Could any Dr. help me with fears of flying/heights? _{Page 13 of 33}

thanks drlkumar but i'm going to stick with sameers approach.

Hi Sameer,

My real period came today, some clots are present it seems. Didn't have cramps until later in the evening.
Feeling a little better mentally. I usually feel better after sleeping.
Shall I still wait till tuesday?

Jenny

Hi Sameer,

Overall doing a little better. I'm not sad like I was but I can tell I'm still afraid of dark and i sleep at night with TV on again. I get somewhat clingy still with bf. I want to give up coffee and energy drinks but i feel like they get me thru the day sometimes so i am a little down on days i dont drink them. Im not drinking them like crazy or anything but i like to have them every so often and i dont anymore.

physically i started working out again. just starting with gentle yoga in the morning and simple stretches and going to only do heavy cardio for like 20 mins about 3 times a week. i think this will not wear me out as badly.
acne is kind of how it was, its not terrible but still more than id like. my period is still going on, although i don't know whether to call it day 2 or day 4 or 5 because of the light bleeding the 3 days before it came. cramps come and go. the bumps on the arms are becoming less noticeable. not as itchy. still a little more sensitive to the cat and am hoping hayfever doesnt make me miserable this year for months on end again. sometimes losing hope that im ever gonna get better or even know whats going on with my body, and its not something i ever talk to anyone about anymore, at all. because theres nothing they can do about it so no sense talking about it.

overall kinda sad but putting up a good front that im ok.

thanks,
jenny

actually, overall very sad but not really wanting to admit it because i thought i was getting better.

jenny

Hi Sameer,

Since LM2 dose not a whole lot of change. I still have some eczema i noticed on my inner arm near elbow. my eyes have been itchier especially when around the cat. teeth have been more sensitive when brushing.

i went on a light fast the last couple days because my sweets cravings have come back quite intensely. i was getting to the point of wanting something sweet after every meal or just for every meal. i still have strong cravings. this was less when on puls.

overall in a better mood. my period went away. seemed to last longer than usual this month. with the light spotting it was a week total, 4 days of moderate flow.

even though i'm happier and a little more easy going, i still get down sometimes. the only thing that gets me down lately is i've been feeling like although the homeopathy is working, its been taking so long and i still have persistent back discomfort. i guess i wonder if i've had this pain for 8 years how long will it take to reverse it. i wonder am i doing everything the right way. i know these things take time and i am overall happier in general and more accepting of my situation. it just gets hard sometimes not knowing why i have these health problems and if they will ever go away.
I heard this lady yesterday talk about how she took this amazing product and within days her fibromyalgia pain was dissipating and her sinus congestion and allergies were getting better, and while at first it made me want to try it, i think almost nothing will reverse this for me. plus...the way she described it it sounded like a homeopathic blend to some extent because she said she had returning symptoms before feeling better. but still, made me kind of sad for 2 seconds. and i said to myself what i always say to myself, 'thats them and they are not me, maybe something will work for me too one day.' since last year when i started homeopathics with you, i am a lot less sad for myself, a lot less angry at others and myself, and much more appreciative for the good things in my life. thats a good thing. and, i must be determined to some extent because i keep putting my body and life thru these trial and errors, thinking something will work if i keep trying.

i feel like the money issue must still be an issue. i received a decent amount of inheritance recently. Not an insane amount of money, but i'm not insanely broke now either. its a cushion and i needed it. i have enough money to move out of the family's house and move elsewhere. i would like to go back to school and pursue massage and other certifications. but knowing me, i wonder if i will follow thru after graduation. i have a graphic design degree and im not really even doing that full time. i have all of these ideas that i want to do and start and pursue but i have no idea how to wisely put together a plan of attack. and when i start, i quickly find that 'all the money' i just got would be gone. so i hold off on any decisions.

sorry so long. this has been stuff on my mind for a little while since being back from my trip but didn't figure it to be of much importance.

thanks Sameer.

