Stronger Potency or Better Remedy? _{Page 23 of 44}

Interesting, just realized it was 2:00 and haven't eaten yet today (other than breakfast this morning), started feeling hungry, but wasn't feeling as bad as usual from not having eaten yet.

That's something else too I've noticed since all the remedies, improvement in the area of not being as hungry after 5:00, or not needing as much food in evening.

Have Phosphoric Acid 30c in stock, so I'll pick it up after work. Should I take it tonight or wait till tomorrow morning?

Interesting experience today, where I ran into someone who understands layer process of healing. To make a long story short they seemed to think that when cases are blocked like that, there is some deep emotional issue that the body is holding onto at the cellular level, and that it needs to be cleared before progress can be made.

Thinking back to you describing my situation almost like some pact that I made to MAINTAIN CURRENT STATE AT ALL COSTS.

So I'm going back trying to think about what emotion would relate to this, or why I might have made this decision.

John, what if it's NEGLECT. Issues with my mom, feeling like not loved, and illness is a subconscious way to attract attention, concern. It doesn't work because my mom thinks that's exactly why I have the problems I have because I'm making it up for attention. Of course I'm not doing that consciously, but what if she's more right than I care to realize and doing it on an unconscious level? She's usually right about everything concerning me, but problem is that I know by me being this way I'm still not getting the attention I truly want, the love I really want.

Still feel there could be something with feeling that I'm all alone in the world, unloved etc.

Forsaken, deserted, friendless, wants sympathy: Aur., Carb-an., Coff., Dros., Hell., Ip., Kali-br., Laur., Mag-m., Meny., Nat-c., Plat., Psor., PULS., Rhus-t., Sabin., Sars., Sec., Sep., Spig., Stram.

Something else I noticed, when feeling like I'm going to come out of my body sensation is present, there is a physical restlessness, always moving (even when sitting), needing to constantly change position, shift legs, move feet, change position on chair, tense up muscles, relax. I'm definitely not a person who can't sit still, but when have that sensation is definitely the case. This happens when anxious, nervous too.

This is all similar experience to symptoms going back 15-20 years ago, just manifesting in different way now.

Also, past couple days have been having lots of pain in the back left side. If you were at your left armpit and go down a little to the rib cage area on left side and traced a straight line around the body to the back it would be that height. Hard to describe where it is exactly, it's like a particular spot that has piercing pain and then it radiates, aching. I have a feeling it's from the adjustment the chiropracter did. Only on left side, really really bad though. Straightening up makes it better, stretching muscles makes it better. Like that stretching exercise they do where you put your hands up on your head and lean one way, then the other way. Well, leaning to the right far, strethches, pulls on those muscles and makes it better. Probably same effect when I sit erect in chair, excessively so. I do have a tendency to slouch, have bad posture. Also, moving/pushing my left shoulder toward my back makes it feel better as well. And I've had this type of pain before too, not sure when the last time, but I know for sure prior to May 8th this was an issue for me at times.

Sometimes the pain comes all the way through to the front of the body and feel it radiating area where pancreas would be or that indentation, hollow spot on left side, down the rib cage, hiatal hernia area.

Something else interesting today, I didn't sneeze ALL DAY and then my boss comes in for a short while and I start sneezing. I think it's her perfume that I might be sensitive to. Though that doesn't account for the other times, cause I think they were definitely related to the sunlight.

Yeah, you're right, it's higher than the pancreas, so closer to the spleen. Not sure if it's exactly there, but in that general area.

And yes, the pain is as if it's radiating right through to the front, as if there were a whole blown through that part. Well, not really a hole, I just mean that it feels like there's nothing in there, only the pain when it comes through to the front like that. Like I feel the pain taking over everything as it radiates to the front so that nothing inside exists, emptiness, only the pain. Almost like there were a tunnel going through from the back to the front and the pain traveled through that tunnel, but it stayed at the original spot too, so almost like the pain was a slinky also stretched out from the back area to the front.

Well, I hope it's okay, went and got the remedy after work and took a dose around 9:30. Immediately after, noticed awarenss of the feet like the other night when I took that remedy that I made. This wasn't quite to the degree as that remedy, but it had a similar effect in that I noticed feet first, then lower legs, then I noticed fullness in head, and then even though the arms and rest of body had gotten heaviness back somewhere in between I noticed head first and that afterwards. Also I noticed immediately pain (gnawing type) about 1/2 inch below the belly button and to my right side. Lasted maybe a couple minutes.

Then over the next couple minutes, there was sensation of heaviness in head, then lightness, then heaviness, then lightness, then heaviness, but not quite as heavy as when first took the remedy.

Also again some headaches, first one I noticed was a pain in the back of the head, right side, not quite on the top of the head, but not too far down the back of the head either. Then it moved up to the left front of head, then back to the back, then back to the front again.

Feet seem more firmly planted on the floor. Still feel heavier, not quite as heavy as at first when took it. I would say the remedy I took the other night was a 9 out of 10 for correcting the heaviness. This was maybe a 7. And the 7 lasted maybe 15-20 minutes, then went to like a 5.

