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I am dissapointed. I thought you would help me. My issues are heavy and now you decide to leave me and you have no idea how this makes me feel and my future looks black now. What will I do now?

I guess I need someone like Jesus Christ to heal me who can always forgive and look past the ego
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 30 Sep 2011 01:02:17 BST]

I was in a very managable state after taking Platina. I could not help it if I thought something isnt right I could not do it. Impossible. I would feel horrible if I would have to. Pysichally and mentally. It seems you are forgetting it is a disease. THis sounds a bit cheap but it is true.



It is very likely I am it. because today there is no BDD, there is the lightness when I get out of bed again and I have a feeling in my head again around the vertex, no numbness but there is this quick pain from motion as I reported on Platina.

Why does it all have to be so hard? Now that I am pretty certain I found the remedy I wont get any dosing advice. How great. I see it has become personal. Please dont do this. I offered a nice solution that I go back to Platina but it seems like you still think I dont want to get healed.

how great now I dont know what dose to take next time whether a bigger one or smaller one

I hope you didnt throw in the towel from realizing I might be Platina and thinking now I am to unmanagable, nohing can be done about it, to powerful, to hardheaded etc

I am not like other Platina patients. Am self observant and introspective. I might have said I always know what is right out of self protection and believe you took this a bit to seriously. Of course I need advice, guidaince and do not know everything. I dont know what else I could do except to apologise for it and hope you will forgive and consider helping me again as I really depend on your help and dont know anything about homeopathy.

Can I be blamed for thinking I might need arg-nit since I have fear of narrow spaces, do not go into elevators as the thought of the elevator getting stuck in there with people is so panic provoking and I would just have to get out or fall unconscious from not being able to breath, and many other things I have in common with it. What could I do since you thought I am just making all this up?

6 days since arg-nit:

-body feels less numb again
-chest feels more normal, a feeling there, not heavy opression
- almost cleaned my room, but something still did hold me back from doing it, but I felt the desire for order again
- body dysmorphia is managable, still look in the mirror from time to time and the good feelings of seeing personality on my face are not here, not as was on platina. So it is not in a cured state.
- there was one day where I was serious,sad and had guilt feelings. but on the same day at the evening I was having fun and the joker in our house. Which immediately made me feel like all is well again. If I can be that way again there is nothing to worry about.


I dont know what to do now. Past the arg-nit. And it feels pretty depressing as there will be no certainty whether it is right or wrong. I like exactness

-Nose still seems big at times.
-less anxiety and my eyes feel more normal when I walk around buildings, corners or in the open, but when I see someone who looks at me I still freeze up and have to look away immediately. The restrictive movement, freezing or whatever it could be called. It feels like danger and I tense/freeze up more if I would keep looking so I have turn or look away quick. My feeling is That I just don't feel comfortable or open enough to be close.
[message edited by vitamin.X on Mon, 03 Oct 2011 05:23:31 BST]

Hmm arg-nit does not seem to change the core of my problem like platina did.

- I felt highly sexual on a few days while on arg-nit. Like today it happened again. As if paralyzed and weak from it just like in the past


Platina was all good and well. The deepest issues were improved greatly but the ones on the outside seemed to have aggravated: No real desire to go out of the house. THere was not this need to go out and face my fears daily. So a bit worried.


Wondering whether I should try lycopodium in a few days before returning to platina if nothing else works.

-I had a stinging, sharp pain at the top of my head every now and than for a second or 2 while on platina. Compared to the remedies that followed it I felt it only after waking up a few times on the scorpio remedy and same with arg-nit only once.
[message edited by vitamin.X on Mon, 03 Oct 2011 09:15:30 BST]

hmm someone came to my house and I met them at the entrance to our house as I was just to go for a walk. And no heart palpitations. But my dog barked on her so I had to control her. It created this uncomfortable situation where I dont know what to do. I feel I need to apologize but nothing gets out of my mouth and I fear I will embarass, humiliate myself. The woman looked at me as if what is wrong with me, as if she doesnt like me anymore by how strange I am. Than without any idea of what will happen I said I better go now and expected her to not understand me and I think she didnt as she didnt say anything back. Great feelings of humiliation of how unconfident, uncertain I acted. And than I walked down the street, felt like the woman dislikes me surely now based on how I didnt speak well etc. I had the thought of what people who saw me must think by appearing like a baby, as if I am exposed and they saw ME. Just when I walked away I expected to get the huge load of bad feelings but I felt kind of light this time. Hard to say whether it is from Platina or arg-nit. Before this event I felt really destructive at home and felt like wanting to pick on my nose but I didnt.

I am so lost on what to do. What remedy to take. Aurum suphuratom, Aurum muriaticum natronatum, Anarcadium, lycopodium, Platina, carcinosim or stay with arg-nit

Just horrible.
I do not think arg-nit is right as it did not address my deepest issue the BDD first and all else later as did Platina

I am in a suprisingly light mood after that situation which leaves me usually with bad, guilt feelings... but not knowing what remedy to take, whether it is right or not, so many choices of remedies and not enough time makes me feel horrible. Impossible to have any hope that it could be the right one. So I cannot take any remedy as I have no hope of it being right. Just another week wasted.

I didn’t even apologize to the woman, I couldn’t, I didn’t want to make it even more uncomfortable and humiliating as I am 95% sure in advance she wont understand that I apologised from my unclear speech

I made her uncomfortable from my horrible strange, afraid, unsure presence. No one wants to be around me.

And I look horrible, not physically but my behaviour, appearance in front of people etc.

What ******* remedy could I possibly need. I don’t know