Hi Sameer,

started out just physically not great and trying to motivate myself to eat better and get back on a routine of working out. Just didnt seem to be working, i started feeling like i wanted more attention from bf and he didnt understand why because he thought he was giving me attention. i wanted consolation and i felt i wasnt getting it. i got frustrated cuz i asked and still didnt get any and then by the time the day was over he made me feel like it was all in my head and ive been depressed since then. i dont feel like eating and when i do its garbage fast food. i havent been goign to sleep till late. i haven't slept with the tv on at all just a dim light and i haven't been waking up. but i feel very misunderstood and not loved enough. but then i feel very unlovable also. im withdrawing from people close to me. cried yesterday and have been overall kind of weepy but never in front of anyone. physically acne got a bit worse. ive been having dull aches almost cramp like. i felt like i was gonna get another period but i must have just been ovulating because i had more discharge than usual for the last two days. eyes have been itchy and back has been bothering me a lot.
im just very sad and feeling alone.

my dreams involved the abusive ex boyfriend, except he was pleasant in this dream. an airport and flying except i dont remember being on the plane, only trying to arrange for the safest seat. nothing scary that i can remember in dreams.

thanks,
jenny

Hi Sameer,
Just letting you know i'm feeling a bit better mentally. still sleeping with tv off at night and dim light only with no problems. dreams are usually about something current. like i talked to an old friend yesterday and i had a dream about her mixed in with past stuff.
yesterday my skin was getting bumpy and itchy in the evening where my tattoo is on my wrist.

I was feeling very bad mentally about a lot of things. i think its brought to my attention that i need to care about myself even if i feel like other people don't. so i'm hoping i can start to do that at a comfortable pace.

Thanks Sameer,
Jenny

Thanks Sameer. Will report Monday. Already feeling better mentally but having pretty intense cramps like I'm having a period.

No problem Dr Abhishek.

Hi Sameer,
Feeling pretty good mentally, a bit stronger in the mind as far as confusion goes. I feel like I have a solid direction again even if I am still a bit undecided on exactly where i want to move to. I am not as clingy with boyfriend and am feeling ok with the alone time. maybe its because we had a long talk and things are clearer now. i am still sleeping with tv off and dim light only. skin is itchy with bumps in certain areas. the cramps went away. but it was feeling like i had my period they were very strong cramps. my back is just a bit sore and just trying to focusing on myself and not worrying about things.

can't think of anything else.
thank you hope all is well,
Jenny

oh, starting to sneeze a bit more yesterday around cat. not like last year though.

Hi Sameer, I hope all is well with you,

Mentally still doing pretty good. yesterday i got a little crabby but work has been so busy and all i have been doing is sitting and designing and typing. i like to move around and do things but sitting is most exhaustive for me and by the time i get home i dont even feel like exercising. (i plan to figure out how to set up my schedule to make this a necessity)

since last post,
i still sleep with 1 dim light on and no tv, i never wake up in the middle of the night at all. i have been getting to bed around 11ish on average and waking up at 7 or 8 (i'd like to get up at 6 but have been so tired i just sleep thru it.)

after showers i get very itchy red bumps that look like spider bites. they go away after a few hours of being wet. they are mostly all on my inner and outter upper arms. i get some spots other places but overall just on my arms.

face is just now starting to clear up a little. acne flaired up over this last dose.

body hair is either thinner or not growing as fast in unwanted areas. which is good in my opinion. it seems that when my hormones are balancing i experience this.

not sneezing as much around the cat even when i pick her up and hug her. also...i havent run into any major allergy symptoms with spring time arriving. hoping it stays that way. i think i reacted to ragweed in the past and im not sure if thats even 'up' yet.

my dreams are filled with somewhat recent events (the ones i can remember) usually always involving family members, present and ones that have passed on.

my back seems really extra tight its quite annoying. i kno it would be better if i exercised regular and drink more water.

thats all i can think of for now.
ordered LM3 and 4 and they shipped not too long ago.

thanks Sameer!