Not sure how long after remedy, but also noticed an EXTREME overwhelming tiredness. Thought I was going to have to go to sleep right that instant, didn't think I was going to be able to stay awake, much less keep eyes open. Had the fear that I would go into such a deep sleep and I wouldn't wake up, so I stayed awake. And the tireness passed soon.

That's about it so far. I'm very thirsty for cold water since taking the remedy.

Also, stools have seemed lighter since the Sulphur, thought it was just dietary that I was eating light colored foods but this is definitely persisting. Have had light colored stools before, but can't say that I have ever had it for this length of time.

Tonight was at my grandmas for supper again. And was feeling very light even before I went down there, so really stuffed myself, again to improve the sensation of feeling like I'm going to come out of my body. Sometimes though it takes a lot, like I have to stuff myself so full that I get literally sick on the stomach, but let me tell you, it makes a huge difference in my feeling like I'm going to come out of my body or that I'm not grounded.

Oh and about the previous post where I mentioned in response to Phos. Acid that I felt like I wouldn't wake up from such a deep sleep. That is something too that I used to worry about all the time, long before May 8th. Fear that I wouldn't wake up in the morning if I went to sleep.

Also with the Phos-Ac dose, with the awareness of heaviness/fullness in feet, noticed the sensation of my energy moving to the lower part of my body. This time though it wasn't like it took energy away from my head though.

Yeah, it's more of a MENTALLY I feel like I need to fill up so I feel better. Get's back to that, MORE WEIGHT, more LAYERS of protection. Just like I feel safer with heavier clothes on.

But the other day I really did feel better while eating as opposed to just filling up so I would feel better.

But my conscious thinking is always 'eat to fill up to allievate symptoms.'

Also pain in back is better when standing, worse when sitting or slouching/hunched over.

Pain was pretty continous yesterday, seems really good today though, don't notice it at all.

Was up late last night studying remedies and doing some research, will post what I found in a bit, but first, what I noticed from remedy.


I forgot to mention to you that it seemed like after the Sulphur I was better able to sleep at night without so many lights on.

Well, last night, after the Phos-Ac, I had to have lights on again to sleep, just didn't feel comfortable, had sensation that I was going to come out of my body and just couldn't sleep. So got up, turned the light on in the room and then was able to get to sleep. Took me almost 2 hours before I finally got to sleep though.

Had a dream, not sure where I was, but again a girl was in the picture, a girl I really liked and seemed like she really liked me too but yet at the same time she was willing to just walk away and not pursue anything. Like she had feelings for me and at the same time she was somewhat aloof. I remember feeling a sense of urgency or like I had to do something drastic to win her over or even be frank and walk up to her and say something like, 'I love you and I'm not letting you walk out on me.'

Then there was another scene where this guy was trying to harm people with homeopathic remedies or something, though I don't know if I was aware of what he was using at first, only later, but somehow I knew he was up to something, he was scheming something and I caught on to it and tried to stop it. Well, then next thing I know I remember he poisioned a dog (I thought he was trying to hurt people, but clearly remember him feeding something poisionous to a dog. Didn't see him do it, just know that he did it). And then the dog was somewhere where there were medical people and they were putting out a major alert, like a CODE RED when there's an emergency and for some reason they had to operate and it was protocol because this dog had a condition that no matter what else is going on, no matter what else they have to do or other emergencies they have, protocol told them that they MUST TREAT this condition above all others. I can't remember what it was, but it was some kind of serious condition, like viral or blood related, inflammation, something life threatening. But then everybody was upset because it wasn't a human and they weren't vets, they were doctors, but they still maintained that they needed to treat this condition in the dog above human patients with less serious conditions.

Woke up feeling like I had some of the emotional pain in my chest from the dream about the girl, carried through into most of the morning.


Also with the Ph-Ac, I noticed while I had some increased heaviness of the body (good heaviness), there was also that feeling of being pulled or that sensation I described previously of being in a car moving forward even though I was sitting/standing still. And it wasn't always moving forward sensation, sometimes it was feeling of being pulled to the left, or to the right. And I noticed that with the Medorrhinum I think, that with the increased heaviness, there was that sensation of movement, even when still.

As the lightness came back more, that sensation went away.

John, I was thinking more about the THEME that we're working with, SENSITIVE and MAY 8.


So what I did was I tried to look up everything I could having to do with being sensitive and for May 8th I just used fear/ailments from Fright, but again that could also include the sensitivity.


Here's all the issues I covered:

Sensitive/Hypersensitive - Externally & Internally

Electrical Influence (I looked at electricity and things like thunderstorms where there is an energy in the air), sensitivity to lights etc.

I looked at weary/weary of life, because I felt like that is something I had for a long time prior to may 8th and it's a DRAINING feeling, anything that drains is going to weaken me and leave me more sensitive in my thinking.

Startled/Frightned Easily.

Ticklish - I'm very ticklish and again I look at this as being sensitive.

Also looked at the SKIN section and again looked at sensitivity there because again I've always had sensitive skin.

