with life- I'm basically annoyed with myself for being disatisfied with life.Frustrations turn into just being disheartened with life like with the weight problems.

I hope that's useful?!

Thanks!

hmmm ok...

I'll just tell you everything that goes on in my mind then.

Over the years:
I feel I am destined to be with that person and that it will happen somehow God willing. The trigger for these hopes and desires were betrayal which totally pushed me to the dreams of being with someone else (I'm loyal and if someone betrays me I can never feel the same towards them- I find it disgusting and unforgettable). I can't open my heart to people like this although I may have affection for them and I feel incomplete without a true love- and that's got to be pure. But I've felt that I have to be patient and good and that good will come to me eventually. For five years I have been thinking that it will happen (because of dreams and indications and prayers)- although I have moments of despair that it wont.

Right now: since taking the lachesis my emotions and desires seem subdued. I feel empty without my destiny fulfilled and feel like I'm 'on hold' because I'm waiting for it to be content. I feel like I'm waiting for everything to be in place for the transition into a new better life. Also at the moment my desires are even kind of mild because I feel emotionally numb in comparison to before when my mind would race with dreams and regret and love and torture. Now I just feel fed up now passion for life kind of hopeless and dry- all my wells of patience for my destiny seems to be empty as my hopes and dreams.

I probably sound like a nutter- it's quite embarassing! This is all in my head!!! On the surface I'm quite popular, likable and vivacious (although I sometimes annoy myself in this respect too for being too extrovert)! I'm not happy with myself- I should always be better than I am!

I don't know what that tells you?!

Please help me!

Thanks!

Ok I will get it...

Thanks as always!

Hi Sameer,

I hope you are well.

Just reporting back-

I think in total i've shed half my hair!- luckily it was thick to begin with.

I don't know if my hair has really been affected, perhaps my hair is not falling as drastically as before...

My skin is dry and my old persistant problems of dark rough skin is still there. Strangly the nipples are constantly hardened. My mood is low and bored. I feel in limbo. I can't be bothered to do anything... I loath myself, I loath my weight problems.

I took a blood test to check glucose, thyroid, lipid and renal checks all were normal-which is good- but kind of frustrating as I can't put my finger on what is wrong with my weight issues!

I'm generally fed up, impatient and can flare into anger easily- I wish I could feel normal.

Please instruct,

Thanks!

Hi again,

I took it on the 11th. I haven't really noticed much change- perhaps I don't feel as much self loathing as before.

I forgot to mention before I took the dose I had a frozen shoulder from weightlifting which got better after the medicine.

There aren't as many cysts now; more like boils here and there and a few spots. Insomnia can sometimes be a problem. When I wake up I have really hard crusts that form in the corners and sometimes the edges of my eyes which I didn't used to have. I still feel inactive and a tendancy to be cold is there. Other than these things I can't really notice much else.


??????!

Thanks!

ok.

Thanks again!

hi Sameer,

just reporting back -

I have noticed the rate of my hair falling has slowed a little more.
I have had a strange stomach pain for the last few days and a weird metallic-like ringing in my teeth- that is quite irritating.

I sometimes have headache on the top of my head and sometimes on my forehead too.

My skin is dry as usual with some spots. I had only one cyst on my face during my period this time. The dark skin patches are still there.

I get angry quickly and am impatient and I still get frustrated. Emotional issues feel diluted at the moment but they still linger.

Please instruct,

Thanks!

Hi Niel,

I hope you are well!
PCOS with regards to ovarian pain is improved (I hardly ever have the stabbing pain!). I haven't had another scan- I probably should...
But the good news is that my blood sugar seems to have normalized! I still have weight issues but I have hope and you great guys on the forum helping me; so fingers crossed!

Thanks for caring!

Warm Regards, (Lol I feel really cold nowadays!)

Summer

Thanks Niel,

Happy New Year to you and to everyone else on the forum, hoping everone has a content 12 months!

All the Best!

Summer

Happy New Year Sameer!

Well... mentally I feel the similar as to before the Aurum but just more subdued. I don't feel depressed generally but have moments of lamenting the past; and generally I'm calmer than before.

Thanks!

Yes that's what I meant- the symptoms are lessened by about 10% for headaches, 15% for hair and 30% for headaches.

Thanks!

Oops I meant 30% depression!

Ok I will order it...

Thanks again!

Hi Samer,

I hope you are well.
I'm just reporting back:
the hair loss is reduced.
My mood is even and normal- yipee!
The skin around my nails is fissured and peeling.
I've had less boils but I had a boil/cyst on my left eye- lower lid for a couple of days and then a couple more. I had a strange swelling on my right eyeball that looked like a bubble the size of a pea; I put honey in my eye quickly and the swelling within a few minutes dissapeared.
My shoulders are stiff often.
I had a flu a week ago which was really bad- weaknes etc. Ater that I've had a really bad ear infection in my left ear with pus! And now I have a minor infection in my right ear simultaniously.
The dark skin patches are still there. My skin is so itchy around my neck and at the hair line at the back of my neck I have weeping eczema that quickly turns into scabs when I scratch it.
I've also noticed that when I get spots on my face or scalf when I scratch/touch them they develop into scabs rapidly. I still ten to get headaches at times.

Please advise

Thankyou!