Jenny

I will continue to wait to report again when I have LM3...just wanted to record this dream as i haven't had one of these in quite a while.

I fell asleep as usual with dim light and no tv on and i left the window open.
I must have been dreaming shortly after going to sleep at 1130 because I awoke at 130 to let my cat out of the room as she was meowing.
i remember the dream i was having as being scary to me and having to do with spirits or ghosts or something like that. i had thought of either turning the tv on or calling my boyfriend but i picked up the phone and just closed my eyes and hoped i could fall back to sleep.

next, i woke up to my alarm at 6-ish and shut it off and went back to sleep.

from there, what i remember about my dream is that i was walking in las vegas by myself surrounded by people but it wasn't las vegas. there was alot of randomness that didnt seem to matter much, like a guy selling raw honey and a swarm of bees were around him so i got scared and ditched the honey i already bought. (i dont like bees in real life, never have, always run from them).

I met up with my cousin and a friend from work that i never hang out with and we were going to find somewhere to eat lunch. we were walking in new york city now, and i realized i didnt have shoes on. i thought that was dirty in case i stepped on some dirty needles or something so we stopped to try on shoes to buy.

somehow the dream changed from there, and i turned into a guy running away from someone that didnt want me around. i was running thru yards and jumping in pools and eventually climbing hills to elude whoever was chasing me.

then, i changed into 3 young kids. an older boy, a middle girl, and a younger boy. The same guy was trying to get rid of us so he guided us to a very rocky cliff with a bunch of unstable rocks. we thought he was trying to help us get away but he wanted us to die. the other person 'chasing' us saw this from a far and new we were in danger, he came to help us because he wanted information, not for us to die.

then, i changed back into an adult man and i was being questioned in a secluded room by this guy who helped save us. it was more like an interrogation with weird methods like turning the volume up in the earphones i was wearing to make me go deaf. i was stubborn and wouldnt budge. but then the guy got out a long stick and i knew immediately he was going to try to poke me in the stomach with it. he asked if i had ever been poked there and i shook my head no and covered my stomach to protect it because i most certainly new that it wouldnt feel good. the man didnt care and he hit me in the stomach with the end of the stick multiple times, it wasnt even that hard it was more like a light jab and i couldn't handle it.

i broke down and took to the floor huddled up, turned my back to him and cried.

as soon as i started crying, i turned into me-a girl. it was a very sad cry, one filled with so much pain it wasnt even a loud cry. the man who hit me there new thats what would happen.

thats when I woke up physically crying. and i continued to cry the same sad cry until i went back to sleep. i knew it was just a dream, and I am not sure what i was really crying about, but it was emotionally filled with much pain and sadness.

after going back to sleep again and waking up, i felt very different. i haven't woke up crying like this for a long time.

will report when LM3 gets here,
thanks.

I have LM3 and LM4 now. they came yesterday but never checked mail.

only difference is today i woke up with one side of my nose very clogged and its been runny on the clogged side all day. mostly left...alternated to right side once.

also, breasts are tender today. it's around day 22 of cycle.

alright, thank you!
Jenny

Hi Sameer,
I'm set to take LM3 today. I have been very argumentative and moody. i've picked fights with someone i dont even know personally and i told my bf to leave me alone until i feel better. i haven't cried about it, i just feel mad, and it seems like im pretty much acting kind of psychotic and i dont even care how its affecting my bf. i feel hes better off without me and i feel not suitable to be with any man right now. the situation with my bf has been stressful because we had been getting a long great but i want to move away and he doesnt want to. im mad at him for keeping me in limbo. feeling extremely angry without showing any emotion except yesterday when i picked a fight with a girl and him. i dont like being this way so id rather everyone leave me alone and not talk to me.

ps. i am not one to pick fights like this, verbal fights is as far as i go...i never get into fights with people stupid enough to physically fight over dumb reasons. and i knew she was the type of girl that would make physical threats for talking to her crazy but i didnt care about that either at the time. is the lm3 gonna make me even crazier because i can't tell if this is a good thing or not.