Ailments from Emotions

Impressionable, Impulsive, Irritable (Again, I'm feel that all these have a certain sense of sensitivity, and outside energies influence and bring these states out in me)

Then I looked at things like Toxicity of heavy metals, vaccinations, radiation, vapors, chemicals, etc.

Sensitivity to remedies, homeopathic remedies, quick reaction to remedies.

Finally I looked at Nerve and Brain remedies and in particular Weak Nerves, and Weak Brain.


Phosphorus came up 27 times
Nux Vomica - 24
Arsenicum Album - 22
Aconite and Silicia tied - 17
Calc, Carc, Lach - 16
Ignatia, Lyc, Med - 14

I'm almost thinking that Carcinosin might be really good.

But also Nux Vomica, I know you were considering that before. Especially with the sensitivity to lights. I used to always feel after May 8th that being under lights made me worse. Whenever I would go to a store with the lights overhead it would always weaken me to the point where I thought for sure I was going to die and that I wouldn't make it out of the store alive.

Nux V seems to have a lot of the hypersensitive to things. Weak nerves, irritable.

Yet Phos still seems a really good fit as it seems like it's excellent for any kind of electrical influences which might be the case here and really it just covers everything so well, I'm not quite sure why it didn't have a better effect on me.


It's also weird that with remedies I'm noticing immediate amelioriation at first and then aggravation. Shouldn't we be seeing the opposite?? SHouldn't it be aggravation first and then amelioration?

Reading Nux Vomica from Hahnemann's MM Pura and wow does a lot of this sound like me:

He feels everything too strongly.

Over-sensitiveness to impressions of the senses; he cannot bear strong odours and bright light.

He cannot bear any noise or speaking ; music and singing affect him strongly.

Over tender, soft disposition; music affects him to tears.

Hypochondriacal sadness.

Dejected peevishness.

1280. Quietness, as if everything were disagreeable to him.

Quietude, arid wrapped up in himself, slow flow of ideas.

She seeks rest and quiet.

Ennui; time seems to him intolerably long (in the first h.).

No inclination for any work.

1285. Lazy about all undertakings and business; she is immediately fatigued.

He has a complete horror of work, and yet does not dislike movement (aft. 2 h.).

He dawdles and is irresolute.

Irresolution, constant hesitation in his intentions. constant hesitation in his intentions.

She wishes to do much, but thinks she will not succeed.

1290. He thinks that everything will go wrong.

Everything goes wrong with him( everything goes contrary ) (aft. 6 h.).

He has no patience for work. [Fg.]

He acts awkwardly and stupidly; he knocks himself or upsets things (aft. 10 h.).

Something, he knows not what, hinders him, especially in scientific occupations.

Regarding the lights not needing to be on, that was something I should have told you, didn't even think about it. You're right, it's amazing how subtle the changes are that sometimes we don't even pay attention and I'm pretty acutely aware of things more so than other people and that still escaped my attention as something to tell you yet it was a critical piece of information. I think maybe the same day as first dose, possibly second, I found myself NOT WANTING the lights on and in fact it felt like an irritation to me to have them on so I turned them off.

Something else today, got hot again outside here and my apartment was really hot and I feel that made my symptoms worse, I was really feeling bad this afternoon, light, feeling like I was going to come out of my body, starting to freak out.

My feeling is that it's an aggravation from the Ph-Ac, plus the heat. I can also tell you that I tried a little experiment and dug out the Phos 12c and Med 30c that were bought since May 8th and took them into the house, keeping them separate from the others. And don't know if it was just mental or just one more straw on top of the Ph-Ac aggravation and the heat, but felt like it aggravated my condition some (feeling light, feeling as if going to come out of body). So I took them back down to the car and I settled down a slight bit.

I had another appointment with chiropractor today. SOmething else before I go into that though, this morning when I woke up, also noticed somewhat of a scratchy/sore throat, got a little better with liquid, as if it was also dry some and that was making it worse. But not completely gone.

Also this morning have lots of pain, in the right shoulder, that hollow area. Now, several days after May 8th, had severe pain in left shoulder exactly like what I have in the right today. It's a stabbing type pain. And it's a cross between aching and throbbing, not really either, somewhat maybe like a sore/inflammation, maybe of muscle, but not sure.

At the chiropractors he seemed to think the pain I described the other day was Hiatal Hernia, he found that I had that today. And corrected that. He also found some muscle issues that he said could have been the cause. Wasn't sure which one it was.

I was feeling really bad, light, like I was going to come out of my body. Was laying in front of the fan just before my appointment and had that jerking sensation, where I felt like I was going to come out of my body and got scared, tensed up and JUMPED up, scared, frightened as if I was going to come out of my body and die.

So, on my way to my appointment I was feeling really bad like I was going to die, again feel it was totally a Ph-Ac aggravation combined with heat. When I got in my car I turned on the air as cold as it would get and it seemed to make a difference, seemed to help to feel better, not quite so light or not quite so bad as if I would come out of my body.

John, it seems like the very same things that exacerbate my current symptoms are the exact same things that worsened my chronic pain. The same things that drained me then and made it worse are the same things that drain me now and make me worse. Just differnt symptoms now as compared to chronic pain.